#i rambled again

[clover-j-aspen]

Something pretty depressing I realized about Filipino society today is how much it echoes the systems the original colonisers (Spaniards) put in place once they took over.

I wanna shed light on how 'social class' is reminiscent of the old sorting system for Filipino Natives and Spanish Colonisers back in the day and how it ties into how connected one is to Filipino culture.

Peninsulares are the highest of class and they are Spaniards born in Spain, Insulares are Spaniards born in the Philippines. They're sort of the 'upper class' people, generally have ties to power and other stuff since well ye I guess. They're also not the most connected to our culture simply because of the way foreign stuff is seen as 'cooler' here. (This part might be a bit more messy and rambly, sori).

There are Principalia who are basically nobility, they have power and influence.

Next are the Mestizos, mixed people. I've noticed how people who look more mixed get treated differently based off mix, the lighter skin the more opportunities for model work n such which sucks and is kinda racist. Ofc they're not as connected to the culture since they are mixed but still

Then Illustrados, basically educated Filipinos. They resemble the middle class today more. They're much more connected to the culture due to being Filipino but have deviated away because they are allowed to mingle with other people and cultures.

Lastly are Indios, pure Pinoys who are discriminated against just because they're Natives. They're not really allowed to intermingle and are more isolated. They're the most connected to Filipino culture cause yes, they're natives. Like how most lower class families tend to carry more of the traditions and practices we have.

The thing that changed is mostly removing the stuff that involves foreigners and putting the upper-class Filipinos in their place.

[keischreiber]

I don't think it's too far-fetched to assume that for Reiner, love is conditional. (At first, at least)

And he would need someone who actually loves him with no strings attached to show him that love doesn't come with superficial conditions.

Because for the longest time, Reiner has been running after the most basic form of love that he can get as a human being... which is the acceptance and love of his parent(s). He goes through so much lengths just to prove that he is worth their acceptance, goes through so much pains just to prove that he is someone that they can be proud to call their son. The condition to be loved? Becoming a hero.

He's so enamored with the concept of kindness, that when he feels like someone gives it to him, he falls head over heels for that person. When does he experience this? When Krista tends to his wounds, showing so much concern that she even ripped part of her skirt just to help him. The condition to be loved? Getting hurt.

Reiner has been surrounded by people who hardly cared about him unless he does something worthy of their attention, that he literally cannot see the value in forgiving himself; or in being redeemed. It shows in the last chapters where he was bracing himself for rejection for losing the Armor. He was so ready to accept that he's nothing but a disappointment without it; that his mother wouldn't love him any more... because for so long, having it and becoming an Honorary Marleyan were the requirements that he met for receiving what little love and recognition that he actually got.

And even those, he learned were things that shouldn't have been for him to begin with.

Reiner does so much to prove himself; does so much just to earn what little he can keep.

And I think he needs a person to genuinely just want him. Not for anything like being the Armor, or an honorary Marleyan. Not for being a hero, or a warrior. But just for being himself. True enough, being a soldier and being a warrior, being the Armor has become part of who he is... but sometimes, I can't help but wonder... if he ever thinks him without all of this, is enough. Or does he still need to become more than what he is after all is said and done, just to be accepted and loved by those around him.

I feel like Reiner is the type who will over exert himself to make not just his partner, but those around him happy. He's going to overcompensate because that's how it's been for so long. It's very toxic and draining to him. And he's probably going to panic and be frantic if he accidentally hurts the person that he's chosen to be with. And he does have moments where he's not so gentle; where he gets angry, where he explodes. When it gets too much, he's going to be the one to take all the blame to make it easier for everyone.

He needs healthy relationships that allow him to just be himself where he can see that who he was before, and who he is now... who he becomes in the future is a person that is accepted and cared for. Reiner isn't the type to make excuses for himself when he realized the truth; so he doesn't expect the people around him to patronize him or make excuses for him either. He needs people to be with him in the moment, so that he doesn't slip and forget that he as he is now, is enough and worthy of love.

