The downside is that I’m running a little behind on shots, and the main reason for that is that I basically restarted on one of the shots from scratch. After receiving a lot of good, constructive feedback, I realized at a certain point I don’t want my shots to get a pass just because I already did it. I want my shots to be the film, not just pass a screening, if that makes sense. The characters must be who they are. And the style should feel fairly consistent too. I got very upset with myself, and for a couple nights I had could barely sleep. That consequently really hurt my productivity this week. But I came to realize I have a barrier that’s keeping me from growing: namely pride, and the desire to be right. As is so often an obstacle for me, I need to let go of those things before I could pick up something new.
Now, my hope, and the beginning of the upside, is that through this little self-reevaluation, and the lessons learned, I can make better, more honest contributions. Also to help with that, I used some of the money I got refunded from UH to invest in a new Cintique drawing tablet. Now that I have it, I’m wondering how I was ever able to draw in the past. It is so much easier to work on. The only problem is, it can be very buggy - sometimes I’m spending like an hour just trying to get the display to connect. Other times the display is up, but my pen calibration is way off. But when it does work, it’s a major help.
So this is my progress on the second pass of this shot so far:
Yes, it leaves a lot to be desired. But since we’re not in as much of a rush, I want to make it work properly.
So this week was a little more of a downer, but the things that can come of it have the potential to be great. I still have a lot of hope for this project - and I’m far from beaten! The added challenge of perfecting the shots makes me want to do it even more actually. So as always, we’ll see how next week goes. I hope more can be accomplished. Until then, this is the... Undercover... Ganitine... Alex-is? signing off.
