#forever 31

[memories-of-1d]

1 month since you left us, Payno💔

[trexalicious]

[hsonlyangelxo]

1993 - 2024 💔🥺

[prettystylinson]

i can’t believe it’s been a year. a whole year without liam. it feels strange to even write that sentence — like if i don’t say it out loud, maybe it won’t be true. but it is. a year since we lost someone who gave so much of himself to us, often more than the world ever gave back.

liam was such a steady force. he was the glue when things were messy, the voice that carried so much warmth even when he was exhausted, the kind of person who made you feel safe in a fandom that sometimes didn’t feel kind. i keep thinking about how much of our teenage years were shaped by him — that comforting, familiar tone in his voice, the way he always tried to make everyone laugh, how grounded he stayed even when everything around him was chaos.

and god, it hurts. it still does. i think we all expected time to make it easier, but grief doesn’t really fade, does it? it just changes shape. it becomes softer, quieter, but it’s still there, sitting beside us when his songs come on shuffle or when an old interview resurfaces and he laughs that laugh. the one that made the others laugh too.

liam deserved so much more love, more understanding, more peace. he gave us everything — his voice, his kindness, his effort, his heart — and we, in turn, loved him for all of it. no matter what.

his passing… as painful as it was, did something i never expected. it brought people together. it reminded us what it means to be part of this community — to share something bigger than ourselves. i’ve seen people reconnect after years apart, old blogs resurfacing, mutuals who hadn’t spoken in forever checking in on one another. the fandom lit up again, not in the chaotic way it sometimes used to, but in this soft, collective grief that somehow turned into love.

his name, his memory, reignited something in us. a reminder of why we cared so deeply in the first place — about the boys, the music, the story, each other. i’ve never seen the fandom so alive, so united, so gentle in their love for him. it’s heartbreaking that it took this to bring us back together, but i think liam would’ve loved to see it — to see how many hearts he touched, how many people still hold him close, how much light he still brings even after he’s gone.

he connected us in life, and somehow, he’s still doing it now.

thank you, liam. for being part of something that changed all of us, and for leaving behind a light that still shines a year later. we miss you every day.

[willmackshipper]

one year since liam’s passing🤍🕊️

[marijuanote]

I’ve been gone due to losing my best friend/ partner in crime/ my co parent partner/ my roommate 🥀 I’m still lost for words, I really fuckin miss you 😭 I know we weren’t together, but I’m still fuckin hurting you have no clue how it hurts when mya tells me you okay dad and I have to put a fake smile and say yes ma. She’s so much stronger than me, and that’s all due to you, you really raised her well. She keeps me going, I can easily go down a horrible path like when my dad passed. But I’m not this time, I know better now. Thanks to you I was able to kick that coke addiction, going on 3 years sober and counting 🫶🏼 don’t worry imma be sad for a bit, but you can count on me to take care of mya. 💚 till we meet again Lexie 💚🫶🏼

[wiseparadisedreamland]

I normally find it easy to express what I’m feeling, I’ve never found it hard to string together the right words. But I’ve spent days trying to write down what this day has me thinking and feeling and I’m still struggling. So please forgive my rambling.

Grief is a strange thing. You can never predict how it’s going to hit you. I’ve lost more people than I’d like to talk about over the years - family, friends, acquaintances. And it’s felt different every time. The one universal thing is that the grief doesn’t go away. It sits there in your chest until you grow around it and it becomes softer, the edges less jagged. And sometimes years down the line something will trigger it - a song, a scent, a place, a memory.

I’ve never been so impacted by the death of a public figure before, as I have been by Liam’s. It wasn’t because he was so young or that he was so cruelly taken from the world. I’ve followed public figures who died tragically young and I have memories of their deaths - Amy Winehouse, Charles Haddon, Anton Yelchin. None of them floored me in the way that losing Liam has. I still can’t put my finger on why that is.

Never have I wanted anything to be untrue in the way I wanted the news of Liam’s death to be untrue.

Liam lit up the lives of so many people over the years. He connected people across countries, continents, differing backgrounds, races, religions. He wanted to be kind to people, to love them, to help them. He had a beautiful voice and a beautiful soul. We didn’t tell him that enough. I wish we had.

I watched the sun come up this morning. I’m not normally up early enough for that, but I couldn’t sleep. It’s cloudy here, but you can still see the sky change colours. As the sky bled into reds and pinks and oranges I found myself talking to Liam.

“It’s been a whole year since we last breathed the same air as you. I can’t believe it. Are you there? Have you seen what your brothers have been doing? I’m so proud of them all, they’re all doing amazing things. Are you proud of them too? Did you know your sister talks to us? She’s keeping your legacy alive, even though I can’t imagine how hard it must be for her. How are your family doing, are you watching over them? Did you see how we all came back together? It was calm and quiet, it reminded us of why we were here in the first place. I wish it hadn’t taken this to do it. I’m sorry we can be so cruel to one another, to you, to your brothers. I wish I’d used my socials to send you love just one more time. I’m sorry I didn’t. I miss you.”

It’s not like I expected a response. But as I turned to go back inside, I felt it, like a breath on the wind. There was something there with me and it felt like it was saying “I’m here, I see you all, and you’re going to be alright.” And then the sun burnt through the clouds and for one brilliant moment lit up the sky.

Liam, thank you for everything you did for all of us over the years, for the light you brought to our worlds. Your memory still binds us together. It always will. We miss you every day. Fly high beautiful boy, we’ll see you in the clouds one day.

[saraloveslove]

"All the places we've been are changing and he is not here to change with them"