Distorted Stars

they/he | suspected DID system | 19

[thedistortedstars]

Hello!

We are the Distorted Stars, we also go by Zephyr.

Unless otherwise specified we go by they/he pronouns.

we're a system of ~40, we are not diagnosed but we are reasonably sure that we have DID.

We're 19. We are autistic and fictive heavy.

We'll probably just end up posting random little system related funnys or fable smp thoughts (the obsession is real)

I have absolutely no idea how much we'll post but yk- -Icarus 🖋️

Our asks are open, feel free to ask anything/just chat. No venting but anything else is fair game. System ask game: here (link)

A few short intros for people who post on here:

Icarus/Rina 💜💛 - Host, 22 ish, fable smp fictive, they/them

Gerry 🗝️ - host, tma fictive, he/him

Viktor 🧪 - host + symptom holder, 28, he/it

Reece ⚔️ - protector, immortal, c!techno fictive, they/he/ze/ve

(edit: updated some stuff -⚔️)

((edit 2: updated! -🗝️+🧪))

[anti-willo-stu-macher]

P-DID erasure needs to stop.

I am sick and tired of seeing all of these endogenic identities that are LITERALLY JUST P-DID REPACKAGED.

I was on Pinterest a bit ago, and saw "proxy system" which is defined as "a system where one functions as a singlet (or approximately close to one, such as a median system) due to a frontstuck host, yet all members of the system are completely distinct in headspace."

That's literally just P-DID...

A "Median system" or a "Proxy system" is literally just P-DID repackaged to fit an endogenic narrative. It is stripping people of understanding themselves better, but these vague descriptions are leading non-pwCDD's into thinking that they're a system which can be harmful for them. It can lead to so many mental issues, especially if you're already prone to psychosis.

No, you aren't a "median system" or a "proxy system" you are a P-DID system or a singlet with varying internal dialogue / monologue that has been mislead into believing that they are something that they are not.

P-DID erasure is such a huge issue. Endogenics need to stop plagiarizing P-DID.

[thedistortedstars]

Endos are so stupid to me because the fuck you mean you can have the trauma disorder..

Without the trauma bit.

Like. its a trauma disorder for a reason??

And then they sit there and go tee hee tee hee i have friends in my head :) they're so silly and we're all best friends :). Having memory gaps? Whats that? Having *any symptoms* other than alters? Nahhh

Bring back roleplaying and stop larping disorders.

[thedistortedstars]

Ask a system

I'm bored so system asks time! (And I'm crazy so I'm making my own) Send an emoji in our asks and we'll answer that question!

🎨 - How did you come up with your system name?

🖋️ - Do you have a collective identity? If yes how did your system decide on those things?

💾 - What is your headcount?

❤️ - What type of CDD do you have?

🧡 - Are you diagnosed? If not, do you plan to?

💛 - Do you have a high or low split tolerance?

💚 - Is your system introject heavy or have little to no introjects?

💙 - Who are your frequent fronters?

💜 - Do you switch frequent or go longer periods between switches?

🌠 - How much amnesia do you experience?

🎶 - Can you switch 'on command' or is that hard for your system? Does it vary between alters?

⚔️ - Is there anyone in your system you don't get along with?

🌺 - Are you 'out' to anyone as a system?

🖤 - Do any of your alters have things that are just theirs or is everything shared within your system?

I definitely made this just for us but if anyone else wants to repost and use this for their own system feel free to do so! -⚔️

[thedistortedstars]

Thought about an au too hard.

Theres two of me now... god damn it /lh

[ftmtftm]

Sometimes I really want to take everyone under the age of 24 (as of 2026) by the shoulders and say:

"I'm really sorry that lockdown and the ongoing pandemic interrupted pivotal educational and social/emotional development moments for you. You have an uphill battle towards adjusting to a lot of community based efforts because you experienced a mass trauma during an incredibly important time in your life where you should have physically been around your peers learning to engage in shared community. There is no "but" here, I'm genuinely really sorry. Something many of us consider key points in our interpersonal growth as youths was taken from you, not without reason but without care for its impact on you. I hope you know we are eternally allies in our struggles and if that is something you struggle to know I hope you can learn it someday."

