Summary: Y/n is a hopeless romantic in love with someone who will never love her back and Jaehyun is helplessly in love with someone who only continues to hurt him over and over again, sounds like a match made in heaven right?
Pairings: CollegeStudent!Jaehyun X CollegeStudent!Y/N X CollegeStudent!Jaemin
Warnings: toxic relationships, toxic behavior
Genre: angst/fluff/smut
Word count: 1.6k
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As soon as the door opened you were greeted with a very tired looking woman who gives you a weak smile before stepping to the side and letting you in.
“He’s just at the store right now, he should be back soon though, do you want something to eat?” She asks as you step in and slip off your shoes placing them on the shoe rack on the open spot.
“Nah I’m good, how have you guys been doing?” You question after taking a seat in the small living room they had just after the entrance.
“We’ve been good, it’s tiring though,” She explains stretching lightly.
“Yeah, I can’t imagine with Sangook and now Haewon,” and as if on cue you could hear the sound of feet running on the floor before a small child runs around the corner spotting you before beaming brightly and running over. You pick the boy up and give him a tight hug.
“There’s my favorite nephew,” You say to his mom a smile spread across your face as the boy refuses to let go.
“He missed you a lot, so does your brother,” You frown slightly before the five-year-old let’s go looking up at you with such happiness as he signs something to you which you pay close attention to, as signing wasn’t something that was very natural to you yet.
I miss you, aunt, Your sister in law watches you closely as you respond, your focus completely on your nephew.
I miss you too You respond as his eyes light up with pure happiness and before you know it you have a full conversation with him, a few signs unknown to you but the context helped with understanding as he explains about school and some toys. You’re so immersed and hyper-focused you don’t even notice when the front door opens and your brother walks in hands full of bags.
“Hey to you too,” Your brother has to shout in order to pry your attention away from Sangook but it wasn’t a rude shout it was happier and he watched you communicate with his son with fondness.
“TAEYONG!” You shout happily getting up and running over to your brother who hugs you tightly.
“Hey little sis,” He ruffles your hair lightly, not enough to annoy you but just in his typical brother way.
“You won’t believe how much I missed you,” You explain thinking about the last time you had seen him.
“Then you should call more often,” He nudges you as you laugh knowing how much you sucked at reaching out to anyone.
“Yeah yeah, But I’m here now so let’s catch up!” You tug at his arm dragging him into the living room where he sits down on the small couch with his wife and Sangook on her lap and you take a seat on the floor. A Children’s cartoon on the TV while you talk relaxed with your brother and sister-in-law.
“So how’s sophomore year going?” Taeyong question’s raising an eyebrow and you know what he’s actually talking about.
“You’re worse than mom I swear!” You groan tired of everyone asking about your relationship status.
“I just want to make sure, you’re happy, I know you were devastated when you and Seonghwa had to split up,” Taeyong points out, and while it did hurt it was for the best.
“Look I understand why you’re concerned but I’m happy,” You smile reassuring Taeyong, who still doesn’t buy into it entirely but knows how much he should push.
“Hey, ____,” Taeyong’s wife, Jiri, speaks up a bright smile on her face as if she realized something.
“Since you’re single I do have someone in mind,” She nudges Taeyong who as if reading her mind knows what she means.
“I don’t like where this is going…” You mumble but she continues.
“Taeyong has this friend who’s a few years older than you attending the university and he’s recently single,” She relays the details smiling
“Look I don’t want to be anyone’s rebound,” You start knowingly that the end of one relationship meant a rebound was sure to follow, you didn’t want to just be that.
“It’s not like that, Just give him a chance you can ghost him if you want but for our peace of mind, just try and Taeyong will never pester you about dating again right honey?” She looks to your brother as he sighs but nods anyway.
“Fine,” You groan but hand your phone over for her to add the contact.
“I promise he’s very sweet,” She assures you before handing your phone back over, the contact name listed as J which confused you.
“J is his name?” You wonder out loud and Jiri laughs lightly shaking her head before actually explaining.
“No, but I don’t want you to make any kind of judgments before you actually talk,” She points out which is nice but you were left with so many questions it was unbearable.
“You guys worry too much,” You end up saying stretching out and turning your phone off telling yourself you’d text the number later.
“Yeah yeah, now we can stop talking about that and move on to something else,” Taeyong smiles before you beam and bring up a different thing to happen recently.
“I joined the photography club!” You explain excitedly as the memories of your first day came flooding back to your mind but more importantly, the very cute club president who was so invested in photos and art it was admirable.
Yuta was trying to enjoy some peaceful time to himself but that was short-lived because as soon as he walked into the house he was met with Heejin and Jaehyun sitting in the living room cuddled up together.
“Why is the rat here?” Yuta rolled his eyes as soon as the comment left her mouth.
“Be nice,” Jaehyun’s voice could be heard urging Heejin to stop with the comments.
“I thought I smelled something fishy,” Yuta frowned crossing his arms. The girl had a shocked look on her face as she turned her head up at Jaehyun, the look in her eyes had Jaehyun falling at her feet, she had no mercy as she brought her lips to his ear to whisper something Yuta couldn’t catch.
“Yuta,” Jaehyun let out an exhausted sigh as if Yuta was the one who started this, that he had provoked Heejin rather than the other way around.
