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Keith and Krolia

Something I don't think people understand is the relationship between Keith and Krolia at this moment in time. I just wanted to expand upon this:

First off. Keith is probably one of the most stubborn characters I have ever come across. It's a flaw of his, hence why his arc is continuing (yes it is not over yet, he still has some things to be rounded off yet). Here is where is where you need to keep this fact in mind, though it is very understandable as to why he is like that.

Let's go Chronologically with this because it's just much easier.

Upon introduction of Keith in "Bloodlines" 0505, he is told by Kolivan to keep on mission and not let his emotions cloud him. Keith does do this and is the one task he sticks by those when every other time his attachments have come into play. He was seriously just not meant to stick on task/be with the the Blades of Marmora was he?

Anyway, the whole thing about Keith not letting his emotions cloud him is all about this theme of Head vs. Heart and finding a balance. Heart=Voltron, Head=Blades of Marmora.

When Keith first meets Krolia, Krolia knew Keith was her son when his blade gleamed under her presence. Or at least, she knew it was definitely him.

Keith treats Krolia like he does with any other people he has to work alongside with the BoM. He is the one that asks/takes orders etc, he does his job although he never really has much of his own say. Keith does have his mask and hood down though which is different, even in 0406 when he let down his mask his hood was still up. To me it means that there is comfort there, it is safe for him to have his hood and mask down. But it's really stark that he's always asking what to do etc instead of making orders or hearing other people out collectively, as a team.

Rest lies under the cut:

Keith still kicks ass when he needs to, but he firmly stuck by what he was told to do in this mission and said to let him go, but it was Krolia who put emotion into the mix, but she has a balance of emotion and knowledge and she saves them both. This is where you know he can learn from her.

This bit, coupled with the fact that this episode is called "Bloodlines" is the most evidence to say that Krolia is Keith's mother.

Keith is angry at her though, he was told to stick to the mission solely and Krolia was skirting it...

Here's something about Krolia; she never says what she means straight out. It's quite a "philosophical" approach of how to answer things.

You see it with the "Shut up and trust me" and also "No Keith, I handed them over to it" etc.

I either think that this is just her nature, or it was just too hard for her, especially upon giving Keith back his knife. She leaves it to let Keith figure it out, but Keith just isn't that sort of person to pick it up; he needs straight answers.

At the mention of Keith's father, his face changes- it indicates that his Father was someone close to his heart though.

The fact that they leave it on a cliffhanger like that, even though it's pretty damn obvious, tells us how much angst there is gonna be. She lets him fit the pieces together though.

As predicted, when we see them again in Razor's edge, it picks up where it left off and Keith starts Spurting Questions, but Krolia doesn't answer them. 1. I definitely think Krolia was finding it too hard to explain everything, 2. They did still have to stay on mission.

Every time I hear Keith's (Steven's) voice in this section, especially where he says "H-how are you so sure?" makes me tear up. Steven is an amazing voice actor and he delivered that line perfectly.

Keith is not happy that her answer is "we don't have time for this"- I mean, I don't think anyone would be happy if that's what was said upon reuniting with your parent or sibling or whatever, but it's where Keith turns on this really snarky attitude towards her.

Also, just to emphasise the change: It goes from a level, social shot when he starts asking the questions:

To Krolia looking intimidating as a shot is from a lower angle when she says what they are going after

To Keith looking small(er) and disoriented upon saying that he and Kolivan have been looking for that particular Quintessence for months:

You see how the frame has an angle, making it look off as it isn't horizontal? Yeah, it creates the sense of disorientation.

Anyways, Rainbow:

Also, the line "In the Quantum Abyss, planets and other celestial bodies are being pulled and torn in different directions. It's a chaotic, ever changing environment"- It's a really nice, subtle way of explaining character growth, more specifically for Keith, especially for this moment and this season as a whole for him. As you can imagine, he is pretty conflicted at this moment in time. We then saw him physically grow up and then later saw him how much he has gown emotionally also.

When I said snarky, I meant snarky. When Keith says "Basically, stay close so we won't be drawn in and stretched out into nothingness like those creatures. Got it."- he's such an angsty teen

Krolia does care for him, that much is evident. Whether she, like Keith, isn't very good with words and is better with actions or not, she protects him again and again showing that she does care for him.

So, his questions begin to get answered: "How are you so sure?"

"How did you get to Earth?"

"How did you meet my Dad?"

Another thing I wanted to slip in here was that something seems off about us not knowing where the Red lion was found, but knowing that it was found by Sendak and that's how they found the Blue lion from it's signature. It's a little weird to me that Krolia didn't even slip in where it came from, it's not like it would have held much more weight to the scene. So maybe where Red was found is important or the crew couldn't think of a place or something, or maybe I'm reading too much into it but yeah... anyways.

"I just happened to be in the right place, at the right time"- seemed to be something which happened over all in the very first episode. Personally I believe they were fated, it was set up like that, this may second that things can be fated.

"You were stuck on Earth"

"There was no better place I could be" She wasn't exactly "stuck" there Keith, she still had choices. Just look at her face. She was looking out for Blue and an entire race of people really (maybe more). Sure, it may come across as a duty, but she found solace in someone too. This is something that Keith is learning. That he doesn't have to go through things alone, he can bend the rules (instead of full-on breaking them), have himself open for love instead of closing himself off and doing things alone, and also just having a different perspective on things.

The thing about Keith with the Garrison compared to say Pidge and Lance at the Garrison and breaking/bending rules is different. Pidge technically just breaks rules because of her smarts and she is able too, but she wasn't sneaky enough not to get caught the first time. She then carried on her pursuit but the Garrison was a temporary thing, it wasn't something that was a permanent place, it's why she never invested in to coming close with anyone, this is similar to Keith's outlook (as their arcs are similar in the family sense). Lance was a different story because he did bend the rules. His attitude was basically like "Oh Iverson wants us to be a team? I'll show him. Lets sneak out past curfew and have some fun". "Want to see the best pilot of this generation? Watch me pull off this move"- it seems to me (from what I've seen/heard from the first ep of S7) that Lance wasn't always like this though. Pidge didn't get caught whilst she was a part of the Garrison and Lance only got reprimanded, but he didn't get caught when sneaking about (was suggested to be more than just that one time). whereas we see Keith being more like "Fuck the rules" and out the window they go.

