I really love Darlin's and Asher's friendship, think it's just the cutest
Streetlights hummed faintly, their amber glow pooling in soft halos over empty sidewalks and driveways lined with sleeping cars. A warm breeze wandered through the trees, stirring leaves. Somewhere far off, a dog barked once, then thought better of it. Crickets stitched the silence together, their steady rhythm claiming the streets as their own.
The old playground sat at the edge of the neighborhood like a memory no one had the heart to replace. Its metal frame held the chill of the night, faintly rusted in places, the scent of iron and damp mulch rising together in a strange, earthy tang. The swing chains creaked now and then when the wind leaned too hard against them, a slow, uneven rhythm that filled the silence in place of voices.
Darlin perched on the climbing structure, and they hugged their legs close to their chest, their chin resting on top of their knees, eyes fixed on the uneven stretch of mulch below. The mulch was dark, uneven, scattered with brittle leaves and the occasional pale chip that caught the porchlight glow. They stared so long it blurred, shapes dissolving into nothing, but their thoughts refused to do the same.
They hadn’t meant to snap. That was the worst part. It hadn’t been some slow boil, no warning signs rising to the surface. One second, they were laughing, really laughing, the kind that made their chest feel full, and the next, something inside them had buckled. Words came out too fast, too sharp, like glass flung without aim. The look on their faces after…God.
Darlin squeezed their legs tighter.
“Stupid,” they whispered, sharper this time, scolding themselves like it might undo anything.
The word didn’t feel strong enough, so they bit the inside of their cheek, hard enough to sting. It grounded them for half a second before the spiral picked back up again. The night had been good. It had been theirs, in that fragile way things sometimes were, like maybe, just maybe, they were finally easing into something that felt like belonging.
And then they had ruined it.
A few years. That was all it had been since the move. A few years of trying to wedge themselves into spaces already filled, already shaped by years of shared memories they didn’t have. Jokes they didn’t understand right away. Stories they weren’t part of. A constant balancing act between trying too hard and not trying enough. Darlin had always been the loose end, trying to knot themselves into something that was already whole. Sometimes it worked, or at least felt like it did. Sometimes they could pretend they weren’t the extra piece.
Tonight had almost been one of those times.
Darlin pressed their forehead into their knees, breathing in the faint scent of laundry soap from their hoodie, something clean and familiar against the restless churn in their chest.
Of course, there was always him whom they could call.
He made it easier. Not perfect, never perfect…but easier. Like there was a place, however small, that had been left open for them. Their thoughts circled. Call him. Don’t call him. What if he didn’t answer? What if he did, but his voice was different, flat, distant, already halfway gone? Worse, what if he was right with what he’d said before?
Their phone felt heavier in their pocket with every second they didn’t reach for it.
Maybe this path wasn’t truly meant for them. Despite the deep yearning that coursed through their veins, a longing for connection, for acceptance, for those precious moments shared with others, it felt as if every attempt to reach out only led to fleeting bliss that vanished in an instant. It was a bittersweet irony that no matter how hard they tried, they couldn’t hold onto those connections without feeling as if they were on the verge of fracturing under the weight of their desire.
It was utterly ridiculous how heavy everything felt, as if an invisible burden pressed down on their shoulders. What seemed effortless and joyful for everyone else, those simple acts of fitting in, laughing freely, and forging friendships, had transformed for them into an exhausting emotional battleground. Each interaction became a relentless push and pull, a game of intricate dance steps that left them off balance and breathless.
They would muster the courage to take one hopeful step forward, only to find themselves yanked back two steps into the familiar terrain of isolation and doubt. With each flicker of optimism, every moment spent believing they had finally discovered solid ground, the ground itself would betray them, shifting unexpectedly beneath their feet, leaving them scrambling to regain their footing in a world that felt perpetually out of reach.
Their shoulders curled in further, as if they could fold themselves out of existence entirely.
The touch came suddenly, a light tap against their shoulder.
Darlin jolted, the reaction immediate and ungraceful. They unraveled from themselves with a startled yelp, nearly losing their balance as they whipped their head up. Their heart slammed hard against their ribs, breath catching halfway to a gasp.
The voice was familiar. Low and rough at the edges, but pitched just high enough to carry a kind of restless energy through it.
Asher stood below them, one hand still half-raised where he’d tapped them, the other shoved awkwardly into the pocket of his jacket. His shoulders were hunched, not from the cold, but from something tighter, more uncertain.
