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[flower-of-the-desert]

Love thinking about an AU where the relationship reveal with Yuna and David happens because something overwhelms Shane into a panic attack/breakdown, maybe they're at some NHL show or event, maybe it's just been a really long fucking day, maybe suddenly Shane feels just completely overwhelmed by the lights and the noise and all the fucking people wanting to shake his hand or slap his back or tell him how much they like his fucking play.

Yuna notices something is wrong because of course she does and together with David they herd Shane into some private empty side room hoping it will help him calm down. But it doesn't. He wont stop shaking and his breathing is too fast and he flinches at their voices even tho nobody is speaking loudly. Won't let Yuna come close to hug him or rub his arm.

Maybe Yuna is starting to panic a little herself, her heart aching as she watches Shane wrap his own arms around himself, hates that she cant do anything when her son is so clearly in distress, hates that she can't seem to think of anything that will work-

When suddenly the door bangs open and Ilya Fucking Rozanov??? strides into the room with quick steps, makes a beeline directly for her son, eyes locked on him like he doesnt even register her and David in the room as well and Yuna opens her mouth to cuss him out, tell him to fuck off and not bother Shane right now, she can feel her body moving already to stand in front of Shane protectively when David grabs her arm because-

Because Rozanov is pulling Shane into his arms, one hand on the back of Shane's neck, guiding his head to press into the crook of Rozanov's neck and Shane isn't fighting it, doesn't flinch from his touch. He goes where Rozanov arranges him and let's himself be held and rocked back and forth gently as Rozanov presses his mouth to Shane's ear and starts whispering something so quietly that Yuna can't really make out the words but what she can see is Shane's shaking subsiding, hands fisting tightly into Rozanov's shirt, his breathing going slowly back to normal because - oh. oh - her son is syncing his breaths with Rozanov who, Yuna realises, is taking very exaggerated deep slow breaths of his own so Shane can match them. And then Rozanov turns slightly while still rocking them both back and forth and Yuna sees Shane's face where it's smushed into Rozanov's neck. Sees the look there.

And that's how Yuna realises her son is in love and the man - his years-long rival - he loves must have left in the middle of his award-winning show to come here and pull her son out of a panic attack like there was no place he'd rather be than right here with Yuna's overwhelmed panicked boy in his arms, soothing him until Shane's body relaxes completely into that hold, mumbling that he's fine yet not pulling away and Rozanov makes no move to let go either.

Oh, Yuna thinks again, gripping David's hand tightly. It's not just Shane. My baby is in love. And he's loved back.

[drawballa]

Sleepy boys 💤

[grootficguy]

i tried explaining to this girl at a party once how i could be gay and asexual at the same time and it basically boils down to never being into anyone but like once a year i’ll find a man attractive. and she was like “so what am i if i only like girls, and i’ve never found any of my boyfriends attractive and and i just wanna do cocaine all the time?” i was like “you’re a lesbian with a coke addiction?” and she was like “woooooah”. she broke up with her boyfriend that night and had a threesome with two girls in the bathtub. rebecca if you’re out there, i hope you’re going places. well, not far, since you’re electronically tagged. but spiritually.

[deja-b00]

somehow it comes up that troy had a crush on shane and was going to ask for his number. and after troy gets ribbed by his teammates and ilya makes a big scene, shane is like, “well i never would’ve gone out with you lol.”

and troy smiles, “right, because you were with roz the whole time.”

“i mean, yes, but also because you and dallas kent spent years calling me and jj ‘rush hour’ and asking hayden if his wife was his beard to cover up his big gay relationship with me.”

the rest of the centaurs blink. harris puts his head in his hands and groans.

and troy’s like, “oh. right. sorry about that :/“

[mayjuvac]

some amazing additions from the tags

[pastainhismouth]

it's so important to me that troy and Harris have chill vanilla sex, like I just don't think they're kinky like hollanov. in the books it's all about them having fun, about troy getting to relax and Harris getting to adore him, I want that sweetness for them these apple-and-dog boys are sweetie4sweetie so romantic it's infuriating literally disgustingly sweet. no-one here is worldly like kip or angsty like hollanov they have NO idea what's going on with cap and his husband they're having cute loving sex with a giraffe plushie underneath them

