Maybe - genuinely - you should take some time to just step away from the website.
Your trauma is not the burden of those around you. If a post about giving other people support to relief them of unnecessary stress can be translated in your mind as an act of violence aimed at you specifically, then I really truly think you should seek some form of further counselling.
Your personal history and experiences have probably shaped you to react in the way that you did, but they really don’t justify that reaction. They explain it, but they don’t excuse it. Doubling down on it over and over that the post is somehow designed to break boundaries and cause further suffering is… a really warped opinion to have.
Not to say that it isn’t authentically your interpretation, but to say that your interpretation is so astronomically far from the bare intention of the post that I can’t help but feel that any kind of positive post could’ve been construed into an attack on the negativity you’ve grown comfortable with.
I think that’s on you to analyse and come to terms with, and maybe begin taking steps to break away from. If anything, it feels like you’re the sort of person who really could do with support that could relieve you. Eternal defensiveness at everything and anything is exhausting, and it makes any positivity or genuine outreach of support look like a trick. Truly, for 99% of the time, it’s not. You’ve just been very unlucky. But you have to unlearn what your trauma has taught you if you want to move on with your life.
At the very least, you should probably step away from public forums if your immediate response is to “hit back”, especially considering no one in this situation was hitting you in the first place.
(Excuse the presumptuousness of this ask, but after reading your other posts, I felt like this would be important to say to you. Not trying to invalidate any experiences at all, just trying to give you a better understanding of everyone else’s perspective right now.)
i didn't interpret it as aimed at me specifically, but i also failed to generalize my response. i may have, in fact, gone for the worst possible presentation of "don't overextend to offer relief;" it's certainly difficult to imagine a worse presentation
if my reading of "can encourage self-destructive behavior" is that far from the intent, you're right - i should definitely not be on tumblr. my stance on to what can or can't ruin my day is too warped for "not gonna let this ruin my day!" to be a sufficient marker for online behavior
thank you for taking the time to write! it costs little to be mean in my inbox, but a write-up like this takes a lot out of a person between doubling back to clarify and checking tone and handling your emotions. presumptuous or not, you made a (successful) attempt to fix a problem at risk of being lashed out at. i'm grateful for the effort!
