#hypersexuality vent

[almostpsyche]

the reality of hypersexuality

people romanticize hypersexuality because the reality is so much harder to live with.

i have spent more money on new bedsheets and underwear, cleaning supplies, laundry, heat pads and painkillers than actual hobbies and school supplies.

fun fact: i got kicked out of uni for my hypersexuality and sh addiction.

i fell so far down the rabbit hole that the only way out was through not being alive anymore where i went into a week long medically induced coma.

the moment my phone was returned to me after regaining cognition and mobility, i went to check how much money i had left in my bank account so i could calculate how many months of subscription i could afford. i was stalking the creator's socials, refreshing his website and soundgasm multiple times in a single hour with ivs still in my body. i shit you not, the only thing that prevented me from relapsing was the fact i had a catheter in me.

the night i got discharged i relapsed which is surreal because i was literally brought back from the dead but still dealt with urges.

the people who pushed you to your limits will leave because your pain is no longer consumable. it's easy to romanticize and sexualize when it's not your life on the line.

[roxy4life2]

Hypersexuality vent

(Please understand I'm trying to cope with it do not send me sexual asks after this...)

My hypersexuality is causing my withdraws...

I don't want to masturbate but the urges are bad, and i don't want to touch myself... I don't want to think about anyone... I don't want to touch myself to will or anyone.. I feel disgusting and shameful.. I'm gross and filthy..

[blackring-collective]

vent

if you follow me for my agere content this is NOT the post for you. all of my agere content has been moved to sideblogs @bunniesdancingunderthestars and @sunnee-dayze this is a post about sex addiction and is not for little eyes

tw: talk about sex and sex adjacent activities, mention of addiction

New years resolution was to stop masturbating and welp

That failed

Surprised I made it as long as i did but im trying to QUIT

Im not even addicted to porn im just addicted to getting off ive never watched porn just used my imagination and the internet for my very weird kinks

All the resources ive found are for men addicted to porn, nothing for teenage girls who've been getting off to altered mental status type media (mainly sleep deprivation whump stuff) since age 12 to cope with being yelled at too much to the point they cant go for more than two weeks without it

At least I can admit i have a problem but if anybody knows ANY resources for me please

[an-entity-of-some-kind]

hypersexuality vent

I really hate being hypersexual

I don’t want to think about everyone and everything sexually

I don’t want to touch myself

I don’t want to look at that

I don’t want to read that

I don’t want to watch that

but it HURTS SO FUCKING BAD

and everyone else is like “oh just stop it already wierdo” but they’ve never been in bed sobbing and whispering to themselves to stop and that it hurts and to just please please please fucking stop it

I wish I could go back and tell younger me to stay away from that fucking cousin

[suicidalseraphim]

"hypersexuality isn't real it's just a societal taboo of natural sexual desires!!"

no. hypersexuality is very much a real mental condition.

I get sexual thoughts that distract me from work and things I enjoy doing. my brain loops and obsesses around thoughts about sex and masturbation so much it can suddenly pop up mid conversation. this isn't the same as an "intrusive thought"- I GENUINELY want to act on them to a degree and the only reason I don't is due to social inappropriateness.

it's definitely true that some people labelled hypersexual are just "normal" people with high libido, and that's okay. but to assume EVERYONE who identifies as hypersexual is someone who JUST has a high libido (which is PART of the condition- but the main part is it causes impairment in some form) and is "shamed" by the people around them into thinking it's disgusting, would be completely false and dismissive of real experiences.

[forget-me-not-automaton]

Edgy vent poetry abt hypersexuality guilt,,,

I know that I disgust you, and you have every right,

I must appear as sludge or melting slime to your eyes.

My receptors are shot and my instincts are engorged, I return to the obscene as if it were my home.

I know that I’m a sinner and I know that I’m a perv, and I’ve never liked it any more than you,

But please have mercy on me, don’t tell me that I’m bad. I promise that I’m more than just some sick, horrendous goo.

….That little boy I was didn’t ask to see those pictures.

[imalittlefreakyyy]

vent

tw: hypersexuality

I genuinely hate it so much when I get into one of my 'moods'. There is no worse feeling than being a slave to my own desires. There are times when I'd literally rather die than even think about doing stuff like that (which isn't helped by the fact that I'm asexual) but it's literally all I can think about.

It's gotten so bad to the point that its actually fucking with my life, like making it even harder to focus and interact with people. I can barely handle literally any kind of physical touch because I'm so disgusted with myself and I don't wanna give myself ideas.

I end up obsessing over the smallest things, like looking at people's wrists or lips or stuff like that and I feel like such a creep and I try to stop but it never words and I just end up hating myself more.

And then the only thing I can do when I get in a 'mood', like, the only thing that actually does anything and makes it go away is just indulging myself, which can take away hours of my life per day. I'd rather spend my time doing almost anything else, but I can't because then I wouldn't be able to focus or be productive at all. I just hate this so much.

[bpdincubus]

Google how do I make someone so obsessed with my body they forget I'm a human being