The Holistic Hedonist

A blog about taking your power back through pleasure and finding the beauty in our inevitable pains. Just a friend reaching out to another friend. Love you!

[theholistichedonist]

grounding

here's how to ground

breathe

lol

feel into that feeling

and allow your body and brain to interact

breathe again

feeling clearer and more centered

if you wanna get really into it

close your eyes and imagine a giant tree trunk

coming out your butt

and feel your roots delving into the earth

when i breathe in i feel energy flowing up my body

breathing out i feel the energy downloading my cells

with unconditional love and clarity

mentally, physically and emotionally

love you

[int3rnvlfl0w]

[theholistichedonist]

finding myself

Finding my way

In a dark room

That I’ve neglected

Against my own wishes

 Feeling the pressure

Of dust collecting

Sorrow being the friend I need,

To open these boxes

 Rooting through the mess

I see myself

Laying broken

In surrender

 I pick her up

And hold her

Putting the pieces together

For the woman I’ve always been

 Underneath this dust

She shudders at the mess

As she takes my hand and puts it to her heart

The dust clears and the pieces align

 Who knew it would be so easy?

In this dark room

I face my shadow

And find myself

 How easy it is to stand in our own way

Searching everywhere for ourselves

Yet unable to sit in silence

And listen for the answer

 Where all the answers

To every unanswered question lie

Is right here

In the darkness inside

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Releasing the EGo

Seeing where my faults lie

Underneath the gravel

They used to haunt me

In every person I met

But now I know better

They are the pieces of me

The pieces that I was told nobody would accept

The wrongs and rights

That I spent my life working so hard to forget

Were there, all along

They are always there

More reliable than the people I keep

More real than the company I surround myself with

Pointing the finger in the wrong direction

Leaving the mirror and taking my bags

Running away

From what I thought was toxic

Only to find another mirror

Portraying the same picture

What’s wrong with me?

Am I even human?

I feel so separate from the rest

Isn’t unity a two way street?

What is underneath this gravel

That suffocates me

I sit in the silence

With the only things that have held on

Begging for something real

Tangible, Whole, Comforting, Accepting

Not realizing she’s right here

Why does she not feel good enough?

Why do I need more,

If I have been walking around like I am

Aren’t I just as much to blame

What is real and what are these nightmares?

What makes it so hard to look myself in the mirror?

Help me, I’m drowning in the faces

That I work so hard to upkeep

The fears I feel

Where do they come from?

The fear of someone leaving if they were to really know me

Get too close and I’ll hurt you

Because I’m full of shame for who I really am

If I’m forever searching for the darkness inside of me

Will I ever see the light

The fear of being abandoned is keeping me from everything I’ve ever wanted

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what do you want to learn about?

trying to find some grounding with my blog and wondering what you peeps are most interested in learning?

feeling into meditations, perhaps recording some of my own rather than just writing them

if this rings your bell like it has mine

i would LOVE to know what are some of the common emotions or hurdles you would like activations and downloads for

i am so appreciative for your input and am excited to hear what you would like..

i’m a giver lol

HH

[lil-reminders]

you are allowed to be proud of yourself for things that might seem small to other people.

[theholistichedonist]

Conformity vs Creation

with creation, what are we looking to create?

the ultimate question really.

it goes hand in hand with.. Who Am I?

life questions lol

who am i and what do i want to create with this life i am living on earth?

is it something we search for, or is it in the ultimate moment of surrender that this answer find its way to us?

what are different ways humans “create”

love you,

HH

[nikasholistic]

We live in a culture of manifestation. Everyone wants to manifest something. Everyone sets their intentions and hopes that the Universe will magically deliver their order. I mean, don’t get me wrong, this is the most beautiful knowledge, being aware that you are the creator of your reality. At the same time, you have to remember that you are the creator of your entire life, not only this one specific manifestation.

This is a common misconception when it comes to the law of attraction. Too often, people think that they can ‘use’ the law of attraction when they want to manifest something specific. The thing is, the law of attraction is constantly working, whether you’re aware of it or not. It’s a universal principle. You can’t switch off gravity, and by the same token, you can’t switch off the law of attraction. As long as there’s a thought connected to strong emotions, whether positive or negative, there’s a creation.

Your entire reality is always an exquisite reflection of your inner condition. In essence, you don’t necessarily attract what you want, but you always attract what you are a vibrational match to. That’s why the only way to manifest your desired outcome is to become the energy you want to attract. You have to create a vibrational blueprint for your manifestation.

✨IG: @nikasholistic✨

[theholistichedonist]

LOVE!!

