I can wholeheartedly say that this is the most emotionally taxing marathon training season that I experienced thus far. Miscarrying twins, surgery, tarnished bonds and a host of things that could keep me broken for a lifetime. I'm far from perfect and did not expect marathon training to be as much. I try to walk into my training like a yoga practice, holding no expectations and bearing an open mind to possibilities. Some days, I don't know how I got through it; most days, I just don't over think the process. I HAVE to trust the process or else I'll be engulfed in this wildfire of failure. I cannot fail myself if I try. There are certain things that training cannot prepare you for and you will not know how to handle until it's placed in front of you. This is why I run. This is what moves me. I ask that I am sharp, safe, open minded and actively meditating on the course tomorrow at the @nyrr NYC Marathon. I hope to see familiar faces and meet new ones. To my running family, I wish us all well. Kick ass and take names. #runningfatchef #fatrunner #spartanfinisher #ultramarathoner #marathoner #ultramarathontraining #marathontraining #crosstraining #strengthtraining #calisthenics #whyirun #nycmarathon #arms #legs #glutes #core #athlete #plussizeathlete #whatmovesme #swiftwick #chaseadventure #skirtsports #REALwomenmove #blackgirlsrun #runner #fitness #fitnessmotivation #hellobeautiful (at New York, New York)