Front: Cyber

bodily minor + willo sys

[the-digiverse]

Making a sideblog for our system to post on and then NO ONE other than me wants to post like okay alright what's the point in anything ig

-Cyber (they/them)

[the-digiverse]

Well that certainly is a song lineup if I've ever seen one.

My tastes are all over the place ngl

-Cyber (they/them)

[believeinthe-enemy]

the abrosexual and genderfluid to plural pipeline is real as hell

[the-digiverse]

Alright I FINISHED MY BLOG omg my head hurts SO bad but it's done <3

@perma-pink

-Kayla (she/her)

[the-digiverse]

Alright babes I'm making my OWN sideblog because I can :D

But also like, I want to get into hobbies, and I want them detached from our main blog.

-Kayla (she/her)

[the-digiverse]

GUYS GUYS GUYS GUESS WHAT I'M FRONTING BY MYSELF I'M FREE OH MY GOD

Cyber tried like, visualization or wtvs to help me front and IT FUCKING WORKED OH MY FUCKING GOSH

-Kayla (she/her)

Unrelated yap below

Also I started reading the book Condensed Chaos by Phil Hines and it is lowk such a fun read. Like I genuinely didn't think I would be like, into the witch-y stuff, but I think I might try it out. Very very happy.

THANK YOU SPECTRUM FOR BEING AN UNRELIABLE BITCH AND SHUTTING OFF THE INTERNET SO I DECIDED TO READ IT.

[the-digiverse]

I feel bad venting cuz when people try to comfort me, I don't know how to respond and just end up liking the comment/message and not doing anything else in response 😭💔

-Cyber? (They/them)??

[the-digiverse]

Endosys vent

I wish we were more distinct.

I wish we had more possessive switches.

I wish we could confidently say, "Yeah, I'm Kayla, but ealier I was definitely Jacob."

I wish our existence wasn't debated.

I wish we weren't seen as ableist just because whoever our core is decided they wanted friends.

I wish we knew who the core was.

I wish we remembered our childhood.

I wish we had an accepting family.

I wish we didn't have to hide our plurality from people.

I wish my irl would have at least asked to meet my headmates, instead of just saying "cool" and moving on.

I wish some of my headmates wouldn't be so quiet.

I wish our caretaker headmates wouldn't go dormant so much.

I wish I could willingly leave front and LET the caretakers take care of us.

I wish I could see our headspace without intentional visualization and meditation.

I wish my headmates would interact more with each other.

I wish I had an easier time visualizing my headmates.

I wish I could step back and rest, and let someone else take over being Host.

I wish I had an easier time hearing my masc headmates voices.

I wish we weren't audhd, so my headmates wouldn't suffer so much.

I wish one of us could sit down and read our driver's manual, so we could get a job and save to move out.

I wish we didn't share a room with our body's sister so we could unmask more.

I wish I could make fictives that stick.

I wish I didn't feel guilty with my headmates dating each other cuz it's "borderline incest" (I was genuinely told this years ago. I didn't think it bugged me but i guess it did.)

I wish we were traumagenic so everyone would shut up about us being delusional.

I wish we had more headmates.

-Cyber (they/them)

[the-digiverse]

Mmm eepy... ᶻ 𝘇 𐰁໒꒰ྀིっ˕ -｡꒱ྀི১

- Sakura (She / her)

[the-digiverse]

How I make headmates!

I genuinely have no idea bruh I'm just like "This this and this would be a cool headmate" and bam there they are. Obviously they deviate at times but still. Idk how it works.

-Cyber (they/them)

[the-digiverse]

Going thru the anti endo tag just to block so, SO many fuckass jerks like omfg

-Cyber (they/them)

[the-digiverse]

Maybe we're not entirely willogenic. I was thinking back on our past and I think we DID have a headmate before we even knew plurality was something you could just DO.

I used to have an "imaginary friend" when I was 15-16 named James. He had a look. Blond, blue eyes, freckles, etc. He popped up when I tried age regression as a form of coping, and he kind of took on an older brother/caregiver role. He also had a girlfriend, though she didn't have an appearance nor did she speak much.

Kinda sad he's gone/dormant now, but maybe I'll see him again someday.

Just smth I'm thinking about. Idk if similar stuff happened as a kid tho since i don't remember a lot of my childhood. Meh.

-Cyber (they/them)

[the-digiverse]

I think Kayla likes Lust from Fullmetal Alchemist, just a hunch tho.

-Cyber (they/them) + Kayla (she/her)

[the-digiverse]

AWWW LOOK AT THIS BABY WE POCKED UP AT THE THRIFT 😭😭😭😭 I GENUINELY LOVE HIM SO MUCH HE IS NOW NAMED COLLEN

He's a comfort doll that was made by a church in a town near ours 😭 why would anyone donate him I don't get it 💔

-Cyber (they/them)

[the-digiverse]

Baking a new headmate o(〃＾▽＾〃)o

-Cyber (they/them)