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[knuttydraws]

More shirtless DAI hunks? More shirtless DAI hunks

[daitranscripts]

Griffon Wing Keep Conversation

Knight-Captain Rylen

Rylen: You're early! We've barely been set up a week. I have a patrol out at the moment. Some of the men sighted darkspawn in the area.

If the ritual tower has not been cleared of bandits: Rylen: I have reports that bandits have taken up squatting in the fortress the Wardens abandoned.

If the ritual tower has been cleared of bandits: Rylen: The Venatori have retreated, but scouts haven't pinpointed where they've gone yet.

If the well has not been cleared: Rylen: We're reasonably well entrenched here, but the keep's water supply has been… problematic. It's causing delays. I'll prepare the troops for inspection at once.

Dialogue options:

General: What’s this about bandits? [1]

General: Tell me about the darkspawn. [2]

General: Problem with the water supply? [3]

Investigate: Tell me about yourself. [4]

Investigate: Give me a status report. [5]

General: That’s all. [6]

1 - General: What’s this about bandits? PC: Report. What's the situation in the Wardens' fortress? Rylen: Bandits moved in. Worse than quillbacks, if you ask me. They're holed up in there and using it as a base to strike at our supply caravans. Blasted scavengers. [Return to dialogue tree.]

2 - General: Tell me about the darkspawn. PC: What can you tell me about the darkspawn in the area? Rylen: The darkspawn seem to have emerged since we took the keep. I've warned the troops not to engage unless absolutely necessary. We don't need a blight in the ranks. We have to find whatever hole the monsters came from and seal it. [Return to dialogue tree.]

3 - General: Problem with the water supply? PC: What's wrong with the water supply? Rylen: The fort's well is full of garbage. Blasted Venatori threw corpses in there. There's an oasis nearby, but a varghest claimed it. Doing a decent job of keeping us away, too. Four soldiers have already fallen to venom and claws. We'll need reinforcements to drive the monster out. [Return to dialogue tree.]

4 - Investigate: Tell me about yourself. PC: We haven't met, have we? What's your name, soldier? Where have you served? Rylen: I beg your pardon, Inquisitor. Knight-Captain Rylen at your service. I served with the templars in Starkhaven until they all ran off to the hills, barking at the moon. Commander Cullen offered me a job, and I was glad to do anything to help stop all this madness.

Dialogue options:

Investigate: What are your duties? [7]

Investigate: How do you know Cullen? [8]

Investigate: You didn’t leave the Chantry? [9]

Investigate: Do you like your current job? [10]

[Return to main dialogue tree.]

7 - Investigate: What are your duties? PC: What are your duties here, Captain? Rylen: I am Commander Cullen's second-in-command. As such, I handle logistics for many of our more high-risk missions. I also coordinate reports for the commander from agents out in the field. [Return to previous tree.] 8 - Investigate: How do you know Cullen? PC: If you were in Starkhaven, how do you know Cullen? Rylen: After Kirkwall… exploded… Starkhaven sent aid. Rubble fell on much of the city. A lot of people were homeless or trapped in collapsed buildings. I coordinated rescue efforts and met Cullen while he was trying to command what was left of Kirkwall's templars. [Return to previous tree.] 9 - Investigate: You didn’t leave the Chantry? PC: You didn't want to leave the Chantry with the others of your Order? Rylen: Sacred duties are all well and good, but someone needs to do real work now and then. If the barracks are on fire, I'm going for water, not standing around smiting the ash for heresy. Ah… respectfully speaking, of course, Inquisitor. [Return to previous tree.] 10 - Investigate: Do you like your current job? PC: How is the Inquisition treating you so far, Captain? Rylen: It's good work. Some of it's a touch batty, but I'm always glad to be doing something useful, Inquisitor. There's no shortage of things that need repaired, shored up, or just a good bucket of water dumped on them. [Return to previous tree.]

5 - Investigate: Give me a status report. PC: Report, Captain. What's the situation in the Western Approach?

After Here Lies the Abyss: Rylen: It's been eerily quiet since the Wardens left. Now I'm just waiting like a cat in a room full of rocking chairs. We've already had an Archdemon. I don't want to guess what'll come next.

After Wicked Eyes and Wicked Hearts: Rylen: Compared to what you must have seen in the Winter Palace, this place is calm. All we've got are man-eating giant lizards, lunatics, monsters, and a giant hole full of darkspawn. At least nobody's asked us to dance with them.

After defeating the Abyssal High Dragon: Rylen: We're all breathing a little easier with that dragon gone. I wouldn't want to be up on the ramparts when a monster like her appeared, that's for sure.

After destroying the red lyrium at the Sand Rock Mine Rylen: I've had scouts investigate that red lyrium operation you smashed. I don't think anyone's getting into that cave any time soon.

