#this is not enough

[triassictriserratops]

Ilya REACHING OUT HIS HAND begging Shane to stay with everything but words.

Calling him Hollander to reset the equilibrium because he KNOWS he fucked up and Shane is spooked now.

Ilya trying DESPERATELY to take it back to 5 minutes before. Even just to one minute before.

Ilya who spent WEEKS planning for this day. Hoping Shane would stay the night, buying his favorite drink, making everything as relaxing as possible so it would feel natural. But he fucked up. He said Shane's first name.

and GOD he just wants to fix it. but, also, for one brief, singular second Shane had said HIS NAME TOO. For once, he wasn't Rozanov, he wasn't Roz, he wasn't his father's perfect son, he wasn't his brother's paycheck, he wasnt someone's fuck prize - he was Ilya. And he was Ilya to SHANE.

But now it's all gone wrong

[acciotwin]

A moment of silence, both for this gorgeous picture but also, as a moment of mourning for the happy trail 😭

[my-rose-tinted-glasses]

Sam Lin as Publishing House President WISHING UPON THE SHOOTING STARS Episode 5

[libraryofnes]

Ilya’s thoughts - |1x04| Heated Rivalry 💔

[2009baruva]

saw mcr at citi field i am once again mentally ill about these middle aged men

[pssy-wagn]

This is not enough

Love the way the camera pans out; they are drifting apart

[nightnut]

meanwhile, it’s such a good thing that exactly this song was used (I’ve written about its impact already but here’s another point): as not only is it the gayest Russian song, but, moreover, it’s lesbian which makes it even more powerful for kinda-non-targeted-audience of queer women. And by this I mean: that it’s so cool that the show about gay men is working with “female” content not being ashamed of it, not avoiding it, but collaborating with it! It feels like such a good support where masculinity and femininity are not enemies as they are in the heteronormative field.