[tothecottage]

my cutiepie awwtastic troyharris headcanon: the first time harris gets a cold, troy goes all out with harris' sick station all set up in their living room-- five boxes of tissues, freshly disinfected tv remote, piles of blankets and pillows and a pot of tea (not apple cider, he needed to diversify!). everything was perfect. however, just as troy was about to leave for practice, he heard harris make a loud ACK! sound and he rushed to see if he was okay, only for harris to be, like, fine but his face was twisted in a judgemental scowl, looking at the tv. troy asked if he was okay, and harris was like "i love you babe, but really? lifetime?" he pointed the remote at the tv, the scene being really melodramatic, some real stay at mom suburban mom fodder. "i have some standards, troy." a loud sneeze, then troy gave him a tissue. "this is a hallmark-only household." though, with all that complaining, harris never managed to change the channel, endeared with troy's first-time-with-sick-boyfriend protocol. the lifetime movie was horrible, and he knew there was a matlock marathon on the hallmark mystery channel, but he couldn't bring himself to change it.

[melobluelights]

Troy: Hey Harris, I know I’ve been spending a lot of time with you recently and I get you a latte that you like and we laugh a lot together and i feel better when I’m around you, I was just casually wondering what it’s like for you to be openly gay around the Centars? Hypothetically, if someone were to come out to the team, would they be accepted? And totally unrelated but do you have a boyfriend? Oh you don’t? Well you should have a boyfriend because you’re so sweet and cute. Are you dating right now and open to finding someone? Okay you are, great to know.

Harris: I’m not sure why you’re asking me all this but I’ll answer because I love to yap and you’re cute :)

Harris: Now that you asked me about my dating life, tell me a bit about yours?

Troy: I need to leave before I vomit🧍‍♂️

[papysanzonew]

If you know what Troy is telling Mr Neck-Neck, you know!

[papysanzonew]

Harris and Troy from "Role Model", they'are my second fav couple inthe whole saga ❤️

Troy doesn't wear pins in the book (as far as I know, I still have to read TLG) but I think he would for Harris ❤️

[melobluelights]

Reading Troy’s inner monologue in Role Model feels like reading the inner thoughts of a feral cat who is trying to be domesticated. He doesn’t know how to socialize, he has to remind himself not to be an asshole, he prefers to be on his own, and he fucking loves salmon.

[barbie-verse]

heated rivalry twitter (42/?) ilya being the reason why harris has job security (and more grey hairs than he should)

[marmelade-sky]

Happy Valentine’s Day! Would it be okay to request some Harris/Troy cuteness? Maybe with 💝? Thank you!!

nonnie, if you ask this politely you can have anything from me <3 happy valentine's day! one troy/harris + promises coming right up.

valentine's day prompts are still open!💌 spicy version 🌶️ & sweet version 🧁

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Troy thinks Harris should be allowed to come to every single away game. The fact that his boyfriend has to stay in Ottawa and work while Troy has to fly around the country is rude and homophobic, as far as he’s concerned. 

He knows they see each other way more than most other MLH couples (safe for Shane and Ilya, but that barely counts), and he’s grateful for it. And yes, sometimes some distance is good for a relationship. 

Still. 

In the morning before Troy has to leave for LA, Harris hugs him by the door, holding on to him tightly. He’s still in his pajamas, which have bunnies on the bottoms, and he still smells like bed and sleep and cuddling. Troy’s heart aches with the thought of having to let go in a minute. He holds Harris tightly against himself, face pressed into the crook of his shoulder. 

“You’re going to win, yeah?” Harris kisses his temple. 

Troy groans an affirmative into his shoulder. 

“And you’re going to travel safely, and come back home in one piece.” After their shared horrible plane experience, flying will probably never feel the same again. 

Troy gives another hum and nods. 

“Promise me?”

Troy pulls back, and Harris cups his cheeks. “I promise,” Troy tells him, then kisses his forehead, the tip of his nose, and then his lips. 

“We will miss you.” With a woeful little smile, Harris nods towards the living room door, where Chiron sits, looking miserable and giving Troy the biggest puppy dog eyes. He’s learned by now that Dad packing his bags means he’s leaving for a few days. 