[misc-obeyme]

I was playing season 3 lessons where mc, satan and mc got in the past. And simeon's answer to 'do you have someone you like' question always made me feel so unanswered. Like he says he doesnt have someone like that in that meantime. But i cant imagine a writer who writes about love without living it (yk like writing tsl's with wifes etc.) So i was wondering, what is your thoughts on simeons past lovers?

Well, first of all, as a writer, I can tell you that it's perfectly possible to write about something without having lived it. Especially something like love. What love actually is can be defined differently for every person. But it's a concept that is heavily ingrained in the world around us. Even if you've only ever felt platonic or familial love, you know what romantic love is and what it looks like. Not only is it something that we all see around us all the time, it's an integral part to so many classic stories in the world. I can't imagine that Simeon has never read about it or heard about it or doesn't know enough about it to write it accurately.

That being said, I never really considered Simeon's past relationships. Or if I have, I don't remember what I thought about it originally lol.

I think it depends somewhat on how that sort of thing works in the Celestial Realm. The CR in general seems to be pretty strict about a lot of things. Does this mean relationships among angels are forbidden? Possibly. But that's not clarified in canon, so really we can come up with whatever we want.

And I prefer the idea that the CR wouldn't forbid love of any kind. (Except between angels and humans, which IS canon.) And out of all the seraphim from back in the day, before the war, Simeon seemed like the least strict and workaholic of them all.

So while I don't think I have any concrete ideas on whether or not he's loved in the past, I do think you could have it go either way.

I mean in that I could easily see Simeon having relationships with other angels before he goes to the Devildom. He doesn't really strike me as the fling type, so I could see him having some serious relationships here and there. But I also don't think it's something he would do a lot, so likely there would only be a few of them.

However, I think if you wanted to headcanon that he didn't have any at all until he met MC, I think that's perfectly reasonable.

[2k4bts]

The rap line had already put out mixtapes and have been working on their own music since debut. The have the experience of presenting themselves in solo work outside of BTS (not solo songs in BTS albums or the occasional fan song, full mixtapes representing who they are outside the group). You can't expect them to have the same approach to that solo era as the maknae line.

Also, ironically, the rap line had less pressure to do numbers, to become the MJ/JT out of the group, as the eager maknae line solos wanted for their fave. Hybe studies the numbers always and you could see rap line gets less engagement (solo focused fancams, ect.... ). Saying they are favored by the company is a reach. JK got the push from the company, not the rap line. Tae and Jimin either didn't want the conditions for that push, or Hybe decided they could only push one and chose JK. We will probably never know.

Saying hybe favoured the rapline isnt a reach though lol. The first sentences are proof of that. There's even an article that called the rapline "the pillars" and the maknae line "just the visuals" or something along the lines. So no, it wasnt a reach. The had most things available to them and at their disposal. They had a chance to experiment and find their sound and basically do what they felt they needed to do. Collab here collab there collab everwhere. How long did it take before jungkook got a studio for himself. Jimin still aint got one, he's still making beats on his tablet lmao.

It probably started changing when they realised the odds with them versus the maknae line were great. And that is where jungkook starts to come in. Jimin is not a pushover, neither is tae in some forms. Bad as is it, jungkook seems to be the one that has his head on his shoulder the least. Plus, he's young, hyper, knows social media and how to use it and he's popular. Bingo, the money is there. But saying jimin and tae might've not wanted hybes push is not entirely false.

For instance, like I've probably said before, jimin wanted a music video for each of his songs on his album. He was told no. Which is weird asf since jungkook got so many. But that's where the push comes in.

The push so far has been nothing but controversial despite it's achievements, now you look at that and wonder "can i see jimin or tae being apart of this?" Honestly no. So while they might've not wanted the circumstances that came with the push, they obviously wanted support. But hybe is probably like "hey, you dont want everything that comes with it we cant push you." But they probably didnt expect them to do so well. Which comes next is "sabotage".

Which for some reason people thing is beyond hybe...

But we've talked about that already so...meh

[emee-ems]

Spoilers for Derision [This is really just my take on the episode.]

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I realized that the issue with Kim and why he didn’t see a problem with his actions is because of intent.

