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I sorta don't buy that sasha died by falling in lava. You're telling me Sasha, the character who's major skill is potion making, didn't bring fire res while on a rescue mission to the nether? One she prepared heavily for by grabbing every capable guard and magicks user beforehand? Idk man, I just think the guy who can alter memories might've made her forget about it if she survived the fall and someone had to kill her himself.

#does it matter? ultimately not. she died either way. but i do think sasha was probably smart enough to make killing her a pain in the ass #i do think it would make sense then if she was such a pain in the ass why gene might want her on the team #minecraft diaries #aphmau

kosmogrl

get in loser we’re gonna try again despite it all

Emma Kennedy, the Bard

#a bard of the seven kingdoms #asoiaf #fanfic #fanart #my art #a friend of mine said this was giving equestria girls #excellent

thefishywizard

Let’s be a distant memory with mama

#aphmau #minecraft diaries #shame on you i will look at this forever

parskis

i swear to god, men raising their voice is the most terrifying thing in the whole world. they dont understand, like its an immediate panic response, game over

cl4yton-deactivated20180207

I actually had no idea women found this so scary

periwinklepromise

my downstairs neighbors fight on a regular basis, and every time he starts yelling i’m a little afraid he’s going to kill her. i have no reason to think this except that he is a man and he is angry

thewonderfulthingaboutfish

My math teacher has a loud voice and a temper and he scares the living shit out of me almost everyday. He’s made me and other kids cry more than once and he and his teacher buddies make a joke out of terrifying students.

diamondsamura1-deactivated20220

this was women in general? i knew my gf didn’t like it but I was unaware if this affected most women

survivor-surviving

Yes, it does

pandora-ness

As a woman, I had no idea it effected other women like this. I was too afraid to even talk about it. I thought I was weak. Thanks for bringing attention to this.

kaldraws8280

My dad thinks it’s funny that I used to cry when he raised his voice. I freak out whenever some one does. Once my director did, and I started crying I couldn’t stop. I’m glad to see I’m not alone…

suicunesrider

This is so important– seeing how common this is– and I also want you all to know that this is not normal. It isn’t something instinctively ingrained into women, to be afraid of men. There is no natural state of men being a threat that women constantly have to be afraid of. This is cultural. So many women and girls here have a mutual understanding of this feeling, and I think it really shows an unsettling truth about our society, particularly about how men are raised to act and how so many women have this defensive reaction gradually develop. It’s so important that these people have their voices heard, because it teaches us about problems that we just can’t deny the existence of any longer.

shidoninoure

I’m glad I’m not the only one

anexperimentallife

My fellow men, pay attention. I didn’t realize how scary this could be until one of my exes explained it to me, and it’s heartbreaking.

Also, when we move too much during an argument, or lean forward, it’s scary, and I never knew. I was even a little insulted at first, because surely she didn’t think I would hurt her. But see, that doesn’t matter. It wasn’t a sign that she mistrusted me specifically; it’s a conditioned response. (Although if you keep doing it once you realize it scares her, she SHOULDN’T trust you.)

Not every woman has been physically harmed by a man she trusted, but every woman KNOWS a woman who has.

I used to be horrible about this, because I didn’t realize how intimidating it was. I didn’t understand why the woman I was with clammed up or tried to tell me what she thought I wanted to hear, and I only got angrier, and acted even more like an asshole. It was wrong. It was abusive. It didn’t matter if I INTENDED it that way; it was still emotionally abusive. And it was inexcusable.

I get that when passions are high, and when you’re frustrated, it’s a natural tendency to let your voice get louder, to shout and gesture and lean forward. But you can train yourself to do better. You can train yourself to keep more of an even tone, to refrain from large and fast gestures, to not lean into her personal space. I did. I’m not perfect at it yet, but goddamn it, I WILL be.