After clearing out the Venatori: Rylen: The last vestiges of the Venatori are on the run, Inquisitor. We've had a few skirmishes with the stragglers. Nothing serious.

Post-game: Rylen: The men celebrated for three solid days when you sealed the Breach, Inquisitor. We haven't seen much happening out here since then, and I am not complaining.

No other available response: Rylen: Business as usual, Inquisitor. Sandstorms, deadly wildlife, people other than us mad enough to come out here. If anything noteworthy happens, you'll know.

[Return to dialogue tree.]

6 - General: That’s all. PC: Carry on, Captain. Rylen: Yes, Inquisitor.

[dragon-age-tournament]

Round #1 — Match 87 of 104

Strife

No propaganda submitted.

vs. Knight-Captain Rylen

“he refused to go along with the whole “templars vs the chantry” spiral, followed cullen into the inquisition, and then ends up holding down griffon wing keep like it’s just another wednesday. also his face tattoos are a gift. i don’t know what his backstory is there but i support whatever choices were made”

“Inquisitor: So what’s happening in the Western Approach? Rylen: supplies, scouting, fort status, enemy movements. Inquisitor: wow. a grown-up.”

Who should advance?

Strife

Rylen

Voting ended onDec 30, 2025

[randomnessfangirl]

I just realized that I created an oc who's basically these two characters mashed up together

[animezinglife]

I firmly believe that while he’s practical and professional, Rylen’s a cheeky bastard at heart who cannot resist making a quip or two towards Cullen about the latter’s relationship with the Inquisitor at least once.

[knuttington]

DA ships tag game!

Ha, @p0lkadotdotdot, you surely thought I forgot you tagged me! but no! At last I have a moment to breathe and join the game.

It's been ages so I have no idea who would still like to join and who already did it, but tagging @kittynomsdeplume @lavellanvibes @plisuu @blackwallmancer @kojottek @raflesia65 @librivore42 and idk EVERYONE.

Rules: Use this as a writing prompt or simply explain (via text, gif, song, meme--however you'd like) the first impressions your chosen pairing had of each other.

(Personally i wont go with fiction since I intend to write it properly one day. But i will ✨explain✨)

Farie Lavellan x Knight Captain Rylen

Farie

She was on high alert ever since she had come to Haven. Not only it was basically in her job description, to notice and observe everything and everyone, it was also a matter of safety. So Rylen, at first, was just another object to study. She knew straight away that he was a high ranked officer and, oh dear, an ex-templar. She knew some of his habits. She probably smirked to herself once or twice after hearing one of his quips in passing. She noticed that people under his command respected him. Every bit of information could prove useful in the future.

The "second first meeting", when she had arrived to her post in the Western Approach, was less than ideal (in her eyes), because she didn't recognise him!!!!! 1. For about 3,5 seconds, 2. when he had his back turned, 3. as he was repairing a shed 4. and she just arrived after crossing the literal desert alone. So she was too distracted by her own *tragic incompetence* to focus entirely on him. But during this first personal conversation the first seeds of mutual sympathy (and maybe a first friendly joke - wait, was he flirting?) were planted.

Rylen

So, remember that bit about Farie watching him closely and taking mental notes? Well, he straight up didn't notice her then. Like, at all. In his defence, Farie was perfect at blending into the crowd and not being noticed when she didn't want to. And he had a lot going on. Including other bonnie lasses tbh. Let's forgive him, he didn't know yet what fate had in store for him.

When she had first arrived at Griffon Wing Keep tho... Oh well, that's a whole different story. She was not trying to hide - seriously, who has energy for that, in one place where you can feel relatively safe (except for being fried to a crisp daily). And since they basically bumped into eachother the first moment she arrived, he had no choice but to notice her. And man, did he like what he saw. He thought it was going to be all smooth sailing - a pretty bird, not under his command, crossing her paths with him on daily basis, being subjected to his unfailing charm in regular intervals? Well. We all need to learn our lessons, Rylen.

[the-arcane-archivist]

Good Gifts

Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Archive Warning: No Archive Warnings Apply Category: F/M Fandom: Dragon Age: Inquisition Relationship: Cullen Rutherford/Female Trevelyan Characters: Cullen Rutherford, Cullen Rutherford's Family, Cullen Rutherford's Mabari, Raleigh Samson Additional Tags: Satinalia (Dragon Age), Wintersend (Dragon Age), Cullen Rutherford Fluff, POV Cullen Rutherford, Sweet Cullen Rutherford, Cullen Rutherford's Lucky Coin, Andrastianism (Dragon Age), Married Characters, Domestic Fluff, Christmas Fluff, Slight AU

A few years after Trespasser, we join Cullen and Anaia--now titled and landed in Ferelden--during their holiday activities. In a moment where Cullen is reflecting on all he's been blessed with, he’s reminded that not all have been as lucky as he has. Begrudgingly, he goes to motivate the last person on Thedas he'd like to share the holiday joy with. Little does he know that while he's been made busy with various tasks, including this one, some conspirators have been preparing his gift. Will it be a good one?