“I tried calling you,” he added, glancing briefly away before looking back up. “A couple of times. You didn’t, uh—yeah. Guess you didn’t hear.”
Darlin swallowed, the echo of their racing pulse still loud in their ears. “Jesus christ you scared the shit out of me, Ash.”
“Yeah, I got that part,” he replied, a small, crooked smile tugging at one side of his mouth. It didn’t quite reach his eyes. Even in the dim light, they were too full, too much going on beneath the surface. There was an apology there, unmistakable, but it tangled with something heavier. Guilt, maybe. Frustration. A flicker of something like hurt. It all moved together, shifting too quickly to pin down, like a storm you could see coming but couldn’t quite predict.
Aside from it all, it was one of those rare occasions he was actually alone. Asher was rarely by himself. He moved through people as if he belonged there, like the center of gravity in any room he entered. Usually, Milo was nearby, or David, or a loose cluster of others drawn in by his energy. He had a way of filling space, of making it feel occupied even when it wasn’t.
“So,” he said lightly, though the edge in his voice betrayed the effort, “you gonna let me up there, or am I taking my rightful place on the world’s least comfortable mulch?”
Darlin stared at him for a second longer, then shifted wordlessly, scooting to the side. The metal bar was cold against their thigh as they made space. He grabbed hold of the structure and hoisted himself up with practiced ease, the metal rattling softly under his weight. His shoe scraped against one of the bars, sending a dull clang into the quiet before he swung himself onto the platform beside them.
His shoulders brushed Darlin’s for a moment before he settled, and even that brief contact felt charged, like static in dry air. He smelled faintly of something clean and sharp, maybe soap or cologne, layered over the cool night.
For a while, neither of them spoke.
They sat side by side, legs dangling over the edge, staring out at the empty playground. The silence wasn’t empty, though. It was thick, crowded with everything unsaid.
Darlin’s fingers twisted together in their lap. They could feel the words pressing again, insistent.
“I messed up,” they said finally, the words quiet but steady.
Asher didn’t respond right away. He leaned back slightly on his hands, gaze drifting upward toward the dim scatter of stars barely visible past the streetlights.
“Yeah,” he admitted after a beat. It wasn’t harsh. It wasn’t soft either. Just honest.
Darlin winced, their fingers tightening in their sleeves. “I just…,” they swallowed, their voice catching. “I feel like I’m always messing things up. Like I get close to—” they gestured vaguely, frustration creeping in, “—whatever this is, and then I just ruin it.”
Asher was quiet for a second, his expression shifting again, less storm now, more something grounded. “You don’t ruin it,” he said. “You just… make it harder on yourself than it needs to be.”
Darlin snorted softly. “That’s not exactly comforting.”
“Wasn’t meant to be,” he shot back, a faint smirk tugging at his mouth this time, more genuine than before. Then it faded, his tone settling again. “Look, you’re not the only one who gets in their own way. You just happen to be… really good at it.”
A weak laugh slipped out of Darlin before they could stop it.
For a while, neither of them said anything. The crickets kept their steady rhythm, a soft, endless chorus humming through the grass. Leaves rustled overhead in uneven sighs as the breeze wandered through, brushing against branches and slipping between the bars of the playground equipment.
Eventually, their shoulders drew in again, chin dipping slightly.
The word slipped out quietly, almost reluctantly. They didn’t look at him when they said it. Their hair fell forward, creating a thin curtain between them and the rest of the world, as if that might soften the weight of being seen.
Asher let out a quiet huff of a laugh beside them.
“What’re you apologizing for this time?” he asked, tone light—almost genuinely puzzled.
Asher leaned back on his hands, tilting his head slightly as if trying to recall something distant.
“For… earlier,” they muttered. “At the sleepover.” They exhaled sharply through their nose. “I screwed up the mood. Picked a fight for no reason.”
“The fight?” he echoed, like it barely registered. “Oh. That.”
Darlin blinked, a flicker of disbelief breaking through their guarded posture.
“That’s it?” they said, a little sharper than they meant. “That’s all you have to say?”
He shrugged one shoulder lazily. “What, you want a full dramatic recap? I can do voices if it helps.”
Then, because they couldn’t help it, they groaned quietly and dragged a hand down their face. “I’m being serious,” they insisted.