“Jaehyun can I speak to you in the kitchen?” Yuta motioned his head in the direction of the unopened door. And as if it triggered Heejin she clung even closer to Jae, a death grip as to make him stay like some kind of boa constrictor.
“Can’t you talk AFTER the movie,” Heejin glares daggers at Yuta.
“Not really, this is important.” Yuta tries his best to keep his composure with the girl as he looks at Jaehyun.
“It’ll only be a few minutes I promise,” Jaehyun smiles at Heejin hissing her cheek before she silently removes herself from Jaehyun crossing her arms.
“Promise?” She looks up at him as he nods before following Yuta into the kitchen.
Jaehyun couldn’t see past that girl he first met who was slowly becoming someone unknown, he couldn’t see the smirk that crossed her lips or the way she acted whenever someone tried to pull him away even for a moment, what had turned into a simply clingy girlfriend turned into the only person in his life as she was slowly dragging him away from everyone, including the boys in the frat house he was LIVING with.
Yuta made sure the kitchen door was closed before he spoke, trying to find the words that wouldn’t upset Jaehyun.
“Jae, I understand that she’s your girlfriend but don’t you think you should let us know when she’s going to be over? A lot of us get home and just want to relax and sometimes she makes that difficult,” Yuta pinches the bridge of his nose.
“I understand but-” Jaehyun started with an excuse but Yuta wasn’t in the mood for what he had to say instead Yuta talked over him.
“No Jaehyun, The other guys won’t tell you this because they know how much you love her but I don’t care, you either let us know or she’s no longer welcome here.” Yuta puts his foot down and can see the conflict in Jaehyun’s eyes.
“And maybe spend some time with us every once in a while, I bet you didn’t even realize yesterday was Johnny’s birthday,” Yuta points out as Jaehyun’s eyes widen slightly with the realization he blanked on one of his closest friend’s birthday’s.
“I thought so, ever since you two started dating you’ve forgotten about us, your brothers,” Yuta shakes his head as he walks past Jaehyun and out the door of the kitchen to go upstairs and leave Jaehyun to reflect and think.
“What did he say?” Taeil, one of the oldest people in the Frat asks as soon as he walks into their shared room.
“Not much but he got the message,” Yuta sighed before plopping onto his bed and looking up at the ceiling.
“I get such a bad vibe from her,” Yuta expresses his concern.
“Everyone but Jae does, maybe he’ll just have to see it for himself before he realizes something is up with her,” Taeil sighs out.
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A/N: sorry this is on the shorter side this week I’ll try to make next week’s which will posted on 7/25 longer, it’s just been a very hectic week for me personally, my fish died sadly so I took that day off and didn’t write and a few other days so I should be writing longer chapter’s soon, thanks as always for reading it’s very much appreciated. <3
Warnings : A few cuss words here and there, gets suggestive towards the end, not proof read I’m sorry :(
Genre : Fluff, a hint of angst , romance, Hogwarts au, fake dating au.
Description: You are forced to befriend Kim Doyoung under unexpected circumstances but as two lonely souls meet, you find yourself enjoying his company a little too much.
A/N : I had the idea for this fic while I was travelling but I was too lazy to actually write it until recently. Harry Potter aus just never seem to bore me no matter how many times I write them ( it’s fate at this point XD)
Hi, dumblr please don’t EAT MY GODDAMN POSTS. Thank you.
This is for the #neohalloween evented hosted by @nct-writers <3
Enjoy!
Doyoung is bad at taking criticism. Not even sulky bad but angry, tantrum throwing bad.
He'd rather be slapped than criticized. Metaphorically, of course.
"What do you mean she won't go on a date with me?" Doyoung hisses ,his voice an octave lower than usual.
The bedroom consisting of three noisy boys suddenly falls silent at his words. For the first time in forever.
Jaehyun shifts in his place , the soft mattress dipping under his weight. He looks at his friend full of concern.
"Look , you're not the only person trying to ask her out. I heard that some Gryffindor boys were trying to shoot their shot this morning. And that's just the beginning."
Doyoung clenches his blanket into his fists, "Claire is mine. They can't have her."
Johnny scoffs from his bed , his eyes never leaving the book he had been reading from the past one week, "Are you sure the sorting hat did a good job by putting you into Ravenclaw? That pride of yours sure does sound like Slytherin to me."
"Oh shut up. That's not even the point right now. I need Claire to go on a date with me. It's not a matter of interest anymore, it's a matter of pride. I will not back down just because there's competition." Doyoung shoots back.
The boys' room erupts with Johnny and Jaehyun's laughter, their beds shaking with vibrations and their voices probably disturbing the people sitting outside in the Ravenclaw common room. But it's been a long time since either of them have cared for what other people say.
Ever since the three boys met on the Hogwarts Express six years ago , they've been inseparable, finding a home , a family in each other. And as time passes by, they're only formulating a stronger bond , unbeknown to the rest of the world.
By the time Jaehyun and Johnny come down from their laughter high, Doyoung is already throwing a fit , muttering under his breath , and clutching his blanket like his life depended on it. Typical angry Kim Doyoung.
"Everything else is fine, Dodo, but does Claire even know you?" Jaehyun asks, fanning his red face.
"Of course not , Jae. But in the sea of all the other boys ,she'd obviously notice our Doyoung first!"