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Cullen woke with a start, though to his growing relief, he found the nightmares that still lingered no longer clung to him as he welcomed the morning. He prayed his jolt hadn't woken Ana but as he reached his hand out to find her and pull her against him, he found her side of the bed empty and the sheets cold. His eyes snapped open at this; rarely did Ana wake before him. Relief washed over him as he found a note atop her pillow written in her elegant script:

Good morning, husband.

I woke to the first snowfall and simply could not go back to sleep for the joy watching the large flakes brought me. What a gift the Maker has given us this holiday eve. I would've woken you, but you were sleeping soundly, and I couldn't bear to disturb you.

When you're ready, Maudie and I will be waiting with a nice breakfast.

It was very like Ana: she loved to watch the snow and always found it an occasion to bake something delicious. Stomach rumbling in excitement, Cullen swung his legs off the side of the bed, after pulling the linens off of himself, and stretched.

While he'd never admit as much, he often missed his bed at Skyhold. It'd been firmer and the mattress conformed to his body, alleviating the slight but persistent ache he had in his knees that'd begun after he'd left Kinloch. This bed was a little too soft. But he'd take slightly sore knees if it meant sharing a bed with his wife who preferred a softer mattress. Cullen knew she'd quickly order a new mattress if she knew he woke sore, but for how much better she slept, he'd take it to his grave.

Pressing himself up, he tucked Ana's note in his bedside drawer before crossing into the bath chamber. Checking his reflection, he smoothed his hair before pulling on his heavy nightshirt and making for the door. As soon as he swung it open, the delightful smell of comfort food wrapped itself around Cullen like a warm blanket. Moving down the hall, he took the stairs two at a time, ignoring the protests his knees gave at it.

Crossing through the main living space of their home, he took a moment to admire the holiday decorations as he drew near the kitchen. The numerous pines and spruces covered in silver ribbons and twinkling with tiny mage lights. The wrapped presents beneath. The pine garlands strung on the mantles, tables and over the doors. Wreaths on the windows and mistletoe hanging from the archways. Their home smelled like an evergreen forest, and he found that it calmed him. He stepped to the frosted window and looked out the window to the snow-clad fields stretching out before him.

He wasn't sure he'd ever fully adapt to the fact that they were now titled and landed citizens of Ferelden. A gift of thanks from Divine Victoria for their service in the Inquisition to cover over the need for them to move out of Skyhold. While he'd known the number of sovereigns they'd earned as Commander and Inquisitor, he'd never have imagined they'd be blessed not only in their coffers, but also in what they owned.

He'd been the son of modest farmers who'd owned little beyond the clothes on their backs and the quaint roof over their heads. His family perhaps once noble given their possession of a last name, but long having come from humbler origins. It'd not stopped his parents from giving him and his siblings everything they possibly could—his early education not the least of it.

Now, here he was Bann Cullen Rutherford.

He'd hated it.

At first.

He'd never desired to be nobility. Nobels had oft been objects of his scorn and contempt for their ability to sit fat in their castles and mansions; contented to look down their nose at the poor common folk who made their way of life possible. It was still the way of most nobles, but he'd found that he did not have to follow suit.

He would not.

Neither would Ana.

They worked their land right alongside their people. Ana had minimal servants and paid those she did employ handsomely well. Cullen had devoted a large portion of the leisure land as well as a building to a clinic for ex-templars wanting to leave the Order and lyrium behind. Those who'd completed the program now comprised the majority of the guards protecting Cullen and Ana's lands and people, or themselves worked as farmhands.

But what had been the most rewarding part—a smile tugging Cullen's mouth as he heard laughter coming from the kitchen—was the ability to lift a weight from his siblings’ shoulders. Under Cullen and Ana, they were freeholders. The relief he saw in Mia's face was enough for the responsibilities of nobility to be worth it. The fact that Ana was the most capable, not to mention humble and modest, lady he'd ever known kept the tension in his neck to a minimum.

The Maker had blessed him, of that, he had no doubt. Saying a quiet prayer of thanks, he pressed the kitchen door open to a picturesque sight:

Upon the worktable was a near feast: buttered eggs, crispy bacon, fresh bread with herbs, large cinnamon rolls drizzled with frosting, berries with cream, and—his personal favorite—Fereldan scones stuffed with bacon and cheese.

