This is something new for me but I really want to highlight some of my fellow fic writers since I feel like there aren't many of us and I want to hype people up (thanks to @lugarn for encouraging me) <3! I'm going to attempt to do a post every month but that's likely too ambitious so maybe I'll stick with "whenever the mood strikes me".
Clairebell - Our Shoes Stitched From Songs About Heartache by @leet911
Affair - Toy by subbyyang
Friendly Rivalry - Darling, I Do Not Dream of Labor by livialima
Week 20: Tell us about the fic you wrote for the QL fandom that was the most fun to write!
And then tell us why it was fun! Was it something comedic? Or was it so much fun to put the characters through hell? Did you write it with someone else and had fun working together?
Writing takes a lot of effort and can sometimes feel slow and frustrating. So if you're a writer, take this prompt as your sign to take a moment and think about how much fun it can also be!
Rules: So post the first 3-5 (or as many as you want) QL shows that got you into the genre. Feel free to explain or give propaganda 😁
tagged by @suzteel - thank you for the tag, this was fun! these are the first 5 (coughsixcough) QL shows i ever watched.
1. Kinnporsche
i started watching kinnporsche a number of episodes into its run after witnessing dearest @fulltimehabibti fully losing her mind week after week and deciding to see what all the fuss was about. i knew about bl but hadn't seen any shows. little did i know i was about to have my brain completely rewired and be able to focus little else basically ever again. kinnporsche is brilliant, full stop. it is wild and sexy and funny. it's a family drama with guns. it's gothic horror and university bl and toxic yaoi and it is three different BLs crammed into one absolute epic. it launched my obsession not only with these characters and their story, but also with the entire genre it's a part of. i won't hear a single word against it. (unless the word is about the lack of women actually speaking and doing things. complain to me all you want about that. but only that.)
2. Love in the Air
meet sky and rain, my true intro to university bl boys (lmao to have this be my intro). i love these two to distraction. in fact, sky remains one of my top 10 favorite bl characters. i was inspired to watch lita after seeing a gif of rain and phayu licking each other and thinking holy shit wha?!?, alongside some kp fans adopting rascal semes prapai and phayu as the children of kinnporsche and vegaspete respectively. which i found both insane and pretty funny. i like insane and funny, so off i went. this show could easily be titled Kink Exploration for Beginners, the Series. Subtitled: A Little Dark Trauma to Frost the Cupcake. i enjoyed the hell out of my time here, and came away thinking huh. this could actually be a thing i want more of. kp might not have been a one-off. hmmm
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so next, i decided to find a show that seemed generally popular to really test whether this was a fandom i needed to dive deeper into. i saw a gif of the two cutest ladies i'd ever seen and thought, there's shows with girls too??? omg i gotta watch this one! and that show was
3. Bad Buddy (& Zero Photography)
before starting bb i had no clue about pran or pat or any of the rest of the boys in this show. i came here for inkpa and inkpa only. and then... lost my mind. this is quintessential university bl. this is shakespeare. this is drama and humor and agonizing heartache. patpran & inkpa lit me up like fireworks. this show is the one that cemented it: i had arrived. QL fandom was my fandom now.
4. Cutie Pie
watching cutie pie made me feel like i was thirteen again, sneaking my mom's danielle steel novels and reading them with rapt attention under the covers with a flashlight past my bedtime. it has a much different vibe than the first three shows i watched. i'm still not sure if i can really describe in a way others will understand why i loved this show. it was like eating sourpatch kids. it was like listening to my favorite mixtape. it was like having a car full of clowns pour into my living room and start hula hooping. there was a secret hideout. there was a lot of tongue kissing. there was poppy ratchapon in the funniest het romance ever portrayed on screen. there was zee pruk looking at nunew chawarin like he hung the sun the moon the stars and his shower curtain. it simultaneously took itself much too seriously but also with tongue in cheek. i don't know how it managed all of it, but it did. it was a singular experience.
5. The Eclipse
hoooo boy, this show. what to even say about the eclipse. this show went deep politically. it seized me by the throat. as i watched each episode my awe continued to grow at the talent of everyone involved in this project but especially first and khaotung. they stole my heart as actors in a way that no other koojin has yet managed quite to this extent. this show taught me so much about thai politics and culture (i started researching! any show that gets me researching is a cut above). i left with a hunger for more more more. if bad buddy convinced me ql fandom was worth joining, then the eclipse sat me down, everyone piled on top of me, and informed me i was not ever allowed to leave. akk and ayan, i will never forget you.
