and rosaries don't make you any less scared of god .
more au art !! i drew this in good old mspaint ! it started out as a doodle but .. slowly dissolved ehe . more about this au can be found on @tslosersau , so feel free to send me asks over there :'D literally all i think about is this au so if you have a question i probably can write several paragraphs !
Pairings: Familial Moceit, mentions of romantic Intruloceit
Warnings: Depression, minimal cursing, slight mention of insecurity/anxiety, it’s all hurt/comfort!
Characters: Janus Hart-Green, Patton Hart, Remus Sanders [mentioned]
Character notes: Janus uses any pronouns [preference to they/she], Patton uses he/they. They are step siblings! Janus is dating Remus and Logan, but they don’t appear past being mentioned.
Summary: Janus plans to go out on a date, but once she realises Patton’s mental state, those plans change.
Gift for @andromedaspace
Wordcount: 1,766 words, 9,973 characters
Janus hummed softly to herself as she finished her outfit with a patch-and-pin covered denim jacket, looking himself up and down in the mirror. She adjusted her snakebite piercings, flashing one last smile to herself before going to leave the bathroom, heading towards her older brother’s room. As both their mom’s were out on a date, it gave Janus an opportunity to have his own date with his boyfriends. Still smiling to herself, she lightly knocked on the baby blue door.
“Paaatt? I’m going out, I’ll be back in a few!”
They waited several seconds for a reply, growing slightly concerned when they didn’t receive one. The last time the two had talked, five or six hours ago during lunch, Patton didn’t look fully okay. This fact, along with the lack of reply, worried the younger slightly, urging Janus to slowly push open the bedroom door.
“Patton? You okay?” She asked gently, peeking their head around the corner to look at Patton's bed in the middle of the room; he lay there, curled up inside his blanket.
They weren’t asleep, much to the surprise of Janus. Patton turned over reluctantly - he was not sporting his usual glasses, which resulted in him squinting to his sister.
“Jay?” his voice was tired, almost broken.
Attempting to not drop his smile, Janus waved to him, “hey, Patt. Can I come in?”
“You’re already in my room,” Patton chuckled sadly, adjusting in place slightly, “but yeah, com’in.”
“But my feet weren’t, so I technically wasn’t in your room,” they took off his Doc Martens at the door, fondly remembering the lighthearted disagreements the two got in when they had first moved in together.
The comment elicited a sad laugh from Patton, making room for his sister on the bed, “Jayyy, y’know what I meant.”
“Maybe I didn’t?” She was happy to hear their laugh, moving carefully through the room due to it’s mess. It didn’t take long for her to reach the bed, flopping down onto the now free space next to Patton, “so…”
“So?”
“What’s up, Patt?”
The sad smile on his face started to fade, refusing eye contact with Janus, “oh… y’know…”
“But I don’t. Come on, hon, talk to me,” she urged gently.
Silence fell over the room, only being broken once Patton let out a soft sigh, “I don’t know, and… and that’s the issue. I just-” he let out a smaller sigh, “I want everything to be okay right now.”
“You don’t need to be okay right now. I’m here to help you,” the younger gently took Patton’s hands in his, “I’ll help you take baby steps to feel better, even if it’s one little thing at a time.”
Patton bit his lip slightly, gently squeezing Janus’ hands back, “you promise?”
“Pinkie promise,” she kept their voice quiet, “c’mon, let’s start small. Wanna go get a pizza?”
“But there’s other things to do, like…” Patton vaguely gestured towards the floor of his room, “that.”
“Cleaning is tomorrow Patton’s problem, for now,” Janus went to stand, “we’re gonna get a pizza.”
The frown on Patton’s face remained, whining a little, “Why do we have to get up to get food?”
“You’ll see! C’mon Pattycake,” Janus held out a hand, smiling gently. A few seconds of hesitation passed, before Patton took the hand and let himself be helped out of the bed. No words were exchanged as Janus carefully led his older brother out of the bedroom and down the stairs.
All of the downstairs lights were off, with their puppy, Luna, napping on the couch. The two smiled at the sight, Janus gently leading Patton to the couch and sitting him down. It stayed comfortably quiet throughout the house as Janus sat beside them, bringing out her phone from her jacket pocket to order the pizza.
Eventually, Janus broke the silence, “sausage and mushroom, angel?”
“Please?” the voice that replied was quiet, gently stroking the sleeping Luna. The younger nodded, dialling their favourite pizza place and patiently waiting for the other line to pick up. Patton watched with a sad smile, not fully paying attention as Janus ordered, more focused on the puppy by their lap. It didn’t take long, Patton looking over when silence fell across the room once more. “All set?”
“Yep! Should take twenty minutes, giving us plenty of time to pick a movie and get comfortable.” The only reply Patton gave was a small nod, leaning his head on the taller’s shoulder.
Janus smiled sadly towards him, ever so gently playing with one of Patton’s blue curls. She used the other hand to slowly scroll through several streaming services, patiently waiting until he pointed out a certain movie or company - a small gasp came from the shorter boy after a few minutes of this.
