the-ceesaw

Ao3

[chiliiiiiiiiiiiiii]

silver heart

[maganbee]

This is what D squad used to do before Kim Soleum joined

[the-ceesaw]

[ohnogodpls]

Ch 193 - 194

Everyone always forgets J3 was there...

alternatively

[zvahlne]

I was just thinking sorry

Do you remember that scene in s2 ep34(?) when Aphmau wakes up and sees Laurance next to her and immediately assumes they banged

like you thought you got him and then immediately forgot??? Or what?? what are the implications Jess??

I'VE TALKED BRIEFLY ABOUT THAT BEFORE ON HERE ACTUALLY I THINK, IT'S SO 😭😭😭 THE SLIP IS CRAZY???

i have a gif from this scene that i have as an emoji on discord and i probably send it every single day

this has to be one of my most rewatched scenes because it's 1. really cute 2. really funny (i love travis... "I HEARD YELLING AND I'M A GUARD SO I CAME TO INVESTIGATE! [jumps]") and 3. i think it reveals a lot about aphmau's actual thoughts/feelings on laurance. because if she didn't think it were a possibility, why in the world would she wake up FULLY CLOTHED next to laurance and immediately think OH SHIT. WE BANGED. like you wouldn't think that UNLESS IT WAS ON YOUR MIND??????? one of my favorite slips from her. confirmation she does want that cookie.

also laurance is really funny here he's such a virgin /pos. she's like "DID WE HAVE S--" and he's like "OH MY IRENE APHMAU YOU CAN'T SAY THAT" (grown ass man)

the implication i've always gathered, besides it being a joke, is that laurmau are in fact very mutually attracted to/in love with each other but, for their own dumb reasons they've imposed on themselves, "shouldn't act on those feelings," and so when aphmau wakes up and is still groggy and sees laurance in bed next to her, her immediate thought is "oh shit, we caved."

which is like the funniest thing in the world. just have the fucking cookie aphmau. it's okay. i give you permission. it's fine. you do not have to hang on for garroth he's literally in another dimension and you are clearly enamored with this dude. it's okay. in fact you don't need permission you are a grown woman and he is a grown man and you like each other a lot. for the good of everyone's sanity please just bang and kiss and hold hands forever.

[homunculus-argument]

The Odyssey but retold as a low-stakes modern adventure of one guy out with his girlfriend leaving the bar with his buddies to do just one (1) simple thing real quick, it'll take like 15 minutes tops, he'll be right back, but then some bullshit happens and the trip keeps getting more complicated as more bullshit keeps happening while he just tries to get back to the bar because he promised his girlfriend that he'd get back and he knows that she's still there because she told him she'd wait there.

And by the time he finally gets back it's almost 3 am and the bar is about to close while she's sitting there stone cold sober, surrounded by 5 drunk guys unsuccessfully trying to convince her to give up on waiting for him and go home with one of them instead. And the guy shows up to proceed to beat the shit out of them before explaining himself to her like hey sorry bullshit kept happening, my phone fell into a storm drain and my wallet got stolen when I was trying to find someone who'd borrow me a phone so I could call and

[thekijs]

His girlfriend had been fending off the 5 drunk guys for most of the evening by explaining that even if she was going to ditch her boyfriend, she can't possibly leave without finishing her beer, which she is keeping perpetually full via careful sleight of hand where she's just pouring it back and forth into and out of the pitcher.

However the drunk guys are also drinking, and eventually she can't afford to buy another pitcher for the table so she can't keep up the ever-full beer glass trick. At this point she has to resort to setting up the pool trick shot that she's never seen anyone but her boyfriend pull off, and says she'll leave with whoever manages the shot first.

That buys her another hour or so and then, finally, her boyfriend makes it back. He looks like shit, hair down and just a mess, he's wearing an entirely different jacket that he got from an alley, and barely recognizable—especially to 5 guys who've been drunk for hours now. He lurks for a minute, finds out what's going on, and proceeds to pull off the trick shot first try. Throws the jacket off, fixes his hair with a hair tie his girlfriend lends him, finally looks like himself again, and THEN beats the shit out of them with the pool cue.

[weaselle]

yuh i was there, that's how it happened

[theevilfishywizard]

I sorta don't buy that sasha died by falling in lava. You're telling me Sasha, the character who's major skill is potion making, didn't bring fire res while on a rescue mission to the nether? One she prepared heavily for by grabbing every capable guard and magicks user beforehand? Idk man, I just think the guy who can alter memories might've made her forget about it if she survived the fall and someone had to kill her himself.