Doyoung sucks in a deep,frustrated breath, reaching under his pillow to find his wand - Alder Wood, Dragon heartstrings core (11 inch) - his one true best friend.
"Aguamenti." Doyoung murmurs, ponting his wand at them.
With a big splashing sound , a stream of water squirts out from the end of the wand , wetting everything that comes in contact with it - including Jaehyun and Johnny and everything else they possess.
That night , as the two boys try to dry themselves and the rest of their belongings, Doyoung stares up at the wooden ceiling, carved beautifully into swirls and waves and flowers ,he wonders why his friends think he wouldn't be able get Claire to go out with him, why did they make it seem so hard when it really wasn't.
His ego feels hurt, injured even.
Maybe Johnny is right - maybe Doyoung is more Slytherin than Ravenclaw, but it didn't matter anymore. Because the Slytherin princess Claire would be his by the time Halloween arrives, no matter what and his ego and pride would be restored.
Or at least that is what he had initially planned.
Everyone has that one subject they truly hate with every fiber of their being. They might not be particularly good or bad at it , but they often wonder the significance of this immeasurably disliked subject in their lives.
For Doyoung, it is the potions class.
Brewing potions, remembering the recipes, knowing the job of each ingredient seemed too heavy a job for a divination loving man like Doyoung. Potions is way too practical, way too boring.
"Psst, Jae."
The class must have been going on for about barely ten minutes when Doyoung decides he's had enough and that he would rather get in trouble for disturbing his friends.
"Jae, I'm bored. Johnny is in quidditch practice too." Doyoung pokes Jaehyun's back with the end of his wand.
The latter squirms in his seat, subtle enough to not disturb anyone in the class, who unlike a certain Kim Doyoung were attentively listening to the professor.
"What?" Jaehyun turns back only enough to meet Doyoung's bored gaze.
"I think I'm going to ask Claire out today. During dinner. What do you think?" Doyoung whispers.
Jaehyun shakes his head , putting his quill down on the table, "Are you sure? You guys haven't even talked properly yet."
Doyoung stays silent for a few seconds because yes, Jaehyun is right. He doesn't even know what she likes , where is she from, who her friends are but he is willing to take the risk. For someone as beautiful as Claire, Doyoung would risk the whole world.
"I mean I can try, right?"
There's a sudden scoff escaping from your lips - whose name Doyoung never bothered to ask - sitting next to Jaehyun, the green of your robe hinting at your belongingness to Slytherin.
"You're stupid, Kim Doyoung. Claire is not going to go out with you. Especially not when you're being such a creep." You say, your eyes fixed on the professor and your quill writing notes in quick movements.
Creep? Did you just call Doyoung a creep?
"Y/n, it's none of your business." Jaehyun rolls his eyes , "Stay out of it."
"Why? Is Mr.Snowflake here too egoistic to face the truth?" You turn around to look at Doyoung, a smirk finding it's way to your lips.
Doyoung clenches his fists, nibbling at his bottom lip as anger fills him up like water filling up in an empty jar; quick and to the brim.
"I don't remember asking for your opinion, " he says, then bitterly adds, "Miss Y/n ,who no one happens to care much about."
The sound of scratching of quills and quiet mutter of spells fills the air for a few seconds before you say something.
"I'm not giving you my opinion, it's just an advice. From first hand experiences. Many men have tried to win Claire over yet only a few of them have ever succeeded. " you say, "And boys like you often tend to seek her only because she's good looking so she actively makes sure to avoid your kind. ,"
Jaehyun looks at you ,stunned, "How do you know all that? Are you guys friends?"
Doyoung is not sure what to say anymore - he's as confused as Jaehyun is, maybe a tad bit more.
For someone he'd properly talked to for the first time today, you sure do have a lot to say about his personal choices and ambitions. Big words do not faze him anymore.
"No , we're not friends." You giggle, "I'm her cousin. You almost couldn't tell, right?"
"It's finally Hogsmade weekend again. I thought I was going to suffocate in that stupid common room of ours." Johnny sighs , waddling towards his bed and slumping down like a little boy.
"Yes, I also need a cup of butter beer the first thing we arrive there." Jaehyun says, "What about you, Dodo?"
Dodo ,on the other hand is far too gone in the sea of his thoughts to pay heed to what his friends have to say. His eyes are on the patterns of the ceiling but his mind is with Claire and mostly with you, who he unintentionally might have offended today during potions class.
Doyoung didn't have any particular interest in you per se but as Claire's cousin, it is important for Doyoung to be accepted by you first. You might be a know-it-all ,annoying and ghostly but he needs to befriend you again, start everything from scratch. And who knows ,if he got lucky enough, you'd put in a word or two on his behalf to Claire.
"What's he thinking about?" Johnny whispers to Jaehyun, "Did something happen?"
Jaehyun shrugs, "Usually, I'd say he's thinking about Claire but today,I'm not so sure."
The next morning is as noisy as all of their Hogsmade mornings have been. Doyoung only remembers hearing Jaehyun's yells and Johnny's giggles and the Hufflepuff girls singing a beautiful Winter song on the journey to Hogsmade village.
No matter how hectic it is, he has always liked these weekends the best.
"Have they changed their services to self service or what?" Johnny asks ,tapping the marble surface of the table in the Three Broomsticks, "Where's Madam Rosmerta?"