See what I mean about Krolia never giving a straight answer though? Keith just doesn't really get it though. This is because he lacks the experience, or the meaning of the experience. He did have something similar with Voltron team, it was a good place for him to be, but he freaked out, he was getting too close to them and he was getting scared. I think his instincts kicked in and was like "Abort! you need to leave to protect yourself". He didn't understand it and now someone is handing him experiences that should help him understand on a silver platter and he still isn't fully getting it.

Anyway, she didn't also let the fact that Keith's dad had been "neutralised" affect her judgement. She did a similar thing as she did for Keith in "Bloodlines"

Krolia's a smart cookie, and a badass. See, again, this is something that Keith needs to learn. I goes again into the "Head vs Heart" thing, because Krolia didn't let her emotions cloud her/take over her. Keith did that with Shiro (letting emotions cloud him), technically I think he's still doing that, but I'll get to that in a bit. Krolia seems to just have this balance of thinking with a level-head.

You know Keith realises something/felt something when we see Krolia hand over the knife.

Everything about this moment screams protection though. Krolia was leaving to protect the Keith, his father, the Human race and possibly many others. She even hands over her fucking knife for Keith as symbolism for protection and legacy. Keith didn't get this, he thought she was just sticking to her original mission/her own mission. I don't get why he didn't understand this.

It's just one of those things also, Krolia being in a situation and she ended up having something totally unpredictable because that's what happens in life but she didn't resist anything. Things just... happen, you have no control over it which is something that Keith keeps under wraps, he pushes away everything, so he does have a means of control but it slips out of his hands into anger at the worst of times. Keith just needs to chill, man.

"You put the mission above all else" no, you dickhead. Sure, she was following a mission, but she had found something else, she found love. She was protecting you, caring for you, even if she wasn't there. She had to make a sacrifice, and one that wasn't easy.

"That's not true. I left to protect the person I most love; you" well done Krolia for delivering a line that probably wrecked the entire fandom.

I still don't think Keith fully understands this. Something is definitely there because he wouldn't have called Shiro his Brother etc. Again, it puts forward the notion that Keith basically needs to be spoon-fed it to him to fully get it/understand it. He also needs his own experiences. He sort of did. In 0406, yes he was about to sacrifice himself, but he was still putting the mission above all, he was still being impulsive. It wasn't like it was here. Keith didn't think about the repercussion. Krolia didn't really think everything through when she first decided staying to protect Blue in the first place, she must have known they could track it again. Krolia was being selfless though, in both situations, it's just that the first time she had a good thing, the second time she had to leave that good thing.

There is something in Keith that he already knows this. It is literally because he just does it and doesn't really think it through. He is a person of instinct. It's there as a spark at the back of his head, so he just... does it. In 0306 and 0401 he knew he wanted to leave for ages, but as time went on, things added to his list of reasons to leave, and it just so happened that he then had an opportunity to leave. Things got too much and too close. Lance is one of those reasons for both, getting too close, but also Keith knew Lance's place on the team was needed and of value. Everything else just added up until he actually left and had another place to go to and be of service. Keith did leave for selfish reasons though, he was cutting himself off.

Keith really can learn a lot from Krolia, it's just... Keith needs to be in those experiences himself, well he has but he hasn't?? It's all about the changing of perspective. The first being that he did subtlety open up to (in my opinion) is his wolf; he is caring for something other than himself. Then/now it is Shiro, he has just opened up to accepting that Shiro is a constant and that Keith wants him there. Next in line I believe may be Krolia, either Shiro will give a hint, or maybe we will see the forgiveness and acceptance play out between Shiro and Adam and Keith understands through that. It would be cool to see Keith open up to romantic love also, but he also needs to work on friendship a little more, hopefully we will be seeing that, but I think he is just getting over guilt, yes I do think he feels a little guilty still for leaving, despite him taking up the leadership bit but everything was so full-on at the end of S6 that nothing was left to suggest much else.

Sorry! Krolia finds out Keith's dad died:

I think, maybe in this Krolia may understand why Keith is the way he is, why he had such a tough exterior because of all the shit he went through.

The fact with only getting one vision of the future for Keith and not shown anything else is a little annoying, but acceptable as gaps were filled in. Whether there were any other future scenes they saw, I wonder if it's only meaningful glimpses, or just anything...

Something I don't think people understand is the relationship between Keith and Krolia atm.

This is how Keith introduces Krolia:

He considers saying that she is his mother, but you can tell he hasn't yet accepted her over all. It shows that when that arc comes to a close, it will probably be by him calling her his mum or something, at the moment it feels like she is just tagging along and keith is going with it.

Also, no offense to people but Krolia literally thanks shiro for raising keith... which to people that are like "they were friends, he didn't raise Keith" well Krolia literally says "Thank you for raising Keith to be the man he is today"- you don't say something like that if someone didn't raise him or be that something which provides care over someone in that way.

To show you keith's growth, he let things go. He literally makes a u-turn when he finds out the rest of his team were having trouble.

He also gives out orders, but I mean, just before that Lance was doing that so...

We do see Keith's growth, but we also see what's left for him. I mean he has grown up a lot but he still has some more to go; it's like Lance and Allura. Keith makes a drastic change though, unlike Lance's where it's gradual that you practically don't notice it until you go over and are like "oh, cool". Keith took up leadership again without any encouragement, he knew he needed to let things go in order to help his team, even though he still made his own pursuit alone, he was tactical. Oh yeah, just over all he was using his tactics which was really nice to see. He even slipped in one that Lance does. Then of course, he lets in Shiro. He accepts that Shiro is his brother, no longer "like a brother". He wasn't affected by his past, he knew Shiro too well and also knew himself too well to not let that get to him. 

Keith has found who he is, unanswered questions he has been looking for his entire life and also where he belongs. Though, he has yet to still be open to everyone and accept love. There is still a rift between him and Krolia and also he has turned all of his attention to Shiro, which you can understand. They are brothers. I've seen that Keith stops himself from saying "I can't do this again" which I totally get, I really do. I still just don't see people taking it over into the romantic side. Keith has only just accepted someone permanently into his life and this guy keeps on leaving him. Twice before and then almost permanently for a third time, when Keith had only just started letting people in. That holds an uncanny amount of weight.

