hi! guess who’s back!!
i made some blinkies for the schizophrenia spectrum in honor of me learning that i have a psychotic disorder lol

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hi! guess who’s back!!
i made some blinkies for the schizophrenia spectrum in honor of me learning that i have a psychotic disorder lol
TEASING BUT POSSESSIVE YANDERE × SHY AND OBEDIENT M! READER
☆⋆。𖦹°‧★☆⋆。𖦹°‧★𖤐⭒๋࣭☆⋆。𖦹°‧★☆⋆。𖦹°‧★𖤐⭒๋࣭
☆⋆。𖦹°‧★☆⋆。𖦹°‧★𖤐⭒๋࣭☆⋆。𖦹°‧★☆⋆。𖦹°‧★𖤐⭒๋࣭
You were sitting alone in a little cafe near your home when someone suddenly tapped you on the shoulder, waking you up from being dazed.
"Excuse me? Is this seat taken?"
You looked at him, being dazed again, but not because of daydreaming, but because the man in front of you is incredibly handsome.
Those eyes that seem so beautiful, like it's hooking you to open up for him, that face that looks like it had been favored by God.
He suddenly chuckled, making you embarrassed for being dazed while looking at him — and particularly drooling...
"Ah, sorry... Ah, no..." You smiled shyly.
He sat across from you while smiling and resting his head on his chin.
You thought that's all there is, he sat across from you because there's no seat taken, nothing more.
You're not too delusional to actually think he sat there because he is interested in you, are you?
But to your surprise, he actually talked to you.
Laughing while asking you a lot of stuff, he's too... obvious that he's interested in you...
You shake your head, thinking that you're more delusional than you think!
To actually think that someone like him would like you!
...
You talked and talked, and more and more people came and left the cafe.
And finally... "So... Can I have your number?" He actually asked for your number!! How lucky!
"I currently don't have a number on my emergency contact... Will you be one?" He chuckled while asking you.
And you nod like a chicken.
I mean, who are you to decline, huh?!
After that, he stood up. "Then I'll call you later to plan our date tomorrow."
"D-date?!" You are currently in great disbelief.
"What... You don't want to?" He frowned.
"No-no, ofc I want to!! So... call me."
You're currently so red right now, and you know it... and you know it!!! It's making you wish to just bury your whole body in dirt.
...
And so... after that unexpected... date? He actually called you.
"How about we go on a movie date? What about an amusement park?" He asked slowly.
But you can't really focus the whole call, he... he is just wearing a bathrobe right now... how can you focus?!
"U-uhm... you choose," you said, stammering, absolutely so freaking shy, you keep burying your head in a pillow, hoping he won't see the redness on your face.
But well... let's just say you've failed, utterly failed.
He looked at you, smiling, while intentionally putting the phone closer to his chest...
And so you didn't even remember what happened on the call... and you don't even know how it ended.
You just know that the two of you are going to the amusement park tomorrow.
You keep on turning left and right, hoping to get him out of your mind, but of course you failed.
And so the next day, the day the two of you are going on a REAL date, you looked like a panda.
He laughed at you the whole day, kept saying how you looked like a panda as if it's not really his fault!
You grumbled angrily... and were utterly shy and embarrassed the whole date.
But when you got home, you totally forgot what even happened on the whole date.
Why?
He kissed you! Suddenly! What in the actual hell?!
And what did he just say after that?!
"𝘠𝘰𝘶 𝘭𝘰𝘰𝘬𝘦𝘥 𝘴𝘰 𝘤𝘶𝘵𝘦 𝘸𝘩𝘦𝘯 𝘺𝘰𝘶'𝘳𝘦 𝘴𝘩𝘺 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘰𝘣𝘦𝘥𝘪𝘦𝘯𝘵"
Shy and obedient?!
...
But after that... you're actually happy when you heard him say that...
When you hear your boyfriend say that...
That's right, after just three months of being texting and hanging out together, you have a boyfriend!
"Baby..." He hugged you from behind while you cook, and then kissed you.
And as always, your face, which was just calm, turned into a bright shade of pink.
He chuckled and kissed you more.
You're absolutely happy and shy when he's with you and absolutely adore him.