Because so many of the angriest, most disenfranchised people I see on this website are under 24 and I often try to put younger people's behavior in the context of where they might have been 2020. I've seen the impact on my siblings and their peers+friends first hand, all ages 18-24. We've talked about how its impacted them, the isolation, the attachment to the internet, the anxieties and phobias and fears it developed in them due to the pandemic, the political unrest, and the responses to both that we've seen since. I know they're not the only ones and I know how much being marginalized also influences that impact too.

It's terrifying. I know it must be terrifying for a lot of the young people on Tumblr too. I hope one day we're able to bridge all of those complex feelings into something collective and positive so we can do our best to prevent similar traumas from happening to future generations.

[syscultureis]

sysculture is looking into the mirror and not being able to piece together that the person staring back is, in fact, you.

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[bathhousekitty]

For the longest time, I truly believed I couldn’t have DID because I “didn’t have amnesia”.

Now, in my mind, amnesia meant everything sort of went black and you’d come to days later without a clue of what had happened or where you were. And while, that absolutely can be the case for some— it wasn’t for me.

Amnesia for me is much more complex. The gaps of memory I loose are patched together by the things that I do remember. My mind may omit half the day, but because I can remember the other half, it doesn’t feel as if I’ve lost any time truly. My mind worked overtime to hide how much time I was loosing, simply because if I knew, I don’t think the past version of myself would’ve handled it very well. </3

I suppose all this is to say that how amnesia presents itself is much more complex than most realize, especially when your brain is trying to protect you in its own weird way. It took me a long time to understand its true face… Q_Q

[million-with-a-b]

Reblog if you are a safe place for people who used to identify as endogenic/tulpas before realizing they were either a) a DID/OSDD system or b) not a system at all

im trying to see something

[thedistortedstars]

Mhmhm

Hell we very closely skirted around identifying as endogenic initially because of a whole lot of thinking our trauma wasn't "bad enough."

We went down the OSDD route instead and kinda just.. ignored the trauma bit for a while, and while we still aren't diagnosed (would like pursue that eventually but aren't currency able) we're pretty sure we actually have DID.

As long as they've realized they were wrong and aren't still spreading misinfo we're chill with that ^_^

[dark-full-moon-system]

Is it just me or reading a smut/18+ fanfiction with a character that decided to split as an alter is just a big NO?

Since we've split Leon Kennedy we cannot ready any smut with him because he's like "no, fuck no, I'm not reading that".

[tales-from-syscord]

Once had a Tommyinnit fictive send our Wilbur fictives a Paragraph so long it reached the character limit telling him to apologize for his source actions (some of which didn’t happen and was source specific to the Tommy)

It was wild

Do people just?? Forget that source actions?? Aren't what the alter has done????

[thosecactussharks]

It’s so jarring to be using “I” comfortably one second before switching to “we” because all of the sudden “I” feels wrong?? Why is “we” more comfortable and “correct” all of the sudden??

Like brain- this person doesn’t know that we’re a system. They’d probably be cool with it but like…BEHAVE YOURSELF /hj

[thedistortedstars]

Us right now in a lil friend group discord server where only 2 people don't know

What is it about discord that makes us so much more comfortable with system stuff-

like no we can't directly say things. Shush

[disability-polls]

Plural systems, how many hosts do you have?

1 Host

2 Hosts

3 Hosts

4 Hosts

5+ Hosts

Voting ended onMay 9, 2025

[fleshfictive]

NOT supportive to your system friends:

- "can you make [alter] front?"

- always asking who's fronting

- getting upset when they can't remember something

VERY supportive to your system friends:

- giving them money

- "here's $50 for you"

- relinquishing your money to them

- offering them money

[syscultureis]

Sys culture is being nervous when using simply plural chat in public for some reason

.

[thedistortedstars]

Having fictives is wild...

Wdym Icarus Morningstar and Technoblade are the hosts-

Wdym we made a silly roleplay blog on here and discovered a fictive because of it-

Wdym we have 4 different fictives of different universe version of sherbert-

[thedistortedstars]

That feeling when you start a rp account and get a little too in character with it...

[thedistortedstars]

*overly dramatic sigh* adds another alter