Don’t tell me it’s too hard, that you just can’t do it, or that you “shouldn’t have to.” I’m 53 years old and just now getting the hang of it, and if this old dog can learn something new, so can you.

elfwreck

Note to guys: It really, REALLY doesn’t matter if you’re thinking, “but I would never…”

History is littered with the bodies of women who believed a man “would never.” This includes women killed by men who honestly, deeply, truly believed they “would never”… right up until she said that one thing or moved in just that way and he just got so mad, just that once, and pushed her or punched her or slashed her or shot her… just once, y’know, to shut her up, or because she was flinching and didn’t she know that HE’S NOT LIKE THAT and I’LL TEACH HER TO BE AFRAID OF ME…

We are trained, from infancy, that Men With Loud Voices are a source of pain from which we cannot escape, and attempts to escape may result in more pain. And as soon as we’re old enough to comprehend a world broader than our immediate circle, a world that extends into the past and will run into the future, we realize that there is no way, no way at all, to tell which men “would never” and which men “would never… except if.”

We live or die on that “if.” And any man who doesn’t like facing that hyper-vigilance can work on fixing OTHER MEN, not women’s fear.

The reaction shouldn’t be “not all men are like that;” it should be “no woman should have to live in fear.”

It’s telling that so many people will hear a story of long-term abuse and say, “why did she stay with him?” and not “why did he treat her like that?”

plutoonwheels

yk what kind of gets me. thematically or whatever love is always laurances downfall, and its such a profound one too because hes got so much of it

Like at first it made him very gentle and kind when he was human, he kept the village together when Joh died, he helped castor, went insane looking for cadenza - like he wears the great big veil of bravado and charm over it but hes so so soft hearted. and for love he stays behind in the nether to sacrifice himself.

and then hes a shadowknight, and you think "oh so hes losing that softness now" and no he does not. He's still valiant and kind and loving - despite the trauma and the nature of this new thing he's become, it's that intrinsic to him.

He stays with aphmau initially for the love of his home, and hayden, cadenza and kenmur - he knows going back risks him harming one (or all) of them too much, hes forced to leave all he knows and loves because that love is now dangerous.

and so now hes one of aphmau's knights or guards or whatever and hes coming to love phoenix drop, and aphmau, garroth, dante, everyone there. Thats so like him, thats literally just a part of him, his love (now away from home) spills over into phoenix drop and everyone there, and thats good.

because it means hes devout in protecting aphmau and the village, and he can form strong bonds with garroth and dante, but it also means garroth is that more hurt when he thinks laurance underhanded him with aphmau. It means laurance feels safe with garroth right up until he knocks him out for the amulet.

The irene dimension - his love means garroth comes back to himself and then he has to leave garroth and go back to this. echo of the world he knows. and all that is stressful and no wonder the shadowknight part of him became so steadfast, especially with everyone he knows sort of condemning that part of him. like that would drive so much resentment.

and then hes coming to love aphmau more as that shadowknight part of him gets stronger and garroth is away longer and things keep changing, and suddenly the tether that kept him together is becoming the thing slooowly wedging him apart - despite all the wood walks with vylad, things have changed so much that laurance struggles to change with it - or keep the violent part of himself at bay while his intrinsic love (or maybe a very tainted version of it) grows stronger.

so he has to leave again. for the safety of the people he loves the most because his love is now more dangerous than ever. He can't trust a short temper or mood swing not to be someones end. and theres still that softness buried inside under all the rage and anger, and so much will to leave instead of succumb to the rage (or love) within him.

his love is the one thing that always brings him down, its also the one thing he can never shed.

laurance goes to the one place where there is no love, the nether, and ultimately, even there, chases a goal still rooted in love; shadowknight rebellion. whether so he can be free of the burden of second-hand rage, or servitude to Shad, so he can go home, so they can all be free, its all rooted in him.

and then s3 was cancelled but listen i love laurance

but i think even if s3 continued, laurance is/would've been doomed by his capacity for love, maybe because he loves too much, and all his love always ends up spilling over

