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Heated Rivalry, p. 207
I just imagine that once they're on the same team Hollanov aren't really interested in like romantic PDA, but they are VERY interested in being physical with each other in the way athletes are. The first time Shane knocks helmets with him on the way into the tunnel, Ilya freezes, smiling with so much delight that Bood has to be like "Tighten up Cap! You see him all the time!" The first time Ilya snaps a towel at Shane has him laughing like Ilya is a physical comedy genius. The first time Shane chirps Ilya for missing a pass on the power play and Ilya puts him in a headlock to mess up his hair and then they start roughhousing like kids they both get so hard in their pants they better thank god for jock straps and cups. Like, this is their language. Camaraderie, fraternity, chirps, roasting, wrestlingânow they get to have it together, for once.
On-ice things too!
fist bumps at the boards when one of them scores
Ilya getting to yell at the ref on Shane's behalf when he takes a cheap hit
Shane giving the hardest check of his career to the d-man that gave Ilya a minor concussion in the last game against them. The guy practically backflips but he's fine and the gif of Shane's snarling face goes viral
When Ilya loses a blade on the power play one time Shane's the closet one who can tow him to the bench (this goes VERY viral)
SICK PRETTY SHOTS on said power play, showing the world how fucking stupid everyone was to allow them to get on the same team
Real Hockey Fans who know real details should add more!
Okokok if I may :)
Locker Room / Bench
Guys tape everythingâwrists, fingers, knees, anklesâand Ilya having strong opinions about how Shane tapes his wrists wrong and physically taking his hand and redoing it. It takes forever. You have to hold the wrist, keep tension on the tape. Shane spending the entire time staring at his face like he's having a religious experience.
The thing where your teammate finishes taping your stick because you're still messing with your skates. Deeply domestic. Completely normal hockey behavior. Ilya doing it for Shane without asking because he knows exactly how Shane likes his blade wrapped from years of studying him as an opponent. Shane does not Trust anyone else to even touch his stick
Ilya starts stealing Shane's sticks during morning skate and refusing to give them back until Shane physically wrestles them out of his hands.
Sharing a water bottle on the bench. Deeply unsanitary. Completely normal. Something you only really do with guys you're comfortable around. Ilya grabbing Shane's by mistake the first week and Shane not even mentioning it.
The thing where after a bad loss nobody talks. The room is silent except for tape ripping and gear getting packed away. Ilya sitting down next to Shane, shoulders touching, and saying absolutely nothing. Somehow that's the most anyone has said all night.
Sharing an iPad on the bench, shoulder-to-shoulder, drawing routes on the screen with gloved fingers. One of them grabbing the other's arm to point something out and not letting go because they're both still watching the clip.
The full-body lean that happens after a brutal shift. Just putting your entire weight onto the guy next to you because you're too tired to hold yourself up. Ilya doing it once without thinking and Shane automatically widening his stance to take the weight.
Ilya grabbing Shane's elbow during a TV timeout and physically moving him six inches to the left so he can see the whiteboard. Shane just lets himself be repositioned.
Guys smacking each other on the ass after a good play is so normalized in hockey it's practically invisible. The first time Ilya does it to Shane they both feel like they're getting away with something.
The way players grab the backs of each other's necks to get their attention. The way they grab cages to be heard over crowd noise. Ilya catching Shane by the visor and pulling him closer until they're practically nose-to-nose to say something, and Shane immediately going still.
Getting your jersey number called for a penalty and having to go to the box and your linemate skating you over, just a hand between the shoulder blades guiding you to the box door, and Shane doing this for Ilya once and Ilya looking back at him through the glass from the penalty box and Shane just tapping his own chest twice like I've got it, go sit down (I realize they're both centers but maybe occasionally Ilya plays wing, like mentioned about All-Stars in that bed convo w Sveta)
The two of them coming back to the bench after a shift and immediately starting to explain what they saw at the exact same time. "The weak-side D keeps cheatingâ" "I know, if we swing lowerâ" Neither of them stops talking. Somehow they're still having the same conversation.