Maudie, the old head cook from Skyhold who’d moved with them at Ana’s invitation, stood next to Ana. His beautiful wife was positively glowing as she smiled broadly at his sisters who were telling them some animated tale. Cullen was certain it was some embarrassing account of his youth, but he was glad for it if it made Ana smile so radiantly. Her hazel-green eyes fell on him and her smile turned to something gentler.

A picture, she was. Mahogany tresses in a braid, a few strands loose to frame her lovely face. A rose-pink robe of silk loose over a matching nightgown complementing her fair skin and hugging her hourglass figure in a way that stirred Cullen's desire. Not that it took much. No greater pleasure had he, nor had he ever known, than to make love with his wife. He loved her so.

Pink filled her cheeks as she noticed the slight tell of his thoughts, setting her eyes sparkling. Despite the blush, she continued to study him as she brought her cup of tea to her full lips. Dane came to greet him then, the great mabari hound demanding attention and breaking Cullen's focus.

"Good morning, Cul," Rosalie greeted, her voice low and soft as it always was. "We're sorry to interrupt your breakfast with Ana, but—"

"But you knew they’d make something delicious given the snowfall," Cullen finished for her, eliciting a bashful grin from his younger sister. Cullen looked to Ana once more. "To be honest, I thought we'd have more guests."

After giving Maudie an affectionate squeeze, Ana came toward him, pressing a mug of hot, black coffee into his hands. She stood on tiptoes to press a kiss to his cheek before murmuring, "Be careful what you wish for, husband. They'll be here shortly."

Cullen bit back a groan. "Maker's breath."

Ana moved past him, looking over her shoulder as his eyes followed her. A brow quirked and a promising smile on her lips she said, "I'm going to change before they arrive." Her eyes, darkening as they did so, looked over him appreciatively. "I suppose you should dress, too."

Cullen missed the knowing glance Maudie and his sisters exchanged behind him before Mia winked at Ana. A silent exchange between the four conspirators to whom the object of their scheme was oblivious.

Gulping down his coffee, not caring that it was hot, Cullen quickly caught up to his wife before scooping her into his arms to carry her up the stairs. As much as he admired the pink nightclothes against her ivory skin that was decorated in constellations of freckles and moles, he far more enjoyed the sight of them in a pile on the floor at the foot of their bed.

Lucky for Bann and Lady Rutherford, their guests were content to start the meal without them.

***

As Cullen buttoned up his jacket, his fingers paused as he took a moment to admire his wife as she dressed. Her cheeks still flushed from their lovemaking, a small smile of on her full lips as her hazel-green eyes sparkled when she caught his stare in the mirror she was stood before. His blood heated again in want of her, and she bit her lip to stifle the growing smile.

"Cullen, we're already terribly late."

"What of it?" He practically growled.

She chuckled. "We promised a celebration today for everyone," she reminded. Turning to him once her overdress was in place, she closed the space between them to help him with the rest of his buttons. The slight hum of the magic imbued within her prosthetic limb—that'd been the combined work of Dorian and Dagna—vibrated through his layers.

He quirked a brow. "I believe it was you and my sisters who promised a celebration. I promised no such thing."

Her lovely eyes flicked up to him, betraying her true feelings in their darkened shade. Even so, she quietly asked, "Would you disappoint your nephews and niece?" She had him there, so he said nothing. No, he would not risk their disappointment for anything. "Tomorrow, I promise, we can spend all day in bed together, if you wish."

"If I wish?" He teased softly. Pulling on the collar of his shirt, she tugged him down to bring her lips to his. It was brief, restrained compared to those they'd shared when tangled together, but laced with promising heat. His voice was husky as he stated, "I'll hold you to it, my lady."

Lacing their fingers together, she pulled him toward the door. "As you say, my lord."

***

"Uncle Cullen!"

Cullen braced himself for the tackle about his legs that came from a few small bodies and the barrage of, "Can we open presents, yet?" He threw a helpless look at Anaia, silently pleading for her help. For a moment, he felt breathless as he caught something unfamiliar in her gaze that was studying him and the children. Something so utterly soft it made his heart stutter in his chest. Then she blinked and the look was gone.

"All right, give your uncle some air," Branson called as he scooped up Cullen's niece in his arms and proceeded to throw her up into the air, a tinkling of giggles in response. "I'm sure he'd love to eat after such a late rise."

Cullen ignored his brother's innuendo as his eldest nephew came to stand before him, hands on his hips. His gold-brown eyes flashed as he stared down his uncle. "You owe me another match. You threw the last one again, didn't you? Auntie Mia says you did."

"Or perhaps you've improved greatly under my instruction?"

His nephew blew a raspberry in response. "Auntie Mia learned from grandfather. Same as you."