Doyoung shrugs ,his eyes scanning the unusually quiet room. He realises that the only company they have is the empty chairs and tables and the flying bottles of water emptying themselves into small glasses.
"Should we just grab our drinks and put the money on the counter?" Jaehyun offers.
Before either of them could answer, the main door of the room slams open, urgent with force and the three boys see you rush inside, panting and huffing and murmuring.
Your hair is messy and your clothes are disheveled, yet Doyoung thinks you look...different. Different from what you look like at school at least. Better ,even.
"I'm sorry I'm late. We weren't expecting guests so early. I hope I-" you stop mid sentence when you realize Doyoung and the other two boys were the only ones in the pub, "Oh. It's just you three."
"Yes,y/n, it's just us. Can you get us three butterbeers please?" Jaehyun says.
You sigh with disappointment. A 'hi, y/n, how are you?' would have been nice but then again when has anyone ever bothered to greet you with so much sweetness?
Jaehyun and you are study partners , to say in a way. You never bothered to befriend him and he never bothered to do the same so that's just how its been since first year - studying together in the library and pretending the other person doesn't exist under normal circumstances.
You liked it that way but sometimes, just sometimes you did wish Jaehyun tried to treat you in a more friendly way.
"What's she doing here?" Doyoung ,who is genuinely taken aback by your presence, asks.
"She works part time here. Madam Rosmerta is a family friend of hers." Jaehyun answers.
If Madam Rosmerta is a family friend of yours then she must be a family friend of Claire too, Doyoung connects in his head, and Claire's name somehow ignites a fire of enthusiasm within him.
He drags his chair across the floor and gets up , walking toward the counter where you're working. A little nervous Doyoung is , but he still manages to start a conversation with you, "Hey, y/n ,right?"
You swiftly twirl your wand around in the air , and ten cups of butterbeer and gillyweed water present themselves on a tray.
You turn away from him to clean up the other plates , "What do you need?"
"I um..wanted to apologize for the insensitive comment I made yesterday. We started off on the wrong foot, I'm really sorry." He says, rubbing the back of his neck. Autumn is starting to set in slowly, but Doyoung feels the sweat sticking to his skin as if it were a hot summer morning.
You pause for a second.
What was he apologizing for? You honestly couldn't recall and whatever it might have been, you are sure that it wasn't worse than what your other classmate have said before ; which is why you don't remember Doyoung's supposed insensitive comment.
"It's fine. Don't worry about it, " You say, "I've had worse, actually."
Doyoung's heart drops - there is no phrase more pain inducing than the one you'd just spewed out so carelessly. And for some god forbidden reason, Claire suddenly slips out of his conscience mind.
"No, no. I want to start anew. Be your friend." Doyoung insists, leaning against the cold wooden counter.
You sigh, "Are you sure that's what your intention is? Because I don't think so. "
Doyoung scowls, "Of course that's my intention. What else would it be, y/n?"
You swing your wand and three glasses of butterbeer arrive directly in front of him.
His eyes widen for a split second but he bounces back quickly.
"Just say that you need help with Claire." You sigh.
Oh,right ,Claire. Shit how could I forget? Doyoung feels silly.
"I mean...in a way yes. But that's for the later part. Let's first be friends, yeah?"
You shake your head , "If I help you out with Claire ,will you stop trying to be my friend?"
You absolutely despise yourself at times like these - when you are trying so hard to push people away when they're only trying to befriend you (for whatever reason it might be). You're so lonely yet so afraid of attachments that you always tend to do this. The same repeated routine. You hate it.
You sometimes wonder what it would feel like to be in Claire's place, to be loved by everyone, to have people lining up just to take you out on one date . But it would never happen, because Claire is Claire : the Slytherin Princess and you are just you..someone who has barely ever talked to more than one person at school.
Doyoung gulps and then nods, "Okay. I will." Because befriending a Slytherin outcast will never be more important than scoring a date with the Slytherin Princess.
The Hogwarts Library is most empty during noon, something which you've concluded with years of experience and getting shoved out of your seat by your classmates who are way above you on the social ladder.
"So, " Doyoung finds a comfortable seat opposite to you , his hands fiddling with the pages of his diary, " how have you been?"
You give him a tired smile, "Can we get straight to point? I hate casual conversation. "
Doyoung snickers, "Wow, aren't you approachable today."
You lean back into your chair , eyes scanning Doyoung's face for any signs of regret . You'd never been the warm, bright sunshine kind of a person and you have accepted it without much protest. But of course, people take a lot of time to grow used to your sharpness and more often than not, people walk away even before you soften around them.
It's a survival mechanism, you always convince yourself.
"What do you want help with? Do you want to know about her interests or past relationships or something else ?"
Doyoung pouts, his mind filling up with all sorts of ideas to impress Claire. It's like he's hit a jackpot by meeting you.
"I want to know what I have to do to gain Claire's interest. Be her friend and then eventually, a boyfriend, if I'm lucky enough." He suggests.
"First of all ,you need to stop gawking at her from afar. You need to start conversations with her ,no matter how short. She likes it when people approach her first." Talk about having a big ass ego.
"Okay, noted." One quick wave of his hand and his quill is immediately noting down sentences in his diary, " You seem to know her quite well. You guys are close, I am assuming."
You and Claire used to be close. Used to. In the past tense.
