🥀perspectives🥀

I'm not brave enough to say what I feel so I made a blog about it so ppl could see how fucked up I am.

[things-i-wish-i-saidd]

For one time i loved with my heart not with my mind. And I got utterly hurt. But loving with your mind is never this fullfilling. And loving with your heart is never ending as you imagined.

So tell me, which one is telling the lies?

[things-i-wish-i-saidd]

Unrequited love.

A love that I am dammed to feel for the both of us. A love that keeps flowing from a dry spring. Loving you is mischievous. Like a mouse being lured by the cheese, only to get trapped after. Loving you made me forget I exist.

-you brought me into your dreamworld, then you woke up.

[things-i-wish-i-saidd]

What do you do when your love did not cosume? When it is still flourishing over a reminiscence. I still water your dead flowers. Where does all of this love go?

Tell me, as I have always been the Monster, never the wounded warrior.

-leftover love

[things-i-wish-i-saidd]

Nobody gets out of love alive .

[things-i-wish-i-saidd]

[things-i-wish-i-saidd]

Sometimes I have so many mixed feelings

It doesn't feel like reality anymore.

It's like I'm stuck in my own imagination ,

Replaying the future I wish I was in all over again.

It feels like waking up in the moment you wished to live the most ;

I am trapped in my own heart

Blinded by nostalgia

I will never fully move on .

Get me out of my mind

[things-i-wish-i-saidd]

[things-i-wish-i-saidd]

To still keep your softness after you’ve been broken , it’s brave , not naive.

To still see beauty in an ugly soul , is not love anymore , is despair .

To stay with a person who doesn’t love you anymore , to fight for them , is not toughness, is fear. Fear of change . Please let go.

To get rid of pictures , gifts , but think about me every night, is not falling out of love , is denial .

To make up reasons to hate me is not going to heal you faster , is going to break you harder.

please choose between your mind and your heart.

[things-i-wish-i-saidd]

I want to scream into the chaos that I loved you more than anything in hopes that the sound will echo forever in your head and that with every heartbeat you will feel the pain I felt when you said you didn't loved me anymore and i want to look into your eyes and tell you that you are the most beautiful soul i have ever seen in hopes that you will search for my voice long after I disappear and i want to kiss you with every nerve of my body in hopes that my lips will forever be impregnated in your skin and i want to rip out my heart and bury it into the ground in hopes that you will finally see that you are the only one who truly touched my heart.

i had never tasted a masterpiece before i met you. you are unfinished art.

[things-i-wish-i-saidd]

I hope one day you’ll get over your fear . Fear of getting hurt. You will never taste happiness without pain . You will miss so many parts of your life if you don’t take risks. You will be hurt all your life , and there’s nothing you can do about it . You can’t avoid it , it’s a part of existence.

I was once afraid too. Until I met you . I promised myself I would give you all of me , even though I knew the end. So I did it . And fuck yes I’m broken now , but it was worth it . I would give years of pain for seconds of happiness. And I’m not left with nothing . I got memories, experiences , lessons , and a part of your soul . You will always be in my heart.

I would do it all again

[things-i-wish-i-saidd]

for the boy who broke my heart 1000 times :

I wanted to thank you from the bottom of my heart , for every moment full of you.

I forgive you , and most importantly, I forgive myself.

I remember how painful it was for me to walk past you and never say hi. But it's not completely true , because our souls would always greet each other.

We were connected in such a way , I could almost feel your eyes drowning in memories of me. Searching for a piece of my love in everything you have ever met.

Still to this very day , I hear your heart beating tenderly in the back of my mind.

It feels atrocious , thinking that two souls who were madly in love with each other never got the chance to cross paths again.

So darling , I wish I could look in your eyes and see that you are truly happy, like I have grown to be now, without you. I want to see your soul radiate ,like it once did , when it was dancing with mine. I wish you all the love this world has to offer, and I sincerely say that.

I know you won't see this , but just know that , I will never , never forget you.

two years have passed , many other to go , străine.

[obliviousxc]

Who are you?

fuck man i’m still trying to figure it out

[things-i-wish-i-saidd]

I think it’s absolutely beautiful how two people who have been apart for a while can fall back in love.

How two people can look at each other with the same softness like it was yesterday.

How time is so meaningless compared to feelings.

in love with a stranger

[things-i-wish-i-saidd]

I would give everything to go back to the day we fell in love.

Not to change something, just to relive it.

I miss you way more than I ever thought I could miss somebody.

My mind is so full of you , I’m trying to find myself in it.

a cold february night

[things-i-wish-i-saidd]

I hope you relive the moment you left me all over again at night and that it fucking rips your heart out knowing what you did to me.

[things-i-wish-i-saidd]

A part of you knows that it wasn’t love , without hesitation .

But a part of you knows that I was the closest you will ever be to love.

And I think it’s sort of beautiful, not knowing your own mind. That gives you room to discover.

you have an eternity left to reminisce on my memory.

[things-i-wish-i-saidd]

One of the most heartbreaking feelings is when you realize that you are living in a moment you can never rewind.

That fully consciously, you are looking in someone’s eyes knowing that you may never see them again.

That you are looking in someone’s soul , knowing that tomorrow is gonna be a stranger’s.

You are breaking yourself at the thought that tomorrow you won’t be that lucky.

Aware this very moment will be a memory that you’ll die to relive , and it’s already gone before you know it.

i felt the goodbye before you actually said it.