Example: Person A says something that ends up hurting Person B’s feelings. Since Person A didn’t intend for their remark to have that effect, there’s really no issue, despite how Person B feels. Person A just thinks that Person B is overreacting. This invalidates Person B’s feelings.

[I knew someone like this: he’d never see himself as doing/saying anything wrong because it wasn’t his intention to make me feel a certain way; meanwhile I’m trying to say that regardless of your intent, I still feel this way because of it. We’d go in circles and I would always end up so mad.]

Plenty of people unintentionally hurt other peoples’ feelings (and unintentionally cause akumas) but this instance stands out to me the most.

In Kim’s mind, he was just playing a prank; his intentions were to do something funny. By thinking otherwise, he sees it as people just aren’t getting the joke; that those people just need to lighten up. A prank isn’t a big deal so a person shouldn’t make a big deal out of it.

He also doesn’t ever seem to think before he acts/speaks. That’s nothing new. In Origins, Kim was shown to be immature and constantly pulled pranks on people (in Timebreaker they called them dares). He was the cause of the first akuma. The events in Derision happened a year before Origins so his [increased] immaturity makes sense.

I don’t really see his character being assassinated here since:

1) his terrible actions happened a year ago. It’s not the current him who did these actions...just the current him who didn’t understand what he actually ended up doing to Marinette in the long run.

2) he’s shown at the end to learn that, regardless of his intentions, his actions can have lasting effects. He obviously never gave it much thought, especially since Marinette was okay with him afterwards (since she repressed that specific memory relating to him).

His ability to learn and feel remorseful and apologetic makes me not hate him. I was disappointed in him though. He does, however, really need to make it up to Ondine for that one comment. She’s way more forgiving than me.

Also gonna add onto this one more thing concerning Marinette: why did this particular episode bring up this repressed memory when she has been shown at the pool before? I think it’s due to a few things.

1) In Mr. Pigeon 72, Marinette goes to the pool with Kagami to try and get her back together with Adrien. Her focus was on Kagami more so than the place they were in.

2) It wasn’t just the pool that brought up the memory. There were multiple factors other than the setting that matched the events of the memory. In both situations, she was going to the pool for a first date with a guy she liked. It felt like she was repeating a day without even realizing it; her body did though.

This turned out pretty long. I hope I was able to articulate my thoughts properly.

[sui-imi]

Can creators/aspiring creators join the UnderNet Prtocol?

hmm... that's a good question!

I'm going to say that if creators find the code for it, they can observe, but they cannot directly interact with it. let's say it's... a compatibility issue...? (we're too four dimensional? haha i don't know)

I think it's best if it stays as an in-multiverse thing, if that makes sense. (also if Admin knew that creators could use it, he'd lose his mind and start annoying each one hahaha)

edit: this also means that creators can't look at/order through UnderEats... i'm sorry 😔 (but you can get your ocs to get some for you)

[penname-artist]

So

So I have a thing I'd like to discuss.

This is one of those things where I was rooting around, found some weird shit, and now I'm just. Now I need to have this discussion. Are we ready for this discussion? I'm not really sure if we're ready for it, but we are going to have it.

This is a thing about some folk's pinned "about me" posts, which I totally understand having, but only to a certain extent. That extent ends at the point where people, however unintentionally, begin to police other people. And I've just gotta add my two cents to this matter.

A disclaimer before I piss people off: no, I am not encouraging any person to go out and say or do things against people who may do this. Everyone is entitled to have their own opinion or way of doing something, and regardless of intention there is no excuse on this earth to justify bullying or harassing an individual. I am not saying this to call out anyone, merely the concept at hand in which some may find themselves or people around them to use. In Tumblr specifically, this is far from an uncommon thing, so again I will clarify: I am labelling and observing a possible problem, not judging a person specifically. This is not meant to be taken personally or vengefully. And if it is taken as such, you are more than welcome to leave this post alone and keep scrolling.

Are we ready to discuss this now? Okay. We need to talk about this.

"Other people's opinions are not your place to control." Because of this fact, I am struggling to understand why some individuals choose to have long and oddly specific lists of DNI (or "do not interact") asking for specific groups of people to not be near them, when this - just in and of itself - serves no functional purpose whatsoever.

