Random Ramblings
@thexanesystem
A shared blog for a DID system, we are four in all, fairly random boys who post whatever we like. Live in the US but would love to travel so a bit about who we are. theres me, Nicholas or Nick for short, Nicki to Alex. i live for anime and video games. im usually very chill, if not a bit anxious, but ive lately developed a temper to rival Alex's, though mine is less trigger happy. 24, as of April 2014, Alex is my twin and main cofronter. Then there's my twin, Alexander, or Alex for short, but aka Xaney, due to his hyperness when he was younger. Alex, who is almost everything i wanted to be; minus his short temper and extremley foul mouth. hes a badass, says what he feels wether its right or wrong, and never apologizes (unless he really messed up) loves drinking, smoking, is bisexual and very vain/picky about his partners. currently has a male partner inner world, wants a female to complete the dynamic (possible polyamorous tendencies?) aggressive and very opinionated, the one time he instinctivly defends another is when that other is a system. the most comfortable about sharing a body. Our youngest brother, Eric, turns 21 this Halloween ('14) and is very flamboyant, sunny, cheerful and very smart. always thinks before speaking, he has a slight British accent that he recently learned how to mask when fronting for me. Homosexual, like myself, and suffered absolutely no traumas, the "innocence" of our system. loves all things proper, dude practically came from the Victorian era xD complete sweety, hes a full on pacifist and vegetarian. Games like Pokemon, Spyro, Kingdom Hearts, ones with little to no violence or that of the cartoonish sort are his speed. he chooses not to aknowledge our body sharing situation and when he does, takes an analytical approach, possibly to keep his emotions seperate? finally theres Andrew, aka Drew, the oldest of us (27 as of November 2014) he is also the first alter made, and was made when i was very little (between 2-5) has selective mutism which he masks through his vow of silence to God (very religious, hes the only one of us with an unwavering faith) heterosexual but also asexual due to personal traumas not inflicted on the body (so he says) he struggles worse than i do about that sort of thing. (he wants children but has no interest in intimacy, i have interest in the latter but really want neither). Very much the big brother type, hes almost always around when alex isnt. Maintains the function of the inner world after Alex stabilized it. Struggles the most about sharing a body, as well as having to hold all the memories of trauama so im not as badly affected by it. Though this is only the tip of the iceberg, hopefully itll provide a glimpse as to who we are and how we manage. There are rough patches occasionally but at the end of it all, Eric is always quick to remind that we're stuck together, so we may as well make the best of it 💫
