Just a reminder that Harry never compared his father to Malfoy (with whom he had a rivalry) but rather to Dudley (who bullied him as a child) when he saw Snape’s memories. This is a clear way of showing that Harry never thought of his father and Severus as rivals—he saw his father as a bully, which is why he was horrified. You’re welcome, James apologists.
Severus, who sneaks a look at himself whenever he walks by a mirror. Severus, who thinks no one notices him shrink in on himself. Sirius, who does notice. Sirius, who now feels guilty, who has to deal with the fact that he's part of the reason for this.
Sirius, who traces over Severus' face with his thumb. Severus, who shifts away before he can get to his nose.
Severus, who only wears long sleeves and pants, who refuses to show even a little skin after SWM. Sirius, who feels his eyes sting every time he notices Severus put back clothes with short sleeves. Sirius, who feels his shoulders sag whenever it's hot out, who sees Severus suffering in the heat.
Severus who washes his hair twice a day, leaving his skin dry and damaged, same with his hair. Sirius, who has to tell him how bad that is for him, who has to swallow past the lump in his throat.
Severus, who hates crying. Severus, who burrows his head in his pillows and blankets so he won't be heard. Severus, "Sorry for snivelling." Sirius, who feels his stomach drop every time. Sirius, who holds him close, even though Severus refuses to turn around.
Sirius, who is cursed with having to watch Severus suffer because of him, even after all these years.
Summary: Your best friend finally gets back out into the acting world after a long hiatus. When you come to visit him on set the two of you get wrapped up in your feelings for each other.
Warnings: None.
Author's Note: I have a lot of feelings for our boy and have been wanting to write this since he dropped those selfies the other day.
In the lot, where are you?
You groaned as you looked down at your phone. You were late, very late. Stupid traffic. Your best friend, Choi Seunghyun had finally gotten back out into the world after years of hiding and you’d promised him you’d be there for the first day of shooting. You however hadn’t been expecting to sit in traffic for 30 minutes.
Ten minutes out.
You texted back, slamming your phone down next to you as traffic finally started moving. You sped off, keeping your attention on the road, ignoring the butterflies in your stomach.
It was just Seunghyun, it wasn’t like he was your boyfriend. There was no need to be nervous, you two had been best friends for as long as you could remember. Did you find him attractive? Sure, but who didn’t? Did you constantly put off relationships because you held onto hope that one day maybe he’d see you differently? Maybe but that was beside the point.
“Finally.”
You sighed as the set came into view. You fished around for your credentials and drove towards the back lot. You spotted him and his mess of purple hair before he could see you and you grinned. This was the Seunghyun you remembered, before the military, before he’d shut out everyone but you. Standing confidently, hair colored something crazy, waiting for you.
“Hey you.”
He turned around, his eyes meeting yours and a grin crossing his own face.
“What do you think?” He barely waited for you to be standing in front of him before he spun around quickly, arms out for you to get a full view of him in character.
“Looking good.” You teased as he spun around to face you again.
“That’s all I needed, you can go now.” He smirked, pretending to turn away.
He was being smug, acting like he hadn’t been waiting all morning for you to get there and see him as Thanos.
“Wait a minute!” You grabbed his arm, pulling him back to face you.
That’s when your hand caught sight of his nails and you let out a laugh. “Nice touch.” You teased as you let go of his arm.
He looked down, rolling his eyes, knowing exactly what you were referring to.
“Thanks for coming.” He pulled you in for a side hug. Your heart pounding in your chest at then sudden closeness.
“Of course, nowhere else I’d be.”
You’d stood by Seunghyun’s side for as long as you could remember, there was no way you were missing his comeback. It had taken a lot for him to even audition for this role, you had been so proud of him when he told you he was going to audition. So much so that you’d offered to run lines with him. He’d turned you down on the offer, partly because you were not good at running lines, but mostly because he’d wanted to wow you with his.
Seunghyun had liked you for a long while now, since before his hiatus, you’d been around each other since the start of Bigbang, being part of the team and mostly dealing with Seunghyun, you’d developed a fast friendship that had really stood the test of time. Neither of you ever dared to speak on the feelings you’d developed over the years, not wanting to ruin what you had. But as the years had gone on, it was hard for him to keep his mouth shut. Especially today with you standing here in support of him.
You were clueless when it came to his feelings for you, not wanting to get too close you overlooked every hint he dropped. You’d been so good at avoiding the subject that Seunghyun was beginning to think you didn’t like him anymore, not wanting to give up, he’d hoped that maybe if you saw him acting again you’d feel the same about him as he did about you.
“You like the look though, for real?” His voice was soft, taking you back a little by how vulnerable he sounded.
“Of course I do!” Your eyes met his, giving him a nod of encouragement. “You look like a legit rapper, I don’t know how you even pulled it off.” You teased with a wink.
