The Daily Struggle With Depression

I HAVE FAITH IN YOU

[chaandajaan-moved]

But the thing I will never admit to anyone who's met me is how desperately I want to be loved, I don't think I could say it. How I want someone to hold my wrists and kiss my palms and smile at me, and want me, I want to be wanted and I don't know how long poetry or songs will substitute for being wanted.

[chandajaan-deactivated20220615]

Op here, Anyway I got married so this post is cancelled, good luck to the rest of you!

[ursie]

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[teentitantruefriend]

Canon is whatever the writers make it so. If they wanted it, we could have Jon and Dami only being one month apart in age or something. But they don’t, so there you go.

[ursie]

Ok but that would still be weird. Retconning ages just so characters can date is weird. Just don’t ship characters with weird ass age gaps?? There are characters Damian’s age if you must ship him. There are characters Jons age (old or young) if you must ship him. If you look at a ten year old and go hey what if was a teenager to ship with one or if you look at an adult and go hey what if he was a teenager just to ship with one that still is a incredibly weird train of thought. Just don’t ship children with teenagers and teenagers with adults. Their ship was always weird (hence the tweet) just get a new ship.

[teentitantruefriend]

Honey, no one is changing ship preferences just because you don’t don’t like them. The world doesn’t revolve around you. Bye.

[ursie]

you shipping morally reprehensible shit isn’t a preference it’s you being a freak and genuinely bad person but go off with me being sensitive ig have fun with your nasty ass shit dumbass

[teentitantruefriend]

Don't knock it till you've tried it.

By the way, I'm barely into JonDami these days.

TimDamian is way more fun.

The pseudoincest just gives off the best vibes.

I can hook you up with some fics if you like?

[ursie]

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[teentitantruefriend]

Canon is whatever the writers make it so. If they wanted it, we could have Jon and Dami only being one month apart in age or something. But they don’t, so there you go.

[ursie]

Ok but that would still be weird. Retconning ages just so characters can date is weird. Just don’t ship characters with weird ass age gaps?? There are characters Damian’s age if you must ship him. There are characters Jons age (old or young) if you must ship him. If you look at a ten year old and go hey what if was a teenager to ship with one or if you look at an adult and go hey what if he was a teenager just to ship with one that still is a incredibly weird train of thought. Just don’t ship children with teenagers and teenagers with adults. Their ship was always weird (hence the tweet) just get a new ship.

[teentitantruefriend]

Honey, no one is changing ship preferences just because you don't don't like them. The world doesn't revolve around you. Bye.

[ursie]

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[teentitantruefriend]

Canon is whatever the writers make it so. If they wanted it, we could have Jon and Dami only being one month apart in age or something. But they don't, so there you go.

[godsarecrazy]

Images that make you enter a fugue state

[santaclausdeadindian]

Surrender to cars?

Jesus Christ, when was the last time a swede did anything useful?

What the fuck those streets were before cars, fucking playgrounds and parks with waterslides?

Or did people commute on them, on the level of whatever technology they were on, the vere purpose they were built for since the first city?

I'm trying my best not to automatically dislike artists, I really do, but sometimes I just wish I could send them milking cows or shoveling gravel.

[earlgraytay]

@santaclausdeadindian "What the fuck were those streets before cars, fucking playgrounds?"

Yes, actually.

[description: a black-and-white photo from the 1900s of a group of girls in pinafores standing in the middle of the street; according to the website I found it on, this is a 'street dance'. The girls are talking to each other in small groups. end description.]

Children used to play in the street all the time. And for most of recorded history, that was relatively safe. Running into someone on foot is not going to kill a child, and horses - let alone carriages- were relatively rare.

Streets used to be public spaces. People would hang out and talk in the middle of the road, or set up shop with a little cart at the side of the road. "Right of way" used to mean "your right to take up space on the street, because you are a free citizen and free citizens get to use the road."

[description: a black-and-white historical photo of two children in the middle of a mostly empty street. One child is sitting in a wagon, and the other child is standing, ready to pull it. End description.]

It wasn't until the 19th century that it became common enough for your average joe to own horses that it was unsafe for kids to play in the street (and they still did anyway!). And it wasn't until the early 20th century that people got cleared off of the street in favour of cars- before then, people and horses and carriages had to share the road, and carriages had to go at the same pace as whatever was around them.

We laugh at the insanely low speed limits of the 1910s and 1920s - really, cars can only go at 3 mph?- but they were there for a reason, and that reason was "to keep the roads safe for horses and pedestrians". If cars could go at top speeds on city roads, they'd only be safe for cars, and people couldn't use their public spaces anymore. But thanks to lobbying by the auto industry and a whoooole lot of PR spin, that's exactly what happened.

I'm going to leave you with two pictures. The first is Mulberry Street in NYC, according to wikipedia, in 1900. The second is Mulberry Street today.