“I mean it!” he laughed. He shifted slightly, turning more toward them, one knee pulling up as he rested an arm over it. There was something thoughtful in his expression now, less chaotic than usual.
“You ever see those videos,” he started, “of people rescuing feral kittens?”
Darlin stared at him, confusion cutting clean through their panic. “What?”
“Like, they find ‘em under porches or in dumpsters or whatever,” he continued, gesturing vaguely. “All tiny and scrappy. And when someone tries to help, they’re just—” He made a small clawing motion with his hand. “Hissing. Spitting. Acting like they’re about to throw hands with God.”
Darlin stared at him, thoroughly perplexed.
“But the thing is,” Asher continued, glancing at them now, something softer threading through his voice, “they don’t actually do any real harm. They’re just scared. Not used to being cared for. Not used to someone… sticking around long enough to help or being gentle with them, so they freak out.”
He glanced at them then, the corner of his mouth twitching slightly.
Darlin opened their mouth, then closed it again.
Perplexed didn’t even begin to cover it.
“I do not hiss,” they said finally, a weak attempt at defense.
Asher snorted. “Debatable.”
He grinned, but it softened quickly, his tone settling again.
“Everyone’s got their own way of showing they care,” he went on. “And their own way of dealing with it when they do. You just… default to defense mode. Doesn’t make you bad at it. Just means you’re not used to it yet.”
Darlin swallowed, their chest feeling tight in a different way now.
“As for the others,” Asher added, ticking them off casually, “David’s gonna bulldoze his way into helping whether you like it or not. That’s just who he is. Means well—just doesn’t always know when to ease up.”
A faint huff of breath escaped Darlin at that. Accurate.
“And Milo,” Asher continued, “he’s the opposite. He’ll just sit there and wait you out. Won’t say a word until you’re ready. Which is great, unless you’re, you know—” he gestured toward them again, “you. Then you both just end up sitting in silence forever.”
A small, reluctant smile tugged at Darlin’s mouth.
“And me,” Asher said, tapping his chest lightly, “I’m just… incredibly charming and emotionally intelligent. Obviously.”
That earned him a quiet scoff.
“Obviously,” he echoed, satisfied.
He glanced over again, his expression settling into something steady.
“Point is… they care. We all do.”
“And caring for each other means sometimes arguing, but ultimately making up in the end. It’s about having those important conversations where we discuss our boundaries, expectations, and all the nuances of our relationship, rather than allowing a single bad moment to overshadow everything else,” Asher said, his voice steady and sincere. This wasn’t the Asher they had always known—the loud, exuberant joker who could turn any situation into a punchline and rarely allowed anything to weigh on him for long. No, this version of him felt profoundly different; he radiated a sense of grounding and introspection that left them momentarily speechless.
Darlin's eyes widened, a flicker of awe crossing their features before they could mask it. They studied him, taking in the way his usual playful demeanor had been replaced by a depth they rarely saw.
“…Who are you,” they murmured in disbelief, “and what have you done with Asher?”
Then, almost on cue, the moment shattered.
“Oh, wow,” he scoffed, straightening abruptly. “I pour my heart out, give you top-tier, life-changing advice, and this is the thanks I get?”
“You don’t drop wisdom,” Darlin shot back. “You trip over things and accidentally say something smart once a year.”
“Excuse you,” he scoffed, already slipping back into something more familiar. “That was at least twice this year.” Before Darlin could react, his arm slung around their shoulders, pulling them sideways into him.
“Hey!” Darlin yelped, panic flaring as the sudden shift in balance made the structure creak. “Asher, what are you—stop! We’re gonna fall!”
“Woe is me!” he lamented dramatically, ignoring their flailing as he tightened his grip just enough to keep them from actually tipping. “Cursed with the burden of caring! Forced to deliver heartfelt wisdom to an ungrateful audience!”
“Get off!” Darlin shoved at him, half-laughing despite the spike of adrenaline. “I’m serious!”
“Behold!” he continued, louder now, gesturing wildly with his free hand. “The tragedy of my existence, kind, compassionate, and devastatingly wise.”
“And yet, here I am, choosing to associate with you anyway, truly, my generosity knows no bounds—”
Darlin let out a breathless, helpless laugh, the sound breaking free before they could stop it.
Eventually, the energy burned itself out.
Asher let his arm drop back to his side, both of them settling into something calmer again. The night stretched on around them, unchanged but somehow lighter. After a moment, Asher took a deeper breath, like he was bracing himself for something smaller this time.
