Swan Song, part one
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Pairing: Koo Junhoe x Reader (f)
Genres: Writer AU / Friends to lovers
Count: 2428
Warnings: None
Synopsis: Junhoe, your childhood best friend reappears in your life after years apart, bringing back memories, unresolved feelings, and an unexpected request—to write about his wedding. As you accept, the reunion stirs something deeper, leading you closer to the truth behind why he gave up the dream he once lived for.
It was a dreary afternoon, and you walked through the rain, carrying a couple of grocery bags—each lightly dampened by the persistent drizzle. The rain had already drenched your umbrella, rendering it nearly useless. You let out a sigh and quickened your pace, hoping to reach your apartment before the rain grew heavier. As you crossed the street, you noticed an old record store tucked between a quaint café and a cozy bookstore. You glanced up—its faded sign read ‘Good Oldies,’ and a wave of nostalgia swept over you.
“Should I?” you asked yourself, hesitating a bit. You looked down at the groceries in your hands before a faint smile curled at your lips. They weighed you down, but curiosity got the better of you.
You pushed open the creaky door of the record store. A soft bell tinkled overhead as you stepped inside, greeted by the scent of old vinyl and the low hum of music from a vintage turntable. Rows upon rows of vinyl records filled the store. Their covers adorned with vibrant artwork and the promise of forgotten melodies. You set your grocery bags down and began flipping through the albums, each one a portal to a different era. Lost in the world of music, you finally picked out a Billie Holiday record, its cover portraying the singer in profile against a purplish backdrop. As you held the record in your hands, your gaze drifted to a tall figure browsing the ‘Rock’ section in the next aisle. Aside from the cashier patiently waiting at the counter, the two of you were the only customers inside. You couldn’t help but watch the mysterious man in front of you. He wore jeans, a brown corduroy blazer to match and a baseball cap in the same shade. You saw him pick up a Bob Dylan record, and when he turned around, you glanced up—finally seeing his face clearly.
You froze, eyes blinking in disbelief.
Even with only half his face visible, you recognized him instantly. A jumble of emotions surged through you—surprise, longing… a knot of unease.
Is it really him? No, it’s definitely him! Should I approach him? What if he doesn’t recognize me?
Without further thought, you took a deep breath and cleared your throat. Just as he was about to head to the counter, your voice cut through the stillness of the near-empty store.
“Junhoe?” you called.
He paused, glancing over with a hesitant look, his brows knitting together, puzzled.
You tried not to get discouraged by his reaction, so you pressed on, moving a little closer to him.
“It’s me, y/n,” you said carefully. “We used to live in the same neighborhood when we were kids.”
Junhoe turned to face you fully. Familiarity dawned in his eyes as he studied the stranger before him—from the contours of your face to the soft curve of your cheeks. Your long ebony hair was still damp from the rain. Your eyes were wide, bright with astonishment. You wore a long white sundress beneath an oversized baby pink coat, a Lady Satin album cradled in your hands.
“Y/n?” he mumbled—your name sounding foreign on his tongue.
You were his childhood best friend—until he dropped out in middle school and left for the city to chase his dreams. You were the one he promised to call, to write… but never did. When exactly had he forgotten you? He couldn’t even remember.
Now, as he stood before you, Junhoe sifted through faded memories—searching for the version of you that once radiated a carefree spirit, back when you were both young. You’d always been one of the boys in the neighborhood, your circle of friends unchanging even as school years came and went. He fondly remembered how you used to match his energy—and the boys’—effortlessly, which became part of the rhythm of his youth. As the oldest among the six of you, you naturally took on the role of protector. You stood your ground whenever any of them were picked on. You made them feel safe.
Junhoe’s gaze lingered, drawn to the subtle transformation in you—the soft changes in your style, the way your clothing reflected a new language of femininity. Your posture now carried a touch of maturity, but your features still looked youthful, untouched by the passage of time. Gone was the y/n who hunted for frogs and insects with him in her tees and Chucks.
“Yes, it’s me! I can’t believe it’s you.”
“I can’t believe it’s you too,” he said, offering a warm smile.