#peak cinema #i never believed for a second that laurance actually discarded his bonds #he wants go back to his family soooo bad #aphmau #minecraft diaries

yoinksysploinky

IRNEE DIDN'T LOSE HER POWERS FROM APATHY OVER THE YEARS SHE LOST IF BECAUSE OF HER HEALING MAGICK BECAUSE LUSICNDA SAID HEALING MAGIC IS ATTACHED TO THE LOVE YOU HAVE AND WE SEE HER LIUTERALLY BRING PEOPLE BACK FROM THE DEAD AND RESTORE CROPS AND IT'S NOT JUST BECAUSE SHE LOST IT OVER TIME SHE USED IT ALL UP SAVING OTHER PEOPLE OH MY FUCKING GOD FUCK YOU JESSON WHY DID YOU DO THIS TO ME

yoinksysploinky

This has been killing me I wrote this is a mad craze and I didn't even say it correctly 😭😭 I mean Irene's powers drained her of her love as it's consequences - Jason said that all magic has like a cost to it, and Lucinda in MyStreet talked about how the way Healing Magick or Witchcraft works is through Love

So my conclusion was that Irene, the Matron and the biggest user of Healing Magick to the point where she's been known to bring people back from the dead, it must drain her love and that's her consequence for that stuff (Hyria saying she lost her lover for the world and wanted to relearn it again through Aphmau)

I always thought she grew apathetic because she was just alive for so long that everything became mundane, the issue with immortality, but she actually lost it through the fact that she kept using her powers, it was using her love

Just felt like I needed to clarify whatever the fuck I said here 😭

#this is going straight into my rewrite #bc it never made sense to me that irene was the only immortal character to lose her emotions #zoey hyria and shad are all arguably as old as her yet their emotions are very much functional #magic affecting irene this way makes so much sense #aphmau #minecraft diaries

In my rewrite, Nana Ashida goes by the pseudonym Kawaii-Chan when she flees to Ru’aun. Nana was branded as a criminal for refusing to use her magicks for the King of Tu’la. Her magicks is like Yaga’s cursed technique with the potential to create an unlimited army.

#aphmau #minecraft diaries #she’s so pink and cute #nana ashida #ashida nana #kawaii-chan #i LOVE her you don’t understand #my art

I can’t believe you’re making me want to rewatch minecraft diaries (love your fanarts!)

Sincerely, local Grown Adult who is suddenly plagued with nostalgia about my old favourite YouTube series

Yes

YESSSSSSSS

#aphmau #minecraft diaries #asks

“Local teen shadow knight accidentally spawns a god.”

11th ANNIVERSARY, WHOO! In my rewrite, Aphmau imprints on the first person she sees, Vylad! Spread my Vylad-Dad propaganda.

#despite being an deadbeat vylad is a thousand times the father that garte ever was #aphmau #minecraft diaries #vylad ro'meave #my art

jurygarroth

Aphmau: it’s my first time in Meteli where do I go?

Laurance:

#aphmau #minecraft diaries

vysaholic

aphtober day 7 ── .✦ ghost

#aphmau #minecraft diaries #“hi baby”

itzkraycee

ok. here we go. the moment ive been waiting for..

LAURANCE ZVHAL POSTING AGAIINNA AHAHAHAA!! but this time he's with my updated pdh Aph design. oh im so happy about this page you dont even knoooww. yeah its also kinda laurmau I CANT STOP WITH LAURMAU AJAJAAJ

like. it could be a little better. but Laurance!! oh my gosh i drew him so perfect.. ugh hes so perfecct... im so happy i landed on the "good boy who gives off ex badboy vibes but who never left his grunge phase" look with him. ugh hes the fakest idgafer ever but hes sooo cute.

and i also dont mind drawing Aphmau really short, so shes a littllee tiny. i mean, she is a freshman, and real life Jessica Bravura is 4'11, so.. yehh i headcanon Aph as really short. i mean she is anyway, but i like seeing different people of different heights depicted in media. it also gives me the excuse to try out different bodytypes where i can.

i WILL be drawing a fleshed out thing with all my aphmau designs at somee point, im just. too focused on drawing all the men. UGH IM SUCH A LOSERR BORING MENLOVING CREATURE AAUGH!!

#aphmau #phoenix drop high #UGGGHHH THE WAY HE LOOKS AT HER SO SOFTLY #a good boy a bad boy a half bad half good half boy

wulfhalls

forever grateful i was simply too lazy to let the makeup industrial complex get its hooks in me. I was just like im not doing all of that. in fact. im doing none of that

cumaeansibyl

yeah I have political reasons for it now but my original and still most powerful reason is "I am not getting out of this bed one single second before I have to"