[kosmogrl]

get in loser we’re gonna try again despite it all

[the-ceesaw]

Emma Kennedy, the Bard

[thefishywizard]

Let’s be a distant memory with mama

[parskis]

i swear to god, men raising their voice is the most terrifying thing in the whole world. they dont understand, like its an immediate panic response, game over

[cl4yton-deactivated20180207]

I actually had no idea women found this so scary

[periwinklepromise]

my downstairs neighbors fight on a regular basis, and every time he starts yelling i’m a little afraid he’s going to kill her. i have no reason to think this except that he is a man and he is angry

[thewonderfulthingaboutfish]

My math teacher has a loud voice and a temper and he scares the living shit out of me almost everyday. He’s made me and other kids cry more than once and he and his teacher buddies make a joke out of terrifying students.

[diamondsamura1-deactivated20220]

this was women in general? i knew my gf didn’t like it but I was unaware if this affected most women

[survivor-surviving]

Yes, it does

[pandora-ness]

As a woman, I had no idea it effected other women like this. I was too afraid to even talk about it. I thought I was weak. Thanks for bringing attention to this.

[kaldraws8280]

My dad thinks it’s funny that I used to cry when he raised his voice. I freak out whenever some one does. Once my director did, and I started crying I couldn’t stop. I’m glad to see I’m not alone…

[suicunesrider]

This is so important– seeing how common this is– and I also want you all to know that this is not normal. It isn’t something instinctively ingrained into women, to be afraid of men. There is no natural state of men being a threat that women constantly have to be afraid of. This is cultural. So many women and girls here have a mutual understanding of this feeling, and I think it really shows an unsettling truth about our society, particularly about how men are raised to act and how so many women have this defensive reaction gradually develop. It’s so important that these people have their voices heard, because it teaches us about problems that we just can’t deny the existence of any longer.

[shidoninoure]

I’m glad I’m not the only one

[anexperimentallife]

My fellow men, pay attention. I didn’t realize how scary this could be until one of my exes explained it to me, and it’s heartbreaking.

Also, when we move too much during an argument, or lean forward, it’s scary, and I never knew. I was even a little insulted at first, because surely she didn’t think I would hurt her. But see, that doesn’t matter. It wasn’t a sign that she mistrusted me specifically; it’s a conditioned response. (Although if you keep doing it once you realize it scares her, she SHOULDN’T trust you.)

Not every woman has been physically harmed by a man she trusted, but every woman KNOWS a woman who has.

I used to be horrible about this, because I didn’t realize how intimidating it was. I didn’t understand why the woman I was with clammed up or tried to tell me what she thought I wanted to hear, and I only got angrier, and acted even more like an asshole. It was wrong. It was abusive. It didn’t matter if I INTENDED it that way; it was still emotionally abusive. And it was inexcusable.

I get that when passions are high, and when you’re frustrated, it’s a natural tendency to let your voice get louder, to shout and gesture and lean forward. But you can train yourself to do better. You can train yourself to keep more of an even tone, to refrain from large and fast gestures, to not lean into her personal space. I did. I’m not perfect at it yet, but goddamn it, I WILL be.

Don’t tell me it’s too hard, that you just can’t do it, or that you “shouldn’t have to.” I’m 53 years old and just now getting the hang of it, and if this old dog can learn something new, so can you.

[elfwreck]

Note to guys: It really, REALLY doesn’t matter if you’re thinking, “but I would never…”

History is littered with the bodies of women who believed a man “would never.” This includes women killed by men who honestly, deeply, truly believed they “would never”… right up until she said that one thing or moved in just that way and he just got so mad, just that once, and pushed her or punched her or slashed her or shot her… just once, y’know, to shut her up, or because she was flinching and didn’t she know that HE’S NOT LIKE THAT and I’LL TEACH HER TO BE AFRAID OF ME…

We are trained, from infancy, that Men With Loud Voices are a source of pain from which we cannot escape, and attempts to escape may result in more pain. And as soon as we’re old enough to comprehend a world broader than our immediate circle, a world that extends into the past and will run into the future, we realize that there is no way, no way at all, to tell which men “would never” and which men “would never… except if.”

We live or die on that “if.” And any man who doesn’t like facing that hyper-vigilance can work on fixing OTHER MEN, not women’s fear.

The reaction shouldn’t be “not all men are like that;” it should be “no woman should have to live in fear.”

It’s telling that so many people will hear a story of long-term abuse and say, “why did she stay with him?” and not “why did he treat her like that?”

[plutoonwheels]

yk what kind of gets me. thematically or whatever love is always laurances downfall, and its such a profound one too because hes got so much of it

Like at first it made him very gentle and kind when he was human, he kept the village together when Joh died, he helped castor, went insane looking for cadenza - like he wears the great big veil of bravado and charm over it but hes so so soft hearted. and for love he stays behind in the nether to sacrifice himself.

and then hes a shadowknight, and you think "oh so hes losing that softness now" and no he does not. He's still valiant and kind and loving - despite the trauma and the nature of this new thing he's become, it's that intrinsic to him.