[Description: two photos of city streets. The first photo is sepia-toned, from the 1900s. It shows a city street full of people and carriages. The foreground of the photo is taken up by a group of vegetable sellers, and a group of men and young children standing beside them looking at the camera. The second photo is a modern photo of the same street. It is a heavily decorated tourist district, but most of the street is taken up by cars. The sidewalks are crowded with pedestrians, but they're shoved off to the side. End description.]

Little Italy is a tourist district. It is meant to be walkable so that tourists can browse and look at all the little restaurants and window-shop. And yet 75% of this picture is taken up by a fucking car canal, and people- the people this street was built for - are shoved off to the side, so as not to get in the way.

People got forced off the road in favour of cars. People got forced out of public space in favour of cars.

And if that doesn't piss you off...

[becausegoodheroesdeservekidneys]

...did that person really just say 'When was the last time a Swede did anything useful'?

[teentitantruefriend]

When was the last time a Swede did anything useful?

The two bike riders who rescued college student Channel Miller from rapist Brock Turner in 2015 were Swedes.

This, of course, has nothing to do with this post.

Yet any time is a good time to remind everyone that rapist Brock Turner got away with a slap on the wrist.

[teentitantruefriend]

So, umm... So, I’m just getting into this fandom, and I’m dying to know what is going on here? Is either Nike or Livius having a nightmare? Is this canon? What chapter is it? What happened after? I NEED ANSWERS, PLEASE!

[tonysopranobignaturals-deactiva]

SCREAMING AT THIS...a nightmare literally a nightmare

[teentitantruefriend]

[dctvcollector]

Sam/Bucky Recs

So I’ve jumped on this ship train…any recs for fics, comics, gifs and what not that will allow me to feed my addiction? 

Or any asks that will help do the same? I’ll take it all. 

[thorodinsson]

the head tilt™️

[cornmaize]

You’re married to your phone background/lockscreen how fucked are you

[teentitantruefriend]

WELL, GUESS WHAT

[shymagnolia]

so I got into grad school today with my shitty 2.8 gpa and the moral of the story is reblog those good luck posts for the love of god

[shymagnolia]

okay so i just got my dream job??? a week after applying to it?? and now i’m thinking….maybe this is the good luck post

[flagellant]

…..not even six hours later i got an offer of a well paying full time long-term job with free room and board in queens in nyc, allowing me independence and a way to escape an abusive situation and an unhealthy environment

likes charge reblogs cast, folks, this is the good luck post

[quidditygenesis]

Gonna try it. Need me some good luck.

[randomingoftherandomness]

I just had a thought and I need to share it with someone and you’re the only one I “know” in the TOG fandom so I hope that’s ok 😊

Imagine Booker with a tongue piercing

My new coworker looks a bit like Booker (well, not really.. but he has that scruffy look..), and I saw a glimpse of silver in his mouth today. Now, the only thing I can think about is Booker with his tongue pierced.

I don’t think I’ll get much work done today 😅

Well. That’s certainly a thought 😆 Booker with a tongue piercing, huh?

I can certainly see him unconsciously pursing his lips just to ‘play’ with his piercing; how he would rub the metal over his teeth in thought, how he would suck in his teeth just to feel the pressure. Oh! Most definitely can 1000% see Booker darting his tongue out to lick at a melting ice-lolly. Can also see him laughing, lips parted with his tongue out as he tries to catch a snowfall in his mouth.

👅❤️👍🏼

[teentitantruefriend]

Those are perfectly good points but, please, also consider THIS:

Booker: *keeps licking the tips of his fingers so he can turn the pages of the old novel he's reading*

Nicky:...

Joe: Hayati, what are you looking at?

Nicky:*strangled noises*

Joe:*notices how Booker's piercing sticks to the pad of his when he wets it and glistens with saliva*

Joe:*wonders how that little ball would feel inside if Booker rimmed him*

[just-shower-thoughts]

Children are often dismissed as “having it easy” when the traumas of adults are often caused during childhood

[psychotrauma]

people saying booker is coded as straight when like. there’s literally 0 mention of a wife only his kids… like babes just say you hate him and stop reaching ksadbhjabjhsabhjsabjshbja he’s literally no more coded as straight as nile is, you clowns

[psychotrauma]

like how you gonna take the single (1) scene where he’s in a 19th century hospital visiting his dying son and say “yes. this man is straight.” yall are insane <3 love and light

[teentitantruefriend]

He's obviously got Disaster Bi Energy.

[kendallroy-deactivated20210425]

people on this website be like “it’s actually school’s fault that i don’t know how to read because i wanted to write my essay on the divergent trilogy and that BITCH mrs. clarkson made us study 1984 instead. anyway here’s a 10 tweet thread of easily disproven misinformation about a 3 year old news story and btw, who is toni morrison?”