6. Not Me
TODDBLACK. THE END. ahem. i watched this immediately after the eclipse and in many ways i associate these two shows in my mind because of their strong political messages. however, i was so young in my bl-viewing life i did not yet understand about branded pairs. i saw gun and sing in these roles and was like offgun who? why aren't these two hate-fucking? they are clearly divorced and still in love with each other and they should be kissing and screaming and and and... i just did not understand. so yeah. not me taught me about unrequited longing as a viewer. which was a lesson i would need to remember over and over as i continued forward in bl fandom. (i have no hate for branded pairs. i find them pretty fun for the most part. it's just. it would be nice if sometimes? we asked someone else to dance? maybe? please? what i'm saying is if earth (and mix) and boom don't make out sloppy in ofdo i'll start crying like a sad little sunflower)
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these are my first QLs! i am now 103 shows in and counting. and though it all started in thailand i have since watched shows from taiwan, korea, japan, & china as well. it continues to be a wonderful, stimulating, fast paced experience being in this fandom.
no pressure tagging: @fulltimehabibti, @sawthefaeriequeen, @itsmelb
Bonus: Gap the Series
LET'S GO LESBIANS. i watched this simultaneously with not me, & freenbecky showed everyone that the girls can have it all too. the plot of this was not really my cup of tea but i did not care because it was such a good time. freenbecky are outstanding in every frame. watching it felt like i was witnessing the start of something incredible. and it was. it was my first full gl show with the boys only as side characters and i loved it. gap walked so a few years later clairebell could fly.
The idea that bls/gls are bad representation just cause it's messy, grey, imperfect queers and unhealthy relationships exist is my villain origin story.
News flash being queer IS messy, being human is messy. Hardly anything is ever perfect and that's life.
The messiness is more the truth for a lot of queer folks than it is not. It definitely is to me.
I'm imperfect, I've struggled with internalized queerphobia, or queerphobia in generaI fell in love with people who weren't good for me or "good people" period.
I think the term toxic gets thrown around way too quickly when it comes to queer media.
Not picture perfect≠toxic
Plus the queer experience or just life is so diverse and uniquely yours. What you might deem toxic is something another person can relate to and vice versa. The judgement and holier than thou attitudes really should stop in queer fandom spaces.
🌸 THE BL/GL DISCORD HAS OFFICIALLY REACHED 100 MEMBERS! 🌸
I am humbled by the response to the server and how sweet the community has been! We can't wait to see what the future brings; how the server grows, what shows we can obsess over together, what creative projects we share with each other, etc.
Here's to an amazing, positive 2024 full of love and good shows!
(Haven't joined yet and want to? Click here for an invite!)
I also want to say a massive thank you to the mod and admin team, I really didn't expect the server to grow so quickly almost overnight and I'm so grateful for all of you that have joined me in this effort after I sent several frantic DMs, you guys are the best!
Hi! <3 You haven't been around much and I was wondering how things were going? Love your fics! Hope for updates soon ^_^
Hey, sorry for the late reply, I swear I wasn’t ignoring you ‘nonny. I’m glad you like my fics, that always brings me so much joy when I hear that ☺️
As for updates, sadly, I don’t think any will be happening sooner rather than later. I know it’s been months with nothing from me and I’ve almost completely stopped posting on Tumblr, honestly I think that’s because none of the currently airing shows interest me so I’m not really connecting with the fandoms current obsessions. I’m hoping that’ll change once the series I’m actually looking forward to start to air, but as right now, everything is very blasé.
I’ve also been dealing with a lot of stuff in my personal life, my mental health is not doing well, my family life is pretty chaotic and summer is just turning out to be a complete mess on the home front. I haven’t written in… well, months, if I’m being completely honest. It breaks my heart because I want to, but I just can’t. Like the spirit is willing, but the body is weak, ya know?
Anyway, sorry to info dump on ya, anon, that’s not what you wanted or asked for lol.
TLDR; Love that you love my fics. Things aren’t going great. No updates any time soon but hopefully in the future.
Gosta de escrever, ler e falar sobre histórias sáficas? Tem um servidor brasileiro perfeito pra você !! Ele é semi-fechado (pra garantir que as pessoas leiam as regras antes de interagir) e ainda está meio parado, mas espero que não demore muito para as pessoas começarem a aparecer por lá 💚