Every winger they've ever played with eventually develops the same thousand-yard stare while Shane and Ilya spend an entire TV timeout discussing a faceoff they already won three minutes ago.
On The Ice
The thing about Shane being able to look completely bored while doing something physically absurd. Ilya being one of the only people who's ever been able to tell the difference between Shane coasting and Shane being fully locked in because he's spent years reading him from the other bench.
Now he reads him from the same bench. At some point Ilya realizes he can tell whether Shane is nervous by whether his right leg is bouncing. Shane is Hockey Jesus and therefore never nervous about himself, obviously. But teammates doing stupid shit? Suddenly the leg is going.
Shane automatically skates over to grab the extra guy after every scrum because nobody gets to cross-check Ilya except him.
The first month they accidentally keep ending up in the same support lane in the neutral zone. Both of them trying to do the responsible center thing on the breakout, swinging to provide an outlet, reading the same play developing and arriving in the same spot. One goes low to support the defenseman. The other is already there. It takes a month of bumping into each other before they stop thinking the exact same thought at the exact same time.
pThe breakout where Ilya is supposed to be the outlet but gets tied up on the wall. He manages to free one arm and taps his stick twice on the ice. Don't go middle. Go wide. Shane reads it instantly.
At some point they've developed an entire private language of stick taps that nobody else understands.
When the power play isn't working, they have entire conversations between whistles that are maybe thirty percent words and seventy percent stick taps, glove grabs, shoulder shoves, and pointing at patches of ice.
The Ovi-Backstrom thing, neither of them is permanently Ovi and neither of them is permanently Backstrom. Some shifts Shane is the shooter. Some shifts Ilya is. Some shifts they're both trying to set the other guy up. Figuring out who's who isn't really a system so much as a running conversation.
Shane pinching at the blue line, which coaches have spent his entire life trying to discourage. Ilya rotating back to cover before Shane has fully committed to the pinch. Making the decision for him before he's made it himself.
The first time they line up together for a defensive-zone draw and Ilya casually puts a hand on Shane's back and shifts him six inches to the right. It's not even a weird thing. Players reposition each other all the time. Shane still short-circuits because nobody has ever moved him before. He's always been the one directing traffic.
Shane taking a defensive-zone draw because it's on his strong side. Ilya automatically drifting to the wing. No discussion, no ego, just both of them recognizing what gives them the best chance to win possession.
Which is maybe the strangest thing about them. They've both spent their entire lives being THE centerman. The guy the play runs through. The guy who takes the draw. The guy who decides. And now they keep finding themselves yielding little pieces of territory to each other without even thinking about it.
They both tap their sticks on the ice in the exact same rhythm before a faceoff. Someone points it out. They deny it with suspicious speed. (They are the Exact Same People It's Creepy).
Both of them mutter constantly during games. To themselves. To the puck. To nobody. For years they did it from opposite benches. Now they're muttering at each other halfway through shifts, sometimes English, sometimes Russian, and their wingers genuinely cannot tell whether they're communicating or just happening simultaneously.
The line change where Shane is jumping over the boards and Ilya is coming off and for one second they have to occupy the exact same piece of ice. A hand on an elbow. A shove at the hip, crawling over each other. Alternatively, one of them trying to get on the bench where the other is already sitting, and like missing a little, so now Shane's dragging Ilya over the railing by the back of his jersey like a feral alley cat
Shane bodychecking Ilya into the boards during practice and then immediately grabbing his jersey to make sure he's still upright.
Ilya scores goals that look psychic because he knows where Shane is going before Shane does. The back-door tap-in where Shane hasn't even looked at him yet and Ilya is already there, stick on the ice, because he read Shane's shoulder angle and knew the pass was coming. Shane doesn't even have to find him. Ilya is just always in the right place because he's been studying Shane longer than Shane has been studying himself.
Goals / Celebrations
The goal celebration where Shane grabs Ilya's face in both hands and shakes it around viciously.
The chest bump that turns into Ilya holding him there for half a second longer than necessary because they're both laughing too hard.
