Would it be possible to request Reiner with a reader who bottles up their emotions a lot, and on a particular day sees them, asks if they’re okay and they just break down and spill everything? (I’m just in need of a bit of comfort. If you feel uncomfortable doing this then feel free to delete this). Thank you in advance!
i hope you feel better now, angel. :’( bottling up emotions suck so bad tbh.
REINER BRAUN WITH A READER WHO BOTTLES UP EMOTIONS
tw: angst
bottling up emotions is very familiar to reiner. he often uses it as a coping mechanism to escape his suffering. however, he had never imagined that you did that too. maybe because you were too good at masking your pain behind a pleasant exterior. don’t get me wrong, your positive attitude was like a pillar of hope in reiner’s eternal turmoil of depression, but his heart shattered when he first discovered that you suffered in silence.
you had had a particularly bad day. you weren’t even aware of your composure cracking. you sat on a recliner and stared into nothingness. you were really trying to not bring attention to yourself, but you couldn’t hide too long from the one person whose world revolved around you.
reiner noticed the look in your eyes. it caused his heart to sting like a thousand wasps had attacked him at once. “what’s wrong, y/n?” he mumbled, gently removing a strand off of your face. he was met with silence, you didn’t even met his gaze. he felt it breaking, shattering. like his heart was made of glass. why weren’t you sharing your pain with him? “…talk to me, baby.” his voice cracked slightly, as he tilted your chin to meet his gaze.
his hazel eyes represented empathy, but also strength. the strength to carry all your burdens on his shoulders. you couldn’t hold yourself back anymore. he was not like all the others who either lived in blissful ignorance or chose to ignore your misery. reiner was one of a kind.
you weren’t sure if you were crying in pain or comfort. maybe both. “i can’t take this anymore, reiner.” your voice hitched because of your sobs. “i… i’ve been trying so hard to keep it together. i don’t know what to do.” tears freely rolled down your cheeks and reiner didn’t wiped them. he allowed you to pour your heart to him, listening to each and every one of your problems without judgment.
at some point, he reached over and held you in his embrace, allowing you to wet his shirt with your tears. the vibration of your voice against his chest was comforting to him, despite you being in a dejected state. you were his ray of sunshine no matter how you were feeling in the moment. your presence comforted him regardless of anything.
once you finished ranting, reiner gently kissed your forehead. “…if it was in my hands, i’ll never let you suffer.” he mumbled. he truly felt helpless when you cried, but little did he know that the shoulder he offered was more helpful than he had imagined. “…but i swear to god y/n, don’t hide anything from me. you don’t have to pretend around me.” he really meant it. he wanted to be your pillar of strength just like you were his.