As children you were inseparable, but as you slowly grew up, she realised how boring and uncool you were and that you belong to the shadows while she belongs in the spotlight. She's not tried to talk to you first for a long time now.
But you weren't about to explain all of this to Doyoung, who is visibly smitten by your estranged cousin so you just shake your head , "No, not anymore."
Your ears perk up at the unexpected sound of approaching footsteps towards you and before you could ask Doyoung to relocate to a more secluded area, you hear her loud and clear voice.
Claire.
"Oh, hey, Doyoung!" She greets the man in front of you, walking upto his side. Her shiny shoes creating a tip-tap noise against the floor, and the green of your robe almost feels dull as compared to her bright one.
When her eyes fall on you, her mouths twists as if she had one of those stupid vomit flavored chocolates.
"What are you doing here, y/n?" She sneers at you.
If you could ever get a hold of the invisibility cloak, the first thing you'd do is slap this bitch right across her face. She has always had this sense of superiority , even when she's never done anything quite as heroic or deserving of that fame. And it infuriates you even further when you see Doyoung freeze in his seat, eyes glued to Claire's face.
"We were studying. I was about to leave now anyway." You mumble , gathering your books and tucking them under your arm.
When Doyoung hears your chair drag across the floor , he snaps out of his trance.
Why were you leaving? You promised you'd help, why couldn't you put away your past tensions and deal with it?
"Hey, where are you going?" He grabs your arm out of the blue, sending a wave of shock jolting through your body.
You immediately pull your hand back, "I'm hungry. I want to eat something."
Claire glares at the two of you and how suspicious your behavior is , you'd always been weird but she never took Doyoung for the weird kind at all.
You quickly jog away from the scene , cheeks tinted red.
Doyoung suddenly comes with a horrendous idea and he knows you'd hate it but in the heat of the moment, this feels like the only sane idea to make you stay and help him .
He looks at Claire directly in the eye ,making sure to keep his voice as loud as possible so you could hear it too,
"Y/n and I are dating."
The red, orange leaves rustle under your feet , disrupting the otherwise silent walk back to the Slytherin dormitories. A cold wind blows and you tighten the muffler around your neck.
"Y/n, I've been looking everywhere for you. "
And there is that leech again, making sure you don't come to have a single second of peace in your already hectic daily lives.
For the past one week, Kim Doyoung has latched himself onto you like a leech latches to it's host.
Wherever you go, he goes. It's maddening.
"I told you to stay away from me, Doyoung! Our deal is over. " you yell at him , your feet picking up a faster pace.
Without even looking back, you know that he is groaning under his breath, the look of hopelessness evident in his otherwise sparkling eyes.
"Our deal was that you help me. You're not helping me out at all! You're treating me like I'm invisible." he replies.
Just how I'd been invisible for years to you, you think.
"I didn't agree to be a bait in this stupid love game of yours. You literally pushed me down the cliff to save yourself. " you say.
You feel a sudden gush of wind on your face and Doyoung is standing right in front of you - inches away, instead of a few feet behind you.
You gasp, "You apparated! Kim Doyoung, this is against the school rules."
Doyoung bites down on his lower lip, throat growing dry with anxiousness.
He couldn't explain why - he'd apparated before within the school grounds and it's been okay then why is he feeling dizzy all of a sudden? But on second thoughts, maybe it wasn't the apparition that caused the dizziness, maybe it was the spooky possibility of you hating him for lying about you two dating that triggered it.
And like salt dissolves in water and disappears into the liquid, Claire- who is the original cause of all of Doyoung 's concern, disappears from his thoughts.
All that matters to him now is that you speak with him again and forgive him for his impulsive words . He wants to assure you that you aren't a bait , at all.
"Just hear me out, please. I promise. " he says, "if you don't talk to me, I'll try to be your friend. I assume you don't want that."
You sigh , pressing a hand to your face, "Okay, spill. And be quick. I have club work."
Doyoung nods, a small smile forming on his lips. He leads you under a bushy tree nearby, sitting down on the stone bench constructed there. You follow suit.
"I'm sorry for telling Claire that we're dating but I was in a critical situation at that time, okay?"
You frown, "That's all you had to say? You aren't here to persuade me into fake dating you so you could make Claire jealous?"
Gosh , Doyoung , why do you keep forgetting your main motive of talking to
y/n?
He blinks at you awkwardly, "Primarily, yes. But now that you've said it...it does sound like a good idea. "
You deadpan. Your eyes close as your lips heave out a tired sigh.
Just when you thought he was here to actually talk to you and not about Claire.
"Fine ,whatever. Just don't be a creep or I'll bury you alive." You huff.
Doyoung giggles as his eyes curve into cute little cresent moons.He has a pretty smile , you catch yourself thinking.
He scoots over closer to you ,pinching your cheek.
"Okay ,madam. I won't creep you out but I cannot guarantee that I won't flirt with you . I have a thing for Slytherin girls, you know.", He winks.
Your cheeks heat up involuntarily.
"Bye. I have work." You get up, walking away hastily.
"Bye! See you tomorrow at The Three Broomsticks," he calls out behind you,"Babe."
You'd never smiled so wide in your life.
Your part time job at The Three Broomsticks has never felt so much like a blessing than right now - when Kim Doyoung casually sits on the floor with you and helps clean the utensils.
