#hypersexual vent

[oliversillyboi]

"get off your knees"

[real-hot-grl-shi]

I hate how people shame me for being hypersexual. I hate how people shame me for being honest about my feelings. I hate how people laugh in my face when I try to explain them. I hate how people hate me just because im like this. I hate how my actions always come first before I think. I hate how sexual I can be at the smallest things.

I hate how draining it can be just to hold myself back to not say anything. I hate how people go and "support" me for what im going through just to turn their backs on me when they see the hard truth. I hate having to change how I act around people just for them to like me. I hate how draining it is just to go a day without putting my hands on my body. I hate how hard it is to keep composure and not let my thoughts spill.

I hate how I look in the mirror and know that im at the end of the day im a sexual slut with 0 control over my body. I hate being hypersexual.

[almostpsyche]

the reality of hypersexuality

people romanticize hypersexuality because the reality is so much harder to live with.

i have spent more money on new bedsheets and underwear, cleaning supplies, laundry, heat pads and painkillers than actual hobbies and school supplies.

fun fact: i got kicked out of uni for my hypersexuality and sh addiction.

i fell so far down the rabbit hole that the only way out was through not being alive anymore where i went into a week long medically induced coma.

the moment my phone was returned to me after regaining cognition and mobility, i went to check how much money i had left in my bank account so i could calculate how many months of subscription i could afford. i was stalking the creator's socials, refreshing his website and soundgasm multiple times in a single hour with ivs still in my body. i shit you not, the only thing that prevented me from relapsing was the fact i had a catheter in me.

the night i got discharged i relapsed which is surreal because i was literally brought back from the dead but still dealt with urges.

the people who pushed you to your limits will leave because your pain is no longer consumable. it's easy to romanticize and sexualize when it's not your life on the line.

[doeeyeddecay]

I wish I could feel love like a normal person tbh

i hate what I do to feel cared about

[tr1ckstarp3rdit1on]

i did this to myself. it's my fault. I was able to stop it but I didn't. I made myself impure.

[hiimclover67]

How " i want hypersexual ! ~›-‹~ " mfs when i tell them that i cant look at people bcuz i imagineing them in sexually stuff and i feel disgusted abt myself bcuz of it

[sleepymeowzidol]

Lemon's attempt to explain her sexuality: The Essay...

Lemon adores women, women are perfect

Lemon loves most men, men aren't perfect but Lemon's type in men is odd

Lemon doesn't actually care what your gender is

Lemon thinks about being intimate a lot

Lemon does not find naked people attractive,, lemon finds humans in clothing hotter

Lemon likes tits and looking at dicks

Lemon feels grossed out by that sentence

Lemon really likes the thought of sex

Actual sex disappointed lemon

Lemon did only do it twice so maybe she just had a bad experience

Lemon likes porn

Lemon hates porn

Lemon wants to date someone

Lemon doesn't want to deal with dating people, she will get drained

Lemon wants to date multiple people and go on dates together

Lemon is comfortable being alone

Lemon wants to talk every single minute of the day

Lemon will ignore you for hours

Lemon doesn't enjoy kissing for hours

Lemon likes kissing for short/medium lengths of time

Lemon likes cuddling

Lemon hates being touched

Lemon might be a toxic girlfriend

Lemon would be desperate for your attention

Makes sense right pookies ?? Pookies tell lemon she isn't actually insane..

[melfresita-ruri2]

my hypersexuality does not discriminate and it genuinely makes my life miserable. you can be a stranger walking past me but if i consider you even in the slightest attractive i already know my brain is going to create nasty shit about you and i. i don’t think ive experienced this type of behavior towards very close friends but it does and can happen with anyone i see. i fucking hate it because it’s toxic and disgusting. no matter who you are or what you look like, my brain has saved a small piece of perverted thoughts that came to me when i saw you.

i feel horrible just thinking about it.