#trauma problems

[pileofcreatures]

I think one of the most frustrating symptoms I get (from multiple disorders I have) is memory loss, or general memory issues (ex: memories blurring together, getting past events out of order, false memories, etc)

I can't trust my own memory anymore. Like, that's terrifying, but people act like it just makes me stupid. If I tried harder to remember surely I would, right? If I just journaled or kept notes or did some other fucking thing that gonna cost even more energy when I'm already tired all time, surely I'd be fixed?

I forget so much these days. I can tell that I forget it, but I don't remember what I forgot.

I know that it'll get better, I know that I'm just in a rough patch, but like, holy shit man.

[adventures-in-therapy]

[unwelcome-ozian]

[walkingtheborderline]

Me: *starts to think about my trauma*

Me: *immediately starts dissociating*

Me: ahhhh :) thats The Good Stuff. can't live without it. my comfort zone. sweet Oblivion.

[traumagooglesearches]

how to not feel disgusted with yourself 24/7

[always-la-belle-epoque]

1/2 of me is so ready to settle down and have a wife and the other 1/2 of me can’t even handle thinking about holding someone’s hand. 

[adventures-in-therapy]

Thinking about telling my therapist details of my trauma like:

[adventures-in-therapy]

When I’m touch-starved