Not all who wander are lost but I sure am

She/her, this used to be my classic lit blog but now it's mostly Tolkien; Talk to me about Kinslaying Elves/Demeter and Persephone/Victor Frankenstein My main is @runboybeneaththemoon

[thetiredprometheus]

BTW if anyone wants to use my art for edits or amvs or as a profile picture or something, you very much can!

[moirankebut]

zemheri

goldmund from "narcissus and goldmund", hermann hesse

a digital sketch or something similar to that. I don't really like it, yet it yearned to be expressed so here it is.

bir müddet önce yazarken bu ilahiyi dinlemekteydim. bir anda bana o kadar yoğun bir şekilde goldmund'u çağrıştırmaya başladı ki kendimi zihnimde olagelen bu imgelerden alıkoyamaz oldum. goldmund'un hayatta kaldığı o karlı geceyi düşünüp duruyorum. hepimizin ömründe atlatmayı başardığımız o zor gündüzler ve geceler olmuştur. ben kimini çok berrak hatırlıyorum. bazen de sadece ağladığımı hatırlayabiliyorum. uzun boylu saatlerde benden çok büyük şeylerle baş başa kaldığımı ve onların dizlerinde ağladığımı...

bir zamanlar ölümü çok sık düşünüyordum. gerçi hala düşünmekteyim fakat o zamanlar biraz farklıydı. bir canlının bu planda yerinin belli olması beni mesut ediyordu. toprağa karışıp bedenimi başka sindirimlere teslim etme ve beslediğim şeylerde sürüp gitme düşüncesi, yeryüzünü tanrının ya da insanın mutlak oyun alanı olarak deneyimlemekten daha cazip geliyordu. yaşamı çok yüceltiyoruz fakat modern insan bir yaşamın ne kadar çok ölüme mal olduğunu idrak edemiyor gibi. geçmişte unuttuğumuz kabullenişler bu steril hayatta bize yabancı geliyor. oysa ölüm ve yaşam tek bir bedenin süreçleri ve bedenlerimiz olarak sahiplendiğimiz şeyler bunu bizden çok daha iyi biliyor. dillerimizin kaşımaya yetişmediği o yutakta bilmeye, anlamaya kadir olmadığımız ne çok şey vardır kim bilir...

farkında olduğumuzu zannettiğimiz şeylerin sahiden farkında mıyız ki? ancak parçalanmış ve lime lime edilmiş şeyleri anlayabilirken gerçek denen şeyin ne kadarını bilebiliriz?

belki bütün bu düşüncelere hayret ederken goldmund'a benzediğimi hissediyorum, belki biraz da narziss'in gizemci tanımında yerimi buluyorum her geçen gün. narziss ve goldmund vesilesiyle aslında kendim için bile ne denli büyük bir bilinmez olduğumu anladığımdandır belki, bu kitap söz konusu olduğunda gözyaşlarımı tutamıyorum. bildiğim tek bir şey varsa bu yeryüzünün kök salınacak bir yer olmadığıdır, bu yüzden thomas'ın inciline bir atıfta bulunup "geçip gidenlerden olmak lazım" diyerek sözlerimi noktalayacağım. [logion 42]

buraya kadar okuduğun için teşekkürler. 🖤

içlerinde dil bilmeyen bir yerin bir gün seni çağırırsa ona kulak ver...

[arytang]

1 or 2？

[thetiredprometheus]

Some wet maglor for mermay 2026

[thetiredprometheus]

so many gothic romance books, so few gothic found family books

[thetiredprometheus]

committing a kinslaying but shaking my head the whole time so they know I don't agree with it morally

[eleneressea]

the Valar seem pretty content to primarily punish the ringleaders and let their followers go, so the Fëanorian followers probably get re-embodied well before their lords do

thus when Elrond shows up Formenos is not so much a lone fortress of exile as a bustling city where all the Fëanorians live, as most of them don't really want to swear loyalty to Finarfin and also don't tend to get along with the various other factions in Tirion

[shrikeseams]

