There's always a role and an origin, a label, a "purpose" everyone seems to have.
Everytime I look back, there's always another thing to add. Oh a new genic that helped with their forming- oh a new label that helps describe our experiences- OH MAYBE ITS--
Can we PLEASE just exist? Can we please just sit down, really sit down and accept that "I am multiple"?
I've been having people's opinions affect how I view my/our system and I can't stand it, I'm so indecisive that I cannot LABEL my experiences anymore, too many views, too many possibilities
Tommy this, Tommy's that, Tommy might be this.
Mystic did this during this time, Megs did that during here, Turbo only did this, yada yada yada
HOLY FUCK
They were formed through stress!! They were formed through something my brain deemed traumatic!! Idk anything else! Role? Their purpose?? Idk dude!! I just started BECOMING all these people and suddenly I'm Megs who has memories from a time that NEVER existed. Or suddenly I'm Tom who's quiet and chill and laid back, someone who prefers to just sit in silence with you, I'm someone who'll fawn, I'm someone who'll fight, I'm someone who'll change depending on environment and stress levels. I have NO idea WHY they only come out during these times, or what their "purpose" is. They were formed through RP, they were formed from moving, they were formed from neurodivergence- ANYTHING IS POSSIBLE, and it doesn't explain "purpose". I have only so many memories, selective and triggered memory, I can only remember so much, DO so much. And I just wanna feel comfortable in the system that grew from my unsafe environments growing up and healing it :((
Would you ever turn on Anons? Because I know some systems are scared of their friends or family finding out they're a system..so anon would be very helpful for those who want to hide their plurality! Not only that but it'll be very fun for you to receive silly questions and wonder who it is!/lh -🌺
I'll consider it! I'm just afraid of rude anons lol
(🪽🤍) I think we have another headmate, he's been here for a while but he's currently co-con with us. I thought it was Tim and I but.. this name "Ron" keeps showing up. Ron... Why Ron?? Why'd you pick that name 😭 I mean I kinda know but like, what? Why another? Do you have a role? Only time will tell.
(🧿✨) Like genuinely we've had a convo with this man before back when Thomas was first coming through, and he was uhm pretty chill, he had this "caretaker" kinda vibe to him? He spoke softly, was tryna calm me when I was having some weird episode, Tommy was there too. We wrote all the "thoughts" down that were coming through that day and it's the SAME dude today.
Really Ron? Right now? Again? Mann, and I (🧿✨) was just getting used to the regular headmates 😭 what a way to end the night
"There's a tree out there that was planted the same day you were born."
Meanwhile our 4 trees in our front yard are as old as us (bodily), 3 of them are the tallest while one of them has barely grown it seems. Makes me think of us sometimes.