“Ugh, I can’t look at him.” Troy covers his face with his hands, laughing. “You two are breaking my heart.” Because he’s apparently become a big softie, though, he immediately uncovers his face again, beckoning Chiron over to him. “Come here big guy.” Chiron comes, tail wagging low, head ducked, his whole enormous body saying please don’t go, I’m too cute to leave. 

Harris and Chiron have that in common. 

“I love you, be good.” Troy grabs his huge head, scratching his ears and pressing a kiss between them. 

“We love you.” Harris leans down to hold Chiron’s collar so he won’t try to run after Troy when he leaves. 

Troy just stands there for another few seconds, staring at them. How fucking lucky he is to have this little family which makes saying good-bye so hard. 

“Go, you’ll miss your flight!” Harris laughs, but lets Troy kiss him again before he ushers him out of the door, calling “I love you!” after him once more.

[perlukafarinn]

Svetlana visits Shane and Ilya and stays with them for a few days and one night, when they've been sitting on the sofa and talking for hours, she starts reminiscing about childhood memories.

Shane is delighted and Ilya is embarrassed, especially when Svetlana starts talking about when they first met at age eight and how sweet and sensitive Ilya was.

"He was a little bit of a crybaby," she says with a teasing grin.

Ilya pouts, which does nothing to dispel the crybaby allegations.

"He brought an injured bird home once," Svetlana continues fondly. "When it died, he was inconsolable for days."

"What child wouldn't cry over a dead bird?" Ilya mutters, leaning in when Shane strokes his hair comfortingly.

"We gave it a funeral. Ilyushka carved it a tiny little cross."

Ilya huffs. "Jesus, why are we talking about funerals now? How depressing. Didn't you used to be fun, Sveta?"

Svetlana throws a pillow at him.

Later, once Shane and Ilya are alone in bed, Shane leans his head on Ilya's shoulder and tells him, "I wish I'd known you back then."

"Little crybaby Ilyushka?"

Shane pinches his chest. "Yes, little crybaby Ilyushka, you asshole. Sveta said you were sweet. You probably would've been nice to me."

"Am I not nice to you now?" Ilya wonders. "I always fuck you so good."

"That's not even remotely what I'm talking about. I just mean, maybe we would've been friends." Shane swallows. "I didn't really have any friends back then."

He'd been too weird. Too quiet most of the time, and too loud when he wasn't. He likes the thought that maybe sweet and sensitive Ilya, who cried for days over a dead bird he couldn't save, would have been kinder to him than the other kids were.

Ilya exhales shakily, breath tickling the top of Shane's head. "Yes, of course I would've been your friend. We would be, ah, childhood sweethearts?"

Shane's heart jumps at the idea. "Childhood sweethearts," he echoes happily.

Ilya hums. "Yes, I think so. Poor little Ilyushka would be defenseless against your boring Canadian charm."

"Poor big Ilyushka didn't do such a great job of resisting me, either."

"That is true," Ilya agrees.

He gently grasps Shane's chin, tilting his face up to meet him for a kiss.

[heymacy]

This is Ilya Rozanov. But you already know that.

[hollandershane]

Hollanov + peppered kisses

[bug-mp3]

I love those posts that are like „Ilya is the only one who could ever be it for Shane“ so much cause they’re SO true. Someone would ask what his type is and he‘d just be like. Ilya. And they’re like no I get that but just apart from Ilya. And Shane doesn’t get it. Ilya is literally my perfect type, hes the only man I could ever have loved this intensely. You couldn’t come up with anyone more perfect ever. Ilya hears this and bursts into tears as if Shane doesn’t tell him at every opportunity. And he‘ll still think Shane will leave him for his flirty yoga instructor and try to kill him with his mind. And Shane meanwhile wouldn’t be able to pick that guy out of a line up because he’s only staring at Ilya’s ass the whole time (they go to couples yoga together)

[penandinkprincess]

extremely attached to "gimme kiss" staying a regular thing between ilya and shane and also expanding to "gimme hand" after they're in the open and allowed to hold hands in public