"True," Cullen acknowledged, "but Auntie Mia was no commander."

"Says you," Mia chided from her chair at the table, her dark eyes flashing as a teasing smile pulled her lips, "Last I checked, little brother, I was the one keeping this bunch alive and in line while you were gone. And Branson alone is equal to a thousand green recruits, I'd say."

"Amen to that," Branson's wife added as she raised her teacup in salute.

"A thousand? A little hyperbolic, wouldn't you say?" Maudie, Mia, Rosalie, Rylen, Branson's wife, Cullen and Anaia all turned to look at Branson. "What?"

"No, Bran," Mia shook her head, "Not at all."

Branson waved his hand dismissively before giving a devilish grin. Scooping up another of his little ones, he herded them all out to the main living space so the others could finish their meal. Cullen and Ana worked their way around the table laden with the remains of the banquet, filling their plates. Ana slyly pressed her hip into Cullen as he reached for the last of the scones causing him to look at her with a crooked grin. Only too late did he realize his mistake. She'd used it as a distraction to swipe the scone from him before chuckling and hurrying to her seat at the table.

A gentle hand lighted on his arm and he turned to find Maudie setting a fresh tray down in front of him. "Fret not, pup. We won't let you go 'ungry."

In thanks, Cullen pressed a light kiss to her wrinkled cheek. "You're too good to me, Maudie."

"Not just me, pup. An' don't you forget it."

Cullen looked to his wife, knowing he never would. Clearing his throat, he joined the others and began shoveling in his food, doing his best to ignore the empty chair beside Rylen that Anaia kept glancing toward every now and again. He kept his focus on the room before him: Rylen and Rosalie trying to hide their entwined hands beneath the table despite how the pink in Rose's cheeks gave them away; the joy emanating off his oldest sister even as she continued to throw friendly barbs at him; Maudie working in the kitchen to prepare the holiday meal they'd all share later on; the sound of Branson and his children in the room nearby playing; Dane at his feet beneath the table.

But above all, his wife.

He still could hardly believe it, despite having been wed for several years now.

This was his family.

His home.

His life.

His mind wandered to his lucky coin that they'd set within the mantle above their main door. Time and again, he should have died. Should never have made it here. Yet here he was. His luck continuing even now. How could he even begin to express his thanks to the Maker?

Ana's fingers entwined with his, calling his focus back to her. Her eyes were intent; the words he knew she would say evident in them. "Will you check on him? Bring him some food?"

"Must I?" She said nothing, only continued to hold his gaze. "Very well."

***

Cullen let out a deep breath as he stood before the door, a plate of food in hand, shoulders forcibly dropping. He glared at the door for a split second before clearing his throat. He pressed his free hand upon the wood, causing the metal hinges to groan. Firelight met his eyes as they took a moment to adjust to the dimmer lighting. A thin figure sat upon the bed, a stiff back facing him. Scraggly, greasy hair hung longer than it had all those years ago, hiding the face it belonged to. Yet despite the brokenness that wafted off Samson, when the man spoke, it held all its usual bravado.

"Your woman pestering you, Dog Lord? Thought the former 'commander' woulda been the one ruling the roost." A snide chuckle slipped from his pale lips as he turned to glare at Cullen. "Seems she's still the one you're taking orders from, 'eh?"

Samson's grey-brown eyes were sad despite the hate he tried to throw at Cullen through them. Cullen kept his temper in check. He placed the plate of food down on a nearby table and leaned against the doorframe as he crossed his arms over his chest. "She's never steered me wrong."

Samson snorted. "Oh, I'm sure she hasn't."

Cullen rolled his eyes at the innuendo lacing his voice. "She noticed your chair was empty despite her invitation."

"Was it an invitation or a command? Thought this program was voluntary?"

"Not for you."

A wry smirk twisted Samson's lips. "'Course not. How could I forget?"

"But the invitation is genuine…and without demand. At least from my wife. I on the other hand do demand your presence."

The haughtiness dropped from Samson's face as he met Cullen's stare. He hesitated a moment before quietly asking, "Why?"

"Because I will not suffer an insult to my wife and because you need to understand that there is more to life than lyrium." Cullen pushed off from the door frame and made to leave.

"You don't think there is," Samson murmured in response, "Not for me, I mean."

Cullen hesitated. The words he knew he needed to say just behind his lips. He pressed them tighter. He did not share his wife's gentle heart that was eager to forgive and award second chances to those she deemed worthy. Samson deserved nothing for what he'd done to the templars under his command. For the mages he'd sold into slavery in Kirkwall for a few sovereigns to buy smuggled lyrium. For how he'd spent his entire life serving nothing but himself.

