#schizophreniform

[v3rsi]

happy disability pride month for those with schizo-spec disorders!! you're wonderful and deserve the world!

[theoriginalcatfan]

Mental health advocates when someone has a disorder that is relatively harder to romanticize

[suicidalseraphim]

Psychosis feels like the line between your thoughts and experiences is thin, or nonexistent. You can't tell if it actually happened, or is happening, or if it's a delusion again.

Psychosis feels like not being able to trust if you're experiencing something "real"- even if it tangibly is by nonpsychotics.

Psychosis feels like something is "off" constantly- maybe in the air, maybe intrinsically within you -that other people don't notice.

Psychosis feels like everyone else has their shit together but you- and they're refusing to tell you how.

Psychosis feels like the entire way you view yourself is distorted. It feels like being disjointed, out of proportion, discoloured. Like a fever dream you can't understand.

-> Of course, this is based on our own experiences. Other people may not feel the same.

[anti-endo-schizospecs]

Hi! This is @anti-endo-schizospecs, a blog for anti-endos that are on the schizospectrum! Anyone on the schizospectrum is allowed to submit asks!!

Here, you are free to rant and talk about your symptoms and experiences! Ranting about pro-endos (& radqueers) is fine, but please try to keep it relevant to the blog! This is a space for and about schizospecs first and foremost!

You are allowed to bring up multiple disorders (whether it be physical, mental, or neurological) as long as it is also tied in to you and your schizospec experiences as well!

P.S., because people with psychotic disorders don't exactly have a space like this either, they ARE allowed to submit asks relating to their positive symptoms. They are not, however, allowed to call it schizo/schizospec/etc. because they are not. I will not be tagging those as schizospec posts and instead tag them as psychotic disorder posts.

Anon will almost always be on for those paranoid about their privacy here, but in cases where it ever needs to be turned off, start or end your ask with this emoji to tell me that your ask will be anonymous:

🖥️

Alternatively, you can just ask! I will screenshot and crop your ask to post it and delete your ask from my inbox when keeping you anon!

TAGGING SYSTEM:

ask post: #[💥] HALLO!!

not an ask: #[🌡] im a haker ooo

positive ask: [❤️] YAAY!

hate ask: #[💔] BOOO!

informational: #[🔥] we will make you proud!

rant/vent: #[🛑] INTUITIVA PERDITIONEM

positive symptoms: #[➕️] expro deserves pie

negative symptoms: #[➖️] i hate hakers!!!

ANON TAGS:

💫, 👁‍🗨♠️, 🌌🔭, 🍰, will add more when requested!

DNI LIST:

T.R.A.S.H.

pro-endo & adjacent labels

radqueers

NSFW / 18+ blogs

cluster B abuse believers

proship / darkship

Do not bring shipcourse into this blog. I am deeply uncomforted by it.

Ironically, despite the TCK theme, I do also ask you not bring them up either when talking to me. I will not speak of them in-depth (or pretty much at all) for both my safety and theirs. I hope you can understand!

I made this blog because I've noticed that many schizospec blogs end up being pro-endo or endo-neutral, and anti-endos didn't really have their own thing or feel safe using pro-endo/endo-neutral blogs. After seeing multiple anti-endos ask for a space like this (and me asking if this is what people wanted), here it is!

The c00lkidd theming is homage to some of my friends from the retired team, and if any of you ever see this, I appreciate you guys deeply. Thank you for being there for me. /gen

This blog is run by an EC-DID system, @calypsotrain, and we are on the schizospectrum.

Layout Credit

commissioned @ironmugfirehoagie for the intro post banner

[cytochrome-sea]

go my schizo spec scarabs:

the worst negative symptom of the five A’s is…

affect (blunt / flat affect)

avolition

anhedonia

alogia

asociality

Voting ended onFeb 19

what does worst mean? up to you, but i’m going with whatever causes me the most grief

i know there are other conditions that cause some of these symptoms but i only want to hear from schizospecs on this particular poll please and thank you

[toesuckler]

psychotic and cluster a-people: do you have sleep disturbance? if so, how?

Yes, i experience intrusive dreams or nightmares.

Yes, i experience a form of insomnia or fragmented sleep

Yes, i experience a form of hypersomnia or excessive daytime sleepiness.

Yes, i experience a form of parasomnia

Yes, i experience multiple of these.

Yes, i experience another unmentioned other form of sleep disturbance.

No, i do not experience sleep disturbance.

RESULTS

Voting ended onJul 12

THIS POLL IS FOR PSYCHOTIC AND CLUSTER A PEOPLE. IF YOU DO NOT FALL INTO THESE CATEGORIES, DO NOT VOTE.

[disturbed-ipseity]

I feel guilty to be a somewhat harmful stereotype of schizospec people, despite being myself schizospec.

I see many posts on here trying to fight against the received idea that schizospec people can't love, even in times of (quasi-)psychosis; which is great, and I heavily agree with the gist of it.

But for me, that is not true. I don't feel love; sexual, romantic, platonic, familial, animals and pets, even most objects... Every type of love that one can experience for another being, I am, at best, lacking of it.

It took me a while to acknowledge it, mainly because I am caring and warm towards others, even if I rarely feel it. Same with empathy, I have fluctuating/low/no emotional empathy; but I do have high cognitive empathy, high sympathy, and high compassion. I guess that it makes me mask all of it well... Another thing may be because I experience obsession and dependency, which may look like love, but isn't.

I guess that some people here relate to that, and some others that do, but that cannot mask that; whether it is by only being schizospec, or by other comorbid disorder(s). In any case, you are valid and matter as much as those who do love!!

I feel that this experience is just the opposite of: 《feeling (deep) love but being unable to care (, to even be unable to want to care)》 often seen in Cluster B PDs { AsPD-BPD-HPD-NPD]

[cha0tic-neutral-system]

Our Hallucigenic flag has become a flag for peple with Hallucinations

More under the cut

We’ve decided to repurpose it for general hallucinations, as there are many Hallucigenic flags and not any Hallucination flags from what I’ve found. We were also under the impression the term didn’t already exist when we made the flag, which was incorrect. I feel the switch to hallucinations still holds the intent and meaning of the flags for me too.

This flags can be used by anyone who experiences hallucinations of any kind, wether they are olfactory (smell) hallucinations, visual hallucinations, gustatory (taste) hallucinations, somatic (touch/feeling) hallucinations and/or auditory (sound) hallucinations.

This was made specifically for my qpp and we talked about changing the term used before doing so, but it doesn’t want to be tagged.