When one of them gets named first star, the other immediately interrupts the interview by spraying him with a water bottle
Shane grabbing the back of Ilya's helmet and shaking it the way you'd ruffle someone's hair if the helmet wasn't there.
After wins Ilya getting Shane in a headlock and dragging him halfway across the ice.
Video / Meetings
The video session where the coaches are breaking down Ilya's one-timer and Shane keeps quietly finishing the explanation because he's spent years trying to defend against it. Ilya turning around to stare at him. Everyone else in the room already grinning, Shane having absolutely no idea what is funny.
Shane flicking the back of Ilya's helmet every time he says something stupid during film review.
Both of them are notorious video guys, which means they keep accidentally finding themselves alone in the video room after practice. At some point they stop pretending it's an accident.
The power-play meeting where the coach draws something up on the whiteboard and Shane reaches over, moves the bumper route two feet, and looks at Ilya. Ilya nods. The coach just sighs and updates the diagram because unfortunately they're right.
@parcai just so you know I'm levitating like three inches off the floor in lotus position meditating on this post while butterflies manifest in my house from the sheer good vibes of it all
the real fantasy of heated rivalry isnât that the hot cocky sex god will fall in love with the uptight socially awkward virgin⊠the real fantasy is that you can be sooooooo fucking annoying & avoidant & allergic to intimacy and someone who is securely attached will nevertheless doggedly pursue you, make you feel your feelings, and then marry you
Ilya getting all kiss drunk after making out with Shane for ages. Like curled up on the couch, Shane in his lap, thick blanket wrapped around them because itâs winter and the house is cold but they are so warm pressed together. They both been too sleepy to take it any further- itâs late after a game that ran into overtime, that they both came out of bruised. Shaneâs hands have been in Ilyaâs hair the whole time, combing through the curls, playing with them, scratching at his scalp the back of his neck and Ilya feels hypnotised, dazed from exhaustion and Shaneâs hot pretty mouth and he could die right now and heâd go happily. Ilyaâs hands are everywhere, all over Shaneâs back and ass and shoulders an up the front of his shirt and over his jaw and his ears, thumbs rubbing his pretty earlobes and heâs so hard but content to do nothing about it really, can feel Shaneâs own hardness pressed to him and he heâs so comfortable and his arms are heavy with exhaustion but he canât keep his hands off Shane, wanting to feel him.
Shane pulls back properly for the first time in ages and Ilya whines a little, eyes still closed chin tilted up mouth searching for Shaneâs blindly, leaning in in and he only gets air and he lets out another soft needy sound and Shaneâs hands slide down from his hair to cup his face and Ilya looks drunk, swaying a little into Shaneâs touch and his hair is fucked, curls frizzy and crazy from Shaneâs fingers and his mouth is literally swollen, lips shiny with spit an his perfect cupids bow a little puffy. His fingers are gripping at Shaneâs hips pulling him in in and Shane laughs, sways forward and presses his nose to Ilyaâs cheek and soothes a hand over the back of his head and Ilya is kiss kiss kiss at Shaneâs jaw and ear and wherever he can reach and mumbling come back in Russian and Shane grins because he can understand it without thought and Ilya is nuzzling their faces together into his mouth finds his way back to Shaneâs and kisses him like itâs been weeks not seconds. Shane hums and tries to pull back again only for Ilya to wrap his arm round Shaneâs shoulders, press him closer to him, other hand coming to his face, holding his jaw so he can push his tongue into his mouth and kiss him wet and filthy. Shane shivers because itâs so much and so fucking good and Ilyas moans into his mouth and Shane manages to mumble âwe should go to bedâ between slick hot kisses and Ilya says âokayâ but keeps kissing kissing kissing Shane. They pull apart when Ilya literally is almost lulled half to sleep by the rhythmic pull of their lips and Shane is literally dragging Ilya to their room, Ilya wrapped around him from behind like he is trying to merge their bodies, kissing all up and down Shaneâs neck, shoulders the back of his head.
