#no conflict

[aita-polls]

This is… really stupid. But. I’m spiraling rn and need to know if this is stupid or not. I’m a fan of TADC (the amazing digital circus)(spoilers for EP 9 ahead), and I’m a really big fan of Jax. I, as a trans man with many trust issues, really relate to Jax (although I don’t pull the crap he pulls lmao). It was pretty obvious in EP 9 that Jax is a trans woman, given the subtext such as being punished for being too feminine, Ribbit putting a bow on Jax’s head causing Jax to blush, and the “isn’t she lovely” song.

Initially, and secretly, I had a reaction of silent fear to this as it was sort of an adjustment. I felt like a parent whose kid came out to them and I wasn’t quite ready. I told people that I saw the trans angle but think it was left vague so different people can relate (I wish I didn’t). I had a lot of internal feelings of panic as I realized I have sort of been pushing away relating to women because I don’t want to be perceived as one. And yet I still had a problem with Jax being a woman. Not Jax being trans, but being a woman. I don’t know what dislike is worse. I feel like a terrible person, especially with everyone online saying things like “the people who say Jax isn’t trans/don’t accept Jax is trans are they type of people to xyz transphobic/misogynist thing.”

I’ve been trying to tell myself things like “you can relate to people with different experiences than yourself” and “you can relate to women” but it’s a bit of an adjustment and I feel like I’ve uncovered a tomb of secret bigotry. I feel like it’s relevant that my psychiatrist is working on sussing out OCD, so I might just be on one of my many spirals… but I still feel like a terrible person and need to know if I should be working on myself more. AITA for having a bad reaction to Jax being trans?

ETA: TADC Jax anon here, sorry to bother you again. Is it possible to add that at the end I meant “work on myself more (than I plan on already)” or something to that effect? I realized after the poll went up that my wording on that was bad. Sorry again!

Is anon the asshole?

YTA (you’re the asshole)

NTA (not the asshole)

JAH (justified asshole)

ESH (everyone sucks here)

NAH (no assholes here)

INFO (more information needed)

Voting ended onJun 23

[killieweegie]

Word ☝️

[yoga-onion]

The Quest for Buddhism (45)

Early Buddhism and the disciples

Ten Principal Disciples No. 4: Subhuti - Foremost in understanding emptiness, foremost in being "worthy of gifts", or foremost in "loving-kindness"

Meditating into "absorption loving-kindness" in remote forest, therefore "worthy of almsgiving", and “understanding emptiness”. The image of mindfulness and Zen that is accepted today, both in the East and West, can be attributed to the influence of this figure. Subhuti is another important disciple of the Buddha.

Subhuti was born into a wealthy merchant family in Shravasti, Middle India. His older brother was Anathapindika (Sudatta), who would later become the Buddha's chief male patron, had purchased and built Jetavana Monastery for the Buddha.

Upon hearing the Buddha teach at the dedication, Subhuti became inspired and ordained as a monk under him. After mastering the monastic rules, he went to live in the forest where he attained arahantship while meditating on the "absorption of loving-kindness".

Subhuti became known for teaching the Dhamma "without distinction or limitation", meaning regardless of the listener's potential, and was declared the disciple foremost in "living remote and in peace". It is said that due to his mastery of loving-kindness meditation, any gift offered to him bore the greatest merit for the donor, thus earning him the title of foremost in being "worthy of gifts".

He devoted himself to ascetic practice and never fought with others. Even when he was accused, slandered, or persecuted by the heretics, he never argued, and instead maintained peace and gentle sprit. For this reason, he was said to be the foremost of loving-kindness. Loving-kindness means no conflict, i.e. there is no conflict or hesitation in the mind. The word 'fight' can also be interpreted as meaning 'vexation (Skt.klesa)'.

In the Prajñaparamita Sutra, an early Mahayana scripture, he played the most important role in guiding the Buddha's teaching. He is depicted as a central figure in guiding the "Prajnaparamita Sutra" and, by extension, Mahayana Buddhism, as he actively engaged in discussions and commentaries with the Buddha on emptiness, i.e. prajñaparamita, and bodhisattvas which were the central ideas and practices of the "Prajnaparamita Sutra."

仏教の探求 (45)

初期仏教と弟子たち

十大弟子その四: 須菩提 (しゅぼだい、梵: スブーティ)〜解空第一、被供養第一または無諍(むじょう)第一

人里離れた森で「慈愛の修得」を瞑想し、それゆえに「施しに値する」、「空(虚空:こくう)」を理解する。今日、洋の東西を問わず受け入れられているマインドフルネスや禅のイメージは、この人物の影響によるものと言えるでしょう。スブーティもまた、ブッダの重要な弟子の一人である。

スブーティは、中インドの舎衛国（シュラーバスティー）の裕福な商人の家に生まれた。兄は後にブッダの主要な後援者となるアナタピーンカ(スダッタ)で、ブッダのために祇園精舎(ぎおんしょうじゃ、梵: ジェタヴァナ僧院)を購入し建立した人物である。

ブッダの教えを聞いて感銘を受けたスブーティは、釈迦のもとで出家し、僧の規則を身につけた後、森で生活し、「慈愛の潜心」を瞑想して阿羅漢になった。

スブーティは、「区別なく、制限なく」つまり、聞き手の能力に関係なく仏法(ダンマ)を教えることで知られ、「人里離れた山奥で平和に生きる」ことにおいて最も優れた弟子とされた。慈愛の瞑想に熟達していたため、彼に捧げられたお布施は、贈った人に最大の功徳をもたらすと言われており、「施し物にふさわしい人」とされている。

スブーティは、ひたすら修行に励み、他と争うことがなかった。外道から非難や中傷、迫害を受けても決して言い争うことなく円満柔和を心がけたことから、無諍(むじょう)第一といわれた。無諍とは争いがないこと、すなわち心のなかの葛藤・迷いがないこと。また諍(じょう)は煩悩 (梵: クレーシャ)の意にも解される。

大乗経典の初期の『般若経(はんにゃきょう、梵:プラジュニャーパーラミター・スートラ)』には、仏説を誘導するもっとも重要な役割を果たしている。彼は『般若経』の中心思想である「空＝般若波羅蜜(はんにゃはらみつ)・菩薩(ぼさつ)」などの思想や実践をめぐって、ブッダと問答を交わし、その解説にあたるなど、ひとり盛んに活躍して、『般若経』ひいては大乗仏教を導き出す中心人物として描かれている。

[brightorangerain]

[howifeltabouthim]

And their days make no story, for they were good and joyful and without event.

Tanith Lee, from Night’s Master

[phree-izi]

"I'm in a love triangle with me, I, and myself.”

Saba The Godis

[walkingphotos]

Today's Walking Photo: No, it’s actually not Fairyland and no, I don’t really know what’s going on. But this miniature bench beside a pile of lovely leaves held in place by a well-chosen rock – well, it’s just working for me today. Has a bit of a zen feel to it, which is quite welcome. Breathe in. Breathe out. Repeat.