The drop wasn’t far, but it landed with a soft thud against the mulch, the sound dull and grounded. He turned back immediately, looking up at Darlin. “You ready to head back?” he asked. There was no pressure in it, just an offer.
Darlin hesitated for only a second before reaching down and taking it. His grip was warm, steady as he helped guide them down. They landed beside him with a small, awkward thud, catching their balance just in time. “I meant it, you know.”
“All of it,” he added, his voice softer than it had been all night. “You’re not… alone in this. You don’t have to be.” His grip tightened just a fraction. “We’ve got you. I’ve got you.” The words settled somewhere deep, unfamiliar and fragile.
Asher seemed to accept that, because a second later, the moment shifted again, as a switch had flipped. “Alright!” he chirped suddenly, energy snapping back into place as he swung their joined hands between them. “Adventure awaits!”
“We journey forth,” he continued, already pulling them along, “back to the sacred land of David’s house—”
“You mean the sleepover you abandoned?”
“Where legends are born,” he pressed on, ignoring them completely, “and snacks are probably being eaten without us.”
“That part is actually a tragedy.”
“And where I will absolutely destroy everyone in whatever game they’re playing.”
Darlin huffed a quiet laugh as they fell into step beside him. Asher swung their hands between them, off-key singing spilling out into the night.
“♪♫~ Two brave idiots on a quest so grand♪♫~”
“♪♫~Through suburban streets, hand in hand♪♫~”
“♪♫~ To reclaim their honor and snacks untold♪♫~”
“You’re making it worse.”
“♪♫~And maybe not freeze because it’s kinda cold♪♫~”
Darlin shook their head, but the smile stayed.
The playground faded behind them as they walked, the quiet of the neighborhood stretching ahead, not empty anymore, but full of something softer.
The quiet had been traded for something warmer, fuller. Laughter lived in the walls now, tucked into corners and woven into the furniture as it had always belonged there. The air carried the rich scent of buttered popcorn and something sweet baking in the oven, mingling with the faint citrus of a candle flickering lazily on the coffee table. David and Angel’s place had become something of a constant over the years, a center point.
The living room had been overtaken. Blankets layered over blankets, pillows stolen from every corner of the house, all arranged into something resembling a nest more than any proper seating arrangement. A movie played in the background, its light casting soft, shifting shadows across the room. No one was really watching it. Asher lay sprawled across the floor, half on a blanket, half off, like he hadn’t bothered to commit to comfort entirely. One arm was tucked behind his head, the other resting lazily across his stomach. His socked foot nudged idly at the edge of the makeshift nest, as if testing its structural integrity purely out of habit.
Darlin sat right beside him, close enough that their shoulder brushed his whenever they shifted. Their posture was loose now, easy in a way it hadn’t been years ago. They were mid-conversation with Milo, who lounged across from them, one arm draped over the back of the couch like he owned it, with Sweetheart curled up against his side. It wasn’t til Milo had excused himself to nab another drink for him and Sweetheart, along with seeing if David needed help in the kitchen, that Darlin noticed him.
Just… staring. With this weird, soft, borderline ridiculous expression on his face, like someone who’d just remembered something good and decided to sit in it for a while.
Darlin blinked. “…What?” they asked, one brow lifting.
Asher didn’t answer immediately. If anything, his grin widened, slow, toothy, unashamed. “What’s with the stupid look?” Darlin pressed, nudging his shoulder lightly with their foot. “What?” he echoed, feigning innocence. “I can’t look at my best friend?”
“With that face? No. Absolutely not. Fix it.”
Asher inhaled sharply, his eyes wide with mock outrage, as Sweetheart and Angel stifled their laughter behind their hands. "Oh, I see how it is," he exclaimed, his voice dripping with playful sarcasm. "I was just about to express how thrilled I am to have you here with us, but I guess that’s off the table now!" He shot a playful glare in their direction, a mischievous smile tugging at the corners of his lips.
Darlin stared at him for half a second. Then their face twisted dramatically into mock disgust. “Ew,” they said, recoiling. “What is this? When did you turn into such a sap?”
“Wow,” Asher gasped, offended. “I pour my heart out to you for a second time! And you still treat me the same way!”
“Oh, you did not pour your heart out,” they shot back. They didn’t give him time to recover before they flopped fully on top of him, knocking the air out of his lungs in a surprised oof.“You’re turning into a sap,” they accused, squinting down at him. “It’s tragic, really.”