Keith is now finding that balance of head and heart. He is still scared though of letting people in; it's why his only focus atm is on Shiro. But he is getting there. He is as stubborn as a mule, I swear to god. Keith being back on Voltron is the place where he is needed, wanted and also a place that he needed and wanted, deep down he wanted anyway. Being in BoM showed that it wasn't his place (the missions never went according to plan etc), it was getting him to be more about letting his head rule him, but Keith has attachments that cloud it. Keith making that U-turn etc are already suggesting that that balance is becoming something permanent. Keith being in the BoM did not make him have a sense of family, he was there because it was comfortable, yet his nature (not following the rules/sticking to protocol added with emotions which he has grown) just showed that it can't be the place for him.

Nothing indicated to me that there was a change in Keith and Krolia's relationship after spending 2 years together, this in endorsed by the fact that he considers saying she's his mother, he isn’t out right with it. Also, the Space Whales I think is a really cute visual because it was always a large one with a little one beside it, like a mother and child. I think that's what Krolia wants, because she missed that, but she is giving Keith time and space to actually accept  and forgive her. Krolia knows what she is doing and she knows, she just does. Keith still acts like they are only partners on a mission "It's been two years, we can finally finish our mission" and then making the orders the way he did upon finding Romelle. Also Krolia just seems to be there... it’s just an unspoken thing now that she’s there along for the ride. But it was said (and I think is a little obvious) that Krolia wants to go back and stay on Earth. Once the war is over she will be free, just like the rest of them. The one thing that just needs to be patched up is the relationship with Keith, and I think Shiro will be the one to teach that to Keith through patching things up with Adam, because that rift will come to a close only through, understanding forgiving and accepting the other person’s PoV, from both sides. That is, if that really is the emotional scene that goes down with Shiro and is also the lesson that links Keith to Adam and Shiro’s relationship. It just sets Keith up to accept all aspects of love

Keith I think feels guilty for leaving still, so again that lesson will link to asking for their forgiveness. Voltron is his family, but I’m hoping we see him bonding with them all, see him forgiving Krolia and then if we see him have a romance that would be so cool so it’s like he experiences every aspect of love. 

To round this all off, I wanted to talk about the actual difference there is between Keith and Krolia. I know a lot of features and such of Krolia are reminiscent in Keith but their personalities were so different really. Krolia was very calm and collected. She exerted those traits that reminded me both of Shiro and Lance. Shiro with being calm, collected, level-headed and also authoritarian, and Lance also with being rather calm, collected (when it suits him and after his growth), level-headed, sometimes authoritarian, but also in both exhibiting the skills of wielding both a blade and a gun. Krolia is yet another person Keith is/can learn from. He already has, but he needs those experiences of his own, and to let himself have them to fully understand. I don’t think that this is a coincidence that all three of them are like this though. It really gets you to go “hmmmm”- he just happens to have people surround him that are like this and he learns from all of them. I know that Allura is also rather calm, collected and authoritarian- it just leads me back to where I said about the people Keith listens to. Only when it suits him he will listen to Allura, he listens to Shiro, but he can be too stubborn sometimes to actually abide what he says. He listens to Krolia, but doesn’t actually fully understand her meaning at times and Lance he only listens to when Lance is being serious and it just seems to get through to him. 

Anyways, yeah. This is what I’ve come to the conclusion of. I’m sure the Adam/Shiro lesson (if we do get it) will be the thing that sparks off everything. I don’t really see any other way if it’s a thing that doesn’t happen...

Hope this helps! Questions/opinion always welcome

Later Paladudes ;)

[idcallmyselfhuman]

Latte Writing Prompt

So basically, Pidge invites Matt, who just went home for the summer after college, to a cruise. Shiro works there as idk a captain or some shiz. Hunk, obviously the chef for the buffets, Keith just lurking around when needed, Coran practically the organizer of events inside the ship, and Pidge fixes things around if needed. There, Matt meets this dude about his age and he thinks, 'daaamnnn'. Noticing him, blue eyes meet his and he just loses it and is a blushing mess because he's a dork.

Lance starts their friendship off with a flirt and they both laugh and eventually become buddies. They soon find out they're both meme Lords. The crew (Shiro, Pidge, Hunk, etc..) also know Lance because he used to work there but needed to quit because of reasons. They sometimes get annoyed because of the pranks but'll laugh along in the end.

Allura decided to host a sort of banquet or something and everyone is invited. The only one missing is Lance. Matt looks for him all over the ship til he just gives up and looks down at the water. There, he sees aqua blue glowing in the dark waters, and quickly notices that it was from a tail. A tail which was attached to the Cuban boy he's fallen for.

(Lance can transform in his human form but feels more comfortable in his merman self)

I don't know, I just think this is neat. If this was already done can y'all tell me the fic name and where I can find it? That'd be awesome.

[subtlehysteria]

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

Chapters: 10/10 Fandom: Voltron: Legendary Defender Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Adam/Shiro (Voltron), Adam & Keith (Voltron), Adam & Pidge (Voltron), Adam & Lance (Voltron), Minor Klance cause this is season 1, Adam & Hunk (Voltron) Characters: Adam (Voltron), Shiro (Voltron), Keith (Voltron), Pidge (Voltron), Lance (Voltron), Hunk (Voltron), Allura (Voltron), Coran (Voltron) Additional Tags: Fix-It of Sorts, More like what if Adam joined the Space Fam from the beginning, Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Slow Burn, I'm talking suuuuper slow burn, if I commit to this its gonna be an 8-part series guys, Whoop Whoop, Getting Back Together, slowly but surely, Adam and Shiro are exes, but they're still friends, Kinda, it's messy, Attempt at Humor, I'm not funny so I thought this would be good practice, please bear with me, Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder - PTSD, let Shiro rest, Pining Keith (Voltron), Hurt/Comfort, Female Pronouns for Pidge | Katie Holt, Canon-Typical Violence, Pining Adam (Voltron), Pining Shiro (Voltron) Series: Part 1 of Surviving Space With Your Ex-Fiancé Summary:

When Adam helps a bunch of teenagers rescue his ex-fiancé (presumed dead) from the Garrison, he was not prepared for the resulting mayhem.

Purple aliens, space elves, giant flying lions. It's a lot to process.

Oh, and did he mention that he was still in love with his ex?

Or, what if Adam was a part of the main Voltron cast from the beginning?

Final chapter is up!

