#standpoint

[gelatinorifice]

I dontknow if I want to be a sprunki fanartist anymore Im not gonna lie

[senyoahedor]

AT THE LIMINAL

i am aware, as i swim against the current, i expend energy and time, and i forego certainty.

i have been evasive.

what shapes my sensibilities? i say, what shapes others' sensibilities?

what effect we effect isn't the point. what effect we effect matters, but not to us, in a sense, because we are what matters to us, being us in the capacity of us. we can't reduce ourselves, being us, to what effect we effect. we are reason enough, all on our own, as cause to be as we care to be.

have i been evasive?

there will always be uncertainty for us who swim against the current, and if we must assure ourselves of precisely what we can't assure ourselves of, then we must do nothing but just the work towards…

as a matter of science and faith, i assert there is an abundant abundance of approaches toward…

[senyoahedor]

JUDGMENT CALL

even if it were just two of us left in the world, i imagine that i would stop interacting with a counterpart always inclined to view anything that i say or do through the worst possible lens. i also imagine that i would stop interacting with a counterpart always inclined to view anything that i say or do through the best possible lens.

these two scenarios are extremes, and a dynamic evaluation of trustworthiness is rendered impossible under both conditions. the former scenario takes trustworthiness to be perfectly absent, and the latter scenario takes it to be perfectly present. interaction under both conditions would be pointless.

i mean, i would find it pointless to interact with anyone who always found my trustworthiness level to be zero, under one extreme, or who always found my trustworthiness level to be infinite, under the other extreme. nothing could be changed between us through interaction. nothing constructive would be at stake even if we were to interact.

my own trustworthiness level as to myself isn’t zero nor infinite. myself with myself, i operate within zones of trustworthiness between zero and infinity. i am not always operating within a healthy and productive zone of trustworthiness, myself with myself. i fluctuate, myself with myself. i can get too low on myself sometimes, and i can get too high on myself othertimes.

moreover, healthy and productive zones of trustworthiness aren’t at fixed points. healthy and productive zones of trustworthiness, myself with myself, haven’t been at fixed points over the course of my life to date. i expect, as i gain more and more knowledge and experience, i will keep advancing and retreating where healthy and productive zones of trustworthiness, myself with myself, are.

myself with others, i expect anyone who interacts with me in any consequential way to question my trustworthiness in good faith, just as i question their trustworthiness in good faith. good faith interactions might just be the type between counterparts willing and able to interact with each other within correspondingly healthy and productive zones of trustworthiness.

i am not able to have good faith interactions with everyone. i may not have always realized the fact, but i will never be able to have good faith interactions with everyone because i cannot operate within the same zone of trustworthiness as everyone.

i cannot share the same background of knowledge and experience as everyone. my particular contexts of knowledge and experience cannot be acknowledged by everyone, and i cannot acknowledge everyone’s particular contexts. there isn’t enough opportunity and grace to do so.

trustworthiness is a finite resource, even if a renewable resource. evaluate and expend it wisely.

[senyoahedor]

MAP VERSUS BLUEPRINT

trying to find myself, i realized i was nowhere and everywhere. i forget from where exactly came the overwhelming sense that i was lost. maybe, i am not being entirely truthful there. i should say, for the first twelve years of my life, i was surrounded by eyes that saw me for the best, and after those first twelve years, i was surrounded by eyes that questioned me more often than not, if i was even seen at all. all that was left after a time for a time was the imperative to find myself.

i saw possibilities. then, i saw constraints. i was caught in the middle. to free myself from the to and fro, i had to face a crucial fact. my freedom to be as i wanted to be was not what was in question. what i was willing to abandon to be as i wanted to be was what was in question. what others were willing to abandon to let me be as i wanted to be was what was in question.

i developed an obsession with figuring out exactly what makes anything anything and how anything continues to be anything because trying to find myself so as to be myself was a problem no different. i came to realize i was nowhere and everywhere since the problem was no different.

before the obsession, the world moved along, and i was subsisting despite my irretrievability, and with the obsession, the world continued to move along, and i was subsisting despite my irretrievability. i wanted more than just subsistence.

ultimately, i abandoned the notion of finding myself itself. i worked through the sense that i was lost, and i abandoned the imperative to find myself. i moved from trying to find myself to trying to keep myself. i took to building myself in keeping myself. i then realized i was somewhere.

