I just think that choosing your own name should be a part of everyone's life, whether you're trans or not. You should be allowed to choose something you like that suits you rather than just accept something given to you before you were even aware you existed. And if you like your given name good for you, but you should be able to just... pick a new one, without question or pushback from others, including the people who named you.
you know that uncomfortable feeling where every masculine person that was afab in mainstream media, HAS to absolutely have a "oh I LOVE feminity actually omg I am such a woman hippity-dee do I love womanhood dw I'm not ONLY masculine I'm not a MAN and if I wanted to be a man that was just my insecurity at being a woman because I am a WOMAN and wanting to be a man is BAD because IM NOT and my entire character arc will be about realising how much of a woman I really am, how wrong i was to be masculine and the story will end with me growing out my hair and wearing more feminine clothing, this will be unilaterally treated as a good thing by the narrative"
Summary: A simple look into your night routine with Eren.
Content: Modern AU, Fluff, kissing, cuss words, you and Eren are grown, both around your 30s, other characters mentioned, pet names (Honey, Love), female reader, Eren has tattoos, reader is hinted to be black (bonnet mentioned).
The TV was playing softly in the background. The television comedy series, The Big Bang Theory, brings back memories of your high school years. When you and your friends would sit in the living room, laughing and talking. Additionally, the show was on when you first time you met Eren. As you gained awareness, you spotted Eren getting ready for bed. Eren had taken off his top and was now in sweatpants. He climbed into bed to read one of the novels you had recommended to him. While you were putting on the silky lavender pajamas and the EOS vanilla Cashmere lotion he had gotten for you.
Eren was so focused on his book that he didn't see you when you joined him in bed. However, as he noticed you, he turned back to face you and placed his book down. Eren grabs the remote and begins watching his favorite show, "The Witcher." While he was enjoying his screen time, you were browsing through your phone, looking for deals and new coffee shops to try. "Do you work tomorrow?" you said, glancing at an elegant pink shimmering purse.
You sat up, turned to face his bare chest, and played with his tattoos. Eren's hand touches yours and begins to softly massage the back of your hand. "No, not tomorrow; I'm off. I work on Sundays, so I'll be late for lunch with the group." He says this while kissing the back of your hand and facing the television. "That's fine; the fun won't truly begin until Con brings the BBQ. But I was wondering if we could take some time out. "I want to go shopping and find a new coffee shop." Eren turned to face you with a small smile on his face. Eren turned to face you with a small smile, "I think being on your phone before bed shouldn't be allowed ever again." You and he both started to laugh since you had a tendency to scroll and find whatever you wanted.
"Can we?" You said once more, wanting to spend time with and, of course, getting what you want at the same time. "Yes, we can, but you have to promise me that if we go tomorrow, then I get to pick what we have for dinner". You let out a loud sigh, knowing what he was going to pick. "Deal". You moved yourself to lie back and plugged your phone up. Putting on your bonnet, lip sleeping mask, and then turning off the lamp on your side. "Don't stay up too late or you might miss breakfast," giggling the last part as you put on your lip sleeping mask.
Turning over to turn off the lamp and put on your bonnet. Making sure the alarm clock had been switched on and that everything was plugged in. You lightly giggled at the end, turning back to him to get comfy for the night. He chuckled while turning off his lamp and lowering the TV volume for you. "I won't and I sure as hell won't miss breakfast either." He wrapped his right arm around you, bringing you in closer. Landing a kiss on your cheek and whispering goodnight in your ear.
He begins to feel sleepy at 10:40 p.m., listening to your smooth breathing and faint snoring. He was frequently the first to fall asleep, but he preferred to watch his show first. When the final episode finished airing, he gradually relaxed. He didn't want to wake you up. Entangle his body with yours. At 11, the house was silent and dimly lit up by the wall flowers. The street lights were on, and the faint barking of dogs was in the distance while you two slept. The house is filled with love and sweet oranges. You couldn't have asked for anything better.
... Greetings. I am the introject of Mihono Bourbon that my system's host had introduced yesterday. I would like to share an insight I have retrieved from our collective's memory logs.
Attitudes inherited from my source and data logs of my source's behavior indicates that her posture is rigid, straight, and at-attention. Although, to be precise, the definition of "instinct" does not align with this expectation, a search through my database for how others have used "instinct" or "instinctual" in a non-literal sense have let me to describe my, and my source character's, desire to straighten my posture as "on instinct."
... However -- when I attempt to do so, our shared body is... pulled downward in a few seconds' time. Based on the current environmental conditions I am able to scan for, there is no physical force that should be acting on our body, nor are there any bodily factors -- such as abnormal lack of back muscle tone or spinal deformity -- that my sensors are able to detect. In other words, the cause of the poor posture that other alters in this system seem to gravitate to seems to be primarily a psychological (non-literal) "instinct." Data collected from others and from our own shared databases suggests that one of the causes for our host in particular might be the feeling of discomfort with the shape of their body and the presence of certain physical features, which registers as an aspect of their gender dysphoria.
Therefore, I will now register this file in our shared memory as an emerging instance of the beliefs and preferences of alters in this system, excluding the alter which has been registered as an "anger holder," contradicting each other or coming into conflict. I currently do not have enough saved information in this folder to elaborate further on the extent to which alters in this system come into conflict.
...I apologize if my method of communication is unnecessarily lengthy or imprecise. Though my processors are not particularly well-suited for open-ended conversation, and though I have chosen to turn off reblogs, I do not mind if any of the friends who we communicate with on this platform initiate conversation regarding this post. Thank you.
• this blog is for adults. I do not want to interact with anyone who is not an adult. minors will be blocked on sight.
• mostly an aesthetic blog of sorts, but the aesthetic is stuff that I find neat. Sort of like a raccoon digging through trash.
• basic interests: computer hardware, philosophy, media analysis, politics, sociology, anthropology, quantum physics, chess, art, boxing, tetris, social engineering, fashion, video games, photography, filmmaking, storytelling, current events.
• I am the Pope Raccoon.
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Is it internalized ableism to put I'm disabled in the disclaimer section? Who knows. Anyway;
I'm disabled & chronically ill. You'll probably see me posting about that on occasion. Unfortunately the mind is inseparable from the body and this cannot be rectified.
I have a whole list of mental illnesses but the ones I talk about the most & how they affect me are:
tunes, music, jams, bangers, me, selfie, my inbox 📥, real, official raccoon post , (will add more later, trying to figure out how to add tags that have spaces in them here bc I can't link them for some reason)
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I'm a council communist and a feminist. I enjoy reading quite a bit and do my best to stay informed. I am not a progenitor of misinformation. I do a lot of thinking about philosophy. My main niches at the moment are radical constructivism, post structuralism, phenomenology, and model dependent realism. I'm also a non-dualist.