NGL the way this fandom has behaved lately I kinda hope Gooseworx has a bad ending locked and loaded and keeps the good ending locked in a vault never to be seen again by the light of day until y'all prove you can behave.

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NGL the way this fandom has behaved lately I kinda hope Gooseworx has a bad ending locked and loaded and keeps the good ending locked in a vault never to be seen again by the light of day until y'all prove you can behave.
... (Vent)
Why are they doing this to me? They are making me cry right now. I don't to cry because it will garner my IRL Dad's attention and make him suspicious about what I am crying about.
Do they want the incident of me having to delete my online account because I can't handle the toxicity and drama on there to repeat again? And again? And again? And again? Until I have no online space left to feel safe and trust anyone on?
Until I give up on making art to share with others online?
Does anyone else feel the same?
I am an introvert and socializing drains my energy. (I might also be neurodivergent, but haven't got any professional to look into that, but that's a little besides the point.) Can't look people in the eyes, have worked a lot on how to act politely in close social interactions as not to seem weird etc.
I was thinking about my social anxiety... I have physical symptoms. Most common is sweating, when the conversation gets really though and long.
However! The worst symptoms don't come from real life interactions with people, it comes from online interaction. I can't, for example, enjoy mmorpg's with other people. I get heart palpitations and a headache if someone strikes a conversation. One time I made a comment on a youtube video, and it was so exhausting and stressful that I got a migraine for the rest of the day.
I realized this, because we are currently playing WoW classic with my husband and I make him do all the multiplayer stuff. 😂 (We have only one computer right now so can't play at the same time.)
So anyway I was just wondering why it's reversed like this for me. (When usually introverted socially awkward people are thought to gather online.) Or does anyone else feel kind of safer conversing with people in real life, but get super avoidant and anxious online? Maybe it's because most of the social scene online is really toxic (especially to women)? Or maybe there's some other factors to this too?
*sigh* I hate to admit this but looking back at the (poorly disguised, and fictionalized) vent art I made back in late 2023-2024, it was clear as day that DeviantArt's toxicity was doing a number on my mind and I should've immediately left back then permanently to be on Tumblr rather than stay and let my mental health get worse.
Chililizard, Puszta, Strudel, and the Doomtonium concept idea (c) @chililizardsplayhouse
genuine question why do people feel the need to argue online and then get genuinely mad like it effects them irl
A. I make a point, somebody contests it. I respond. They respond. We have healthy debate because their counterpoint was just as valid as mine. Yay.
B. I make a point, somebody contests it. It’s not a counterpoint or valid, it’s aggressive mean bullshit attacking me. I block them and move on since they clearly don’t care. Yay.
C. I see something I don’t agree with, I respond. They respond, I respond. Even if I don’t change their mind, we’re both civil, and at the end of the day I move on no matter the outcome. Yay.
D. I see something I don’t agree with, I respond. They respond refusing to listen/they’re too set in their opinion/they ignore me/they block me. I block them and move on. Yay.
why
do you care so much
Please always remember: You are loved always.
Yeah. I need to recognize it more often.
I'm in a safer place on Tumblr but my goal now is to break out of this toxic survival mode, and its negative effects on my attitude, that I developed because the drama and toxicity of DeviantArt.
I was constantly in survival mode trying to keep myself safe online but all it ever did was put a strain on my relationship with others.
Not constantly at the start, but immediately after signs of DA going to the dogs started popping up.
I acted so high-strung, uptight and anxiety-ridden because I was in survival mode, trying to protect myself.
I've thought it before, but this video is more proof. Social media turns people into psychopaths. Or rather, it brings out the most psychopathic, toxic traits in people.
This brand owner messed up, immediately apologized and fixed the mistake, but still received death threats and a tirade of vile messages, all over insufficiently filled lip gloss.
People have literally gone insane, lost the plot and all connection to reality.
It's the same vile behavior we have seen in fandoms again and again. People are angry at some perceived (and sometimes valid) injustice, and then react in a way they would never dare to in real life. They hide behind the anonymity of the internet, but more so, they lose sight of their opponent being a real, breathing human being - whether that human being is a rich and influential TV producer, or a CEO of a (small) beauty brand, or a fellow fan.
People are, through the distance social media creates, genuinely losing that grasp of reality. It's all just a bunch of words; it's easily and quickly typed and sent.
More so, social media 'bubbles' can create the impression of togetherness and community; many similarly disappointed and frustrated people will rile each other up and encourage each other to express their - in their perception righteous - anger. Instead of realizing that such entitlement would not fly in real life and therefore probably shouldn't fly in online life either, people remain in that toxic microcosm where they do not need to examine their stances or be confronted with healthy amounts of conflict and healthy ways of dealing with it.
I say that as someone who is on social media and wants to remain so, but last year's ship war in my main fandom 9-1-1, as well as many smaller, individual experiences and incidents of people behaving in such reality-detached ways have made me take a few steps back and put up boundaries again. They have reminded me that, while many things feel big, important and very real on the internet, for the most part they are not real. Friendships online are rarely true and lasting, communities can fall apart quickly, or they can turn from fun to immensely toxic, extremely fast.
Anyway, just a small personal 'rant', or analysis, if you will. If you ever feel like things are becoming toxic around you in the online communities you frequent, it is time to remind yourself of this fact: online life is not real life. It never will be. Please take care of your real one, your real human interactions, and when you're online, not only protect yourself from toxic influences but watch yourself and don't let the flow drag you away into a cesspool of toxicity.
Sometimes I engage with a low-toxicity-level discourse/troll as some sort of negativity vaccine.