Hi By The Way if you Have POCD you Are not a pedophile. Those thoughts are unwanted. You do not like them nor want to act on them. I know because I have it too, along with ZOCD. You're not a bad person. These go against your morals.
If you have a paraphile and are anti contact and are going to therapy and don't romanticize these desires, you are doing something right. This is mainly about the big three, but all paraphiles are mental disorders. The second you start romanticizing it is where you start wanting to act on it.
Fiction DOES affect reality.
Being objectum is a paraphile. There is a mental reason behind all paraphiles. You are not a bad person.
You CAN act on tamer paraphiles in consensual settings, I'm not one to kinkshame, but if you're doing ageplay (where your partner is a child) or animal play (not where you're acting animalistic, genuienly being like an animal) that is romanticizing it and will make urges worse. Do what you want but it is unhealthy either way.
Discuss things with your partner and be open and honest. It doesn't get better if you don't talk about it.
But you can't tell everyone, and you shouldn't be bragging about it or sharing desires and planning to act on them.
CP does not exist. Porn is consensual. Children cannot consent.
You are not better than anyone just because you manage your symptoms better. We are all deserving of help.