While their sins were not shared, Cullen could not ignore the truth that he had been no less tainted by his own. And no less self-serving. Even if it had been under the guise of serving the "greater good".

Yet Cassandra had offered him a second chance when she'd found him in the ruins of what he'd allowed to happen.

Anaia had offered him the same when he'd laid the ruins of himself bare.

Both providential tools of the Maker to set him on this course of rebuilding and atonement he still continued to tread.

What if he was to be used in the same way?

But why him, Maker?

Knowing he'd receive no answer, he let out a breath. "Perhaps not," he admitted as he turned to meet Samson's eyes. "But here you are regardless. The Maker has spared you from death despite everything. Just as He did me. Even I cannot deny that there must be a purpose to it. But it is up to you to discover what that purpose is. You cannot do that rotting away in here."

With that, Cullen ducked back into the gently falling snow.

***

The rest of the day was spent in holiday festivities. The children unwrapping their gifts before Ana and Cullen exchanged gifts with their friends and family. Holiday carols were sung as Anaia graced them all with her lovely harpsichord playing before the roaring fire. A few dances were shared between he and his wife as well as between he and his sisters. All the while delicious smells wafted from the kitchen as Maudie continued to prepare their holiday dinner.

Cullen had attempted to give Ana her gifts, but she'd insisted they wait until later. A tradition of theirs carried over from Skyhold from when they'd been the first to greet each other at the ringing in of the holiday morn. So instead, at the women's insistence, the men had taken the children old enough outside to have a snowball fight while they all helped Maudie finish up the dinner preparations. Soon Cullen and the others were joined by all the families on the Rutherford land until it was an all-out war. Drenched, cold, and exuberant, the fight broke up as the sun began to set, but not before Cullen's people thanked he and Ana for their generous gifts that'd been delivered in the cover of darkness the night before. He was humble in his response and invited them all to join he and his family for the service at the small chantry on their land that evening.

Returning inside, they all warmed up, put on their dress clothes and bundled up before climbing into the horse-drawn sleighs to be pulled to the chantry as the snow had accumulated quite a bit. Within, the small building was full of its own greenery and candlelight. Hymns and portions of the Chant were sung before the Mother began her sermon.

As she did so, Cullen's ears pricked as he heard the hinges of the chantry door groan. Looking back, he spotted Samson slipping inside. Shock filled Cullen at the sight. Samson had despised the Chantry. So much so that he'd built the Red Templars and served Corypheus to destroy it. For how it'd used him. Used the templars. And had cast both aside.

Sentiments Cullen shared.

But he'd wanted the Chantry to return to the principles upon which it had been founded, not for it to be eliminated altogether.

He could not foresee the future but here on his own lands, in this small chantry—working with former templars who wanted to leave the Order and lyrium behind, working alongside mages who wanted to act as healers to the templars and his people, working his land, caring for his animals, reconnecting with his family and falling ever more in love with his wife—he'd begun to see what he'd hoped for when he finally realized a future outside the Order and the Inquisition was possible. To see that his faith was not owned by the Chantry. That he was not owned.

He was free.

And perhaps, just perhaps, Samson would, too.

Despite his own feelings toward his former brother-in-arms, the thought that such a peace could come about for anyone under his care gave Cullen a sense of purpose as he'd never before known.

He was doing something good.

Truly good.

And by the Maker, by Andraste, he prayed it would be blessed and bless others.

***

"We're so pleased you decided to join us, Sam," Anaia greeted gently as she took Samson's shaking hand. He'd cleaned himself up: clean clothes, washed and combed hair, a shaved face. "Please have a seat and let me serve you."

Fear entered Samson's eyes at this statement. "No-I—"

The others in the room dismissed themselves or quickly busied themselves with other things to draw their focus.

"You're a guest in my home and in Cullen's clinic. It is only right that I show you hospitality."

Samson's jaw clenched. "You've done nothin' but show me kindness since the day I stood before you in chains. After everything I did, you found a way to spare my life and then gave me a chance--even if it was behind bars. Now, you let me be here. Why?"

"We all deserve a second chance—especially those who try."

"If you call nearly destroying the world trying."

Ana looked him straight in the eye. "I call choosing to keep on living—to keep on fighting to live—trying. You could've died. Begged for death. Ran. Anything. Yet you have done everything I have asked you to do. That my husband has asked you to do. You are several years without lyrium, Sam, despite your claim that you needed lyrium to amount to anything. Isn't it time you started living? There are numerous former templars in that building that could learn a thing or two from you, from your story, as they journey their own. Things that Cullen and Rylen cannot impart." Samson studied her face, his own softening slightly as he processed her words. "Not even you can deny your ability to inspire people. You gathered and led an entire army to follow a darkspawn in order to overthrow the Chantry and stand against the Inquisition. Perhaps now you can put such a talent toward something less…chaos-inducing?" Samson gave the barest of smiles at that causing Ana to flash him a brilliant smile and Cullen noticed the subtle straightening of Samson's posture at it. "Give it some thought. In the meantime, I hope you enjoy yourself this evening."