[the-kittens-of-vol-tron]

Rain (do with it what you will)

Sweet

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Lance wasn’t sure how long he sat on front of Blue, fighting back the chatter of his teeth as he ignored what his teammates were saying. It was raining, what started out as a few drops rapidly turned into a steady downpour.  

The liquid was cold and it rolled quickly off his tan skin, being replaced by the next drop. It sounded quiet and it didn’t bring up the earthy smell that Lance had grown accustomed too while living in Cuba. 

Lance closed his eyes, imagining the sound of his mother screaming at him and his siblings to come inside before the lightning struck them. He tried to imagine the sound his oversize rubber boots would make as he jumped puddle to puddle racing his older brother. He tried to imagine how “sticky” his raincoat felt against his skin and how he would scream at the top of his lungs every time he fell over. 

“Lance? You ready to go yet? The castle is up and running.” Keith gently touched the tanner boy’s shoulder and Lance shrugged him off. 

“A few more ticks?” Lance cursed at how small his voice sounded and Keith crossed his arms. 

“Sure, that’s fine.” He paused for a second, taking in the Blue Paladin’s state. “Are you sure that you’re okay?” 

Lance hesitantly nodded, he didn’t know the answer to that question completely, “yeah I am, can I just be alone for a bit longer?” 

Keith nodded, mumbling a quick yes before turning away and heading back towards the others, sneaking a few glances at him. 

Lance listened to the footsteps disappear behind him and he tilted his head back, letting the rain hit his face. Thank goodness this planet is safe for us. He slightly jumped at the loud noise that crackled through the sky, lighting up his face with a quick flash of white light. 

Lance smiled to himself, feeling waterfall from the corners of his eyes as he let, what he declared as space thunder, drown out the voices from the memories from Earth. “Just like home.” 

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I hope you like it!!!

Thank you!!!!!

[vee-tdc]

LANCE WEEK DAY 1-5 ((IM LATE AF))

DAY 1: FAMILY

DAY 2: FRIENDS

DAY 3: COMFORT/LOVE 

DAY 4: EARTH 

DAY 5: BLUE 

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY BOY AND I AM SORRY I WASN’T CONSIDERATE ENOUGH TO MAKE SOMETHING DECENT ON TIME ;-;

((Most of this was made at like... 11 pm, so sorry its so crappy XD))

[i-dont-remember-comfort-blog]

Addict with a Gun

W A R N I N G This oneshot is filled with angst and definitely not for the weak minded

This oneshot contains: self hatred, self harm, suicidal thoughts, harsh insults, attempted suicide, anorexia, anxiety/panic attacks, a bit of Klance, and Coran being the great space uncle that he is

“Come on Lance! Just get it together already! Can’t you do anything right?! We’re in a war we can’t afford to lose!”,Shiro, the head of Voltron yelled at Lance. Lance went to apologize, but before the words could even leave his mouth he was already being yelled at again. “We can’t afford to be goofing off all the time Lance! You need to just grow up already!” You’re probably wondering how this whole situation happened.

The paladins were training and Lance could tell that everyone was having a pretty rough day, so he decided to crack a joke in hopes of lightening the mood, maybe cheering someone up a little. Lance didn’t get the reaction he wanted.

“Keith does what he’s supposed to! Hunk does what he’s supposed to! Pidge does what she’s supposed to and she’s the youngest of all of us! Yet you constantly act like a child!” “I-I’m so-” “Are you a paladin of Voltron?!” “I-” “Start acting like it!”

And with that, Shiro stormed out of the training deck, leaving Lance standing there, head hung low and desperately fighting back tears. The worst part of it all? Nobody offered Lance any sort of comfort. The other three paladins just walked out of the training deck, none of them even offering Lance a look of sympathy.

Once alone, Lance collapsed to his knees and allowed his tears to fall, feeling horrible.

‘I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to make anyone angry, I wasn’t trying to be childish, I just wanted to cheer you guys up.’ 'I’m a failure, I should just be replaced.’ 'Why am I even here? I’m unworthy of being a paladin.’ 'I’m a disgrace to all things living.’ 'I don’t deserve to live.’ Thoughts like these wouldn’t leave his mind. He was finding it hard to breath, his heartbeat quickened, he almost couldn’t move. He managed to pull his knees to his chest and bury his face in his knees, desperately trying to disappear from existence.

'I’m such a screwup.’ 'Why can’t I do anything right?’ 'I try, I really do, I’m just not good enough.’ 'Have I ever been good enough?’ 'Will I ever be good enough?’ 'What if someone gets hurt because of me?’ 'Shiro’s right, we can’t afford to mess around.’ 'I can’t afford to screw up.’

“Lance! Are you okay?!”,Coran asked, concerned for his favorite paladin. Lance shook his head yes, even if he knew it was more than obvious that he wasn’t. Coran dropped to his knees and pulled Lance into a tight hug. “Lance my boy, it’s okay, just take deep breaths, in and out, in and out..” Lance tried taking deep breaths, copying how Coran was taking deep breaths. His breathing wasn’t completely steady, but Lance was breathing better than before.

“Can you tell me what happened?”,Coran asked in a quiet voice, not wanting to scare the young paladin. “I-I’m a s-screw up…I-I can’t d-do a-anyt-thing right…I-I t-tell too many j-jokes a-and I goof off t-too much…”,Lance said between hiccups as he tried to stop crying. “Lance, you’ve done nothing wrong son, why do you think that..?” “B-Because…i-it’s true…!” “No it’s not Lance.” “Y-Yes it is! S-Shiro said it h-himself!”

Words could not describe how furious Coran was, but for Lance’s sake, he hid it. Coran began telling Lance that he did nothing wrong, that even if the others don’t appreciate his jokes he always would, that Shiro was wrong, that he had so much value, anything he could to calm the boy down and try to restore his mental health, even if Coran knew his words probably wouldn’t help all that much.

When Lance was finally calm, Coran helped him to his feet. “I’m sorry Coran, you probably have better things to do than help me calm down from a panic attack..”,Lance said, his voice so quiet it scared the altean man. “Don’t apologize, you’ve done absolutely nothing wrong my boy.” Lance flashed a sad smile at the man. “Please don’t tell anyone about this, I don’t want this to be another reason that I’m weak to the others…” “My lips are sealed.”

“Thank you Coran…I’m gonna go take a nap, I’ll see you around.”,Lance said as he walked out of the training deck.