[theholistichedonist]

living

day by day

what do you fill your days with?

i hope the answer is something that brings a smile to your face, 

and the feeling of an overfilling heart 

abundant

serendipitous happenstances

i send them to you 

i love you

HH

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Shadow Work Help

so i just thought of the best idea for forgiveness

to help us feel comfortable getting to know our shadow side

write down your regerts

everything that you carry around - responsibility for a negative situation, reactions from childhood, feelings hurt, any thing that comes to mind from the past that you are holding on to, and remember that memory

feel into it

and then you write

i am sorry i forgive you i love you thank you

and feeling the amazing warm energy rush over your body

cleansing and clearing you of all resentment, anger, shame and guilt

and allowing you the power to keep on truckin 

and then burn the fucken thing

thank you, it is done

empowered

lol

HH

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Anger.. and how to deal with it

i have been fucking angry AF lately

and have also found out that:

ANGER IS A SECONDARY EMOTION

there is actually something lurking underneath that creates a feeling of lack and loss where our needs are not being met either by ourselves or by someone else

so...

I’m feeling the push to release 

release what i ask?

all the fucking stupid shit people do that pisses me off?

id much rather fucking oust the idiots that fucking started my rage rant 

but i know that isnt the case either

well, here i am to save the day

here’s some fucking tools and affirmations that will help you when you’re in a fit of rage

first off - scream the word “FUCK” as loud as you can at the top of your lungs and fucking let it out baby

if you are mad at someone, honestly the best revenge is to just let them fucking wallow

that rarely works for me, i always feel that they need to fucking know why i’m mad and why they’re an idiot lol

but... take your power back baby and realize that this is all internal

if they piss you off letting them stew and sit with themselves will be just as beneficial to you to either plan out your next session, or to plan your escape and say sayanara loser i’m out

so just walk away quietly (it’s scary) 

3. and when you are around a pillow you fucking take that pillow and i want you to fucking wrestle that motherfucker until you are blue in the face

fucking bash it on some bare walls and have a blast imagining your opponents head as the pillow and just fucking rage babe

4. another good one i like is to write a letter

if you are really as mad as you think you are you write that cocksucker a fucking letter and you go HAM on their ego

reread it, and then take that fucker and burn it

the burning will release your anger ( lol )

no it won’t

because you see ANGER is a secondary emotion. so when we release the emotion that is covering up the REAL issue

so you ask me:

well what if i’m so fucking angry that i can’t even tell what is underneath it?

well my friend, that’s where we use the emotion code chart

our subconscious mind is what runs our lives

it’s smarter than we are consciously lol

so you get that emotion code chart and you muscle test the shit out of all the emotions you are feeling

lol in light of all this shadow work we are embarking on

you remember that i love you

(have fun raging, it’s not a bad thing and we should feel no shame in expressing our anger)

now as i promised

here’s some fucking great affirmations to blow off some steam when you have it coming out of every pore of your body

i release all embodied anger!

i am a ray of beautiful light and fucking magnificence

i am free of anger

everytime i release anger i make room for amazing fucking greatness

i have the power to regulate my emotions

i know how to assert myself kindly, damnit

i feel angry, but this too shall pass! (in your best Gandolf voice)

it feels fucking great to handle my anger!

i am in control!

i am doing it!

i release all this burning anger!

and then take a couple deep breaths and fucking scream fuck some more, that usually works for me, and if you are in a place where you can’t scream:

pillows work wonders for masking noises, just do not use them on the person you are angry with!

i’m open to new techniques ;) 

so definitely share them if you got them 

Love you

HH

[theholistichedonist]

Empowerment

i know what it feels like to have fun and expose myself and be free and be rewarded afterwards.

more unconditionally loved than before,

to be accepted while showing and exposing myself.

if you’re anything like me..

you have been told to calm down, cool off, slow down, tone it down, quiet down, simmer down, and a myriad of other things

a new one i have heard is “you’re blowing this out of proportion”

“you’re overreacting”

as my insides scream... FUCK YOU!!!!

it’s funny unfortunate how we can put ourselves in situations where we feel we deserve to hear these things and that we end up listening taking them in and believing that we are “too much”

i hope we all start accepting ourselves as who we are

every little piece of ourselves

the good the bad

the beautiful and not so beautiful at times

we need to know ourselves fully, truly and accept who we are

in order to change

to keep what we want and ditch the rest

we need to know everything in order to remove the blindfold of who is who and what is what

when we are in a fight... talking from personal experience we tend to look at the other person and pick away at them

or at least i do

but even the simplest shift in consciousness and awareness can help the situation rather than hinder ourselves from growth and harboring negative energy that really doesn’t belong

from personal experience:

i tend to annoy and lash out on my partner when i feel like i am not receiving the attention i need or deserve

in turn starting a kerfuffle lol 

i want to see a reaction

anything

good or bad as long as their attention is on me

so when i do this it is my inner child replaying a program that i found as a child to work on my workaholic mother who was disconnected from her body

i lacked touch, time and love

even coming to a point in time where i am questioning if i have ever actually truly allowed myself to feel love or have had it be fully received.

