hell raiser

28 | pisces | he/they | trans masc

[tervsh1ma]

just letting you all know, i’m proud of you. even if all you did was open your eyes today, or go to the bathroom, maybe not even that, i’m proud of you, because existing can be fucking hard, and it can suck ass, but the fact that you’re here, right now, existing, it’s fucking amazing. i’m i’m proud of you for making it another day. you are loved and appreciated and don’t ever forget that. and if you ever need someone to talk to, your mom, your sister, your best friend, some guy working at dunkin donuts i don’t fucking know, talk to them. because wasting your life away on some bullshit like suicide, it’s fucking bullshit, and there’s nothing worth even harming yourself over.

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there will never be a day where i don’t scream the lyrics to thank you for the venom at the top of my lungs

SO GIMME ALL YOUR POISON AND GIMME ALL YOUR PILLS AND GIMME ALL YOUR HOPELESS HEARTS AND MAKE ME ILL YOURE RUNNING AFTER SOMETHUNG THANK YOULL NEVER KILL IF THIS IS WHAT YOU WANT THEN FIRE AT WILL

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i’m damn near 29 and i just had a whole ass mental break down about the fact that gerard, mikey, frank, and ray probably cry every year on march 22nd and the fact that they probably walk around their houses singong old mcr songs

damn

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sakusa head cannons that i have

-since everyone always tells him he looks like michael jackson, for like 5 years in a row he’s been MJ for halloween

-his favorite color is yellow

-he hates the feel of atsumu’s hair because it’s dry and dead from bleaching it

-he has full sleeves (tattoo sleeves)

-he can skateboard

-despite what some may say, he has a sweet tooth

-his favorite song is zero zero by gerard way

-he streams with kenma when he has time

-he learned how to make agedashi tofu for iwaizumi’s birthday

-he can play the guitar

-he was roommates with atsumu for the olympics, but ended up trading with bokuto so now he’s roommates with shoyo

-he‘s dyed his hair a couple times

-he has braces as a little kid

-he worked at gamestop in high school

-he used to babysit so he’s actually really good with kids

-because he’s so tall, little kids tend to go to him when they get lost so, being a baby sitter came in handy for defusing tantrums and finding families

lmk who else i should do

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well if you wanted

that’s all you had to say

[tervsh1ma]

i have

i have officially reentered my my chemical romance phase

oopsie

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also happy 11th birthday to danger days

[tervsh1ma]

i have

i have officially reentered my my chemical romance phase

oopsie

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sugawara headcannons that i have

-he loves taking baths with bath oils so he always smells really nice

-he got the one part of kiss me more that goes “i feel like fuckin’ somethin’” stuck in his head and he would say it under his breath, however daichi doesnt know that song so he always would give suga really concerning looks

- he is a bassist

-he went out with both daich and asahi

-he’s omni with a preference for men

-kiyoko help suga look more fem for dates with men and suga helps kiyoko look more masc on her dates with women (before she got married)

-he spray-painted ACAB on daichi’a garage door

-he has a manga collection

-after he graduated he would sneak into the gym and pretend like he was there for practice and coach ukai let’s him

-he sometimes smokes weed with nishinoya and tanaka when nishinoya visits

-being a kindergarten teacher made him realize that he definitely does not want kids

-he has doc martens

-he can skateboard and watches sk8 the infinity

-he currently is in a 4 year long relationship with oikawa

-he was friends with iwaizumi before he was friends with oikawa

-him and semi hang out a lot and usually suga gets VIP passes to semi’s shows

- he was in semi’s band for a bit before he decided to be a teacher

-it took him and semi a good minute to realize that they looked alike

lmk who else i should do

[tervsh1ma]

kenma ain’t just shoyo’s sponser, he’s his sugar daddy and it’s cannon because i said so

[sarahtoninxox]

The end of ADHD awareness month is

coming near. So let me tell you what

ADHD has done to me.

It's not just fidgeting.

It's not just trouble focusing.

For me, it's not even hyperactivity.

ADHD makes my brain late.

To everything.

ADHD effects my everyday life.

It has made me depressed.

I have difficulty maintaining relationships.

Because of executive dysfunction, some

days I don't get out of bed.

Chronic unemployment.

I forget to pay bills.

I can't focus. Even with no distractions.

Just can't focus.

Hyperfixations.

Obsessions.

All or nothing thinking. Black and white.

Mood swings of the worst kind.

Unintentionally scaring my loved ones.

Choice paralysis.

I can't make up my mind.

I can't decide.

I'm not confident in any decision I make.

I have poor sense of time.

My emotional regulation is almost absent.

I can’t stick to one task.

always look like I'm not listening.

Even though I'm always listening.

Even though I care what you're saying.

I'm listening. I swear.

I can't focus on anything.

Not even things I'm interested in.

I want to read this book I'm interested in.

I can't get past the first page.

The words make no sense.

I can't understand what they mean.

I forget to eat.

I forget to go to the bathroom.

Sometimes I even forget to sleep.

I'm always tired.

Always. Tired.

It's not just fidgeting. It's not just trouble

focusing.

It's debilitating.

If you can relate, offer yourself some grace.

Medication and therapy can help.

But your brain will always be different.

Because we are wired differently.

It's not all bad. We just have too much

attention.

It's not a deficit. It's too much attention

with no idea where to put it.

Hang in there.

You're not lazy.

You're not a bum.

You're different. Like me. Like many of us.

[tervsh1ma]

coming from someone who was diagnosed with ADHD at 14, (i’m biologically female, doctors didn’t catch on until i was 14) i get it. you’re not lazy, you’re not a bum, you have ADHD. and thats perfectly fine.

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i got a new cat- her name is sushi :}

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inCASE anyone wanted to know how to make agedashi tofu (iwaizumi’s favorite food- mine too) here’s the recipe :}

[tervsh1ma]

happy birthday to this beautiful boy <3 i hope all of you have an amazing day and just know that whatever you’re going through, you are not alone. i’m always here to talk and so many people care about you and love you. plus, there’s at least one person who like likes you

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sad headcannons of random characters

-armin cut his hair to appear more masculine because he hated the way he was always mistaken for a girl when he was younger

-jiro borrowed some of mimi’s old clothes and secretly tried them on in her room so she feels more comfortable wearing feminine clothing

-gojo kept every single drawing that megumi and his sister made when they were younger and he looks through each and everyone of them when he’s sad

-when megumi was younger he would stay up late secretly hoping that his dad (toji) would come back

-itadori has already written letters to all his friends for when he dies

-bakugo analyzes his day before he sleeps and hates himself when he realizes that he could’ve been less grumpy around/with his friends

-shoji and kageyama practice smiling in the mirror so they can appear to be less intimidating

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STOP HES SO ADORABLE

i forgot who the artist is but one i remember i will credit the artist bc people who don’t credit artos it’s are yuck yuck

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yk what? fuck you

*rewatches jujutsu kaisen for the 4739479th time*

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bokuto head cannons that i have

-he’s pansexual

-him and kuroo are always each others valentines no matter what

-when MSBY found out he was pan no one was suprised

-he can play the drums

-him and tendō have dated in the past

-he was disappointed when akaashi told him he wasn’t going to play volleyball after high school

-bokuto knows about hinata and oikawa meeting in brazil

-bokuto and sakusa didn’t get along well at first because sakusa doesn’t have a lot of energy and bokuto is the opposite

-since akaashi doesnt play volleyball after the timeskip, no one can get bokuto out of his emo-modes…except for hinata

-bokuto and “tsum-tsum” dated when they both first got to MSBY

HEY HEY HEYY lmk who else i should do