Thinking once again of how the only things lan xichen can say about his mother is that she was extremely gentle and never complained about being imprisoned and how what teeny tiny secondhand scraps we get of who she was before paint the picture of someone who is headstrong, freespirited, and has a clear capacity for violence and there is straight up nothing left of that woman in her children's view of her. What lxc describes is like. sidebraid anime mom levels of sandpapered no-personality-except-kind depersonalization. Neither of the twin jades knew their mom, not just because they only got to see her once a month but because even during those rare meetings they didn't get to know her even a little bit. And how the fuck could they? Being honest about your emotional state in that situation to your fucking six and nine year old children is fundamentally kind of unethical and if she'd done it the lan would almost certainly have banned her from seeing them at all so she was never anything but "generic nice mom" to them. There was literally no room for actual honest bonding and connection. It's like they never met their mom at all.

