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“You didn’t have to pay for this,” you said shyly to Junhoe, referring to the album he’d just bought for you at the record store. You could smell the aroma of freshly brewed coffee in the air as you and Junhoe sat across from each other in a secluded corner of the café. The clinking of cups, hushed conversations, and a mellow jazz tune formed the backdrop to your reunion.
“It’s not free! You’re paying for my coffee,” Junhoe teased, earning a laugh from you.
“You bet it’s my treat today!” you said with a grin. There was a brief pause before you added, “Thank you, Junhoe, for coming here with me. I’m not taking too much of your time, am I?”
Junhoe shook his head. “Oh no, y/n! I’m actually on vacation right now. I got here just a few days ago.”
So this is why he’s back, you mused.
Taking a sip of the hot caramel macchiato you’d ordered, you watched Junhoe over the brim of your cup—the white undershirt he wore suited his ensemble perfectly. The baseball cap perched casually on his head wasn’t just a simple accessory; it served as a shield, offering him privacy from the curious gazes of onlookers. Junhoe was still a celebrity, after all. You hadn’t minded ordering for him. You knew he’d wanted a spot away from prying eyes, which is why the two of you were now nestled in this quiet corner. It gave a discreet setting to catch up after all that lost time.
Junhoe peeked through the misty café window, where the rain seemed to have turned into a light pattering, before glancing back at you. “It’s been so long, y/n. I can’t believe we’re sitting here, after all these years.”
You smiled and set your coffee down with a soft clink. “Right? It feels kind of surreal. Life really pulled us in opposite directions, huh?”
Junhoe’s expression shifted, his gaze dipping slightly. “Yeah… I feel awful for not keeping in touch. Especially with how close we used to be.”
Your smile didn’t fade, but something softened in your eyes. “It’s okay, Junhoe. You chased what you loved, and you made something incredible for yourself. Not everyone gets to do that. We were always meant to take different roads… and I’ve always been proud of you.”
That last part seemed to catch him off guard. He looked at you with something flickering just behind his eyes.
“Proud?” he repeated, as if trying to hold onto the word a second longer.
“How do I even say this—” you murmured, eyes dropping to the lipstick stain on your coffee cup. It felt safer looking there than meeting his gaze. A faint heat crept into your cheeks, your fingers fidgeting with the hem of your dress. You didn’t want him to take it the wrong way, to think you were some sort of overzealous fan.
“I followed your journey as a singer, Junhoe,” you admitted. “Your rise to fame—it was like a whirlwind. Your voice was everywhere. I even went to some of your concerts… to be honest.”
Junhoe didn’t recoil. If anything, awe was evident in the furrow of his brow. There was no trace of judgment—only gratitude in his expression.
“I wish I’d known, y/n. Thank you,” he said gently, as if your words had reached somewhere he hadn’t expected.
“You were the closest friend I ever had,” you continued. “And I guess part of me always believed your dreams would come true. Even with all the time that passed… even when I stopped hearing from you… you still held a special place in my heart.”
Junhoe felt the weight of your words settle heavily in his chest, a swell of regret rising to meet them. He thought back to the bond you once shared—so close it had become the envy of the other boys in your circle. He had always felt chosen by you, like your connection had its own unspoken gravity. You were there for everything: cheering him on at school talent shows, filming his shaky audition tapes, standing offstage like his shadow with a quiet kind of faith. When he finally got that call from YG Entertainment, your joy had eclipsed even his. He could still picture it—you dragging the others along to send him off, beaming like it was your dream come true.
“I’m really sorry, y/n,” Junhoe said, his expression heavy. “Back then, everything moved so fast. My schedule, the pressure—it swallowed everything. I lost touch with a lot of people… including you.”
He struggled to find the right words, knowing they might sound like excuses—but they were all he had.
The fervent pursuit of his dream came at a cost of his friends slipping away like grains of sand through his fingers. Training demanded everything—his time, his energy, his entire focus. Eventually, the studio and dormitory became his world, cutting him off from the outside.