During dinner, Keith noticed that Lance was nowhere to be seen. “Has anybody seen Lance?”,Keith asked the others. They all shook their heads. “I bet he’s busy with his skincare routine.”,Pidge joked. “Probably off somewhere being an idiot.”,Keith added. “I hope he’s not doing anything too ignorant.”,Allura stated, rolling her eyes at the thought of Lance. Shiro sighed. “He just never listens, does he?” “He does sometimes.”,Hunk answered.

They didn’t know Lance was leaning against the wall by the dining room’s entrance. They didn’t know he had been listening since the question of where he was had been asked. They didn’t know he was fighting back tears. They didn’t know that they just hurt him right after he managed to find himself in a better mood.

Lance quietly walked in and took his seat, not looking at anyone. “Hey Lance, where were you?”,Hunk asked the blue eyed boy. “I was taking a nap.”,Lance answered, his voice still quiet. Shiro slammed his hand on the table, causing everyone to freeze and look over at him. “After that little scene you started earlier a guy would think you’d spend your spare time training so that way maybe you wouldn’t be such a disappointment, but you can’t even do that right!”

Lance stood up, staring down at the table. “You know Shiro, believe it or not I actually try. Believe it or not I work twice as hard than the rest of you because I need to work twice as hard to even be at the level I am! But my best isn’t good enough!”,Lance yelled out. All eyes were on him. He lifted his head up and looked at Shiro, anger was clearly visible on the leader’s face. “I’m not good enough for anyone! No matter how hard I try my best is just never good enough! Every night I’ve been training in secret to try to get better because I know I’m not strong enough!”

“Lance what the hell?! Don’t yell at Shiro!”,Pidge yelled. “You’re being a selfish asshole!”,Keith joined in. “Lance just stop lying! There’s no way you with your ego would ever try to get better!”,Allura added. “I’m sorry buddy, but you’re too lazy to train.” 'Not you too Hunk…’

“Arrogant piece of shit!” “Self centered!” “Screwup!” “Annoying!” “Childish!” “Weak!” “Faker!” “Liar!” 'I want to die.’ “Stop fucking around Lance!” “Are you just gonna stand there?! Say something!” “Apologize to Shiro!” “Lance…?” 'I want to die.’ “Worthless jerk!” “Tallass!” “Why are you even a paladin?!” “Lance? Buddy?” 'I want to die!’ “Placeholder!” “Idiot!” “Fucking answer us!” “Say something you piece of shit!” “G-Guys you should really stop, I don’t think Lance is okay…” 'I WANT TO DIE!’

“I WANT TO DIE!”

Silence filled the room, everyone’s eyes were on Lance. Tears fell like raindrops from his ocean blue eyes, he was shaking, his fists were clenched, he was staring at the ground.

“I hate you, I hate all of you.”,Lance said as he stormed out of the room, leaving the rest of them completely shocked. “Lance?” “Leave me alone.” Coran stepped into the room, and for the first time, they all saw Coran when he was truly angry. “What the quiznak have you all done to that boy?!”

Lance sat on his bed crying himself a river. Did they all really hate him so much that him lashing out was considered a horrible thing to do but everyone else was able to lash out on him? Was he just everyone’s verbal punching bag? Did any of them even care about him?

'This is my fault, isn’t it…?’ 'I was the one who lost my cool, I should’ve just kept my mouth shut and taken it, that’s what I’m supposed to do, right?’ 'I’m just the one everyone lets their frustration out on, why did I think any of them care?’ 'I know Coran cares and Hunk was trying to get the others to stop, but is anybody supposed to even care about me?’ 'No, I’m just the seventh wheel, nobody is supposed to care.’ 'I don’t deserve to be loved.’ 'I’m just the paladin of the blue lion, they only need me to form Voltron.’ 'I’m not here for anything else.’ 'I’m not here because the others want me here, I’m just here because I have to be. They only put up with me because they have to.’ 'None of them actually like me as a person.’

Lance left his room and locked himself in the bathroom closest to his room. We walked over to the sink and pulled open one of the drawers, searching for anything he could use. He managed to find a razor and set it on the count, closing the drawer. He grabbed a towel and set that down on the counter as well. He searched the bathroom for any bandages, knowing he would need some by the time he was done. Luckily he found some and added that to his collection of items on the counter.

He rolled up his sleeves, revealing so many scars it was scary to think about how much he’ll he had to have been put through to do all this to himself. He held the razor to his wrist and…

Letting out a hiss of pain, Lance pulled the razor away then looked at the fresh cut. He knew it wasn’t very deep, it was enough to draw blood and hurt like hell, but he could deal with that. He didn’t want to kill himself yet. Lance continued to cut himself, stopping after seven cuts.

He set the razor on the counter and turned on the water. He picked up the towel and made sure it was damp before he applied pressure to his wrists. After most of the blood had been cleaned up Lance wrapped the bandages around his arm, cleaned up the bathroom and made his way back to his bedroom.

While walking down the hallway, keeping his head down, Lance accidentally bumped into someone. “S-Sorry…”,he mumbled as he tried to walk past whoever it was. Before he could get very far, his wrist was grabbed and he was pinned against the wall by none other than Keith. “I-I’m s-sorry I didn’t mean t-to bump into you…!” “Stop, just tell me what the hell’s been going on with you lately…please..?” Lance scoffed and pushed Keith off of him.

“Don’t pretend to care, I know you don’t.” “What the hell gave you that idea?”

Lance gritted his teeth and clenched his fists. He spun around to face Keith. “Don’t you fucking dare play dumb mullet! You made it very clear that you didn’t care at dinner! You all made it crystal fucking clear that I’m unwanted here! I know my place alright?! I’m just here to help you guys form Voltron, other than that I’m just a nuisance to you all!” “Lance that’s not true! We all care about you!” “I know Coran does, Hunk maybe, but the rest of you? How stupid do you actually think I am? You’re probably only even trying to figure out what’s wrong with me so you can make me apologize to Shiro, I get it, I’m just here for everyone to take their anger out on, I have no right to be angry with anyone, I should just die, right?” “Lance no! Please don’t think that way!” Lance let out a sad laugh. “If you want me to apologize to Shiro, fine. I’ve accepted what I am, and I know my place. I’ll apologize to him, it’s not like I have a right to human emotions. Now leave me the fuck alone.”,and with that, Lance continued to walk to his room.