#finarfin is frankly just glad he can make them someone else's problem#namely elrond and celebrimbor#namo would LIKE to make them someone else's problem they keep petitioning him for feanor and his sons#and say what you will about the feanorians they're certainly persistent#any feanorion getting re-embodied would be met with an entire parade because the feanorians know how to put on a show#celebrimbor returning to life: i will quietly re-integrate into society#an army of feanorians: hi :)#here is your parade we have been waiting for thousands of years and got very bored#would you like to hear the song about your bravery and heroism#or the song about what we'll do to sauron for hurting you if we ever get our hands on him#celebrimbor: please no why -@eleneressea

[disorganisedautodidact]

thankfully, Celebrimbor can throw them at Elrond when be shows up. Eventually.

i could also see Celebrían feeling out of place in Tirion and being taken in by an army of kindlayers who are scarier than her nightmares and loyal to her husband

[eleneressea]

Maedhros and Maglor's last order to their host was to look after the boys, and this extends to the boys' wives and descendants. probably. they're pretty sure, anyway, and in lieu of anyone who can supersede the order they're going to follow it as best they can.

they do let Finrod know (as Celebrían is staying with him) that they're here to protect Celebrían and don't mean any harm, and so Celebrían has some red-cloaked bodyguards who call her 'Princess Celebrían' and a standing invitation to come to Formenos any time she wants to

[disorganisedautodidact]

#feanor is their king so his sons are their princes and they've decided that elrond is maglor's heir probably#so that makes him a prince and his wife a princess. their logic is flawless#also they're maybe a little desperate for anyone even vaguely feanorian-adjacent to lead them#(vaire gets regular packages addressed to 'queen miriel')#(nerdanel threw a chisel at the last feanorian she saw but they just put their sneakiest on guarding her)#(and she doesn't throw out their care packages either! progress!) -@eleneressea

absolutely flawless logic, clearly celebrían is a princess of the house of Feanor and needs to be served and protected and gifted all sorts of jewelry that is totally not enchanted! (you can't tell me the house of Feanor doesn't have gifted jewelsmiths among their followers who can put in a protective charm or a healing spell or something) Finrod is a bit wary about the Feanorians, especially the ones that used to follow Celegorm or Curufin, but they do seem to cheer his niece up, so.

[eleneressea]

Celebrían's bodyguards: oh, we didn't follow Celegorm or Curufin

Finrod, much relieved: oh!

Celebrían's bodyguards: we followed Maedhros!

Finrod, significantly less relieved: oh.

[shrikeseams]

#celebrian likes them so he can't complain too much (they remind her of her sons)#but actually i figure her guard were angband escapees who went to himring and died pre-doriath#so they did no kinslayings and can also understand her fears the best -@eleneressea

[eleneressea]

#I suspect on the whole maedhros followers are less prone to spontaneous violence#But also much harder to dissuade from a chosen course of action (no matter how ill-conceived)#A slow and steady kind of danger like their former leader

Maedhros's followers are just as capable of violence as any of the other Fëanorians. They just don't do it spontaneously. They think it over and debate and plan and do their violence deliberately. This is not, of course, better, except that they do a lot less collateral damage in the process.

[rain-sleet-snow]

... Celebrían who needs to take a roughly two-hundred-year-long restorative nap in the Gardens of Lórien after her near-death experience with the orcs, awaking to find herself in possession of an honour guard of Fëanorians and the subject of several ballads about the silver queen beneath the trees who sleeps until she heals.

FINROD: We haven’t really met before, but I'm your uncle, and these are... a lot of people who find you very culturally meaningful! (Unfortunately.) I have tried explaining that "silver queen" was almost certainly not a name of prophecy, but it doesn’t seem to take.

CELEBRÍAN: Mmrgh. Really?

FINROD: Yes. I am very sorry, but -

CELEBRÍAN (who actively collaborated with Elrond to build the Last Homely House, and has been failing to disclose the presence of assorted Fëanorians to her parents for millennia): Do they do coffee?