Ok but Ilya not realizing until much later that he hurt Shane with things heâd done in the past
One day it randomly comes up as Ilya says something about a time he acted like a dick and Shane is just like âEh itâs ok, looking back I understand now that you were in a âIâm going to hurt you before you can hurt meâ mindset and thatâs why you acted like that.â
And Ilya is staring at him and Shane asks whatâs wrong and Ilya goes âI hurt you?â And Shaneâs just like well yeah but it was forever ago donât worry about it. But Ilya is worrying about it because back when heâd done the various hurtful things heâd been in downward spirals where he was convinced he didnât have the ability to hurt Shane because he didnât matter enough to Shane to hurt him, so he didnât think the way he acted had any negative effects. And now heâs turning pale and his eyes are getting big as heâs realizing that oh god when he did those things he hurt his favorite person and he hadnât even realized it
He makes Shane tell him the different times it happened and Shane doesnât really want to because clearly this is just going to upset Ilya more, but hiding it or lying is probably also going to make things worse in the long run so itâs better to get it out now. So he mentions Ilya ghosting him after they had sex, and then how Ilya acted in Sochi, and that whole night in Vegas, and âI like you⊠Not as a person, obviouslyâ
And the whole time Ilya is silently nodding and looking like he wants to throw up because no no no those werenât supposed to be things that hurt Shane, those were supposed to be things that bounced off Shane without affecting him because they were only ever meant to hurt or protect himself, Shane was never supposed to have been hurt by those and fuck how did he not see in the moment the way that he was actively hurting Shane by doing that
And now itâs even worse because Shane wonât even be mad at him about it, he keeps insisting on being understanding and not upset and trying to make Ilya feel better when in fact Ilya is the worst most awful person in the world who should be punished for eternity for making 22 year old floppy haired baby Shane SAD like some kind of MONSTER
The next Galina session Shane is also there with Ilya who has his head in his hands and Shane is just like ok so we may have accidentally stepped on a landmine the other night-
One of the most charming things about Shane to me is how desperately he wants to get to know Ilya. Day one he was digging for details. I bet he reads Ilya's Wikipedia page. I bet he EDITS his Wikipedia page.
Actually I'm still thinking about this and how Shane's earnest, rabid interest in Ilya also kind of reveals how Ilya is an intensely private, tight-lipped person. And his visceral discomfort with questions and the way he instantly shut Shane down every time he probed just made his eventual capitulation post-Tampa reconciliation even sweeter.
I loved seeing Shane get better at timing his more personal questions and knowing when to back off before he hits a nerve and Ilya get better at actually answering and gently rebuffing when he's not comfortable answering right away without shutting Shane down completely. And by the time they reach the cottage Ilya ACTUALLY STARTS VOLUNTEERING INFORMATION!!! ARGH ARGHHHHHHH THEY'RE BOTH JUST TRYING SOO HARD, THEY WANT TO BE GOOD FOR EACH OTHER, THEY CARE ABOUT EACH OTHER SOO MUCH IM GONNA WEEP
i think a part of ilya truly believes that when god created shane god took one of shaneâs ribs and used that to create ilya. sometimes when theyre laying in bed together after having mind blowing sex or whatever ilya catches himself feeling around shaneâs ribs like heâs trying to find the gap
@fruitbatman holy shit i love your tags???? they are wonderful and beautiful and so very precious to me <3
yk how people are always saying that ilya stretches out shaneâs shirts because heâs always putting his whole upper body under them while shane is still wearing them? ilya does that because heâs trying to burrow his way back to His Spot
instances of shane, the worlds most jock, calling ilya baby:
âBaby, what time is it?â
âHuh? Hold on, baby, I canât hear you. Fuck, itâs loud in here.â
âFuck, Ilya, yes, like that, baby, just like that, fuckââ
âIlya, whatâsâ Are you crying? Whatâs wrong, baby, itâs okay, itâsâ Whatâs wrong? Please, tell me, whatâs wrong?â
âFuckinâ A, Rozanov! Yes, baby! Fuck, that was a good one. Câmere.â
âMm, baby, your feet are cold. Ah! Ilya, get your cold fucking feet off me. Put some socks on. Jesus.â
âHold on, Iâll ask himâ Baby, my mom wants to know if steak is good for dinner?â
âYour hair is so fluffy today. No, no, come back, let meâ Yes. Thank you, baby.â
âIlyusha. My baby. Ilyusha. Youâre so pretty. Donât laugh! Iâm being serious!â
