wait? I wrote that?

a catalogue dedicated to my glorious return to Ao3 @purple_hyacynths (side blog to @sacredrelicoflove)

[tostellify]

Sometimes I wish I was a fan of The Pitt so I could be a Dennis hater, and call him Shitaker. :/

[that-fic-overthere]

[allthingswhumpyandangsty]

I think ao3 is literally the only site where no censorship means no censorship. you can post the most vile things on there — things that will get taken down on any other platforms — and ao3 will protect you, your works, and your rights to create whatever you want, however you want.

and no, this isn’t me saying “write that messed up, disgusting thing” because while, yes, write it if it’s what you want (I myself enjoy writing dark fics, something I believe would be considered “vile” to a lot of people), this is me saying in a world of censorship and capitalism, ao3 really is a treasure.

everybody say thank you ao3

[yyyyddmmsupremacy-deactivated20]

one person's "ugghh this trope is so overdone" is another person's "oooooohohohohohohohoho"

[codeblueberry]

I’m honestly jealous of people who hate Robby, because it’s obvious they’ve never had to live with that particular mix of insecurity, pride, and depression that slowly turns you into an ugly shell of anger and shame, until all you know how to do is lash out at everyone around you.

[lin4lool]

more domestic rabbot BECAUSE COMFORT

[qedart]

Decided to work through this week's Sunday-itis with Jack and Robby, presumably at the end of a couple of days off spent together (feat. head nuzzling).

[baklavasudarajako]

ngl am OBSESSED with these two

[crewmannumbersix]

Just thinking about still convinced he’s straight Dennis Whitaker feeling like he found the perfect solution to all his problems in Amy and Theo because he’s no longer in his shitty hometown with his shitty family and it’s easy with Amy and he loves Theo and he’s helpful on the farm like a man should be and there’s already a baby so it takes the pressure off of sex for now. And he can write off his feelings for his high school classmate as just wanting to be accepted by another man and he can write off whatever bubbly feeling he gets from Robby as his unresolved daddy issues and being at the farm all the time means trinity is less likely to drag him to queer city things that make him start to examine himself a little too closely, that show him so tantalizingly the kind of open and happy and relieved life he could have if he just reached out and let himself grab it.

[that-fic-overthere]

I have never before met a fan base where such a large portion absolutely HATES the main protagonist and still watches the show anyway just to complain

[supernaturalrandomness]

The way the writers chose to write Abbot giving that pep talk in the beginning of the night shift and end it with 'Hooah!' is actually brilliant because it tells us so much about Jack. 'Hooah' is an army saying, so now we know for certain he was in the army.

When Robby and Jack have their little fight in the ambulance bay, Robby tells him he's not the one that spends his free time getting shot at and mocks him with a 'Hooah' himself. It's not about mocking Abbot's speech or the way he manages the crew, Robby mocks his (lack of) mental health progress. Jack throws himself again and again at dangerous situations, and despite bringing up his therapist all the time, it seems like his mental health isn't getting better. He can preach these mantras all he wants, at the end of the day, a widowed vet amputee who works the night shift in the ED and then also moonlights as a SWAT physician during the day is not doing well in terms of his mental health. Yes, he's probably far from his rock bottom (and oh what interesting lore would it be, to know how Jack was at his absolute worst), but he's not really as okay as he wants others to see him. In a desperate way to push everyone away, Robby presses at the places that hurt most.

I would also like to add that Shawn is such a fantastic actor who pays attention to details - you can see him really shift his weight from one leg to another while standing, he limps slightly and 99% of the time he has his hands behind his back in what resembles a Parade Rest stance.

[hucklebabygirl]

This fanfic shit is easy.

[oneshortdamnfuse]

Season 1 Ending: Trinity Santos invites her homeless coworker who she just met to live rent free in her apartment.

Season 2 Ending: Trinity Santos invites her lonely coworker to get drinks and sing karaoke so she won’t be alone on July 4th

And the fandom rabidly hates her and thinks she’s the worst most evil person to ever exist.

[codeblueberry]

she was this close to saying repressed country twink with daddy issues and chronic people-pleaser tendencies

[aquilacalvitium]

Write it badly or it'll never be written

Write it badly or it'll never be written

Write it badly or it'll never be written

Write it badly or it'll never be written

Write it badly or it'll never be written

[aquilacalvitium]

Please keep interacting with this post because when I come to tumblr to procrastinate, this shows up again in my notifications and guilts me into writing again

[clara-maybe]

I feel so damn bad for baran. what an awful day. imagine you’ve lived almost your whole life with a disability and you’ve worked so hard to get it under control and you’ve managed it through incredibly stressful situations and you’ve had your license for twelve years and then one day, the day you start your new job, the day you have to prove yourself, you have your first seizure in over a year? and you’re a doctor and you know the options that are available to you, some of which are very scary. and you choose to confide in your fellow attending about it and instantly your worst fears are realized. and then you can’t even drive home, because you are a good person and you won’t take that risk. how important is driving for her? it’s how she gets to her job, she probably drives her kid around. what a massive loss of her freedom and identity as a doctor in one fell swoop. I really really hope we get her back in season 3

[adleyofthefield]

oh my poor girl my heart is breaking

[that-fic-overthere]

As someone who's lost their ability to drive, probably permanently, due to seizures- it's dehumanizing.

You never realize how much independence is tied to driving. You can't do ANYTHING in most areas of America because of how bad our public transport is. No going out with friends, no spending the day shopping, no coffee runs, no grocery store trips, not even doctors visits. No longer can you do ANYTHING on your own.

When you tell people you can't drive you get the obligatory "oh? Really? You've never had your license?" and a judgmental stare that accompanies the internal "wow, you're a bum"

[that-fic-overthere]

Say what you want about Baran Al Hashimi, but that end of season cry in the car is the most relatable thing I've seen from this show as a chronically ill/disabled person.

The cry after a long day where your body betrayed you and you're once again faced with the reality that no matter how much you want something, no matter how hard you've worked for it or how desperate you are to make it all pan out, your body can just decide 'no' and that's it. It's out of your control and there's nothing you can do to change that.

Our bodies and illnesses run our lives and can just take over at any time

[eldritchbuddy]

all i do is win