“I am being attacked,” Asher wheezed, struggling beneath them. “In my own home.”
Darlin snorted, shoving at his shoulder as he tried to push them off. It quickly devolved into a half-hearted tussle, limbs tangling as they both attempted, and failed, to gain any real advantage.
“Hey!” Asher twisted beneath them, trying to push them off. “Respect your elders!”
The blankets shifted dangerously beneath them, the carefully constructed nest beginning to collapse under the sudden chaos.
From the couch, Angel’s voice rang out, amused but warning, “Don’t you dare ruin that—we just fixed it!”
“And I swear,” Sweetheart added, half-laughing, half-serious, “if you ruin this nest we worked so hard on.”
Darlin scrambled up first, nearly tripping over a pillow as they darted away. Asher followed immediately, scrambling to his feet with a laugh. “Get back here!” he called, already chasing after them. They circled the room, laughter spilling freely now, uncontained and bright.
Milo appeared first, pausing in the doorway with a raised brow. “The hell is goin’ on out here?” David stepped up behind him, arms crossed loosely, expression unreadable but unsurprised. “Could be anything,” he said in that low, guttural tone. “Odds are fifty-fifty it’s Asher’s fault.”
Darlin seized the distraction, grabbing Asher’s sleeve and yanking him off balance. He stumbled forward with a startled laugh, and suddenly Milo was getting dragged into it too, caught mid-step as Darlin collided into him. “Yo! Watch it!”
David tried to step back, but Asher reached out and caught him around the waist in a last-ditch effort to stay upright. “Don’t you dare!” David started.
They all went down anyway.
A chaotic tangle of limbs and playful protests spilled onto the floor in a jumbled heap.“Careful now!” Sam’s voice cut through the noise, warm and firm with a southern lilt. “Before you break somethin’ or yourselves.” He emerged from the kitchen, a dish towel slung casually over his shoulder, accompanied by Babe, who watched the scene unfold with a spark of amusement dancing in their eyes. Both Sweetheart and Angel had turned away from the flickering glow of the television, their expressions mirroring Babe’s with twin looks of bemusement as they leaned over the back of the couch. The four on the floor, arms and legs intertwined, laughter bubbling up around them, were caught in a joyful tussle, their faces lit with delight as they rolled and wrestled, a vibrant snapshot of carefree happiness amidst the cozy chaos.
Eventually, the energy burned itself out.
They collapsed where they were, a tangled mess of limbs and overlapping breaths, laughter fading into softer chuckles. For a moment, no one moved.
“…I really do love you guys,” Asher said, voice quieter now, but no less certain.
“God, he’s worse now,” Darlin muttered. “Unbelievable,” Milo added. “Man hits thirty, and suddenly he’s a poet. I always thought it would be David to be the first to be hit with sentimental age.”
“I’m going to pretend I didn’t hear you,” David deadpanned. “I—” Milo huffed, shifting slightly before immediately stopping as he winced. “Alright, serious question, anyone else stuck, or is it just me?”
“Someone’s foot is jabbed right into my ribs,” David said with a measured calmness, though his voice hinted at the discomfort he was enduring. Asher, feeling the urgent need to adjust, shifted in response only to let out an involuntary gasp when Milo gave him a playful smack on the arm. “Quit moving! Just stay still; it really hurts when you wriggle around like that,” he retorted, his annoyance starting to bubble over as he glanced in Milo’s direction.
Beside them, Darlin sighed, a wry smile creeping across their lips as they tried to peer at Sam from their weird headlock, who was crouched nearby, observing their chaotic entanglement. “I fear we’re stuck in a wretched game of Twister and can’t seem to find a way to untwist ourselves,” they mused, casting an exaggeratedly dramatic glance at the mismatched limbs and flailing bodies around them. Sam let out a hearty chuckle, shaking his head in amused disbelief at the comical scene before him.
“Lord, you four have gotten yourselves into a real pickle,” he said, his eyes twinkling with mischief as he took in the sight of their jumbled positions, legs intertwined and arms awkwardly piled on top of one another. Carefully, he positioned himself closer, ready to tackle the formidable task of disentangling the group. With a mix of gentle pokes and strategic movements, he began to work through the mess, patiently freeing each person one by one from their uncomfortable predicament with a light-hearted touch.