Some DNI things, yes, I get that. If you are there for a specific thing (let's say, hats), you probably don't want people to come into your space with other or unrelated things (like, the strawberry market), or especially things you find hurtful (like the pointy sticks club). No one wants to be harassed or bullied over something they enjoy.

However, there is a big difference between asking that people not leave you specific things, and demanding that other people step around your barriers.

If your first thought in response to that was "but people should RESPECT my boundaries!", Yes, but, you must understand: people can respect boundaries, when they misstep and you ask them to please mind the signs, but you cannot blatantly tell people what to do and what not to do, especially in a space that is open to the public.

What other people do, ultimately, is none of your business. It is not your responsibility. Do you know what IS your responsibility? What YOU do, how you respond - or don't respond - and your decisions are entirely yours to control.

This is why I struggle to understand particularly lengthy DNI listings. This does not serve any beneficial purpose of the user. This only informs a viewer - a person capable of making the decision for themselves whether to 'comply' or not. And that's just the thing. Any person, especially the people most say not to interact with them, do not care. Nothing is physically stopping them from existing near you, following, favoriting, etc. Don't want racist people? Guess what, most racist people don't even consider themselves to be racist, and even if they do, they don't give a rat's ass about your warning. It will not phase them. Worse, the more you scream "I do not want racist people", the more people will question your exact definitions of racism, and either A. Walk away feeling skeptical, or B. Challenge your position, in an often not so friendly manner.

There are exceptions. Some DNI warnings I do understand. Nothing in this world is ever truly black or white, and there are some key instances where DNI labels can be beneficial, for example an adult-oriented blog warning people under the age of eighteen not to engage, or a specific kind of shipper who would prefer not to involve themselves with 'fandom politics' as they would prefer to mind their own business and not be exhausted by heated debate. These may be in place for important legal reasons, or personal preferences which may just not be what a person is interested in. If I liked oranges, I sure don't know if I would want to have lengthy discussions about limes when I just came here for oranges.

I do get some of these things. But there are understandable zones, and there are less understandable zones, in a spectrum of subjective scale. Asking people to complete a checklist in order to interact with you may be considered quite a bit excessive, and unfortunately, also attracts the very thing it seeks to deter. Do not seek to be the kid with the piece of paper on his back that reads "DON'T BE MEAN TO ME" who is still bullied often, when you could be the kid who goes about his day, and when confronted with a painful jab, asks the person to please stop. This is the difference between a mature adult in control of their actions, and an immature tattle-tale who only wishes to gratify himself by making others favor him.

Taking control of yourself first is an extremely powerful tool of self-regulation - and self-love. You are better than this bad question about grapefruit - and you have the power to delete that. Just trying to control the rules of the world around you without putting in your effort to clean your own actions is a clear sign you yourself are not in control.

And by all means, take this from someone who has to be reminded of these things regularly. As someone with post-traumatic stress disorder for the last three years, I have had to slowly and painfully master the ways of controlling my own environment, as opposed to telling the environment how to be around me. I have been using filter tags which pick up many things that I would otherwise scroll right into and have flashbacks and panic attacks over. This is not something I ask other people to do for me, I don't expect people to bend over backwards for my triggers towards oddly specific things. If it happens, I am sure it is an accident. If it is not an accident, I have the power to block and remove them without needing to cause a ruckus. That is my own priority, and if they bring it to me, it is my priority to choose to step away from it.

Somewhere down the road, people are just going to be mean. Expect that. It's one of the many aspects of the world. Life is going to be mean. We can either choose to sit in learned helplessness, dictating the leaves drifting past us for wandering too close, or we can create our own ways of dealing with it, by getting up and making the change we need to feel safer and happier. I know the latter requires more work. But having a sliver of control and confidence in yourself is the key to becoming the greatest self possible.

[sterkeyra]

Tsugaru's Jealousy over Noa

In case you read Tsugaru’s POV’s you know just how much of a jealous raging beast Tsugaru is. He’s even raging in bigger fonts mentally xD Usually Goto or the other instructors are victim to the green beast of his, but have you considered that he might be jealous over Noa as well?

