|| talking to Alison — posted on my ao3 | 900+ word count
|| tags : grief/mourning, mentions of past alison/scott & alison’s death, set between s5e8 & s5e9
Scott trudges his way down the stairs of his house, they feel longer than they ever have, going on for hours until his socked feet finally hit the bottom. The hardwood is cold and smooth, it’s easier to move on it, to slide towards the couch. Melissa’s sitting peacefully reading a book and while normally Scott would go over to the kitchen or turn the Tv on before joining her, he skips all that.
“Hey sweetheart.” The cushions are soft and comfortable as they always have been, it’s the same couch the McCalls have had since Scott was born. He hums to his mother as his back sinks into the back of the couch.
“I heard you talking upstairs, was it Stiles?” She’s probably thinking back to freshman and sophomore year when they’d talk nonstop for hours on end every day even if they had just seen each other at school. That was before things got so complicated and so many people moved in and out of Scott’s life.
“I was talking to Alison.” He can hear how his mothers breath hitches ever so slightly and she sets her book down. It’s almost been a full year since Alison died, nobody has talked to Scott about her, they all walk on egg shells and skitter around the topic. He knows why, and most days he appreciates it, but not today. Today he wishes Chris was here to talk to about her and look at old photos and laugh about old story’s, but he’s not here and neither is Isaac, who would’ve been Scott’s second choice to talk about Alison with. Despite all the relationship overlap they experienced, Scott knows that’d never stop Isaac from letting Scott ramble about his late girlfriend.
“You were?” Melissa asks hesitantly, Scott nods. He’s so tired lately, between the asthma coming back, Deaton being missing, the whole pack feeling distant, the ever growing fear that the dread doctors will show back up, Scott’s drained of all his energy and only growing more and more weak as the days pass.
“I miss her.” It’s so much more than that. He could write a million words about how he longs for Alison to be back, how even after they broke up he never stopped loving her, how he wakes up almost nightly to the image of her bleeding out in his lap.
“I know Scott, I know.” Melissa’s arms wrap around Scott’s shoulders from the side and her head leans against him, it’s a motherly hug, one that always seems to come out when Alison is involved. Their first break because her family was trying to kill him, again when Alison was being controlled by her grandfather, when they really broke up, when he found out Isaac and Alison were dating, when she died, after her funeral, and any other time after that when Alison’s brought up. He’s used to the feeling of this hug, it’s safe and familiar, but it doesn’t fix the ever growing empty space in Scott’s chest.
“I lied to you.” His chest heaves under the long breath he lets out, fingers twitching on the couch incase he has to grab the inhaler tucked into his sweatpants pocket. Melissa’s head pulls back just enough for her to look at him, she gives a quizzing expression before he continues.
“I told you that I’m my own anchor now, that I have been since me and Alison broke up. I lied. I was for a little while, but then she…” he can’t get the words out, still, “and now she’s my anchor again.” Scott’s mouth feels dry and scratchy when the words finish.
“Oh baby…” There’s nothing else for Melissa to say, Scott knows that too, knows her breath hitch and her side hug and her lack of words, he knows a lot. He can’t blame his mother for being at a lack of words, he wouldn’t know what to say either.
“Things were better when she was here, I miss her, I want her back.” It was never perfect when Alison was alive, far from it actually, but it was better. Scott at least had someone he could rely on, really rely on, even when Gerard was dictating what Alison did, she was there for Scott in certain ways. He needs that right now, someone in his corner.
“I’m so sorry Scott, I know it’s hard.” He nods to his mother’s gentle voice because he knows, this is all she can think to say. There is no training on what to say when your sixteen year old son had his girlfriend die in his arms because of supernatural creatures.
“I think I’m going to take ride down to the cemetery.” Technically Chris had Alison cremated so he could take her with him wherever he went, but he still bought a plot in the Beacon Hills cemetery for the kids to go visit, and to leave respect to her. Scott goes there more times than he tells anyone, he talks to her there, brings her flowers, candy, letters, updates her on all the supernatural things going on in the town, on the latest “normal people drama” as they used to call it when she was still brushing her hands through Scott’s hair in her bedroom. He thinks tonight he’ll pick up some of her favorite candy before heading over, she’d smile at him if he could see her face. He misses that smile.
So good to be able to watch these series even when the hype is over
Is not the same feeling cause im alone but is like turn back in time
Teenwolf ships i liked and cared too much since im still watching and a few episodes to end
____________Stydia_______________
I cant help but of course its my utt choice
Though Stiles has always loved Lydia i think at first it wasnt trully love since they were teenagers so he had that crush but didnt know anything about her and she was busy pretendind to be popular and dumb
So as the story goes and things change i liked how they gave Stiles a different person to Love before Lydia so Her feeling to Him starts growing after affection and friendship (she started to care about him fisrt as friends then realized she loved him since That Prom date) and Him understand what he really liked about Lydia and not just her appearence (She was always in terrible condition )
Ps: Scoot was a stydia shipper so funny
_____________Scira__________
I think they were cute together
After Allison loss, was really sad and hard to move on but kira was confident yet soft
Their relationship had bad things like bad communication and a lot of troubles with their powers going on but i believe with time would be resolved
Since now they were like immortals
Scott was more mature and Kira was too silly sometimes i dont think they would end up forever but at least for a long time
___________Stalia___________
My problem with this was the way it started
They met at forest then again at Hospital and hook up while Stiles were possessed ?
Malia creates a bond with Stiles like an animal bond (Dog and owner) she wants to protect him and he cares about her but to me sometimes it looked like a child or someone with big power differences ( i mean like Tarzan and Jane what is good but in Teenwolf i guess it didnt have much time to develop the bond and story so this ship didnt got me much)
If wasnt this Stalia could be good cause she liked him first and was cute to see Stiles beeing loved and not just by his dad
_________honor mention________
Parrish and Lydia
This is probably caused the actors has so good chemistry i don't know Parrish puppy eyes were so cute with Lydia my heart melts every time
But
He was older i dont know how much older
And even though lydia would have 18 i guess
It was still weird
But Parrish got my love ♡
_______Scalisson_______
The og couple was good but clichê
So the hunt and thd hunter plot was cool but too toxic with lies and was giving me anxiety
But after all that happened if Scalisson comeback now
I would totally ship if she become a better person like her father
________Derek and Melissa_____
It never happened but i think it could at least season 1 lol
_________Argent and Melissa____
It was weird period
And cringe sometimes
But she was a young mom that wanted a hot bf so why dont
__________Danny and Jacson______
I loved their friendship
Cause Jacson was a bad boy and Danny a cool guy
But if turned out as couple i woulded like see too
__________issac alisson_________
Just like Stiles and Malia this story was rushed and no sense
And most of the times seems that she didnt care with him
So i just liked that the Argent father kinda adopted him but issaclisson
The girls are back to discuss episode six, Heart Monitor, through the theme of anger. Along the way, they talk about getting hit by cars as children, how horrendous Jackson looked in this episode, and the fact that Scott's mom does not in fact do all the grocery shopping.
Stiles: [Scott and Stiles are discussing Scott and Allison’s recent breakup] Scott, Allison went out with another guy last night. I'm really sorry, man.
Scott: So we're the only two people in the world who still have hope for Allison and me, and you're throwing in the towel?
Stiles: [nods] Sorry, Scott.
Scott: All right.
[turns away]
Stiles: You okay?
Scott: Yeah, sure. It's a strange feeling, though.
Stiles: What, knowing that it's finally over between you and Allison?
Scott: [turns back to face Stiles] No, being the only one who knows it's not.