“Lance please..” Keith had never sounded so desperate before. Lance stopped in his tracks, shocked at the tone of voice. “I just…I just wanna help you…I just wanna help make the team hole again…I just wanna make things right…For you…”

“You know, I’d like to believe that, I really would, but I can’t.” “Why…?”

“Every time we save someone, I feel like there’s actually hope, I feel that maybe one day this team could be like a family of some sort, maybe we could go outside and all join hands…but until then you’ll never understand!” “Never understand what…?!” “You all have guns but you never put the safety on! Every hateful word is the ammunition! And I’m the one everyone fires at!”

They both stood there, tears escaping their eyes. Keith finally realizing how shitty everyone treated Lance, immediately feeling horrible. “L-Lance..I-I’m so sorry…I’m s-sorry…” Lance’s glare softened for a moment. “Just…Leave me alone…” Lance walked away.

When Lance stepped into the dinning room he didn’t expect to find the other paladins and Allura sitting at the table, staring at their goo with sad and guilty expressions on their faces. When they noticed Lance, everyone’s head shot up to face him with sad smiles.

“Hey Lance…How’d you sleep?”,Pidge asked, her voice more gentle than usual. Lance merely shrugged, and that’s when the others realized how exhausted Lance looked. He had huge bags under his eyes, he looked pale, and his eyes looked a little bloodshot. The same question lingered through their minds, how long had Lance been like this?

“By the way Shiro, I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have lashed out yesterday, it was wrong of me to do that. Shiro looked shocked. "O-Oh, uhm…it’s okay Lance…” Lance sat in his usual seat and began to eat the green food goo in front of him. During breakfast, it was so painfully silent. Nobody was speaking. “Why are you guys so quiet? It feels like a funeral in here.”,Lance said, beginning to feel cornered for the others. Nobody said anything. “Guys…?” Nothing. “If I did something wrong just yell at me already, I’d rather get it over with than have to know it could happen at any time…” No answer. Lance stood up and walked out of the dining room, trying not to break down.

After taking a quick stop to the bathroom to puke up his breakfast, Lance headed down to the training deck.

He set the training bot level to twenty seven, then he spoke the words he hated speaking, knowing that no matter how hard he works he wouldn’t be as strong as the others…

“Begin training sequence.”

This continued for days. Lance would head to breakfast and nobody would utter a word. He would train the entire day, sometimes he would show up to dinner, but it was just like breakfast. After dinner he would lock himself in the bathroom to cut, then he’d clean up and head back to his room, crying for hours, never really falling asleep. Nobody would speak. Hell, even Coran was quiet.

He kept apologizing to the others, telling them he was sorry for lashing out the way he had, saying sorry for being so annoying, saying sorry for whatever he did to make everyone go silent, even though he had no clue what that was.

Lance blamed himself for this, and decided to do something he felt he should’ve done a long time ago.

He made his way to the observation deck, or the stargazing room as he liked to call it. He held a folded piece of paper in one hand, and in the other his bayard. That handy note of his? It went a little something like this;

Hey everyone,

I’m sorry if anyone actually misses me, but I doubt it. Nobody would speak where I happened to be, which is probably my fault anyways. I don’t know what I did, but I’m sorry. If you guys could, tell my family I died in a crazy battle of some sort? It would kill them to know I actually committed suicide.

Coran, you were the one person who was ever really there for me. You’re a great guy, and I’m sorry I couldn’t stick around much longer.

Hunk, you’ve been my best friend for the longest time, and thank you for not saying a lot about me, aside from a small almost harmless comment or two.

Pidge, you were like a little sister to me, and even though you probably hated me I just want to tell you that I know you’ll find your family out here, if anyone can do it, it’s you.

Allura, I know my flirting was probably more than annoying, and I’m sorry for that, but I just want you two know you were like a sister to me in most ways. I know if you hated any paladin, it would be me, so I’m sorry for never really being able to provide much to the team and I’m sorry I’m just giving up like this. Pilot Blue for me, will ya? I wouldn’t want anyone else to do it but you.

Shiro, even though you probably always hated me, I looked up to you, even after everything I still do. Promise me in the future you’ll find a better outlet for your problems? And make sure the others do too, I’m not there to take it anymore so you guys need to find something better and less hurtful. And please don’t blame everything on yourself. You’re doing your best as the leader and that’s all anyone could ask of you.

Keith, I never hated you or your mullet. If I’m being honest, I’ve had a thing for you since the Garrison. I know you probably don’t feel the same, but I just wanna apologize for starting that whole rivalry between us and thank you for trying to get me to talk through my problems, that was more than most people ever did.

Again, I’m sorry everyone, but stay strong for me, okay?

-Lance

Lance pulled up the map and looked for Earth, gently smiling at the sight of his home planet. He held the note close to his chest, activated his bayard, and held the barrel of the gun to the side of his head. “Hey Lance are you in here-LANCE!” 'Keith…I’m sorry.’ Just as Lance was about to pull the trigger, he was knocked over and his bayard fell out of his hand, deactivating the second it touch the ground. Keith looked up to see that Lance was alive, and the tears that had been brimming at the corners of his eyes overflew.

Lance sat up and let out a muffled sob, followed by him mumbling,“I-I can’t even d-die correctly…” Keith wrapped his arms around the boy and pulled him into his lap. Lance buried his face into Keith’s chest, gripping onto his black t-shirt as if his life depended on it. “L-Lance, I-I’m so sorry, I can’t say it enough a-and I know that you’ll probably never forgive me a-and that you h-hate me, but I-I love you s-so much, I-I c-can’t lose you Lance..P-Please…” Lance only cried harder, clinging onto Keith. “I-I’m s-sorry, I d-didn’t think anybody c-cared, e-everyone had b-blocked me out a-and I-I thought it w-was some pact o-or something s-so that way m-maybe I w-would leave and y-you guys w-would be a better t-team without t-that fuck up Lance, Lance w-who can’t even k-kill himself properly…”,Lance had spoke, sobbing and hiccuping, causing Keith’s heart to break more than it already had.

“W-We were q-quiet because w-we were scared of hurting you a-anymore…W-We all feel s-so fucking bad about everything we’ve done, w-we just didn’t know how to say it o-or go about it..I-I wanted to talk t-to you sooner but S-Shiro wanted to give you s-some space, but I-I needed to talk to you and when I walked in to s-see you with the gun to y-your head..L-Lance I was terrified I was gonna l-lose you…I-I love you L-Lance..” “I-I l-love y-you t-too..”