He stays with aphmau initially for the love of his home, and hayden, cadenza and kenmur - he knows going back risks him harming one (or all) of them too much, hes forced to leave all he knows and loves because that love is now dangerous.

and so now hes one of aphmau's knights or guards or whatever and hes coming to love phoenix drop, and aphmau, garroth, dante, everyone there. Thats so like him, thats literally just a part of him, his love (now away from home) spills over into phoenix drop and everyone there, and thats good.

because it means hes devout in protecting aphmau and the village, and he can form strong bonds with garroth and dante, but it also means garroth is that more hurt when he thinks laurance underhanded him with aphmau. It means laurance feels safe with garroth right up until he knocks him out for the amulet.

The irene dimension - his love means garroth comes back to himself and then he has to leave garroth and go back to this. echo of the world he knows. and all that is stressful and no wonder the shadowknight part of him became so steadfast, especially with everyone he knows sort of condemning that part of him. like that would drive so much resentment.

and then hes coming to love aphmau more as that shadowknight part of him gets stronger and garroth is away longer and things keep changing, and suddenly the tether that kept him together is becoming the thing slooowly wedging him apart - despite all the wood walks with vylad, things have changed so much that laurance struggles to change with it - or keep the violent part of himself at bay while his intrinsic love (or maybe a very tainted version of it) grows stronger.

so he has to leave again. for the safety of the people he loves the most because his love is now more dangerous than ever. He can't trust a short temper or mood swing not to be someones end. and theres still that softness buried inside under all the rage and anger, and so much will to leave instead of succumb to the rage (or love) within him.

his love is the one thing that always brings him down, its also the one thing he can never shed.

laurance goes to the one place where there is no love, the nether, and ultimately, even there, chases a goal still rooted in love; shadowknight rebellion. whether so he can be free of the burden of second-hand rage, or servitude to Shad, so he can go home, so they can all be free, its all rooted in him.

and then s3 was cancelled but listen i love laurance

but i think even if s3 continued, laurance is/would've been doomed by his capacity for love, maybe because he loves too much, and all his love always ends up spilling over

[yoinksysploinky]

IRNEE DIDN'T LOSE HER POWERS FROM APATHY OVER THE YEARS SHE LOST IF BECAUSE OF HER HEALING MAGICK BECAUSE LUSICNDA SAID HEALING MAGIC IS ATTACHED TO THE LOVE YOU HAVE AND WE SEE HER LIUTERALLY BRING PEOPLE BACK FROM THE DEAD AND RESTORE CROPS AND IT'S NOT JUST BECAUSE SHE LOST IT OVER TIME SHE USED IT ALL UP SAVING OTHER PEOPLE OH MY FUCKING GOD FUCK YOU JESSON WHY DID YOU DO THIS TO ME

[yoinksysploinky]

This has been killing me I wrote this is a mad craze and I didn't even say it correctly 😭😭 I mean Irene's powers drained her of her love as it's consequences - Jason said that all magic has like a cost to it, and Lucinda in MyStreet talked about how the way Healing Magick or Witchcraft works is through Love

So my conclusion was that Irene, the Matron and the biggest user of Healing Magick to the point where she's been known to bring people back from the dead, it must drain her love and that's her consequence for that stuff (Hyria saying she lost her lover for the world and wanted to relearn it again through Aphmau)

I always thought she grew apathetic because she was just alive for so long that everything became mundane, the issue with immortality, but she actually lost it through the fact that she kept using her powers, it was using her love

Just felt like I needed to clarify whatever the fuck I said here 😭

[the-ceesaw]

In my rewrite, Nana Ashida goes by the pseudonym Kawaii-Chan when she flees to Ru’aun. Nana was branded as a criminal for refusing to use her magicks for the King of Tu’la. Her magicks is like Yaga’s cursed technique with the potential to create an unlimited army.

[the-ceesaw]

I can’t believe you’re making me want to rewatch minecraft diaries (love your fanarts!)

Sincerely, local Grown Adult who is suddenly plagued with nostalgia about my old favourite YouTube series

Yes

YESSSSSSSS

[the-ceesaw]

“Local teen shadow knight accidentally spawns a god.”

11th ANNIVERSARY, WHOO! In my rewrite, Aphmau imprints on the first person she sees, Vylad! Spread my Vylad-Dad propaganda.

[jurygarroth]

Aphmau: it’s my first time in Meteli where do I go?

Laurance:

[vysaholic]

aphtober day 7 ── .✦ ghost