"Thank you…Lady."

"Who's taking orders now?" Cullen chided once Ana was out of earshot.

Samson shot him a glare. "Shut it, Dog Lord."

Cullen chortled as he took his seat, noticing that Samson's words carried less bite.

***

After they'd said goodbye to everyone, the evening's festivities done, Anaia took Cullen's hand and pulled him toward the stairs. He'd caught her eyes on him numerous times throughout the day, holding that steady flame of want in her gaze. His own desire had been building as well. But instead of leading him to the bedroom, she traveled past their door to one of the bedrooms down the hall.

"Ana?"

Instead of answering, she pressed the door open. Cullen found himself confused as she led him inside. The room was full of items for a baby. A crib, rocking chair, chest of drawers and a rocker in the shape of a mabari carved in by a familiar hand. Toys and blankets that ranged from extravagant to handmade. Clear indications that their Inquisition family had sent them gifts to furnish their child's room. Sat upon the chest of drawers was a card addressed to him:

My dear husband,

It has been so hard to keep this a surprise for you. I've been bursting to tell you every moment since I'd realized and one of the midwives confirmed it.

We're going to have a baby.

You're going to be a father.

I know—

Cullen didn't finish the card before he dropped it--though he did notice the signatures of their friends at the bottom--and turned to wrap his wife in an embrace. Pulling away, he buried his hands in her hair before kissing her deeply. Breaking, he noticed the tears in her eyes and the gentle smile on her face. A mirror of himself.

Hesitantly, he placed a hand over where their child now grew.

A baby.

They were going to have a baby.

He was going to be a father.

And he was going to watch his wife be a mother.

Ana's hand came to cover his own. He'd thought he'd be afraid, feel unprepared, overwhelmed and worried he'd believe he had no business being a father if such news ever did come. Yet in the moment, their hands layered over their child as they stood within the room lovingly prepared for their little one, he felt nothing but joy. He met his wife's eyes, shining with love and joy as she looked at him.

In the distance, they heard bells ringing.

"Is this a good gift?" Ana whispered, her voice thick.

"It's perfect," Cullen murmured back before cradling her face and ringing in the holiday with a deep kiss.

x x x

Thank you for reading! Hope everyone who celebrates had a great Christmas and wishing everyone a Happy New Year!

[baby-i-just-wanna-kiss]

rutherford, from afar (i)

Relationship: Mary Amell / Cullen Rutherford

Summary: [HAVEN] After four years, Cullen is still attuned to Mary Amell.

Content Warning: Allusions to Cullen's lyrium withdrawal

Word Count: ~1.3k

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HAVEN 

INEXPLICABLY, a streak of gray in Cullen’s peripheral vision drew his attention. 

It should have been banal observation. Thousands had crawled out of the woodwork and gathered in Haven to attend Divine Justinia’s Conclave. From the high ground, the people — an ungodly mix of pilgrims, mages, templars, and noble busybodies — were like ants swirling in the snowy village, the Temple of Sacred Ashes looming over them all. Cullen had been fielding aides, Templars, and spies left and right from dawn. 

A crush of bodies in assorted dark colors was not out of the ordinary. By all means, a person wearing a dark cloak was a small, unremarkable detail. A bauble you pick up and inspect at a flea market sale simply for something to do. When your thinking brain catches up with you, you put it down again. 

Yet instinct — the sort that had pushed Cullen so high up the ranks of the Templar Order before the age of 30 — made him stop and pay attention. Like mabari when the Ferelden hare was nearby. 

A creeping sense of unease filled his chest before he even understood what he was feeling apprehensive about. His fingers twitched. A sixth sense, so to speak. Is that…?

Slack, his hand fell to the side. The tent flap, which he had already begun to push aside to retrieve the documents that Rylen needed to sign, plunged shut. None of it signified. He faced his whole body east, breath caught in his throat. His tongue curled behind the bottom row of his gnashed teeth, jaw clenched, nostrils flared. 

He strained his eyes to see through the light snowfall.

It's her. The thought seized Cullen as he made a half-step forward, boots kicking up a spray of snow. He caught himself and came to a jerky halt, sweat pouring down his back. 

She's here. 

For four years, Mary Amell lived apart from him, but her ghost had never truly strayed far from his mind’s eye. She was a constant figure haunting his thoughts, a pale, emaciated symbol of his biggest failures — in Kinloch, and then in Kirkwall. 