"Are guests rare on weekends?" Hs asks as a white cloth floats around in the air, drying up the freshly washed utensils.
"They're less in the morning but it gets very crowded by sun down. Aunt Rosmerta joins me by that time." You reply.
Doyoung nods ,his eyes glaring at the white cloth when it falls at his feet.
"Wingardium Leviosa. " he mutters and the cloth goes back to doing its work, while Doyoung carefully guides it using his wand.
"When do you have to go back?" You ask, purely out of curiosity as to why he is so into the role of your boyfriend when no one is even watching.
You would rather die than admit it , but you liked this attention. A lot more than you thought you would.
"Whenever you're done. A good boyfriend accompanies his girlfriend ,right?"
Oh, the beating of your heart that suddenly picks up its speed at his words. A combination of words you'd never thought you'd hear in this lifetime, from anyone at all.
"Yeah,whatever. " you whisper under your breath.
Doyoung giggles ,leaning forward toward you , "Why are so shy ,y/n?"
"I'm not shy." You smack his forehead, "You're just being a creep."
Doyoung fake gasps, clutching the left side of his chest and blinks his eyes as if he were tearing up.
"Ouch ,y/n,how could you say that to your own boyfriend?"
You roll your eyes but the smile on your lips doesn't disappear.
Before either of you could reply , the door of the pub clicks open and you immediately get up , dusting off your clothes , ready to welcome guests.
Doyoung, who is very new to this , tries to mimic your careful, calculated actions.
"Hello, welcome to the Three Broomsticks-" your words are cut off when you see Claire , as glamorous and confident as ever, walking toward the both of you.
Your heart sinks. You feel betrayed , annoyed even ; just the way little children feel when their favorite toy is taken away from them and given to someone else and Claire has, in fact, had a history of taking away a lot of your favorite toys when you were kids.
"Good morning, Doyoung," she greets him with the prettiest smile but it fades away as she turns to you, "You too ,y/n."
"What do you want?" You ask her, rather terse in tone.
She tilts her head , her bright red tinted lips sending a flirty smile in Doyoung's direction, "I'm here to see my friend Doyoung and well ,his new girlfriend. "
You scoff - since when has Doyoung become her friend? Last you checked, Doyoung wasn't even sure she knew him.
"Since when have you and Doyoung been friends, Claire? That's some news to me." You say.
Claire glares at you, "Well, I've always liked Doyoung. Too bad a dumb girl like you got to him first. I shouldn't have waited for him to approach me first , right?"
Doyoung - who until a minute ago was genuinely mesmerized by Claire's unexpected visit is now turning to frown at her.
"You can take him if you want. I don't mind." You suggest ,turning away from them.
"Yayy, Doyoung ,you heard your girlfriend? Come on , let's go to the candy shop and enjoy there! It'd be so much fun!" Claire pulls at his blue-black muffler.
He backs away a little.
The image of Claire he had in his head was ..well, different from this arrogant , possessive woman in front of him. He feels disappointed but also relieved?
"Um - actually I'd rather stay here and help y/n, " you snap toward him faster than light , "I dislike candies anyway. Sorry, Claire."
When Claire's mouth gapes with surprise, Doyoung leans backward and pulls you into him , arm wrapped around your shoulder and chin resting on your head.
Your heart hammers hard against your chest as all your senses blur away , only the feeling of Doyoung's warm body pressed against yours is what keeps you grounded to reality.
Its fake, y/n , get yourself together.
"Fine. " Claire growls and stomps away, mumbling curses under her breath.
The moment she walks out of the door ,you shove Doyoung away , "What the hell are you doing! She invited you to hang out with her and you let the chance go!"
He blinks at you , puzzled as if he is finally coming back to his senses.
"Oh - oh ,its okay. I'll get another chance since she apparently likes me too. Don't worry about it."
I'm not worrying about it , you idiot , I'm happy about it , you want to say to him.
But there are some words you'd rather never say out loud.
"Where are we going?" Doyoung huffs , jogging down the lush green hill leading straight to the Forbidden Forest.
Fear is evident on his face , and it's rather amusing to see him like this.
"The Forbidden Forest, obviously," you say , pointing at the tall, strong tress that patiently await your arrival into the forest.
"What? Y/n, that's against the school rules. It's way past sun down now!" He hisses but still keeps jogging beside you.
You grin at him, "Says the man who apparates in broad daylight!"
The woods are as cold and spooky as ever , but not unfamiliar. To you atleast. You often come here when you need to get away from everyone else. You would sit at the top of the tallest tree, the soft breeze blowing away all your worries along with it.
And the creatures in the forest have never bothered you anyway.
You don't know why you are bringing Kim Doyoung - your pretend boyfriend- to a place that holds so much importance to you and is like your escape from the world, but this place was the first and only one to come into your mind the moment Doyoung said you should choose the location for your next 'date'.
"So how do we get up there?" Doyoung and you stand at the roots of the tree. He looks up at the branches in awe and you look at him with admiration - when he's not running his mouth around uselessly everywhere ,he's not that bad to be with , you realize.
"We apparate , you idiot."
Wrapping a firm hand around his arm, you apprate to the topmost branch of the tree, the wind suddenly knocked out of your lungs at the sudden shift.
You laugh a little.
"Wow, you're breaking rules." He comments.
