herein lies my unofficial thesis on sport

oldish. she/hers. yapping about sport

[sockablock]

Knowing a fic author through AO3 is like attending someone’s thesis presentation and politely clapping at the end, knowing a fic author through this hellsite is like going over to their house at 3AM to watch them eat mayonnaise out of a jar

[derinthescarletpescatarian]

Sometimes I attend somebody’s thesis presentation and I’m so impressed that I follow them home to watch them eat mayonnaise out of a jar at 3am.

[itsmyturnonthegender]

Sometimes I watch someone eat mayonnaise out of a jar at 3am with such fervour I am compelled to attend their thesis presentation

[bucketofdeltav]

Sometimes I look at a thesis presentation and I go ‘I know exactly how much mayonnaise you had to eat out of the jar at 3 am to pull this shit off’

[demotu-writes]

Tags from @deepestbluesky:

[caspercryptid]

The really unfortunate thing about mental health progress is that sometimes you realize you've made it in the form of "wow, I haven't felt this bad in a fucking while"

[caspercryptid]

On the one hand it's a bit of a pick me up in a dark place to know that this will pass because it has passed before on the other hand sometimes it isn't entirely a pleasant thought to go "wow, I used to feel like this all the time. That was pretty fucking bad. It's pretty bad right now too also."

[caspercryptid]

Someday your current baseline will be the sort of thing you consider A Really Bad Day. It does get better.

[purecommemasolitude]

the cool thing about sports is that none of it is real except the blinding rage you experience while watching them

[depsidase]

[polizwrites]

great addition from @zorilleerrant

[tropiyas]

[dzekdzek]

daily affirmations:

I am not a jinx to the team I am rooting for

I am allowed to watch a game because my viewership will not alter the outcome of the game

I am but a drop in the bucket and the world is not affected by me watching a game

The score did not change because you looked at it funny

[tea-and-hockey]

Lies

[kosmogrl]

[yoursinmemory]

not me seeing this as my timeline is full of potential nhl trades im gonna hurl myself off a cliff

[fairycosmos]

i hate when rich people condescend with the whole 'money can't buy happiness' argument like listen. just because buying your fourth car didn't fill the void in your deluded disconnected-from-reality life doesn't mean not having to worry about food/ bills/medicine wouldn't greatly improve the mental health of literally everyone else on the planet

[durnesque-esque]

Fun fact: they've done studies and money DOES buy happiness, but it tops out after a certain amount (nowadays around $500,000)

So yeah, having food / bills / medicine & a fair amount of leisure covered by income DOES buy happiness, but excess wealth depletes the effect exponentially.

[blackshvck]

the idea that every summer will be as hot if not hotter than this for the rest of my life is unbearable i need to (remembers suicide jokes are bad for my mental health) murder an oil executive

[nuge]

pain.gif

[jeynearrynofthevale]

They grew up together...

[oedipalrivalry]

being a team sports fan really is like oh what if you stanned the ship of theseus

[pavlover-boy]

happy canada day. please consider donating to an indigenous-led charity. fuck colonialism.

indian residential school survivors society (BC)

toronto indigenous harm reduction (ON)

native women's resource centre of toronto (ON)

water first (nationwide)

indspire (nationwide)

miskanawah (AB)

ma mawi wi chi itata centre (MB)

manitoba indigenous cultural education centre (MB)

native women's shelter of montreal (QC)

native friendship centre of montreal (QC)

first light (NL)

list of indigenous charitable organizations sorted by cause (nationwide)

[heartbeatline]

[star-anise]

When I was younger and more abled, I was so fucking on board with the fantasy genre’s subversion of traditional femininity. We weren’t just fainting maidens locked up in towers; we could do anything men could do, be as strong or as physical or as violent. I got into western martial arts and learned to fight with a rapier, fell in love with the longsword.

But since I’ve gotten too disabled to fight anymore, I… find myself coming back to that maiden in a tower. It’s that funny thing, where subverting femininity is powerful for the people who have always been forced into it… but for the people who have always been excluded, the powerful thing can be embracing it.

As I’m disabled, as I say to groups of friends, “I can’t walk that far,” as I’m in too much pain to keep partying, I find myself worrying: I’m boring, too quiet, too stationary, irrelevant. The message sent to the disabled is: You’re out of the narrative, you’re secondary, you’re a burden.