[kendallroy-deactivated20210425]

i KNOW most of y’all are lying about being in the gifted program as children because none of you could pass the basic reading comprehension assessment they give third graders today

[themself]

this post is mean and I never read divergent or whatever the fuck but 1984 sucks and is rape apologism so if somebody wanted to write about divergent or whatever good for them

[westenra]

this reply is like literally exactly what op is talking about lol. like firstly ops point isn’t “1984 is good”, ops point is that analysing complex stories teaches you how to form opinions and think for yourself. and like secondly in 1984 you’re supposed to think damn it’s fucked up that he’s thinking that way about her, i wonder if this ties in with the central theme of “a society like this will fuck you in the head”? (this is the thinking for yourself part). like do you think orwell just put that in for fun? do you think that just because winston is the protagonist you’re supposed to agree with everything he does?

[lunaescribe]

You know I feel like this post just gave me an epiphany for what is wrong with how Tumblr Fandom/Internet Fandom responds to media-or not *wrong* but makes it very hard to respond to anything but a morally correct, and heroic protagonist. 

When an English teacher, or reader, taught or picked up 1984, it wasn’t with the intention they were going to love the protagonist. They picked it up with the intention of reading a whole story and trying to grasp the theme or catharsis from the story. If the protagonist was a *shitty* person it played into the the themes or the story, because it wasn’t about morally judging the book or *liking* or feeling attachment to the protagonist. Sometimes and often times, books were just about gaining another perspective. 

No one read Lolita expecting to endear, or like, or be inspired by Humbert. You are supposed to be upset by his behavior, you don’t read Lolita with the intention of being inspired. You read it to learn more about what the fuck is going on inside someone’s head when they behave like that. How children get sucked into abusive situations. Or read “The Great Gatsby” not because they want to fall in love with Gatsby or Nick, but to better understand and analyze the experience of the 1920s or destitution of the American Dream. 

A lot of internet and fandom culture has changed that though. When we say something like “I love the Great Gatsby” it comes with the idea or association that means you must *love* or relate to one of the characters. And maybe you do, but the first assumption is not longer about the quality of the work or themes, or cathartic impact-it’s about character admiration. And with that character admiration, in tumblr stan culture, or kin culture, or exalting characters with fanart/romance/so on you don’t just ‘admire’ or find that character ‘compelling’ it now translates to ‘you LOVE that character’ or you ‘DIRECTLY relate to that character.’ 

You can’t say “I love how Humbert is written, it’s so fascinating and dark”, without it directly translating you somehow relate to a child abuser or condone his actions. Taking in media has become an act of worship and connection. We no longer watch meant to just see the story as a whole, we watch expecting to connect to a character and if we offer them our “worship” as it’s become, as opposed to just attention or interest study as it traditionally was, it means we are condoning the character or saying we directly empathize with all their actions. 

I think that’s why there is often now so much fuss over *toxic* characters or not. Or whether that classical novel is showing good or bad things anymore. We’re treating the characters as people we should love or want to draw or write about. Sometimes a story is just about getting the the theme or catharsis or learning another perspective. We don’t NEED to like the character. Or we don’t HAVE to like a character to be impressed by how they’re written or intrigued by their behavior. 

I think if internet culture could learn to view stories as small insights into other lives or single takes of one perspective instead of purposeful moral inspirations we’d be a lot less worried about how toxic or not toxic they are. 

[goldheartedsky]

Past Life

(6229 words) by goldheartedsky

Chapters: 1/?

Fandom: The Old Guard (Movie 2020)

Rating: Mature

Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings

Relationships: Booker | Sebastien le Livre/Joe | Yusuf Al-Kaysani/Nicky | Nicolo di Genova, Joe | Yusuf Al-Kaysani/Nicky | Nicolò di Genova, Past Booker | Sebastien le Livre/Booker’s Wife

Series: Part 2 of

That Original Lifeline

Summary:

Booker startles awake from the brief grasp sleep had of him and looks at the bag, his bag, at his feet. Exhausted panic floods through his veins as he thinks, this is where it ends. But Joe’s dark eyes are as soft and gentle as ever when Booker looks up to meet them. “Come on,” Joe says, holding out a hand. “We need to go.”

His brow furrows. “What?” Booker slurs, fatigue making his syllables bleed into one another. “Where are we going?”

“Home,” Joe says, plain as anything as he nudges the bag with his toes.

On the way back to Italy, Booker, Joe, and Nicky struggle to come to terms with their past, their present, and their future. There’s nothing certain except for one thing—each of them are holding onto more secrets than they want to admit.

[goldheartedsky]

Chapter Two is up now!!

[yukika-remade-deactivated202106]

"proship" well i'm pro running you over with my car

[teentitantruefriend]