“See something you like?” Janus cooed, shifting to confirm that Patton was in a comfortable position. The question elicited a string of nods from him.
“Yeah! Tangled,” he smiled bashfully, “if that’s good? Sorry if it’s too childish-”
“Hey, it’s not childish if it brings you comfort,” Janus smirked a little, switching on the movie, “promise. C’mon, want me to grab us some blankets and pillows from upstairs?”
Patton nodded, still cuddling Luna closely. The golden retriever was happy with all of the attention she was getting, now snuggled closely to his chest.
“Doubt the pizza will be that quick, but if they do come, my wallets in the kitchen,” Janus hummed as he stood, placing her phone in the spot she just was sitting in screen-up, “enjoy the start of the movie.”
“I will,” Patton smiled as he watched Janus power walk upstairs, sighing a little once she left his line of sight. He looked down solemnly to Luna, now awake but still just as relaxed, “thanks for the love, Lunie.”
The small puppy let out a soft bark, making a smile spread across Patton’s face again, “I hope you know how much I care ‘bout you, even if you’re just a little dog. I really hope Janus realises how much this means to me…”
Several seconds passed between the two, only being broken when a small chime came from the phone that sat next to him - the screen had lit up, showing a message from a group chat had been received. The group was named ‘the gayest trio’, and very appropriately had Janus, Remus and Logan in it.
From the contact name ‘rat boy’, assumed to be Remus, the message read, “Jan, u coming 2 the date?”
A dreadful feeling washed over Patton once he had fully processed the text. Janus was skipping a date to hang out with him, being so last minute that she hadn’t even told his boyfriends. They simply froze up at the realisation, only being broken from his self-deprecating thoughts when soft footsteps could be heard from the staircase. Violently pushing the thoughts from their mind, Patton looked up to watch Janus falter down the stairs with several pillows and blankets - seeing his sibling struggle only filled him with more guilt.
“Oh, Jan, you should've invited me to help-” Patton frowned a little, shifting a bit.
“I- I can handle it,” Janus chuckled softly, stumbling to the couch and placing down the bedding, “see? You don’t need to worry about me, angel.”
“Right,” Patton nodded, though her words didn’t clear all the worries - the text still circled his mind.
The familiar silence fell over the house again as Janus set up the pillows and blankets, humming softly as she worked. It only took them a few minutes or so, going to sit down afterwards.
“Oh! Don’t forget your phone, Jan,” Patton gave his sibling a regretful smile, gesturing towards the phone which blended into the dark blue couch. She simply nodded in reply, slipping the mobile into her pocket one more.
Remorse felt as if it was suffocating Patton, breathing in and out deeply, “Jan? I uh- didn’t mean to snoop, you just got a notif and… Rem texted you. Wondering where you are, ‘cause of your whole… date thing.”
She hummed in reply, once again getting the device from her pocket, “I’ll cancel and explain to them. You’re more important than this one date, Patt.”
“Are you… sure?” there was a clear anxiety in his voice, attempting to distract his hands by stroking one of Luna’s ears.
“Thousand percent,” Janus quickly sent a text in reply to Remus’ concern, “you’re much more important than this one date.”
Softly sighing, Patton let his head fall onto Janus’ shoulder once again, “thank you, so so much.”
“Of course,” she smiled, humming a little, “it’s okay if you’re still not okay, y’know? You can still be openly upset, even if you’re doing something you enjoy.” The only reply given was a slight nod, a genuine smile spreading across his face.
The two happily sat through the first twenty or so minutes of the movie. Though Patton never verbally replied to Janus’ light comments, such as ‘who names a horse Maximus?’ and ‘Rapunzel was the original girlboss’, they made him chuckle. As much as the latter would agree that these are dumb jokes, the fact they would make Patton feel better, even if it was only slightly better, was enough for her. Patton hardly spoke through movies anyway, though he happily sang the songs at the top of his voice, as if it was only him at that moment. He was filled with so much childlike joy and happiness, Janus never wanted him to stop.
Eventually, just a bit after Flynn discovered the tower, the doorbell rang - disturbing Luna and prompting the small pup to start barking. Patton jumped at both these noises, taking a second to collect himself before gently shushing the puppy. The taller of the siblings smiled softly at the two, stumbling to her feet, before quickly grabbing her wallet from the kitchen and going to collect and pay for the pizza. She opened the door, welcoming the pizza delivery guy with a small smile. They flashed a silent smile in return, exchanging the pizza for the money without a word.
“Thanks,” she double checked they got the right orde, humming softly as he did.
“‘Course. Enjoy your food,” they started to walk off.
“You too!” Fuck. Janus sighed a little to herself, but shut the door and walked back to Patton, “heya, angel. Luna okay?”
“She’s all good,” he smiled sleepily, stroking her soft ears gently.
“I’m glad,” Janus nodded, focusing on the little smile, which highlighted the scar across his lip. “I’m glad.”
