I’m A Loser So Why Don’t You Kill Me

Any pronouns. Whole ass adult. Not NSFW but I’m old, I curse, and I’m passively suicidal so 18+ Don’t follow if various mental health triggers will harm you watch out for yourself mmkay? https://www.helplinecenter.org/9-8-8/

[tenmistakes]

hello new mutual (i'm not weird I swear)

what a shame i am. I’ll make it work anyway (excited to read your fics sometime!)

[iliveforangstpjo]

OOF--

quick warning, writing gets worse before it gets better (my first ever one) Anyway, do you have any fics? (I wanna read 'em sometime.) Also, I am TOTALLY normal about Jason Todd. Totally. If you ever wanna talk about him, I'm here!

[tenmistakes]

i’m no snob, perfect art is a bore. i do not yet have any posted, no, but i have a few Jason ones sitting in my drafts. i’ll def post a link here whenever/if ever i post them, when i’m out of my little episode. I haven’t communicated on Tumblr in a whole decade, is reblogging a fine way to keep responding or is this considered spam? tell me if my etiquette’s off

also same, i love talking about Jason. just let it be known i’m about as consistent in any communications as an estranged relative sending a happy thanksgiving text might be

[iliveforangstpjo]

lmao, okay. Also it's completely fine if you send it through reblogs, I love talking to people here! As long as they're friendly of course.

I have no idea how to operate tumblr's editing system properly, and one time someone complained about that in a comment section in my post and i essentially sort of spammed them by accident in my people-pleaser-panic. So...that was a little off-putting for me.

I don't mind if you do it though (cause I am starved for interaction about Jason).

[tenmistakes]

roger dodger friend 🫡 lol. always nice to talk to another fan. & don’t worry bout spam or anything on this end, i was once a theater kid who participated in anime club takes a hella lotta to annoy me

[iliveforangstpjo]

one of my moots recommended this to me (literally tonight) I have been reading it, I will be forced to go to bed soon too so I'm just gonna rec it to you, too.

https://archiveofourown.org/series/2236401

ALSO, please beware any content warnings

[tenmistakes]

Oof that is some heart-wrenching whump there

Here’s an ongoing one I’ve been enjoying so far. Same as you said, be mindful of the tags before reading

https://archiveofourown.org/series/5933841

[iliveforangstpjo]

hey so what do you think about a fic where i potentially force Jason to live multiple lives but every time he died he's slammed into the body of an alternate universe version of him, but the moment he gets too comfortable/is avoiding death too much the universe AKA me fucks with him and rips him away from happiness into a universe full of torture for him.

Oh---now i have more to add to the idea (but later)

[tenmistakes]

sounds like a great concept with a lot of potential for angst! if it speaks to you, i say go for it

[tenmistakes]

8 months ago today i cold turkeyed all my psych meds and I’m happy to say i’m

[tenmistakes]

why wait for your peers to pressure you when you can do it yourself?

i just dared myself to stick a listerine breath strip to the roof of my mouth and chug orange juice.

i’m not gonna tell you to do that, but you should tell yourself to do that

[tenmistakes]

my mom gets seasonal depression during the spring bc that’s when the woman who raised her, her grandma, died

i get seasonal depression during the spring because that’s when my mom violently swung between weeping and screaming at us each year

needless to say it’s something of a family tradition to ambush and assault the easter bunny

[iliveforangstpjo]

....im sorry if this is insensitive but have you ever considered applying that to Jason and Catherine? Just asking, and what if i did? (Oh my god that's SO fucking horrible of me to ask im SORRY)

[tenmistakes]

no you’re so right

[tenmistakes]

somehow i didn’t read that right the first time and i now see you were asking permission to use this as an idea in a fanfic so this is me giving more explicit permission. yeah go ahead it’d be fun af to read what you write if you end up doing so and thanks for asking

[tenmistakes]

OOHH So my cousin can change her name more than once and it’s all “we’re proud of you for transitioning” and “congratulations to the newly weds” but I change my name more than once and it’s all “you can’t keep running from this Greg” and “they found you Greg, they’re outside, you have use the secret tunnels Greg, go, go and never come back Greg”

[iliveforangstpjo]

idk how but you feel so Jason Todd to me

[tenmistakes]

we share a disorder

[nivora128]

So uh. Somehow both Dick and Tim got the ability to recognize Jason's scent. Or sounds. Or breath. Whatever. With their eyes covered. God that sounds so weird to say out loud. But I guess that's because they're really good detectives right? Anyways I bet he smells good <3

[tenmistakes]

imagine being so obsessed with your guns that people recognize you by the polish you use. he’s so odd i love him

[tenmistakes]

if you think Talia Al Ghul is a master manipulator for training that Jason kid like a soldier, oh boy, wait till i tell you about this Bruce Wayne guy

[tenmistakes]

all I’m saying is if Batman can lobotomize Jason, and Joker can lobotomize Duke’s parents and mass amounts of civilians

then maybe Batman can find a permanent lobotomy-adjacent solution to Joker. No killing needed.

or maybe Bruce Wayne can find some money and influence in him to bribe someone in Arkham. just sayin.

[riftwindrider]

Joker doesn't need his arms and legs to live.

Bruce could ask one of The Flash to take away him kinetic energy so he can no longer move.