He doesn't bother to remove your hand from his and neither do you - so you end up sitting there , shoulders touching and breaths matching.
"You know when I first met you , I almost took you for a Ravenclaw. If it hadn't been for your robe, that is." He says , looking at the beautifully lit school building that seems to be floating around near the horizon. This is more magical than any magic he's ever been taught , he thinks , he'd never seen Hogwarts this way - so far away yet so close, so peaceful, so breathtaking. The starry sky acts like a beautiful backdrop and your soft hand wrapped around his arm makes him ten times more attentive to every sound and every sight. He wants you to never let go - even if Claire or anyone else somehow appears out of nowhere.
"I get that a lot, actually. " you chuckle , "and ironically ,I almost mistook you for a Slytherin."
Doyoung looks at you in amusement.
What a peculiar coincidence!
"But now that I think about it, it doesn't matter what kind of traits you show. The sorting hat doesn't put just traits into consideration- it puts in your will too. You belong where you want to belong. Nowhere else." He replies.
You stare at him, and get embarrassed at how wonderfully close he is to you right now. All your life ,this is what you've craved; this warmth , this closeness and fake or not, you're thankful for it.
"Wow, that's some deep words, Kim Doyoung. I didn't know you had them in you." You comment.
"Hey, why can't you call me something cute?" He whines , "Kim Doyoung is too formal."
You pinch his cheeks, adoration pumping through your veins for the man in front of you. "Okay, I'll call you Dodo then. "
He is left wide eyed again, his face red with embarrassment. He never took you for the observant type at all.
"I heard Jaehyun call you that."
The moon shines at your face , highlighting your features like no make up ever could. He notices your hooded gaze and the happy stretch of your lips and the strands of hair that sway with the wind.
He leans in closer , "Hey, now that I look at you up close , you're not that bad to look at."
You're not that bad to look at either, Dodo.
Jaehyun has this annoying habit of tapping his wand against the table when he is studying , and he has never even tried to rectify himself whenever you call him out several times.
"Can you stop that? I'm trying to study. " you groan in a quiet voice.
The library- much to your dislike - is packed with people this afternoon. Yellows and reds and blues and green , all of them seem to have decided to use the library in the afternoon today of all days.
"Yeah. Sorry. " he says and puts his wand down, flipping the pages of his notebook carelessly ,"but um -y/n, can I ask you something?"
Looking up from your Potions book , you nod , "Yes, of course. "
Jaehyun shifts and gulps ,visibly worried and anxious about whatever he is about to ask you. It's not like him to ever be so nervous around anyone. He was usually very uptight and spoke only when spoken to. This is very new.
"How long are you and Doyoung going to continue this fake dating thing on for? It's been half a month already." He asks.
Now it's your turn to be nervous.
"I-I don't really know. It depends on how fast Doyoung is able to get Claire to go out with him. I guess." You reply with an awkward laugh, "I hope the day comes soon."
You'd been so immersed in fake dating Doyoung all along, trying to spend every waking hour with him , taking care of him, laughing at his stupid jokes that you almost forgot everything was just a show to get Claire to go out with him.
And as Halloween comes closer , you are sure the end of your supposed relationship is coming closer too.
Your heart breaks at the sudden reality check. Like a glass vase thrown on a hard ,wooden floor.
"Okay, don't tell Doyoung I asked you about it - " he pauses when you both hear a woman's voice from behind you , startling the two of you.
"Hello, dear cousin. " Claire says with a big smile. Her arms are crossed in front of her chest, robe loosely tied around her body,"What are you doing in this stupid library on your birthday, y/n? Shouldn't you be celebrating with Doyoung ?"
Her words have never slapped you as hard as they do right now. She's been mean to you for almost half your life , but this time it hurts worse.
You've always been insecure about your birthday, and Claire knows it. She knows how much you hate bringing attention to yourself and you'd rather get some small gifts from your parents than big gifts from people who you barely know.
And she's now using all that against you.
"Or did he not bother to ask you, just like all of your former friends?" She smirks.
You know that feeling when there's a small wound on your body and a single contact to the wounded area hurts unbearably?
That's what her words made you feel like. Sick and pathetic.
But you don't let it surface on your face.
You muster up all your courage before speaking up, "Claire, are you so jealous of me dating Doyoung that you're bringing up past incidents to make yourself feel good?"
Claire is left astonished by your new found boldness and for the first time in forever, she doesn't comment back at you after you turn on your heels and walk away from the scene.
You are far too weak and slow to actually walk down to the Forbidden Forest, so you settle yourself on the top floor of the astronomy tower. The cold ground under you feels weirdly comfortable and the ticking of the grand clock helps you calm down your nerves.
Claire has never treated you like an equal in your entire life and you've tried so hard to ns like her always . To fit in to her ideas of an interesting person. She was your sister, she is your sister yet you've never despised anyone as much as you do now. And to imagine that Kim Doyoung, your Dodo might end up dating her just makes you feel sick to the stomach.
Jealousy is an intense feeling but so is hatred.
You hear quick footsteps walking up the stairs and by impulse, you point your wand in that direction,"Expelli-"
"Hey, hey. Don't 'expelliarmus' me. I'm just here to celebrate my best girl's birthday. "
Kim Doyoung stands in front of you , hands occupied with bags of delicious candies and sweets.
