#trigger warning depression

[shower-cry]

It be like that

[ask-cthulhu-mythos-au]

Hey.

ok, I know no one's gonna care, and that it's useless for me to post this and ya.

But I just feel bad for not posting regularly, but uh, I'm not okay rn. And what I thought would be just a small amount of time off, is probably gonna be something like a month. I was about to come back because I thought I had mostly beaten what was going on. But uh ya, I relapsed and I'm worse now.

So ya...sorry. but I PROMISE..i think...I WILL COME BACK

[avionvadion]

Revali’s diary is super interesting? At least in terms of character development and relationships.

He doesn’t hate Link out of jealousy per say. It’s because he can’t read him. He says it’s like taking to a stone. Link is expressionless and doesn’t react to anything Revali says or does.

Link’s depression over being the chosen one was so strong by the point he met Revali that he just… stopped caring about everything except the duty he was being forced to perform. The most emotion we see him express is when he’s eating the grilled lava rock Daruk hands out, and that’s it. He’s always serious and stoic and just… there. He does his duty as a knight, as the chosen one, but he’s living on autopilot. He’s tired. He’s stressed. He just wants the war to be over and his role to be fulfilled.

And if you compare that Link (Age of Calamity Link) to the Link you play as in Breath of the Wild… he’s completely different.

He looks so happy when he cooks, he shows the most surprised expressions when you suddenly make him hold something, he’s so startled when he falls through the floor when he goes to get his clothes dyed. He gets so bashful when he’s dressed up and is called cute.

He has so many expressions for the most mundane or silliest things, and a lot of the choices you can pick involve puns or him making a joke, and even sarcastically lying over something super obvious.

My favorite puns are: “Sealiously?” and “Let’s seal the deal!”

Random NPC: “Are you the chosen one?”

Link, very obviously wearing the master sword: “No, definitely not.”

Random NPC: “Man, what was that name again…? Starts with an L and ends with a K.”

Link: “…Lick? Luck? …Link?”

He doesn’t remember being the chosen one. He doesn’t remember fighting in a war where everyone he worked with and/or was friends with died. He doesn’t remember beating adults in swordplay as a child, and he doesn’t remember being the princess’ appointed knight. He doesn’t even remember the wounds he got that almost killed him, or how he wound up in the sleeping chamber.

This Link is so free compared to the Link he was a hundred years ago before his slumber, and that… really just adds to the already heartbreaking story. It makes you wonder how he’ll be in BotW2, since the true ending is him regaining all his memories and having that secret cutscene with him and Zelda heading off to Zora’s Domain.

And also! I think Revali did have like, the tiniest crush on Zelda, as well as maybe relating to her working her hardest- even if at that point in time all her efforts were in vain. He’s arrogant, but is trying to understand. His diary cuts off like Mipha’s does- in a similar way too- with him planning to fly over and greet Zelda at sunset, while she planned to propose to Link atop Vah Ruta, also at sunset.

PS: Revali’s Diary can be found in Teba’s house after you start the DLC event Champion’s Ballad.

[nords-sims]

why are you taking in all these cats if you can’t afford to take care of them? It’s not your responsibility and it’s kind of crappy to be constantly appealing to people’s sympathy when you’re the one who got yourself into the situation. It might feel bad to have to deny these cats a home but that’s part of being an adult.

No need to be rude nonny! Why are you so mad? I am not forcing you or anyone else to donate. I am trying to raise money for them is all.

I am not taking in all these cats, they live in my neighborhood, and they are suffering. They have no food and no real shelter, and no one to take care of them.

I lost one of my own cats a few months ago, and it literally shattered my heart, to this day I haven't recovered yet, seeing cats suffering has become a trigger, I just can't bear it. Every time I go out for whatever reason I promise myself to never go out again, because everywhere I go I find cats in terrible conditions.

In my city, every street, every neighborhood, and every district are endless parking lots. And everything is just unclean and unsafe. It's a hostile city for animals in general and cats and dog in particular. We don’t have big parks and gardens and shelters to put them in. We’re a country that barely takes care of its humans.

And we have an institution we call Galoufa, (you can Google it, but be warned it's really graphic and horrible and also everything is in French or Arabic). This institution kills animals all the time and en masse. They are supposed to be getting the city rid of rabid animals, but they kill every animal they encounter including the ones who have owners. Leaving these cats alone will put them in danger. I cannot afford to take care of them but I cannot afford to leave them alone either. They will be begging for food and if annoyed the neighbors will call Galoufa which will come running to take them to their death.

Just because I can't afford to help them doesn't mean I shouldn't want to. Does it, nonny? You think I should just stop? Believe I am incapable of that. I cannot afford to help them all the time, but when I can I do. We’ve been taking care of them so far, and my sister has taken so so many random cats to the vet this past couple of months.

I cannot afford to help them at all times, but as a human I have the ability to actually reach out to people all over the world and ask for help, why shouldn't I? For my ego? Or my pride? In fear of embarrassment? Because I’m an adult? We’re humans, we should be better than that, this past couple of years I’ve learned to never hesitate to ask for help when you need it. There are some amazing, generous and kind people who can help. So why not give them the opportunity to do so? Most of the time help brings joy to both sides. I am always glad to help and I am always glad to be asked for help. We’re freaking humans! We should be helping one another, and we should be saving the planet we live in and that includes animals.

I thank you, nonny, for this ask, because I really wanted to write this disclaimer, and you gave me the perfect opportunity.

Disclaimer:

I quit my job and have isolated myself from the world because of my anxiety and depression, that's why I am struggling at the moment. I've had a rough year and wasn't able to make enough CC to have spare money. All of my TSR incentives go to my own cats and dog. Otherwise I wouldn't be begging for money, believe me.

My family isn’t poor, we’re a middle class family, but middle class in North Africa, so I let you imagine what that means. Compared to many families we’d be considered rich even. We live in a big apartment and we all have jobs. But as I said we’re having a rough year. But we’ll be back on our feet soon. (Fun fact: Yes I still live with my mom and sisters btw, in my country we do not leave our parents’ home at 18yo, we simply can’t, life is too expensive. In general, we only leave when we get married, I just wanted to let you laugh at us for a second here).

PS. I know some of you are thinking, “well get yourself together and find yourself a real job.” Well I worked for 4 years as a FREAKING ARCHITECT, I was paid a 1/4 of what TSR pays me when I make enough CC. In my country we architects are super super underpaid.

If you have read all of this, I love you, have a nice day, God bless you!! Spread love!! ❤