It was cute how nervous he seemed around you today. He rolled his eyes, putting his arm across your shoulder.
“Yeah, yeah.” He led you over to where the case had started to gather. “I’m gonna go do my thing, try not to fall in love with me.”
He winked as he waved goodbye to you and headed over to the arena. Easier said than done, you thought, as you watched him walk away. You’d tried not to fall in love with him over the years, always failing, of course, but you’d never admit that to him. Not now when he was making steps to get his life back.
You stood back by various other crew members watching the scene, take after take, a grin on your face. It was nice seeing Seunghyun having so much fun on set, you didn’t care if it was because he was acting the part of Thanos or not, it had been awhile since you’d seen him act like this in front of anyone but you. You didn’t know how he managed to not laugh though the ridiculous rap he had to do but you stood by proudly as he nailed take after take.
Once they were satisfied with their shots for the day, the director yelled cut and you spotted Seunghyun heading your way. You grinned at him as he came to stand in front of you.
“You were amazing.” His grin matched you as he pulled you in for a hug, your heart beating so hard you were sure he could feel it. He pulled back slightly, studding your face, his eyes flicking from your lips to your eyes as if debating his next move, before you could ask what he was thinking his lips were on yours.
Your eyes widened slightly as you stood in shock for a couple seconds. Just as he was about to pull away, defeated, your arms moved to his neck pulling him back to you, kissing him back. You shut off your thoughts, allowing yourself to fully enjoy this moment. Reality came crashing around you as you heard voices in the distance and you broke the kiss, Seunghyun’s forehead resting on yours as you opened your eyes slowly.
There was a hint of fear in his eyes, and you frowned as you studied his face, as if all the answers you needed would be written in his eyes.
“What was that for?” You whispered the question, almost afraid of the answer as you moved to stand up straight.
“I think I’m in love with you.” He admitted, looking anywhere but you.
Your eyes snapped to his at his confession and you moved closer to him, tilting his chin so he had no choice but to look at you.
“I think I’m in love with you too - I had no idea you felt the same.”
“Are you kidding me? I thought I was being really obvious with my feelings.” The fear in his eyes was gone as he looked at you. “Why do you think I’ve not gone on a single date in years?” You shrugged, not saying a word as he continued talking. “I can’t get you out of my mind, all I want is to come home to you every day, hear everything about your day, every small detail. I am so fucking in love with you it’s actually driving me insane. It’s always been you, it’s always going to be you.” He took a step closer to you, eyes locked on yours. “Kind of need you either tell me you feel the same or to fuck off.”
You blinked, looking up at him.
“I didn’t think you felt the same way about me.” You bit down on your bottom lip, wishing you were as good with admitting your own feelings as he’d just been. “I think maybe I’ve been in love with you since the day I met you.” You finally admitted. “I don’t think that’s ever going to change.” Seunghyun closed the distance between you, his hands resting on your face as he brought his lips back to yours.
You weren’t sure of a lot of things, but you were positive you’d never get tired of kissing Seunghyun. As quickly as the kiss had started it was over, you were still on set, after all.
“Come on, let's go back to my place. We have years of lost time to make up for.” He reached down for your hand leading you back towards the lot you’d parked in a few hours earlier.
Something that keeps eating me about SWM is how Lily reacts.
She is supposed to be 'the brightest witch of her age'. So . . . why did she just stand there and yell at James, and then laugh as though Severus deserved to be strung up, half stripped naked and have soap shoved in his mouth?
Like, even if she was non-violent person, there are several defensive spells she could have used to protect Severus. There are spells she could have used to cover him up. She could have used the Expelliarmus Charm on James to disarm him.
Personally if it were my best friend someone did that to, I would rearrange their face, but that's just me.
I don't understand why, after years of putting up with James' bullshit, she thought screeching at him like a harpy would do fucking anything.
Yet when Severus, while under severe distress, having been humiliated and assaulted, calls her a bad word, he is considered the problem. And then when tries to apologize, she has no sympathy for, no amount of care, won't even speak to him.
Lily Evans is a bitch, and I don't say that lightly.
Because James turns her on and she doesn’t care that he’s abusive, she doesn’t want to confront him to the point where she might lose his attention. That’s it. She’s playing at being righteous and hard to get because she has an image and she likes that image, but she’s not going to expose herself or get more involved than necessary precisely because then she might lose her status as Gryffindor’s golden girl. And if that means walking all over her supposed best friend, so be it. That’s all there is to it.
She wanted the popular, rich guy kissing her arse because it fed the ego she already had inflated at home thanks to her parents treating her like the ultimate golden child. It’s pure ego. Nothing more. There aren’t any more layers, guys, let’s not overthink it. It’s very simple.