The only downside of dating him is probably that he's too possessive of you.
"Anyway..." He suddenly said while hugging you, "who is this Hanna?"
He turned serious, looking at you coldly.
He always looks at your phone, so you're used to it by now.
"My coworker," you said slowly, hoping he won't lash out.
"Coworker?" He mumbled, his grip on you tightening.
"Mhn... hurt..."
He didn't let go, just holding you more tightly.
"Ok... I'll block her..." You said, looking at him wrongly.
He chuckled and kissed you. "Good boy," then he walked to the living room, still checking every corner of your phone.
You sighed and thought, you better not let him get angry, otherwise...
You shudder just imagining that punishment.
You looked at your ankle, just recently healed.
You actually didn't know what happened to him.
The first month of your relationship, he's calm, teasing, and loving.
But suddenly he turned into something else.
Always imagining you cheated, always insecure, irrational, and out of control.
You don't know why he turned like that.
But... you love him.
...
Everything is just normal.
Until you noticed some red stains on his shirt.
It's definitely not lipstick.
Your heart shrank.
But you didn't say anything, just... observing him.
You know you shouldn't even think about it... but...
Recently, he turned even more out of control, always lashing out and accusing you.
He even got into a fight recently because he thought you cheated.
And... recently there is a killer going out of control near your area.
...
The two of you are just walking in the park, when suddenly he grabbed you behind the tree and choked you.
"Why are you looking at someone else?!" He shouted, his eyes going out of control.
"No... no... you shouldn't look at someone else... you should only look at me!! How dare you look at someone! If you take another look, I'll gouge out your eyes!" He said, choking you even more.
You're scared, so scared.
Why is he being like this? This... is not your lover... he... is scary.
You put up with that. You love him.
But one night you saw him carrying a plastic trash bag... and after that, he actually got a shovel from who knows where.
Then... he saw you. He looked at you in the eye.
Your eyes shrank and you hurriedly locked all the doors and windows, hiding in the closet, calling the police.
"Hello... hic... please come... I-... th-there is a murder happening near my house... hic... he saw me," you said, crying as quietly as you can.
The police officer tried to calm you down.
But then there is a sudden loud noise outside the door.
"Come out!! I know you're there!" Then... he laughed loudly. "Do you think you will be able to get away from me by locking the door?! I'll tell you what! You will never get away from me! Never in your life! You're mine!" He said, out of breath and out of control.
You leaned closer, getting deeper inside the closet, hoping that it will bring you more security.
A moment later, loud noises can be heard outside the door, and more chaos.
"Mr., you're safe now, we are police officers, please open the door."
You slowly walked towards the door and timidly opened it.
The officer sighed. "Why is this always happening to you..." he mumbled.
You looked towards the chaos below the apartment.
Your lover... is getting tied up by the officers and him getting more and more out of control.
He kept on shouting your name.
The police officer looked at you and sighed.
"Please come with me..." Before he finished, you said, "can I just come with you later... I... I'm scared, I don't want..." you trembled.
The police officer agreed.
In normal cases, you should come, but he just let you go.
"Don't be scared, your uncle— the deputy chief will take care of this," he said, patting you on the back.
You just nodded while trembling and went inside after he's gone.
After you closed the door.
All the emotions, the terror disappeared.
Leaving nothing.
You slowly walked inside, calmly.
As if all that mess earlier had nothing to do with you.
You slowly took the medicine pills on the corner of the table and the diffuser on top of your coffee table.
Pulled out the locked box from under your bed, opened it, and shoved the medicine and diffuser inside, locked it before putting it back where it came from.
...
"Excuse me, is this seat taken?"
"No, it's not," you smiled.
We love people with low and no empathy here!
A este punto estoy entre la delgada línea de tener un brote psicótico o volverme loca por siempre
Different Forms of Love - Mx_Akkyn78 on AO3
If I am not bothered by my delusions and hallucinations in the sense that they comfort me, does this mean it’s not psychosis or is that another symptom™️
Btw calling something psychotic when you mean weird or scary gets you an instant block no exceptions
Why can i imagine that i have bugs in my mouth but not that someone could love me