The silence between him and his friends hadn’t happened all at once. It came in fragments—unread letters, unanswered calls, moments missed. The milestones of lives he once knew passed him by, unmarked and unknown. As his debut day neared, the momentum of it all took over. The spotlight beckoned, and the weight of ambition pulled him forward without pause. Recording sessions, photo shoots, stage rehearsals—every day disappeared into the next. The cheers of fans, the camera flashes, the roar of the crowd—they all consumed him. Until the memories of his past dulled at the edges, familiar faces drifted like faint constellations in the night sky.
“Please don’t feel bad, Junhoe,” you said, trying to ease the weight in his eyes. “We were kids, and life changed. I never held it against you.”
There was comfort in your words, even as regret hummed beneath the surface of Junhoe’s expression.
“Thank you, y/n. That really means a lot," his voice was thick with sincerity.
You hesitated for a beat, then spoke with gentle conviction. Your gaze returning to his face.. “I know this may sound like too much, Junhoe, but I knew then—you were meant to be a singer. You weren’t meant to stay in this town.”
That struck something deep. Junhoe hadn’t expected you to hold on to that belief after all these years—let alone follow his journey so closely. Your faith, your persistence, the way you had never let go of your friendship—it humbled him. Somehow, despite time and silence, you had never stopped believing in him.
However, at that moment, a haunting thought crept into Junhoe’s mind like an uninvited guest. A world he thought he’d left behind spun to life, casting a shadow of pain over him. A bittersweet memory—of a dream once within his grasp—vanished as swiftly as a fleeting breath.
“I didn’t expect you to retire from music,” you said to Junhoe, a hint of yearning in your voice. “You were at your peak… but I’m genuinely happy you still pursued other things.”
Junhoe leaned back in his chair, staring at the coffee he’d momentarily forgotten on the table. He sat suspended between vulnerability and the urge to protect the fragile facade he had built. A torrent of memories resurfaced as he wrestled with emotions threatening to break through. What-ifs and maybes crowded his thoughts.
“You’re kind to say that,” was all Junhoe could manage. His smile was thin, uncertain—but it was a quiet admission that your words had struck a chord. Still, he let his defenses take over, to keep in the truth he wouldn’t dare say out loud. Not when you had just found him.
You noticed how the atmosphere between you had become a little too sentimental, so you tried to lighten the mood.
“I really wanted a copy of your last poetry book,” you said with a chuckle. “I looked for it in every bookstore, but it sold out so fast!”
Junhoe appreciated your effort to break the tension. That, and the fact that you even knew he’d published a book, meant more than he could say.
“It was only printed in limited copies,” he explained, beginning to relax. “I might still have an extra one lying around. I’ll give it to you.”
“I’ll treasure that for the rest of my life,” you said brightly.
“As the president of my fan club, I expected more from you,” Junhoe teased, casting a playful side-eye. “How did you not snag one?”
“I failed you,” you replied dramatically, clasping your hands together in mock shame. “I hereby resign from the post, effective immediately.”
You both broke into laughter. And in Junhoe’s mind, he could only thank you again—for pulling him back from the spiral of thoughts he hadn’t meant to fall into.
“Enough about me—how have you been, y/n?” Junhoe asked. “Are you still close with Hanbin and the others?”
“Me? I’m a writer for a local lifestyle magazine,” you said with a cheerful spark, seamlessly going along with his change of topic. “And yes, I’m still close with the boys. Bin’s an elementary school teacher now, can you believe that?”
“Wow, really?” Junhoe’s eyebrows lifted in surprise.
“Yun’s a master chef at a luxury hotel in Seoul. Jiwon has a family now, and he and Dongie both moved to the U.S. after graduation—different states, though. Dongie even runs his own dance studio in L.A.”
A sense of comfort settled between you and Junhoe’s shoulders eased as he listened, the stories offering a welcome contrast from his former life in the spotlight. Hearing how everyone had moved forward filled him with both warmth and happiness.
And then he remembered he had been invited to this event—an opportunity he didn’t want to miss.
“Y/n, would you want to come to an art exhibit with me tomorrow night?” he asked, barely able to hide his excitement. “You’re welcome to bring Bin, Yun, or anyone else too.”
Your eyes lit up. “I’d love to, Junhoe! That’s perfect—I really enjoy art.”
“Great! I’ll text you the address,” he said with a grin, already looking forward to seeing you again.