He smiles at you sheepishly as you call him over to sit beside you.
"Why didn't you tell me its your birthday today? This is all I could manage in a span of fifteen minutes." He complains ,placing the bag softly in your lap, "Happy birthday, y/n."
You smile , a little embarrassed but thankful still , "Thanks. Jaehyun told you?"
Doyoung nods ,scooting over closer to you. In presence of so much space on the floor, he somehow manages to almost cuddle with you in a small corner of the place.
Your heart is no longer sitting in the cage of your chest ; it's escaped and landed onto Doyoung's palms ,giving him full freedom to do whatever he wanted with it.
"Doyoung ,I..um.."
"Yeah?"
Words , oh ! words have never been your forte. The only thing you were good at was actions - to express, to show , to communicate . That's all you've ever known.
So you lean in towards his face and place a chaste kiss on his lips.
It lasts for a fraction of a second but your lips are left burning with the desire for more. More of him, more of this.
But when you see his face once you pull away, your blood runs dry.
For a moment, you think so you see a flicker of happiness which quickly gets replaced by coldness, frustration, some degree of anger.
"Y/n, you know I like Claire!" He says , separating himself from you. Your body feels bare, "This was all for her. How could you ever think doing this would be a good idea?"
No,it wasn't for Claire. It was barely an excuse to bother you more, to see you roll your eyes at him , to spend time with you, but as Johnny says , his ego is too big to accept his liking towards you and not Claire.
He gets up.
"I-I will be leaving now."
He hasn't completely put a full stop to your fake relationship, he hasn't even said anything much yet but you know that he's left not just the astronomy tower, he's left you.
All alone. As they always do.
Only the heavens know how you've barely managed to make it through a whole week avoiding Doyoung. The tear stains on your pillow , the muffled sobs in the washroom, the torn pages of your notebook are the only witnesses of your turmoil.
For everyone else, you were still y/n, the girl who barely talks to anyone . And maybe, that's everything you'll ever be no matter how hard you try.
It is Hogsmade Weekend and Halloween which means you'll be packed with guests at the Three Broomsticks. It's a good thing ,you hope, it'll help keep you distracted from any painful thoughts and memories.
The cups and glasses and bottles dance around you as you put the chairs in place, your wand doing most of the work while you quietly murmur spells. It feels rather abnormal not having Doyoung around to help you. It feels too quiet ,even though the quietness is familiar to you.
A faint click sound echoes in the room and you immediately snap to look at the main door.
"Y/n?" Doyoung's head gently pokes in through the small gap in the door, “Happy Halloween.”
Your heart stops beating for a solid second, brain going fuzzy with a mixture of fear, excitement and relief.
You want to run towards him and jump into his arms like how people do in those muggle movies but you restrain yourself; since it's not your place to do that. Not after you'd kissed him out of nowhere a week ago.
"Y-yea?" You stutter nervously, dragging a chair away from the table just to make it look like you are busy with work.
"Can we talk?"
Doyoung has always been very persuasive and he knows exactly what to say at a given instance. He's a Ravenclaw, after all.
So he finds his way towards the table ,shyly so , and he pulls a chair for you to sit on ,"I won't take long, I swear."
You nod and sit. Better to be done with it than avoid it.
"What is it? Shouldn't you be at Madam Puddifoot's Tea Shop? Enjoying with Claire and the other cool people?" You ask.
Doyoung gulps ,"Yes, I was there a minute ago. But it's too noisy there. I don't like it."
And it's too dull without you.
"Okay. What did you want to talk about ?"
He plays with the buttons of his warm looking purple coat, his eyes shifting from the tablecloth to the glasses of gillyweed water to his fingers - anywhere but you.
"I'm sorry about running away that night. It was wrong of me," he begins, "And I regret it. I really do."
"When I went back to the dorms, all I could think about was you and how much I loved hanging out with you and how pretty you look even when you're not trying and how desperately I wished you'd kissed me a second longer that night so I could have kissed you back. Because I really wanted to. "
When you start to reply , he shushes you, "No, it's not Claire that I want. Maybe it never had been because I don't even know her! But I know you and I think you're the coolest person in Hogwarts.
I cannot love Claire, who I know nothing of but I can love you. I want to love you. If you'd let me."
You stare at him , your tongue suddenly losing all it's sense of functioning. Your eyes bore into his ,and you see it - the sincerity, the adoration, the desire. And you realise it has always been there. Just the two of you were too stupid to see it earlier.
"Okay. I guess." You reply , rubbing the back of your neck shyly. Your cheeks are tinted red but you put no effort in hiding it anymore, " I'm sorry, I don't know how dating works. What am I supposed to do?"
Doyoung giggles , tenderly taking your face in his hands, "Just do whatever you want to. It's just me."
"I really want to kiss you. " you whisper and he immediately tilts his head such that his lips easily captures yours.
The kiss is warm and cozy yet fierce. His hands are locked on either side of your face while your lips perfectly mold around his, as if they were meant to be that way since the inception of time.
You don't believe in miracles , given your magical allegiance but you do believe in fate and soulmates. You believe that there's someone for everyone out there - no one knows how or when they'll cross paths with you, but they will surely do it one day. Because no force can stop one from getting the love you deserve.
It's just like a string - there's one person at each end and you're so thankful that it is Doyoung that happened to be at the other end of your string.