it's a real shame that i can't just be special to everyone all the time but they leave me alone for the most part, nah nah everyone gotta have someone they value more than me
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it's a real shame that i can't just be special to everyone all the time but they leave me alone for the most part, nah nah everyone gotta have someone they value more than me
i keep going 'PDs are typically caused by extreme abuse and/or neglect in childhood, so i cant possibly have NPD or BPD'
then rerealizing that maybe my childhood wasnt as nice as part of me wants to believe. i was at the very least emotionally neglected, and my self-image has not been very stable over my life
hm
Anti Endos get hardblocked
People are much less likely to change if they keep getting away with things in my opinion.
might clear out mt drafts soon (its mostly reblogs) im just afraid of this blog seeming cluttered to my mutuals T_T
july 22, 2022 : genesis
today, i found out that i am an intj. personally, i would find personality rather fascinating, but i seem to have a lot of people that i am quite against in my personality group - mark zukerberg, elon musk, and other jerks.
the thing is, the personality that i have is quite rare in afab individuals like myself. it belongs to 1% of the female population. but that is also a minority that is least affected by antisocial personality disorder, also known as aspd.
i know that my level of thinking allows me to cancel out emotions, but i do seem to have this underlying logical empathy for most people. I can see why things are bad and understand the impact of them, but i just can't seem to really cry in that situation.
i can't feel love, but i feel intense loyalty to those i care about in a logical way. but it makes me really feel bad when someone is hurting and i just have this resting bitch face.
yeah, so, my antisocial bit of my personality is quite different, but i'm learning to live and love it.
welcome to the antisocial diaries.
to those of yall with NPD that have partners that also have NPD, how do yall deal with the need for supply within the relationship?
are there any feelings of competition? how do yall handle differences in empathy/sympathy?
so glad to be allowing myself to embrace the fact that, yes, i am egotistical, i do need a good bit of attention (always have), that some people arent worth my time and energy and politeness, and learn ways to deal with crashes that validates my feelings but works at preventing harm to my personal relationships
it feels like letting myself bloom and finally take care of myself in this way, a part of me thats been pushed down either by me or others or society
Ugh i LOVE blocking ' narc abuse ' believers
got me feeling like this ↓
Buhbyeeeee (>ᴗ<)