listen bucky barnes knows how to suffer, james buchanan barnes knows how to hide a smile, and the winter solider knows how to ignore all the feelings that seem to try and cloud his head while on a mission. so who ever the hell comes out of the grips of hydra (tbh bucky doesnt even know what to call himself) has no concept of feelings or love or hurt or anything like that. he understands that he loves steve, and that dogs make him happy, and that ice cream tastes really good. but he doesnt know why everyone always feels the need to talk or why people from his past are always crying why they talk about him or steve. bruce suggests he gets a dog, so they get bucky a dog. he talks to the big australian shepard a lot and she has his back when he is doing every day stuff like cooking or stress cleaning so that he doesn’t have to worry about people sneaking up on him. they have a system of different barks for different people, there is a strangers bark (tense), friedns bark (normal almost friendly), and steve bark (excited). bucky doesn’t even realize he is going thru withdraw until he has to scramble out of bed (from the fews hours of sleep he can get) and starts gagging over the bowl, hes shaking and wants to scream and it feel slike he is being hit by a train but of emotions and thoughts. but he was so silent he didn’t wake up steve when he left the bed so Clara (his dog) had to bark to get steve awake in a panic and he rushed to bucky’s side as he heaved and waited for the fever to break. bucky can’t remember feeling this awful but hed imagine losing his arm was on par with this cause god it hurt and it wouldn’t stop hurting and they wouldn’t give him any drugs to stop it. so he just laid on the cold ground and clara had half her body on top of him to try to calm his breathing and his head was in steve’s lap who pet his head and they kept a bucket near by in case bucky needed it. once bucky finally got over the withdraw he could feel his emotions coming back and assaulting him and he had to learn how to feel all over again with the help of steve and clara