“Keith, did you find him-”,Pidge stopped mid sentence before calling out to the others and running over to the two. “W-What happened…?”,she asked, scared that what she thought almost happened actually almost happened. Lance and Keith only cried more, Keith’s hold on Lance tightening, as if Keith was scared that if he let go Lance would disappear. As soon as the others arrived, it was no question what was happening next. Everyone gathered around Lance, hugging him, crying and apologizing, telling him they care about him and how amazing he was.

By the time everyone had stopped crying, it was around breakfast time. “Hey Lance, do you want me to try to cook up some pancakes for breakfast?”,Hunk asked his best friend. Lance flashed a small smile and nodded while wiping his tears away with his sleeve. “Alright, I’ve been working on this for a while and I think I can pull it off, I’ll go get started.”,Hunk said as he stood up. Coran stood up as well. “I’m sure there’s something that needs repair, stay safe my boy.” Coran and Hunk left the room to go off to do their own things. “Hey Lance, what if I told you I’ve been trying to make a space version of an iPhone?” Lance looked at Pidge, a little shocked and very intrigued. “R-Really? That sounds fantastic..!” “How would you like the first one?” “S-Seriously?!” “Hell yes.” “I-I’d love one Pidge, thank you…” She smiled at him before standing up. “I’m gonna work on it then, I’ll bring it to you as soon as I’m done.”,she told the blue paladin as she left the room. Allura cleared her throats and spoke,“Me and Shiro have some important matters to discuss, I assume you two will be perfectly fine on your own?” Keith and Lance nodded yes, and then Allura grabbed Shiro’s wrist and dragged him out of the room with her.

Keith and Lance made eye contact, and then Keith did something Lance never would’ve expected. Keith kissed him.

It was only a peck on the lips, yes, but to Lance it was everything, and he found himself smiling. “Stay alive, for me..?” “Yeah, I think I can do that.”

[stopkiwibea]

Guys help I’m emotional

So I wrote a thing- Its a Langst thing.

It isnt finished and its just in the ‘summarize’ stage but… I dont know if I should expand on it?

Read it under the cut if you wantttt

(post season 2)

First Part:

Shiro is still missing, the team does the musical chairs with the lions. Keith is Black, Lance is Red, Allura is Blue. Lance feels disconnected from his identity. Is he the jester? Is he the sharpshooter? Is he just a replacement that’s supposed to try and fit the red lion’s traits? He isnt sure. He tries to keep things going like normal. “But he isnt stupid and he notices how they treat him”(line from the prompt) and he shuts down. Trains more, sleeps less. Focuses more, eats less. Obeys more, talks less. To the point where he’s a walking shell of himself and “Got it” “Yes sir” “On it” short and quick comments. Everyone is stressed, relieved that ‘lance isnt making this harder’ and doesnt notice how broken he is. Its not til the y get Shiro back that he finally visibly breaks. (i.e. hes supposed to go back to blue but he cant? He doesnt know who he is anymore? He visibly looks confused when someone jokes that ‘lance can go back to being lance’ and its said in a way that just enforces more self hatred for the guy he used to be) so he tries to bond with blue again but she isnt letting him in, she doesnt like how cold he is at his core, doesnt understand what happened to her favorite paladin, wont let anyone in(mentally, she still lets allura pilot) and no one understands why… at first. Cuz Shiro is getting increasingly uncomfortable with “how much lance has improved” cuz he’s realizing its not a good change- Lance is getting even quieter as the days go by because, hell, blue wont let him in, why is he even here then?

Hunk tries telling him jokes they used to say back on earth (lance just stares at him like the joke went over his head), pidge tries to get some insane ideas out of him again (he is too strategic now, nothing he says is ‘insane’ anymore), Coran invites him to help clean in hopes it will bring him to talk (lance stays silent the entire time), Keith bugs him/tries to get him fired up over small things (lance just shrugs and listens as keith gets progressively more angry about the lack of response and is removed from the room), Allura leaves every window open for lance to flirt or crack a joke/ intentionally pausing as if waiting for one that she can hear in her head (he never does and the meetings are forced), Shiro thinks its his fault / due to the stress of having to find him that broke lance (he’s only half way right.) Lance just… cant understand who he is supposed to be anymore. Lance thinks that the castle is better now, with less yelling, less mistakes, they get through meetings faster, and his ‘sharpshooter’ title becomes the only thing he holds onto. (like a living breathing gun)

No one knows how to help him.

Things get worse.

The team cant form voltron.

Even the lions feel disconnected from each other.

Lance feels responsible.

“I cant even be the sharpshooter if I dont have a lion”

“Its my fault for severing my bond with blue/she cant recognise me anymore.”

“I dont understand why the team is like this. Why cant you guys bond?”

Keith yells “ITS BECAUSE OF YOU” (he doesnt mean it that way. He’s just wants the old lance back, the one he was growing to love. The others know that. Lance doesnt.)

Lance leaves in the middle of the night after that.

The team searches and searches but they cant find him.

They fear lance is gone forever. They fear that they caused this.

Second Part:

Its been a month. Still no sign of Lance. Until they get a signal from a Galra ship hoarding prisoners. And Blue, who never fully disconnected from Lance, feels him on that ship. She relays this to Allura and the team regroups, planning to break him out. They had to work on their bonds, strengthen them in the hopes that they would eventually find Lance. In a way, he is still holding the team together.

Lance is on that ship. Has been for 2 weeks? 3? He isnt sure. He just knows hes in so much pain, hes surprised he isnt dead yet.

(prompt continues where he strikes deals to take other prisoners beating for them, is still a selfless asshole, learns how small his vocabulary got with all the “yes sir” shit he was doing, and he still has his smart mouth (never got rid of it, just… couldnt use it with the team- his brain felt like it had short circuited in front of them) The prisoners dont understand why he would endure so much pain just for them. They thank him and care for him as he drifts through the blackouts. Queue lance getting to know these prisoners, understanding their strengths and weaknesses, and using that (slowly oh so slowly) to try and find a way to break out. He does. He tells them this plan. They praise him for his kind heart and smart thinking, the tell him things he never would have thought about himself. He’s happy. He thinks he knows who he is again. The problem is, he cant feel his legs after that last beating. He can barely stay awake. He thinks hes failed. Again. But the prisoners say otherwise. They make a makeshift stretcher for him. He protests, telling them he’ll only get in the way like this, they tell him “nonsense! You saved us too many times to think about leaving you here. Its our turn to save you.”)