This time, though, her gray silhouette did not vanish into thin air. Indeed, the longer he tracked her movements through the snowy road, the clearer it became that she was corporeal and not a figment of tortured imagination. Not a specter manufactured by his withdrawals. 

It was as if someone had poured a bucket of ice water over his head. 

Sweet Andraste. Maker’s mercy. He hadn't counted on seeing her. 

Though she wore a thick, gray, and fur-lined cloak, the bulk of which obscured just about all of her silhouette, and her dark hair was braided into a thick rope over her back, longer than it had ever been in memory, Cullen knew that it was her. 

It could be no other, he thought with conviction. He would know Mary Amell in any iteration.

She carried a small package bound with parchment and twine under her arm, trudging through the thick snow, occasionally bouncing forward with a laugh that Cullen was too far away to hear but rang clearly in his mind anyways, the sound well-known and dear. Her head was bowed in conversation with another woman in different but similarly shapeless robes — a fellow mage, Cullen cataloged. 

Popular and gregarious as ever, Mary. The years, despite the Templar-Mage conflict, seemed to have been kind to her. From afar, it was as if she hadn't aged a day, though it could be just that she was preserved in memory. The hollow gauntness that the Kirkwall Circle had carved into her flesh was gone.  

That she was well despite the dissolution of the Circle of Magi, or the fact that she had gone to ground, loosened a knot of tension in Cullen’s chest. In the back of his mind, he had always worried.

That, and the steely jut of her back, the imperious way she lifted her chin, even the gesture she made with a poised hand. Everything about her jumped out at him, familiar but still as magnetic as the day he—

He let out an unsteady breath, the air fogging before him. He left that thought unfinished. 

Vein pulsing in his temple, he rubbed his jaw. Stubble rasped at his gloves. 

Damn it all to hell. He should have anticipated this. 

In Kinloch Hold and Kirkwall, Mary had only called herself “nosy”. A complete understatement. She took a vested interest in current affairs, had an eerie sense for when, in her words, “shit was about to go down”. Cassandra’s request and everything that came with it was a welcome distraction and took up so much of his attention, or it would have occurred to him sooner. 

Mary would never have passed up the opportunity to participate in the Divine’s Conclave. She liked to have her finger on the pulse of the world, especially since this involved what would become of the mages going forward. 

She did not turn to look in his direction again despite the fact that every cell in his body was screaming her name. She must not have seen him through the snowfall and the throng of knights and agents passing in and out of the tents. 

But she had looked, pointed her fair face towards his direction, and he was looking back. If he were being honest with himself, he had never actually succeeded in looking away, even when he had convinced himself he had.  

Did she wonder if he was there?

I am sorry, Cullen: her final words to him. Twice she had lowered her head and placed her heart in his hands; twice that he had shattered it to pieces. I wish you well.

He wouldn’t blame her if she didn’t. He wouldn’t be surprised if she did everything in her power to forget about him.  

Ignorant, she continued walking towards the bathhouse alongside her companion. Soon after, she disappeared into the squat building.

Cullen inhaled sharply, not even realizing that he had unconsciously held it until frigid air was rushing back into his lungs. 

“Cullen?” Knight-Captain Rylen repeated his name. It sounded as if he had been trying to get Cullen’s attention for some time now. 

When Cullen faced him, Rylen looked concerned. Blinking, he asked again, “Are ye weel, min?” 

He followed Cullen’s line of sight and only saw the busy road, bustling with activity. “Whit’s it?” 

Cullen snapped out of his stupor. “Maker’s breath,” he swore, shaking his head.

There were many things he wanted to tell Mary, but now that it was not a pipe dream of a lout in the throes of delirious misery, Cullen realized that he did not know where to begin… or even how to approach her. There were bridges that could not be mended, even if, he liked to think, he had grown from the furious arsehole who had broken her heart. 

“It’s nothing,” Cullen said to Rylen, turning away from the street. The words tasted like ash in his mouth. 

A lump formed in his throat. Already, he felt that familiar cloud rising in his breast, threatening to choke him. His thoughts would grow dark if he dwelled on it further. 

And his thoughts did dwell. 

He gritted his teeth, pulling a muscle in his neck. The Maker was putting him to the test. 

Heart pounding against his ribs, he forced his fists to unclench and collected his composure. This was his chance to make up for his past mistakes. He could not allow himself to be distracted or swayed. Not again.

For there is no darkness, nor death either, in the Maker's Light. And nothing that He has wrought shall be lost.

Frowning, he ducked into the tent and grabbed the papers he meant to give Rylen from his writing desk. “It doesn't matter,” he repeated curtly, stepping back out. Rylen accepted the sheaf with a raised eyebrow and did not comment. “Here is the paperwork.”