#is tough

[saebaragi]

so... if I want to rewatch community again I need to get one of those fancy birds??

[typicalopposite]

So like you know when you’re so far gone in fandom that you start making up scenarios where someone like… idk notices your fandom themed shirt or like your keychain with a picture of your favorite ship or idk is nosey and sees your Home Screen… (stay with me) and so you start trying to come up with what you’d say because like… omg a mutual irl… but we don’t want to come off too strong… but we want to befriend them… but we don’t want to scare them… but we want to swap all the socials and share our fics and art and theories… but— but then it never happens so you just burnt brain energy for nothing.

Or is that just me.

[mistofstars]

Honestly considering selling the house again after living in it for only 4-5 months...

Just because I'm done feeling overwhelmed and super stressed and worried all the time.

If I really do this, I will be the joke of my environment, but oh well... I just want to be happy again...

Ever since I signed that fucking contract at the beginning of 2022, I felt like I was making a mistake...

Anyway, I feel like I can't do nothing right and have no idea where I belong, everything is wrong...

[dissociated-and-tired]

I am too smol for everything to be so hard!

- Jacq

[airris-fr]

applied to a couple more places today and it has sent me into a really bad anxiety spiral yikes

[blindbatalex]

hmmm i want to read h/c that breaks apart its characters without mercy but then puts them back together again, lets them be comforted and heal -- if only i had the fic

[wrestlewriting]

An Author’s Note of Importance

As of Tuesday for the next 1.5 weeks, I am on vacation. I am out of town and back to the hometown.

Also, this blog just celebrated seven months!

When I started this blog, it was a leap of faith.

I had written this story (Insolence) and wanted to share it. I wrote it because there wasn’t an Adam Cole story like I wanted out there yet.

My first “short” or “drabble” or “prompt” was written because I wanted to. And then many more were written because I had ideas and desire. Because they were something I knew and believed in.

A lot of you liked my writing for whatever reason.

So then I opened requests eventually, thinking that would also keep my brain juices flowing.

And sometimes it did. Sometimes it does. But it’s also a challenge. Sometimes I get a request for wrestlers I don’t know or don’t like or don’t feel inspired by. Sometimes I get a story or prompt request that I just stare at and draw blanks on what I could do.

This is just a long way of me saying that some of the requests that have been sitting for me (since April) aren’t going to be written.

I should have when I started this journey realized I could deny requests as they came in, instead of just taking it all on, in hopes I had the inspiration and motivation to complete them.

I hope this doesn’t run many of you off. I hope the quality of my writing, and my diversity of character, keep you all around to see what I write next.

The June requests will be written without a doubt. There are about half of the April requests I have ideas for or started already.

This has been a journey, a learning process, for me. I’m here to write wrestling fan fiction stories that I love and that bring enjoyment to you all. That is my main goal.

I hope you can understand and appreciate my goal.