Noa is the child that he takes care of together with MC. The one thing that connects both of them on a deeper level, is that they both strive to have a family of their own. Noa wishes to have parents since he never had them as a genetically engineered child. Tsugaru in comparison lost his family as a child, and while his deepest wish is to have family, it’s also his greatest fear. He wouldn’t be able to cope with losing them again.

Set side by side, Noa knows exactly what he wants and takes the initiative to get it. He reaches out to the persons he wants in his life with childish innocence... and ends up charming the persons Tsugaru is close to.

Momo

Tsugaru is rather proud of the loyal dog that Momo is to him. So loyal that he barely talks to others and growls at anyone that gets in Tsugaru's way and is not up the tree in 3 seconds.

Even though Momo keeps his distance from everyone beside Tsugaru, Noa manages to get close to him during their first encounters. He even gets to ride on his shoulders and gets away with giving Momo nicknames.

Speaking of Momo, Tsugarus gang is also quite fond of Noa, offering him sweets and vegetables - like he was already Tsugarus real child. Sometimes even taking Noas side over Tsugarus.

MC

Though MC rescued Noa from the laboratory, it's actually Noa that decided to follow her. He even demands for her to interrogate him and is quite open about what he wants her to be for him. He boldly calls her "Big Sister" or even "Mum". Noa holds her hand and even invites her to the kindergarten. Compared to that Tsugaru struggles to take the initiative and uses rather ambiguous means to show his feelings. In fact, he has yet to find a title for what he wants her to be in his life.

Shirogane

Shirogane, the Public Safetys Department chief, is the most important person in Tsugaru's life. There is noone he respects more, as Shirogane reached out his hand towards him in the past and adopted him. Tsugaru devoted his life to help Shirogane reaching his goals and would even give his life for him, if he had to. He wants Shirogane to be proud and wishes to be a family... yet it's been 20 years and he still struggles to call him dad. He has too much respect for the man.

Guess who's been able to adress Shirogane in a familial fashion? RIGHT, NOA. Noa has the balls to call Shirogane his grandpa. Shirogane - the scary department chief, everyone cowers in front of. Just because Tsugaru is Noas father figure and further Tsugaru's dad is naturally his gramps. It's even funnier that Shirogane doesn't even really object.

As shown in MS3's good ending, he is even looking forward to meet Noa again and Tsugaru comments, that he probably even likes being called Grandpa. Yet Tsugaru still cannot call him dad.

Haaaah this family. This gets even more apparent in Tsugaru's S4. Shirogane and Tsugaru never talk heart-to-heart, even though they really care for another. Tsugaru already has family, he just has yet to realize it.

Noa builds bridges

Tsugaru feels very relieved that Noa is able to acommodate to a normal life, even with his unnatural origins. Compared to Noa, he struggled much more to get used to the new lifestyle. After the incident, "normal" never existed for him ever again. While he feels relieved, that he finds friends and builds his own family, he cannot help but feel inferior too when he thinks of his own childhood.

Tsugaru never really initiated contacts or put effort into them. He just let others be close to him. So he also struggles to see how others feel for him, if they don't talk about it openly. Momo is probably the only one, that openly shows his affection towards Tsugaru. He tells him he's important, compliments him and makes sure to show how loyal he is at any chance he gets.

By Noa wriggling his way into Tsugarus life, he gets closer to MC and experiences the normalcy he has been searching for, but that seems out if reach. His deepest wish to have a family resurfaces from the depths.

By seeing Noa mingling with Shirogane, Tsugaru also notices more sides of the man, he wasn't aware of. Even the wishes Shirogane has for him. Tsugaru would never have known, that Shirogane wishes for him to have a family, if Noa wouldn't have nagged Tsugaru in front of him.

Even though Tsugaru envies Noa for his bold initiative, it also helps him heal.

Slowly, but surely this unnatural family constellation gets more honest and they grow closer and closer. It's a very beautiful depiction of family and I'm looking forward to see more of... "The Tsugarus"