[senyoahedor]

NO LAST PLACE HOLDING

an awakened sense

there is a point in life where you start to see the rest of your life. there are probably several points in fact.

terms of contest

i won’t pretend that i haven’t wasted time. i have wasted a lot of time. i won’t pretend that i have wasted all my time up to this point though.

there are so many intangibles and unforeseeables to developing into a whole person that wasting time might just be an asset sometimes. there are so many intangibles and unforeseeables to developing into a whole person that i don’t believe all the time that i maybe wasted has been all wasted time.

i am developing into a whole person. i feel like i am developing into a whole person inwardly, even if, right now, it isn’t looking like it outwardly.

stakes of contest

the risks of a usual path versus the risks of an unusual path aren’t all that different. the startup costs are incomparable, of course. the startup costs of taking a usual path is inherently lower than taking an unusual path.

that said, the perceived imbalance of total risk between taking a usual path versus taking an unusual path is overblown. you might come to nothing taking the usual path in life just as you might come to nothing taking the unusual path in life.

the risks of a usual path versus the risks of an unusual path aren’t all that different.

confession of judgment

i don’t know how to assess my life without the full picture of my life. do we ever get a full picture of our lives? can we ever get a full picture of our lives while we are living our lives?

what we do get are checkpoint snapshots.

i am dissatisfied with my present snapshot. there are some things in my present snapshot that i like. there are many more things in my present snapshot that i don’t like.

i love what are yet to come in future snapshots. i believe what are yet to come in future snapshots are really, really promising. i have a long, long way to go though.

i am dissatisfied with my present snapshot. too many debts off bets that i have made have already come due, and i have been unable to pay.

upfront fees

being clear-eyed is an invaluable skill, and it takes something to develop the skill.

sorting through information, especially about yourself, is also an invaluable skill, and it too takes something to develop.

there is an incredible amount of information about ourselves available to us in our inner spaces, and we must develop the skills to sort through it all.

administrative forbearance

only i really, really know what i have gained and what i have lost among the bets that i have made so far.

i am developing into a whole person.

feeling dissatisfaction while following an unusual path isn’t the slightest bit feeling regret when your path is far from completion.

[justinempire]

Standpoint | Justin Empire

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Standpoint

[femininealchemist]

Serendipity

Serendipity can be described as an unexpected and fortunate discovery or event that takes place without being deliberately sought out. It is a happy and beneficial happening that takes place as a result of chance.

Serendipity often involves "luck":

... seemingly random events or situations occurring beyond one's control, often viewed as favorable or unfavorable.

Serendipity often involves coincidence:

... a remarkable concurrence of events or circumstances that have no apparent causal connection.

Randomness is often attributed to luck, but the reality is that certain factors, such as prior actions, heavily impact its results.

Explain how without an open mind a person can't be serendipity

When someone has an open mind, they are more receptive to new ideas and experiences. This means they are more likely to notice things that others may overlook or dismiss, and more willing to see possibilities where others see limitations. An open-minded person is also more willing to take risks, try new things, and explore uncharted territory.

Conversely, someone who is closed-minded tends to cling to their existing beliefs and ideas, which can inhibit their ability to recognize and embrace new opportunities. They may also be less willing to take risks or explore unfamiliar territories, which can limit their chances of experiencing serendipity.

Therefore, having an open mind is important for enabling serendipitous discoveries, as it allows for more opportunities for unexpected, fortuitous events to occur.

A happy accident is serendipity

History Of Serendipity

The word "serendipity" was coined by the English writer Horace Walpole in 1754 and is derived from the Persian fairy tale "The Three Princes of Serendip."

The three princes were always making discoveries, by chance and sagacity, of things which they were not in quest of.

Therefore, the term serendipity came to mean a "happy accident" or a "pleasant surprise."

Finding something of immense value through an astonishingly beautiful circumstance of "randomness" ...

[tariah23]

I just got back in from getting my ID (I lost my last one as soon as I got it… must’ve fell out of my pocket so I was extremely careless) and it’s burning up today. Sweat was dripping down my chest like crazy but some older security guard at the dmv complimented my yyh T-shirt (my fav T-shirt now…). He was like “I like that YUYU-!” And I got so excited that I squealed like an idiot and was like “YOU KNOW ABOUT YUYU HAKUSHO!?” Ajjaaka. He replied back with a “hell yeah!” And I wanted to scream. Fellow yyh fans… rise up.