Shadow Milk and Pure Vanilla's new Kingdom/Battle interactions have had me turning their dynamic around in my brain, and as the guy that made the fuckin. Shmilk and Silent Salt are narrative foils essay. I feel semi-obligated to write down my analysis of their dynamic too. So uh. Time for another essay yippee!!!
Gonna preface this by saying I don't really ship these two romantically. I don't have anything against the pairing(other then finding the oversaturation of it a tad annoying), I just can't really picture Shmilk in a romantic relationship. Feel free to use this analysis for shipping purposes if you want, I just feel its important to note that thats not the lense Im using to analyze their dynamic. Especially because I'm tagging it as ship to get more eyes on this analysis-
So, the thing that I think is the most important to note about their dynamic right out the gate is that it seems like Shadow Milk, on some level, WANTS to be friends with Pure Vanilla. Shmilk is a deeply lonely person, due to a combination of the circumstances of his creation and his own tendancy to push people away on purpose, so of course he'd want to form some kind of connection with his "other half". Plus, he's the one that INITIATES his and PV's kingdom conversation by saying; "The Cookie Kingdom, huh? This place is really..." This bitch was trying to start small talk! That's not really something you do with someone you don't want to bond with. Likewise, Pure Vanilla also wants to be friends with Shadow Milk. Despite all the shit Shmilk puts him through during the Spire of Deciet episodes, PV still offers him friendship and redemption. Still reaches out to him.
First of all, Shmilk is seemingly allergic to genuine emotional connection. I mean he literally vibrates for like a full minute at the end of his kingdom interaction with PV that's gotta be some kind of allergic reaction. But outside of that, he also very clearly refuses to connect with anyone else in his life beyond the surface level. His relationship with Black Sapphire and Candy Apple, in canon, feels very strictly boss and lackee, despite him honestly being pretty good to them all things considered. He also keeps his fellow Beasts at an arms length, intentionally pissing them off so they don't try to get any closer. Shadow Milk, despite being lonely as fuck, seems like he's genuinely afraid of actual emotional connection, at least to some degree.
Then there's also the fact that Pure Vanilla is constantly striving to be a hero while Shadow Milk is desperate for everyone to see him as a villain. PV's entire motivation is that he wants to help people, make the world a better place, and be someone others can look up to. He uses his magic to heal, to support the people around him. He wants to be everyone's friend. This desire also leads into his biggest flaws; his self sacrificing nature and his deathly fear of conflict. Pure Vanilla's goal of being a hero defines literally everything about him. Meanwhile, Shadow Milk's desparation to be the villain ALSO defines his entire being. I already talked about the way Shmilk villainizes himself in depth in my analysis of him and Silent Salt, but the gist of it is that Shadow Milk does literally everything in his power to make the people around him see him as the villain. Unlike the other Beasts, who kinda just let their actions speak for themselves, Shadow Milk WANTS YOU to see him as evil. He takes his role of the antagonist with so much pride, playing up his villainy constantly despite being the only Beast we've never seen cause any large scale damage directly.
Pure Vanilla and Shadow Milk both want to play opposite roles, even if Shmilk is the only one that would phrase it like that if you asked him. PV is humble, he doesn't want people to see him as a hero so much as he wants to actually be one, while Shadow Milk cares more about being percieved as a villain by individual people then actually being one on a large scale. It's the way they most directly parallel eachother, and it's a big part of why Shadow Milk fucking HATES IT when Pure Vanilla offers to be his friend despite everything he put him through. His villainy is his way of taking control of his life after years of being stuck without any, so to have somebody just disregard that entirely and offer to be his friend? That's terrifying. He is no longer in control of that situation. So he lashes out, trying to take control of his image back by force. It doesn't work very well but yknow-
But wait, there's more! Shadow Milk's hatred of Pure Vanilla actually goes EVEN DEEPER then that, because Pure Vanilla is also a physical manifestation of all of Shadow Milk's Virtue Trauma!
Shadow Milk is, of all the Beasts, the most angry about the way they've all been collectively treated. This is another thing I talk about in depth in my other essay, but I think Shmilk's rage is the most obvious in his relationship to the Silver Tree. He clearly fucking HATED his time being trapped in there. Like, it made him so fucking angry. His official introduction is him breaking out of tree jail, and then he literally kills the warden. He also has this line:
Which I think speaks for itself here. All this, combined with the fact that he's the only Beast besides Silent Salt to ever comment on their imprisonment at all, makes it very clear that he is Especially Pissed about it. Shadow Milk is the way he is because of the ways he was dehumanized as a virtue. He's desperate to forge his own identity because the one he was given by the witches caused him so much pain. So of course, he would be the most angry about their imprisonment, the most angry about the way they were discarded and replaced. Like broken toys. Or microwaves.
And to him, Pure Vanilla is the physical representation of all of that. Pure Vanilla is not only the one who took away half his power, he's also his REPLACEMENT. Living proof that he was only ever meant to be an object. Proof that he is not a person. And what makes it worse is that Pure Vanilla is exactly what the Fount was supposed to be!!! All of the statues we see of Fount depict him as very similar to Pure Vanilla. Eyes closed, a calm, benevolent expression on his face. Even his outfit looks more like Pure Vanilla's then it does Shadow Milk's!
Pure Vanilla is kind, he's honest, he's an amazing leader, and most importantly; people fucking love him. He is exactly what the Witches wanted when they created Shadow Milk, and still got the respect Shadow Milk never could. And I think Shmilk knows that. And it drives him fucking insane, because if his replacement is better then him in every possible way then... what does that mean for him? What does that say about his place in the world?
That is, I think, the key to understanding his dynamic with Pure Vanilla. It's not just about Shadow Milk's allergy to emotional connection, and it's not just about opposing beliefs. Shadow Milk can't be friends with Pure Vanilla, because that would mean admitting that PV is right, and if he admits that PV is right... to him, it would mean admitting that his treatment as a Virtue was right. That all the abuse he suffered, the years of being forced into an identity that just didn't fit, years of dehumanization, and subsequent imprisonment in sensory deprivation hell were all justified. Because Pure Vanilla is, to him, the physical manifestation of everything he was supposed to be. A man who is better at the thing Shmilk was LITERALLY CREATED FOR then he could ever be. The one he was discarded for. If Pure Vanilla is right and Shadow Milk is wrong, that would mean the Fount of Knowledge was right too.
Obviously, none of that is true. No matter how much better PV would've been as the Fount of Knowledge then Shmilk was, it does not mean that Shmilk is inherently a useless failure. But I think Shadow Milk still believes that, at least subconciously, and it's the biggest obstacle in the way of his redemption. Shadow Milk can not and will not accept help so long as he feels he is under threat of having his personhood taken away again. It's also probably a big part of why he tried to turn PV over to deciet! It wasn't just that he wanted to prove his way is better, it was also about proving to HIMSELF that his way is INEVITABLE. That he isn't a failure, because even his seemingly perfect replacement gave up the way he did.
Anyway uuuhhhhhh sorry if that was super rambly, I just have. A lot of feelings about Shadow Milk Cookie. I don't think I put enougb focus on PV's side of things, but tbf he isn't going into this dynamic with the same type of baggage Shmilk is, like he literally had no idea the Beasts even existed before Shmilk broke out, so his side of things is relatively less complicated. I also just have a lot more passion for Shmilk as a character because I find him significantly more relatable- but yeah uh. That about raps up this essay I suppose. I don't have much else to say except Ig that I hope u liked it :)