Look i'm here again, faced the crossroad before, facing it again. This Crossroad is not a normal one, it feels like a Rubik's cube, like when i take the right path, things switches up on their own, like i took the wrong path. Been a long time i faced a crossroad, i ran from it, 'cause it kept deceiving me... right turns to wrong and I keep falling, that's why I distanced myself for years.
But as you know you always wanna give a try at where you suck at. Me writing this text means I'm about to suck again, maybe I might not suck this time, now that i realize it early enough.
It's like a farmer who planted his crops after weeks of taking care of them by watering them, good sunlight, they refused to grow. He even bought more manure to help them grow better but no difference. At this point the farmer can't really do anything again than to give up and he's about to give up but he's just still having the last hope to see what happens. I'm at the crossroad now and I'm not taking any road this time. Waiting there this time till I lose patience... this crossroad is not a crossroad that you have to decide which path you wanna take. Where you heading to could come and meet you at the crossroad.