The team is breaking through the defenses when they notice the main ship going crazy. Pidge scans it “its the prisoners! They broke out!” Hunk is overjoyed “I knew Lance could do it!” Its Keith who still has a bad feeling. Shiro directs them to take out all the smaller ships, let Allura and Keith get to the hanger. Keith gets there first, busts the doors open, Allura slides Blue in. They both get out, on foot, within 5 minutes of landing and take out the soldiers. The doors behind them open and here come the prisoners. They dont see Lance at first. Allura is quick to signal them over to blue. As Keith is still fighting, Allura runs over to Blue, getting her to open up for the prisoners, and they both stop. They feel the mental connection that should have been lost but its still there. Keith finished with the soldiers and runs to Allura’s side. Allura stares at the prisoners “I-is he really… Is our friend really with you?” The prisoners part to let them see the middle of their group and theres Lance. On the stretcher, looking worse than they ever could have imagined.

Keith knew he had a bad feeling.

With no time to waste, Blue growled, snapping everyone to attention and the rescue continues.

(lance is watched like a hawk by these prisoners who (understandably, dont know if lance is really their ‘friend’ and they decide to be protective of him. Very. protective.) They are able to open a wormhole and everyone gets on the ship ok. Well… relatively. Lance still hasnt woken up the entire rescue mission and its concerning to everyone. They get him in a pod just as his breathing threatens to stop. Coran is all but sobbing, so grateful that they made it in time, no matter how slim of a window that was. Hunk is sitting by the pod, staring at his friend, tears rolling off his cheeks. Pidge is just trying to take everything in, none of the prisoners were her brother or father, and lance(whos been missing for a month) is stuck in a pod. Allura is speaking with the prisoners, explaining who they are and who lance use to be. (they are very surprised considering how low his self esteem was that he was ever a paladin of the great voltron) Shiro, standing by hunk, still feeling guilty, is lost in his thoughts about whether or not Lance will be happy when he wakes up in the castle.

Keith is just… sitting with some of the younger prisoners and crying. Crying because they are telling him everything that Lance did for them. And crying because “he isnt gone, hes still in there, i thought we lost him forever, guys we have to fix this”

Lance comes out of the pod a week later and YAY ITS ALL HAPPY MANY HUGS AND APOLOGIES AND LANCE UNDERSTANDING THAT HE IS WORTH SOMETHING AND THEY WANT THE GOOFY GUY BACK BUT ONLY IF HES OK WITH THAT ALRIGHT ONLY IF HES OK WITH ITTTTTTTTTTT

[shimixuu]

six miles high up in the airspace

A/N: keith knows that it’s not shiro. there’s a meta out there that says that. nobody else does, though. also i’m crying because of how good the team was wrt klance? and im feeling sad bc of the mess that was the room scene? so this is just a lil drabble idk

Before Lance notices the things that are off about Shiro, he notices the things that are off about Keith. For someone so dead-set on finding the man, he sure doesn’t seem to enjoy talking to him. There’s a scowl on his face whenever he looks at Shiro’s retreating back. It’s Keith’s thinking scowl. The “there’s something wrong here, and I should have a solution” scowl. Yeah, Shiro’s a little different, but Lance writes it off as an impact of being trapped by the Galra again. Once is already rough, but twice is probably enough to severely detriment a man, even one like Shiro.

That is, until Keith breaks into his fucking room and shakes him awake one night.

“Hey, what’s going - DIOS MIO, KEITH!”

It really doesn’t help that Keith’s Galra mode is partially activated. A little scuffle on a ship full of quintessence wound up with the red paladin doused in it, which led to Keith’s genes revealing themselves in a physical manner. After that incident, his eyes glowed yellow in the dark, and when he was irritated, he would growl and his canines would get longer. Lance is under the suspicion that Keith actually went full Galra when the container cracked on him, but that’s neither here or there.

“Lance,” he says, voice urgent. “Lance, you have to listen to me.”

“Yeah, okay, I’m listening, holy guacamole,” he replies, batting at Keith a little. The other boy is crouched by his bed, hands firmly clasping his shoulders, which he removes when Lance sits up. “Keith, what’s wrong?”

“That - that thing out there, that’s not Shiro.”

Lance is immediately intrigued. “What do you mean, it’s not Shiro?”

“I mean it’s not him, it’s some duplicate or clone or - “ Keith’s glowing eyes search Lance’s. “You don’t believe me.”

“No, Keith, I swear I do, this is just.... unexpected. Keep going.” Keith’s interpersonal skills weren’t the greatest - Lance had experienced that firsthand - but if he was this convinced about something, he had to have some solid evidence to back it up. 

“I’ve been suspicious ever since it got back. Its eyes aren’t right. It’s too soft to be Shiro, and the way it treats me when we’re out in the field is...” Keith trails off, frustrated. “I know I’m not a good leader. I know I have issues. But if Shiro really wanted me to lead the team while he wasn’t around, he wouldn’t tell us to do things that go against what we’re trying to accomplish. So I started asking it about stuff only my brother would know, questions about our childhood.”

“Wait, is that why you were talking to him in Japanese?” Lance, shoving aside the newfound revelation that Keith and Shiro are related, vaguely recalls an event where the black-haired boy was speaking very aggressively in another language to Shiro. He looked confused. At the time, Lance assumed Keith was telling him something odd. Clearly, that is not the case.

“Yeah. I called him Ta - a nickname I used when I was a really little kid. Shiro’s better at Japanese than I am, so he can respond fluently. That thing out there? It didn’t understand a word I was saying. That’s what sealed the deal for me. Lance, you can’t trust it. I don’t know why it’s here or where my brother is, but until we figure out the answer to those two questions, you have to know that it’s not the real Shiro.”

“I - I will,” He replies, still processing the information. “Keith, you know, I really appreciate you telling me this. But, um, why me? Why now?”

“Because you’re the best with people here.” Silence. “And I trust you the most.” Almost immediately after that, Keith stands and walks to the door. “Meet me on the training deck after lunch. We can talk there.”