thinking about how recently I went to King’s Cross with my family, and saw graffiti of ‘viva Hamas’, and like whatever that’s really common, but I told my mum because it is still kind of freaky. And she didn’t have any other response except ‘ugh don’t pay attention to the idiots’ (Hebrew edition so a little ruder obviously lol). And in the moment I was just kind of mad at her for brushing it off so much, but now I’m just…
It’s so normal. It is so so normal to go outside and see stickers or graffiti or posters explicitly calling for me and people like me to be slaughtered. I see it all the time. And it’s become normal. It used to be scary, it used to be overwhelming and completely drowning me. But now it just feels like, idk— I guess just a part of daily life. It has the same effect of someone behind you brushing against your shoe or something. A little annoying in the moment, it might hurt for a split second, but you get over it as soon as you take another step.
this specific graffiti only really affected me as much as it did because we were supposed to be having a nice day, and it had been before that, and I had been nervous about King’s Cross beforehand but hadn’t seen anything weird. It hit me the way it did because before then there wasn’t anything and I was pleasantly surprised, so almost a new normal had been set for the day. Even in this post my first instinct after writing what I saw was to add on a ‘but it’s whatever lol’. Huh?????? Explicit celebration of Hamas is just ‘whatever’ to me at this point???? Seriously????
When I go outside I see that people want me dead. And it’s nothing more than a slight annoyance, ‘just don’t pay attention to them’. It really is such a mindfuck
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