forgive me for a slightly venty slightly out of kink post, but i think a part of the allure of this kink for me is the simplicity it would grant me in my interpersonal affairs. being a trans woman who is primarily attracted to men is a fucking nightmare.
post-transition, pretty much every even slightly romantic relationship i’ve had with a man has been a disaster; either they’re the chaser creep final boss, or they don’t know i’m trans at first and when they find out they lose romantic interest in me (they rarely lose sexual interest, though), or it’s just a constant back and forth “situationship” type thing. i have cut off men who i knew had crushes on me because i’m always scared they won’t like me anymore if they find out i’m not a cis woman.
if i was just a gay man, it wouldn’t be such a goddamn hassle. i’d just be a gay man, looking for other gay men, and not have to look for the maybe 1-5% of the male population that actually wants to have a long-term relationship with a trans woman. can’t go for gay men because i don’t even look much like a man anymore, can’t go for straight men because of the whole “i have a penis” thing, so i have to go for bisexual men who may or may not even want to date a trans woman. it is a fucking nightmare.
anyway. rant over, back to your regularly scheduled programming