The remarkable thing about the maiden in her tower is not her immobility; it’s common for disabled people to be abandoned, set adrift, waiting at bus stops or watching out the windows, forgotten in institutions or stranded in our houses. The remarkable thing is that she’s like a beacon, turning her tower into a lighthouse; people want to come to her, she’s important, she inspires through her appearance and words and craftwork.  In medieval romances she gives gifts, write letters, sends messengers, and summons lovers; she plays chess, commissions ballads, composes music, commands knights. She is her household’s moral centre in a castle under siege. She is a castle unto herself, and the integrity of her body matters.

That can be so revolutionary to those of us stuck in our towers who fall prey to thinking: Nobody would want to visit; nobody would want to listen; nobody would want to stay.

[shieldmaidenofsherwood]

#it’s so so important to remember that representation is not one-size-fits-all#what is empowering to one person might be exhausting and oppressive to someone else#some people need stories about having the strength to save themselves#some people need stories about being considered worthy of being saved#some people need inspiration for their independence while others need validation that they don’t have to be able to do everything themselves#before you lash out against something PLEASE stop to consider:#is this inadequate and/or damaging representation?#or is it just something I don’t personally relate to? [X]

[star-anise]

It’s been half a decade and I still haven’t found an articulation of the complexity of “representation” as concisely and precisely mindblowing as @hungrylikethewolfie’s here.

[b0nkcreat]

i think people get so used to their own creative work that they forget how amazing it is so i’m making this post as a reminder You are the only person capable of making art the exact way you make it. nobody else on earth can do that. there are always going to be those little habits and intricacies and details that simply cannot be replicated whether it’s in writing or painting or textiles and you make life all the better for it i love my friends’ art i love art from strangers im trying to love my own art I LOVE YOU!!! THE PERSON READING THIS!!!!!!! YOU ARE A PART OF THIS WORLD NEVER EVER STOP MAKING THINGS THAT CAN IMPACT IT

[notthequiettype]

i have absolute nothing i'm particularly willing to add to the ai in fandom discourse (i think all generative ai is bad and i do a lot of acrobatics in my life to stay away from consuming anything made with it as much as possible and i think transparency about using it is WONDERFUL and i have never used it myself because i don't want to and i DO think pushing back about it, especially if your workplace is attempting to force you into it, is both politics and praxis, but i also understand How Things Are and that they are also different for people who aren't me) because i am not that smart and i am not that interested in the conversation itself mostly because i think a lot of people are being really mean to each other in wildly unnecessary ways on both sides of the noise and everyone could use a good long break in the non-digital environment of their choosing

that said, i keep seeing it repeated that people feel a lot of pressure to perform and produce in fandom and that creates an environment ripe for ai usage and while i don't disagree, i am here solely to tell you that it is your responsibility to divorce yourself from that pressure

there are lots of bad behaviors amongst people in any given space and often in transformative fandom that means that the desire to read someone's work (awesome!) and supporting/encouraging it (incredible!) somehow converts to entitlement (bad! don't do that!) and while it is that person's responsibility to not behave like that (because it's rude! because it's UNKIND!) it is also the writer's responsibility to not internalize that pressure

i know it feels sometimes the more you write, the more friends you make or even that the attention/popularity feels really good or whatever pick your poison thing that makes you want to do more than you have the capacity for is what drives you to be here making things, but it can't be, it isn't sustainable and it makes you susceptible to making external pressures into internal agonies

you don't owe people fic, no matter how much they have complimented it or you or even if they're your friends, you have to write fic for yourself and share it because you want to, you have have HAVE to refuse to overwork and torment yourself because of what other people want and maybe that's using ai or maybe it's writing a pairing you're not that into or trying out a fandom whose source material didn't really hit, people have been doing this kind of thing to themselves since the dawn of transformative works because we like to make other people happy (a nice thing!) it is simply that the means to satisfy those internalized pressures have now become quite literally mechanized

there are lots of reasons to not do this to yourself that expand beyond fandom but the most important reason period to me is that you will stop having fun, making things will cease being a fun (and torturous ofc) process and fandom will stop feeling fun and why would you ever stick around something voluntary when you're not having fun anymore?

you have to spend so much of your life doing things you don't want to do because that's just kind of how it works, please please please don't turn your hobby space and your limited free time into another soulsucking job that makes you feel like you just need to do whatever it takes to get by, you deserve so much more than that