He can ask Superman to put the joker in The phantom zone

He can ask Wonder Woman to take him to the pits of Tartarus.

He can ask Martian manhunter to put him in a coma explaining a time loop in his mind

All of this and he would still be alive

[tenmistakes]

things Victor Frankenstein and my father have in common

1) both failed to get their doctorate and still managed to weaponize their almost-degree against others

2) both created wretched reactive beasts

3) left someone to take the fall for a crime they didn’t commit despite knowing their innocence

4) kept their lips sealed while a monster terrorized their families

5) alchemy obsession

[tenmistakes]

i don’t hate Bruce Wayne actually i love the version of him that lives only in my head

just like with my father (✿◡‿◡)

[cologona]

Superhero comics are human stories told at superhuman scales, is it really a wonder that the story of Jason and Bruce reads like that of an assault and inadequate response?

[cologona]

Joker is a man in your community who hurts people. He keeps hurting people no matter how your community tries to punish him or disincentive him. He hurts strangers, he hurts friends, and eventually he hurts you.

Your father is the most influential person in this community- something like the headmaster of a school or pastor of the local church or even the patriarch of a large family. You expect that after this man has hurt so many people, targeting you would be the last straw.

It’s not. Bruce can’t cross the line. Can’t exile him, can’t expel him, can’t excommunicate him, can’t disown him. Because everyone is redeemable. Because he can’t ruin a student’s future. Because the Lord’s grace must reach the troubled. Because family sticks together.

No instead it’s your own fault. You knew he was dangerous so why did you allow him near? Reckless and impulsive and asking for trouble. It’s your disobedience to your father that caused this, and if there is a person deserving of pity here it is him, because he is the only blameless one.

No his guilt isn’t narcissistic self-flagellation it is indicative of his nobility and selflessness! To demand that he act, to ask him to betray his deep convictions- that would be selfish! Overemotional to the point of irrationality even.

[tomkingisaracistnepobaby]

Don't worry. Your attention-grabbing, leg-revealing outfit has been put on display so everyone can be reminded that you asked for it, and the other children will cover their ankles and obey their father from now on. The man preying on your community hurt you because you tempted him. You went after him, you allowed yourself to be alone with him, you treated things like a game.

Rest assured the other children know how to behave so as not to provoke him. They've all spent time around him, and he never hurt them like he hurt you. The problem was you, and the problem has been fixed.

[tomkingisaracistnepobaby]

#Deeply curious about how this interplays with Stephanie's treatment #as she was also framed as at fault #and her torture & murder #was even more explicitly framed as sexual assault coded #and the writers didn't wait at all #to undercut her time as Robin #or make it her fault #while absolving Batman entirely #Even her parents #who were angry at Batman #were forced to concede he was not at fault #the doctor was made a killer #the media that did draw attention to it #eventually #were framed as doing so for greedy #selfish reasons #to create a story #defaming the patriarch #not because they cared #not because Stephanie was worth caring about #not because what was done to her was horrific #it was all framed as a media circus hit job #on the innocent and burdened patriarch #:/ <- tags via tumblingxelian

[arcade-confetti]

Do you know what'd be awesome? If we based Jason's behavior as Robin off of his actual behavior as robin. Instead of making headcanons and assumtions on his behavior based entirely off The Streets™. Like. Its a nice addition to his character and motives to explore further. But lets not forget he has actual comics as Robin you can pull from as reference to his behavior. He has a robin run. You can read it. You can base writing his robin off of his robin.

[tenmistakes]

on my knees begging DC’s writers to listen to this

[tenmistakes]

all I’m saying is if Batman can lobotomize Jason, and Joker can lobotomize Duke’s parents and mass amounts of civilians

then maybe Batman can find a permanent lobotomy-adjacent solution to Joker. No killing needed.

or maybe Bruce Wayne can find some money and influence in him to bribe someone in Arkham. just sayin.

[its-not-lookin-good]

My favorite part about writing is when I think of one single exchange that sounds really cool in my head and then never do anything to write around it. I have a collection of small 2-4 line dialogue exchanges that I dream of some day using.

[iliveforangstpjo]

happens to me a lot and then fucking slips my mind

[tenmistakes]

i love that part of writing too. it’s fun to come up with those single exchanges. i like to put them in a commonplace journal for lines i wanna recycle, and review it in my redrafting process to add some of it in spots that are lacking that panache i need. makes the whole thing take a lot longer but adds more substance throughout the overall work.

and even if i don’t use it, practicing writing in a character’s voice makes the process quicker each time i slip back into the role. but if i don’t get to use it, that dialogue becomes a special little treat just for me. (there is the option to release a bonus content work/commentary edition/etc too if there’s the want to share cut content)

[tenmistakes]

want to live too much to die

want to die too much to live

[tenmistakes]

[tenmistakes]

my mom gets seasonal depression during the spring bc that’s when the woman who raised her, her grandma, died

i get seasonal depression during the spring because that’s when my mom violently swung between weeping and screaming at us each year

needless to say it’s something of a family tradition to ambush and assault the easter bunny

[iliveforangstpjo]

....im sorry if this is insensitive but have you ever considered applying that to Jason and Catherine? Just asking, and what if i did? (Oh my god that's SO fucking horrible of me to ask im SORRY)

[tenmistakes]

no you’re so right