FINROD: They could probably do a hostile takeover of the local government if you asked them to!

CELEBRÍAN: I know that. But what I want is coffee.

I expect she got the coffee.

[marinasilvus]

Okay, but you can't tell me all those ballads about a sleeping silver queen, who will only awake once she has healed, ISNT giving every Noldor who hears it intense feelings about Míriel Þerindë. Like I'm seeing all sorts of lovely parallels the bards might focus on. History echoing itself.

And so not only are the faenorians a little bit fixated on Celebrían because she's their new princess... but the also because of how they can intertwine her story Míriel.

Like the same thing happened with Arwen and Luthien. Elves love that shit.

[rain-sleet-snow]

oh absolutely.

Galadriel’s going to have forty fits.

[overflow8]

“To the king!”  /  “For Frodo.”

[that-angry-noldo]

how silm characters react to being faced with a horror beyond comprehension:

- fëanor: comprehends it out of spite. goes mad. possibly becomes an incomprehensible horror himself

- fingolfin: comprehends the horror. walks with the knowledge of horror for a century or so, quietly going mad. the day he snaps the land is aflame and he's riding to challenge the devil to duel

- finarfin: refuses to comprehend the horror out of spite. walks away from the horror. returns a century later to give the horror a beating, still refusing to comprehend it

- finrod: is so interested in the cultural background of the horror he forgets to comprehend it. possibly spends a year just chatting it up

- beren: comprehends the horror, walks away forever changed by the knowledge which he can't quite remember but which will forever haunt him, never speaks of it.

- luthien: uno reverse. the horror comprehends her

- eönwë: outhorrors the horror like some sort of an eldritch creature show off. comprehends it and is not impressed.

[belforte]

- celebrimbor: tries to comprehend the horror. finds the horror hot and fucks it.

[ihateornithologists]

i must admit..this is my favorite ship dynamic probably

[revee-nyardil]

Not saying "Feanor did nothing wrong". I am saying, however, "Feanor didn't do nearly enough wrong to get locked in the Halls of Mandos until the end of the world" and "the sons of Feanor did a lot wrong actually but Morgoth did worse and the Valar didn't condemn him to the void forever until he did it again"

[many-larp-characters-in-a-body]

I would like to add 'Feanor did all this having spent a while in the company of the most skilled manipulator in all of history, and frankly it's amazing he wasn't any worse by that point'

[jrrt-native-languages-fest]

2026 Tolkien Native Language Appreciation Fest - Almost there!

Hi everyone,

I hope you are doing well!

The 2026 edition of this fest will be up in a month from here! I am happy to present to you this event, and I hope you all are as excited as I am for this too!

I have posted the 2026 prompts, and do make sure you check how you can participate to the event!

The AO3 collection has been created, but it will be revealed starting June 16th!

The event will start on June 16th and finish on June 22nd, please make sure you sign down the dates!

I shall see you all on the 16th June! I hope you will have fun!

Yours Truly

[thetiredprometheus]

in the first age there weren't any hobbits, and that's why fëanor is the way he is

[thetiredprometheus]

The boys <3

[ithilbore]

this seems to be a fandom trend right now? had to do em

[dusk8]

No clue who Maedhros from the silmarillion is but that redheaded elf guy looks the elf version of my beautiful husband Elliott from stardew valley

[thetiredprometheus]

No clue who Elliott from star dew valley is, but that dude looks like a happy non-traumatised version of my beloved Maedhros

[currentlycryingaboutlancelot]

they don’t tell you this but crime and punishment is a comedy

[currentlycryingaboutlancelot]

raskolnikov shaking his sister’s shoulders like “dunya you can do better!!!! dunya what are you doing with your life!!! you’re making a bad decision marrying him dunya you know it!!! why are you making such bad decisions!!!” after murdering two people simply because he thinks he should be allowed to do that

[currentlycryingaboutlancelot]

“you are going to irrevocably destroy your life forever marrying that guy. unlike me, raskolnikov, who just murdered two women with an axe”