âYouâre gonna have to skate better than that to beat me in the scoring race, baby, Iâm locked in this season.â
âFuck, baby, youâre burning up. No, asshole, I mean youâre sick. You canât go to practice like this, donât be fucking stupid.â
âUh, just a beer, please. Thank you, baby, thatâs perfect.â
âIlya, baby, you want a pretzel?â
âHi, baby. You looked good out there, that goal was fuckinâ insane.â
is that your penis in your hand or is it my penis. you and i have begun to blur
XVII by Pablo Neruda
is that your penis in your hand or is it my penis. you and i have begun to blur
i just think Shane and Ilya looking at each other full in the face while Ilya makes Shane cum on his fingers. thats all
and you just know ilyas got that open mouthed, lust-filled gaze and shane is trying so hard to keep his eyes open and on ilya but thereâs a small flutter of his lashes that has ilya going in for the kill like âis right there maylshâ âi can feel it, shane. you need to cum so bad huh?â and shanes competitive nature never lets ilya win that easy so will go full brat and shake his head and spit out a demand for more. more fingers. more ilya. and theyâre basically just breathing into each others mouth by the endâŠâŠ.idk
shane: if i Do Everything Right Forever then i will never let my parents down more than i already have by being autistic and gay which is only forgivable and okay if i repent daily by Doing Everything Right Forever therefore proving to them and myself and everyone in montreal and maybe all of canada who revere me And everyone who hates me and wants me to fail and prove that i am whatever they think i am that i can exist correctly (if i just try hard enough and exert obsessive levels of control and discipline in every facet of my personal and professional life Which are the same thing btw) so maybe then i can earn the respect and love so freely given to me that i feel like i never deserved in the first place
his new therapist:
Ya know what, i think people still underestimate the damage the metros did to shane. I can imagine shane silently seething in his stall as his team, the one he took to 3 fucking cups back to back, treating him like shit cause of who he loves and he promises himself....
"I will build a fucking empire with my husband, the metros will not come anywhere near another cup till I and my husband retire, so help me god."
I want more of the absolute fucking BEAST shane hollander, the top hockey player of their times, Canada's golden boy, just OBLITERATING the metros with almost clinical precision cause he's been the one dragging their sorry asses this whole time, he knows all their stats, their tells and weak spots, how theirault comes up with strategies, how each one of them moves....
Each one of his moves hit the metros like a goddamed battering ram- relentless, ruthless and persistent. He doesn't celebrate his wins, he doesn't laugh or react much when luca or troy or the others barrel into him with joy. He pats them on the back, thanks them, joins the bench and waits for the next time he gets to go back.
Ilya will be looking at his husband score one after another goal with pride and devotion and a FIRE inside him that he can barely manage to restrain himself from climbing over the boards and fucking shane on center ice....
I want the metros to seriously start dreading anytime they come face to face with their (ex) capitan, the best of the best their league had to offer, that they fucking drove away due to their homophobic assholery.
Shane hollander-rozanov does not retire until he bring 5 cups to Ottawa. He wins each one of them with his husband by his side smiling and looking at him and telling him that he is so proud to be married to the number one player on the league.
"Our research showed that young gay men strategically invest their self-worth in those areas in which they can succeed, namely academics, appearance, and competition, more so than straight men. Essentially, it seems as if young gay men go to great lengths to prove their worth to others in those domains. This is particularly likely for those who concealed their sexual orientation for long periods of time when growing up and for those who grew up in more stigmatizing states. Our results also showed that being "the best little boy in the world" comes at a cost, as young gay men who invested in these status-related domains were more likely to spend more time alone, to report more daily eating problems, getting into arguments and lying to others, and to feel more stress each day. As previously discussed, besting others at competitive tasks represents one way for young gay men to control a threatening environment, although not without cost." - John Pachankis and Mark Hatzenbuehler
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