so i would lash out

is there such a thing as right or wrong?

i really don’t believe so

but i also feel like i’ve been through the ringer and if i get a little hot, deal with it lol

looking at myself in the perspective of my inner child, who needed and craved attention so bad that i would go to any lengths to receive i feel empathy, compassion and unconditional love for that little girl

now realizing in my 26 y/o body that i am running a program in my brain from when i was 11 +/- i also have compassion for my 26 y/o self where i still have not touched this part of my being

i have not taken the time until now to understand why i do these things

to have an open mind and understanding of who we are and why we are really blasts the wall down of wondering how to fix it

because that will come naturally

just through awareness we are able to release

and through release we are able to integrate healthier and happier programs in

now i hope this benefits some and resonates but if it doesn’t

oh well lol,

i’m done catering to everyone

lol i always love you, sorry for lashing out

but i will not tone it down and neither should you!

HH

[theholistichedonist]

What Would You Do... if you weren’t afraid?

the word... anything comes to mind

lol what is my biggest fear - failure, the weight and responsibility of success, exposure and judgement. 

the list could go on I’m sure

we have these fears because of life experience, past lives and a myriad of other “reasons”

you wanna know why we have these fears?

TO KEEP US SAFE

they are here to remind us that we have repressed emotions and traumatic events that we are still holding on dearly to for no other reason than our ego is keeping us alive, they are here to allow us the courage it takes to feel freedom

if we were gifted a perfect life, do you think we would enjoy living?

we have all these fears come up as emotions, they are to show us we are human... first off

and they are here because hey you know what, if i were to release the traumatic event that ensued this fear i will be able to live freely!

what is more valuable to you?

a moment of discomfort and release, or a life full of longing

i see in my life where i hold myself back and with me writing this you better believe that i am on the same path as you are, this is tough mf’in shit mang and it’s that way so we feel the accomplishment and celebrate ourselves at the finish line. we are working hard for ourselves and thats why it’s worth it, enjoying the journey can be tough as fuck but to learn to laugh at yourself and with yourself in times of turmoil is the ultimate win when we succeed and break these chains that bind.

let’s push these fears by doing something every day that is outside our comfort zone

if you don’t like doing things alone (me)

going on a walk by yourself is the perfect, little bite sized accomplishment you can celebrate at the end of the day

“The Compound Effect”

is a great book - mostly based on the premise of money

but in a spiritual sense it works just the same,

one little thing you can do daily will ultimately lead you to your big, high ticket goals

I embrace change in all forms

another fun game you can play with yourself is,

wouldn’t it be nice...

wouldn’t it be nice if i have $6000 deposited in my bank account for personal development courses to grow and expand my mind 

wouldn’t it be nice if i won a trip to a retreat where i can expand my knowledge and grow my love for yoga 

wouldn’t it be nice if i was surrounded by like minded people who wanted to help and watch me succeed while i return the favor boosting up my tribe

wouldn’t it be nice to make my first sale with my online business... by the end of the month

let your mind play and your concept of what’s possible grow to expansive lengths to meet your higher self’s desires rather than living in the small box of society

love you,

HH

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Who is The Holistic Hedonist?

I am a normal human, with a brain the works in overdrive most days. 😂

My calling lately seems to be bringing awareness to people about their emotions and impulses.

Since this is something that I myself am working through at the moment, to feel into the uncomfortable emotions rather than bottling and repressing them to deal with at a later date,

Because lets be real lol we have been doing that near our whole existence or atleast the existence of this life we are currently living.

More often than not I hear people talk about their lives like they're not the ones in control, and I have felt that also which really has brought me the motivation to put my thoughts into words to help the collective.

What do we really want, and authentically who do we want to be?

Without the chatter and clatter of societies boundaries and rules we face in our world today!

If we are so unhappy we need to shift something internally in order to live the lives we were put on earth to enjoy!

Thats where I feel my journey begins,

I felt a calling to learn more and dive deep into #ThetaHealing it had came into my life years ago and I had ignored the call.

Not the right timing and definitely was in a dark place in my life.

When I put my own health and happiness above others is when I truly saw the shift by helping myself I am doing the work needed to help the collective.

Coming into Covid last year I had signed up with an amazing theta healer and she has really blown every block and hurdle i have had prior legit out of the water lol I keep seeing these syncronicities as signs to dig deeper.

Now with everything I've learnt I am grounding myself into this knowledge and infinite wisdom the Universe has to offer as my purpose in life,

To write and bring awareness to common ailments we face as humans to help others handle their "not so good days" lol

I am a normal human being, with emotions the urge to help others and a heart brimming with love to help this Earth prosper and for us to grow and live in our full potential which is truly endless and infinite.

I love you all,

I appreciate your continued support and so enjoy getting to know you and through you learning about myself 💕

HH